Have You Even Noticed?

Mikeys pov
two weeks have past shes still not awake. I hope she wakes soon. I dont think id be able to go on with out my best friend. I should have never neglected her. In a way this is all my fault. If I had just been there for her. Ive visited everyday after school and weekends incase she were to wake. She hasnt. I need something tk pass the time. Nic has been staying at my house. He hasnt visited as much. Hes not here right now he just left. The room is silent so I drcide to talk.
"Hey, alex, I dont know why im even talking. I dont think you can hear me. I need you to wake up." I grab her hand and rub her knuckles. "I cant live without you. This is all my fault. I should have never left you leave. I should have realized sooner. Im so sorry alex." By this time im crying "maybe I should sing or something. Maybe you'll wake uo st that. You have akways loved when I sing to you. Well here goes nothing. To be honest ill try anything. I love you so much I just want you to wake up.
I breathe you in with smoke under the backporch light used to laugh until we choked into the wasted night it was the best time life but now sleep alone so dont sont sont wake me uo cause my thrill is gone the sunset burning red behind the smoke forever and alone yeah. Youve gone and sewn me to this bed again the taste ofnyou and me will never leave lips again under the blinding rain I wanna hold your hand so tight im gonna brake my wrist and when the vultures sing to night im gonna join right in ill sing a long because I dont know any other song ill sing along butt im barely hanging on no im barely hanging on by the time your hearing this ill already be gone now theres nothing to do but sing at the drunken moon this isnt fair dont you try to blame this on me my love for you was bullet proof but your the one who shot me and god damn it I can barelt say your name so ill try to right it and fill the pen with blood from the sink woah oh dont just say it you should sing my name pretend its a song because forever its yours and we can sing this on the way home ill sing along oh cause I dont know any other song ill sing along but jm barely hanging on no im barely hanging on by the time your hearing this ill alrwady be gone and now theres nothing to do but tear my voice apart nothing to do but scream at the drunken moon.

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