Have You Even Noticed?

"Wake up little freak" is what I hear before ice cold water was poored onto me. Ugh.
"Really grace? Stoo being such a bitch. I dont want to live with you just as much as you dont want to live with me. "
"I dont fucking care my mom told me I needed to wake you up so I did. " she is such a fucking snob. So you should probably know grace is my cousin. My mom a ago andweeksand sisters died in a car wreck four months ago and my dad when I was five so im living with my aunt sonya my uncle scott and there youngest child Grace. They have two older kids but they both are moved out.
"Just get out so i can get ready for school." Its the first day back. I havent been to school since my family died. I take off my clothing revealing all the scares in my legs and thighs. Some from two weeks ago some from 8 hours ago. I decide it isnt a good idea to take a shower since I woke up late. I decide to wear my bring me the horizon iver a long sleeve shirt with a hood on it, black skinny jeans and my black converse with turquoise laces. I go to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I brush my hair so that part of my hairbis kn the side of my eye and thebother part covering the other eye. I apply my eyeliner all around my eye. I take a deeo breathe When I hear a knock on the door.
"sweetie you need to get out of the bathrrom the busbwill be here in five minutes" I walk to the door and open it wear I find my aunt standing infront if the door
"Olay I just finished anyways."
"Are you okay swweetie?"
"Yah im fine thanks." Thats lie I havent been fine for weeks. I cant stop thinking about my twin sister and my older sister. l. lila and bobby. Bobby was 21 was driving my mom and betsy to the hospital while I stayed home. If I had actually gine I would have been in that car to. I wish I was. Then I wouldnt be so alone. The only one who cares about me now is my aunt. Mikey used to care. Now he just ignores me. I have no friends anymore I have no one. My aunt doesnt actually like me shes jusy being nice. I over heard her and scott talking about it. I am completely alone in this world. No one would care if I died right now. Im snapped out of my thiught by the bus jonking its horn. I quickly grab my bag and run to the bus. Me and grace are one of the first stops. If I had my listens inwouldnt have to ride the bus anymore but noni cant even get a fucking job to pay for one.
"Good morning alex, how are you doing."
" im doing better" lies. I walk to my seat from last year. Mikey get kn before me and he has the same seat as I do. Maybe he will actually talk to me.
"Hey Mikey" I sit down next to him and all he doesnis wave and then go back to staring out the window. Is he mad at me or something. I cant stand the thought of him hating me. Ih god he does hate me doesnt he?
I didnt realize I was crying until grace opened up her big fucking mouth. "Aww look the emo freak is crying. Sjes probably thinking about she has no friends or family that gives a shit about her."
"What happened to you. You used to be so sweet. I guess that was just and act. you have always been a fake little hoe."
At that moment she slapped me. Fuck for a 14 year old she slaps fucking hard
"Grace back off of your cousin. If I ever see you slap her again i wont hesitate to beat your ass." Of course he will only speak to or about me if im being slapped by my cousin.

Notes

Omg so my sister is reading the chronicals of vladimir todd and the auther mentions mcr in the third. Im not kidding