With tears stinging in my eyes I look at my blood red arms as my mom broke down the door with my lamp. I had heard voices and told myself, they would never be on time. It’s finally going to be over.
No.
Life needs me to suffer just a little bit longer doesn’t it?
Ugh.
My dizziness took over. I had gotten dizzy a lot lately because of my lack of sleep, lack of food, and lots of blood loss. Sadly my body has gotten used to losing blood so somehow it heals faster or just doesn’t bleed out as much as before, or I just produce blood faster. I have no idea what it is but I usually end up just a bit dizzy and when I wake up in the hospital the doctor tells me if I was younger, or many other adults would have died of this amount of blood loss; why not me, URGHH.
Anyway, as I was sitting dizzily and my head tolling about to lose consciousness I hear my mom yell and then Mikey’s voice, and the door splintering. Honestly I used to be so happy to have people that care for me so much; now it’s just annoying and keeps me suffering longer. The last thing I remember is hearing a weak groan that I believe is my own voice and being dragged across the floor and feeling something damp on my arms and my mom sounding very worried, probably on her phone calling an ambulance with her trembling hands and trying to have a steady voice. That always happens. Mikey takes care of my body while my mom tries calling the ambulance as confidently as she can; though she usually fails and sounds desperate for help instead.
Sadly, that probably increases the rate the ambulance comes and takes care of me with more people.
*sigh*
Losing consciousness is probably the best part of the suicidal attempts. It gives me hope it’s actually over, and I go numb all over and don’t have to live for a few days since I’m usually out for 3-5 days.
That’s when black started creeping in by my eyes and my dizziness took over. The black kept coming and voices faded.

Notes

I’ve decided to write more to this story.
This chapter is kind of short, especially compared to my first chapter, I know,
But I don’t know what to write.
Well I do,
But I need to wait to do it a little later *evil smirk*
anyway, I'm feeling better; and I've decided to keep writing this story. hope you like this chapter (:

xx frerardthough