Can I love you?

I have a friend. His name is Matt pelissier. I've known him since I was four. He was my best friend. We were kinda on and off. We would get in fights and stop talking for a while, and then we'd forgive each other. One time we stopped talking for a whole summer. Were friends right now, and he's also friends with frank. He's like my brother.

about a month later

me and frank are good friends now, and he's super insecure. It's cute. We have sleepovers with each other, go to Hottopic with each other, etc. his dad is really mean. He yells at frank for stupid reasons. Like one time frank made breakfast for his brothers and sisters, and then his dad got mad at him for being too loud. What a jerk. And every time I see franks thighs, I get really sad. Because he practically rips them apart. I do too, but really. It hurts.

about 4 months later

So Matt, I mentioned him earlier, yeah. He is kinda stupid now. He's doing weed, alcohol, and he loves a girl and a boy at the same time. They both do weed, too. And he keeps trying to convince frank to do them, too. It makes me mad. This whole situation makes me mad. I've realized that I've fallen in love with frank, and I don't know what to do, because he is straight. He dating some girl over the internet, Some girl, Zarra, and in jealous of her. I want Frankie. Why didn't I make a move sooner? Cuz now I'm in the friendzone.

1 month later.

So now I'm positive that I love him. He's so cute. His jawline, his hair that he thinks doesn't look good, but it does. His entire face. He's so beautiful, and he keeps comparing himself to people on Instagram. He thinks he's so ugly. But I've never seen anything more beautiful in my life. Everyday I get the urge to yell at him and confess, but I still don't have the guts.

Last night we texted each other, and he was saying how he was upset. His dad was a jerk again, telling him how worthless he was and shit. I wanted to go over there so bad and just shoot him in the face. Then Matt texted me. He said he was going to sneak out and go to franks. Btw, Matt once had a crush on frank, why does everybody have to love the people I love? And so I asked him if he still had feelings for him... Matt knew how I feel about frank, and so does amy. Amy is such a good friend. She ships us and calls it frerard. So Matt said he didn't have feelings for frank, and I was relieved. Until later that night. I got a text from frank.

f: I'm freaking out right now
me: what? What happened?
f: Matt just kissed me
me: WHAT? Hell no!
F: why are you freaking out so much?
Me: nevermind

then I texted Matt, I was so pissed.

me: Did you really just do that or is this another one of your stupid fucking pranks?
m:......
m: idk what happened?
me: I don't care if it is this needs to stop because I seriously hate you right now even the thought of it hurts you don't understand you greedy fucking whore you have Hayley and max what more could you fucking ask for?
me: do you even know? Frank told me you kissed him
m: I DIDNT MEAN TO IT JUST KINDA HAPPENED
me: yeah sure
m: I'm sorry
me: you should be
m: well if you're going to be more mad at me then him that's not fair
me: I'm mad at both of younow he's questioning why I'm so mad
m: tell him
m:tell him how you feel
me: no I can't that might ruin the friendship

so now I'm ignoring Matt and it's kinda difficult because we share a locker at school.
I hate him.

Notes

Sorry it's confusing, I suck at fanfiction. Whatever. I almost cried because this is a true story and I love Adrianna (frank) so much but she hates is this way and it fucking hurts like hell. Btw sorry I suck at posting a lot, too I had writers block because I didn't really plan this out.