Cries Not Heard
I'm Not O-Fucking-Kay
Gerard’s POV
Gerard looked up at the disturbance and gasped in shock. Getting up quickly, he pushed Frank off him and to tried to explain to his brother.
“Mikey, please let me explain.” Gerard pleaded to his brother.
“How.” Mikey asked monotonously. “Why? I thought you loved me? What happened to always sticking with each other? Was everything you promised to me a lie? Why should I believe a single thing that you tell me at the moment?!” Mikey was nearly shouting at the end, breaking his composure that he took pride in. Tears were welling up in his eyes as he tried to blink them away.
Gerard looked hopeless as he tried to explain the whole scene that could have looked like something out of a story. “After the whole Mum and Dad incident, I ran to school and hid in the bathroom and Frank, he just came in and saw and tried to comfort me. I swear! I’m not cheating, this I promise with my life.” Gerard was near tears. He didn’t know what he would do if Mikey had left him.
Mikey watched as the whole scene unravelled itself. He could see Frank had moved to the corner of the bathroom and was watching everything with a sad look. He knew he was the cause of all this and he was guilty. Mikey let his expression soften as he walked over to his brother, who was now openly crying. He went through a lot today and Mikey had a feeling if he was in his shoes, he would cry too.
Gerard’s eyes widened as he felt his brother’s arms wrap around his shivering body. He looked up at his brother’s face and saw that Mikey was smiling down at him. Gerard returned the hug, never wanting to let go. If he was being honest, Mikey was probably the only reason he was still alive today.
Pulling Gerard closer to him, Mikey whispered in his ears, “It’s okay, I believe you.” Gerard smiled as he kissed Mikey on the lips, happy that his brother believed him. At least someone in his life had faith in him.
Frank’s POV
Frank watched on as the two brothers made up for the misunderstanding. A part of Frank felt jealous that he didn’t have what the other two had. He couldn’t deny that he held an undeniable attraction to Gerard and maybe even a slight crush on his brother. He wished that he could join in but he didn’t want to the reason that the two broke up and never spoke again, but that didn’t mean that they couldn’t remain friends for however long it may last.
Frank sighed and turned away from the brothers, giving them the privacy that they deserve. Mikey looked up from his brother and over to Frank. He looked so lonely and Mikey couldn’t help but link it to Gerard when he was at school with no one to talk to. It was rather heartbreaking. He walked over to Frank and pulled him into a tight embrace.
“Thank you for looking after my brother. I’m sorry for all the trouble I have put you through.” Frank looked up in shock.
“No problem, anytime. I just hope that we could possibly be friends?”
“Of course.” Mikey smiled slightly. “Why don’t we all go to first period. What’s your first period, Frank?”
“Art.”
“Oh, you’re in the same class as me.” Gerard piped up, grinning widely. “I won’t be the lover anymore.” He silently cheered. Frank smiled at the cute scene before him before berating himself. He couldn’t have the older brother, he couldn’t ruin a relationship like that.
Hoisting Gerard off the ground, they made their way to the art room. When they entered the room, Frank was surprised to say the least. The teacher he had barged in earlier to help Gerard was his teacher. they said goodbye to Mikey before Gerard grabbed his hand and dragged him to the back of the classroom. Sitting at a table with no one at it. Frank didn’t think that Gerard noticed that he could see everyone giving him dirty glares and throw insults at him under their breath. After they sat down, Frank moved to get Gerard’s attention.
“Gee?” Gerard turned to look at him, eyebrow raised.
“Gee?” He repeated in a questioning tone.
“D-do you n-not like it? It’s just a nickname. If you don’t like it, I won’t ever use it again.”
“No, no. I love it, it’s cute. It’s just… I never had a nickname and it was kind of a shock to hear me being called something other than... the usual.” Frank had a feeling he knew what Gerard was talking about. Deciding now was the time, he decided to bring up the topic.
“Why… why was everybody looking at you with what looked to be disgust?” He asked quietly. Gerard didn’t answer for a while, and Frank was beginning to to believe that he either didn’t hear him or ignored him. After what seemed like a lifetime but in reality only minutes, Gerard spoke.
“I’m… unlikable. They some how all found out I’m gay and because of that they tease me. They know I won’t fight back and I’ll keep quiet, so I’m the perfect target. I only have one other friend, the only friend I have ever had, so the best thing to do in scenarios such as that, is to keep quiet. Try to ignore it. Nothing good ever comes of fighting back, trust me I know.” Gerard turned his gaze away from Frank and stared at the wall for a few moments before redirecting his gaze to Frank again. “If you want, I can introduce you to Ray at lunch.”
Frank was trying his hardest to contain his anger. Smiling a little forcibly, he nodded and said, “Yeah, I’d like that.”
Gerard’s face broke into a huge grin. Taking out his notebook, he began to sketch as the teacher was giving instructions. Drowning out the directions, he shielded his sketch from Frank’s prying eyes, every so often his eyes flicking from his paper to Frank then back again. Frank couldn’t be sure if he was sketching him or not but it was safe to assume he was. It was rather cute when he thought of it.
“You do realise we have a project due Tuesday, right?” He asked, amused.
Gerard’s eyes snapped up to his. “Huh?”
“Yeah, if you paid any attention to what was said, you would have realized we had a project.”
He just kinda stared at Frank for a while before the words registered into his brain. “Oh shit.”
“Oh shit, indeed.”
“What are we doing it on?” He asked quietly, not wanting the teacher to discover he was, yet again, doing his own thing and completely ignoring what he had to say.”
Frank rolled his eye and just smiled. “All we have to do is make a portrait of how you portray yourself.” Frank started to get a bit worried when he saw Gee’s eyes glaze over. Gerard quickly snapped out of it.
“Excuse me, I need to talk to the teacher.” He gave Frank a tight lipped smile before he ran off.
Frank had a feeling he knew why Gerard went to talk to the teacher, and he had a feeling he didn’t like it. He would figure out the enigma that is Gerard and slowly work his way to opening him up. He made this his new mission.
Gerard looked up at the disturbance and gasped in shock. Getting up quickly, he pushed Frank off him and to tried to explain to his brother.
“Mikey, please let me explain.” Gerard pleaded to his brother.
“How.” Mikey asked monotonously. “Why? I thought you loved me? What happened to always sticking with each other? Was everything you promised to me a lie? Why should I believe a single thing that you tell me at the moment?!” Mikey was nearly shouting at the end, breaking his composure that he took pride in. Tears were welling up in his eyes as he tried to blink them away.
Gerard looked hopeless as he tried to explain the whole scene that could have looked like something out of a story. “After the whole Mum and Dad incident, I ran to school and hid in the bathroom and Frank, he just came in and saw and tried to comfort me. I swear! I’m not cheating, this I promise with my life.” Gerard was near tears. He didn’t know what he would do if Mikey had left him.
Mikey watched as the whole scene unravelled itself. He could see Frank had moved to the corner of the bathroom and was watching everything with a sad look. He knew he was the cause of all this and he was guilty. Mikey let his expression soften as he walked over to his brother, who was now openly crying. He went through a lot today and Mikey had a feeling if he was in his shoes, he would cry too.
Gerard’s eyes widened as he felt his brother’s arms wrap around his shivering body. He looked up at his brother’s face and saw that Mikey was smiling down at him. Gerard returned the hug, never wanting to let go. If he was being honest, Mikey was probably the only reason he was still alive today.
Pulling Gerard closer to him, Mikey whispered in his ears, “It’s okay, I believe you.” Gerard smiled as he kissed Mikey on the lips, happy that his brother believed him. At least someone in his life had faith in him.
Frank’s POV
Frank watched on as the two brothers made up for the misunderstanding. A part of Frank felt jealous that he didn’t have what the other two had. He couldn’t deny that he held an undeniable attraction to Gerard and maybe even a slight crush on his brother. He wished that he could join in but he didn’t want to the reason that the two broke up and never spoke again, but that didn’t mean that they couldn’t remain friends for however long it may last.
Frank sighed and turned away from the brothers, giving them the privacy that they deserve. Mikey looked up from his brother and over to Frank. He looked so lonely and Mikey couldn’t help but link it to Gerard when he was at school with no one to talk to. It was rather heartbreaking. He walked over to Frank and pulled him into a tight embrace.
“Thank you for looking after my brother. I’m sorry for all the trouble I have put you through.” Frank looked up in shock.
“No problem, anytime. I just hope that we could possibly be friends?”
“Of course.” Mikey smiled slightly. “Why don’t we all go to first period. What’s your first period, Frank?”
“Art.”
“Oh, you’re in the same class as me.” Gerard piped up, grinning widely. “I won’t be the lover anymore.” He silently cheered. Frank smiled at the cute scene before him before berating himself. He couldn’t have the older brother, he couldn’t ruin a relationship like that.
Hoisting Gerard off the ground, they made their way to the art room. When they entered the room, Frank was surprised to say the least. The teacher he had barged in earlier to help Gerard was his teacher. they said goodbye to Mikey before Gerard grabbed his hand and dragged him to the back of the classroom. Sitting at a table with no one at it. Frank didn’t think that Gerard noticed that he could see everyone giving him dirty glares and throw insults at him under their breath. After they sat down, Frank moved to get Gerard’s attention.
“Gee?” Gerard turned to look at him, eyebrow raised.
“Gee?” He repeated in a questioning tone.
“D-do you n-not like it? It’s just a nickname. If you don’t like it, I won’t ever use it again.”
“No, no. I love it, it’s cute. It’s just… I never had a nickname and it was kind of a shock to hear me being called something other than... the usual.” Frank had a feeling he knew what Gerard was talking about. Deciding now was the time, he decided to bring up the topic.
“Why… why was everybody looking at you with what looked to be disgust?” He asked quietly. Gerard didn’t answer for a while, and Frank was beginning to to believe that he either didn’t hear him or ignored him. After what seemed like a lifetime but in reality only minutes, Gerard spoke.
“I’m… unlikable. They some how all found out I’m gay and because of that they tease me. They know I won’t fight back and I’ll keep quiet, so I’m the perfect target. I only have one other friend, the only friend I have ever had, so the best thing to do in scenarios such as that, is to keep quiet. Try to ignore it. Nothing good ever comes of fighting back, trust me I know.” Gerard turned his gaze away from Frank and stared at the wall for a few moments before redirecting his gaze to Frank again. “If you want, I can introduce you to Ray at lunch.”
Frank was trying his hardest to contain his anger. Smiling a little forcibly, he nodded and said, “Yeah, I’d like that.”
Gerard’s face broke into a huge grin. Taking out his notebook, he began to sketch as the teacher was giving instructions. Drowning out the directions, he shielded his sketch from Frank’s prying eyes, every so often his eyes flicking from his paper to Frank then back again. Frank couldn’t be sure if he was sketching him or not but it was safe to assume he was. It was rather cute when he thought of it.
“You do realise we have a project due Tuesday, right?” He asked, amused.
Gerard’s eyes snapped up to his. “Huh?”
“Yeah, if you paid any attention to what was said, you would have realized we had a project.”
He just kinda stared at Frank for a while before the words registered into his brain. “Oh shit.”
“Oh shit, indeed.”
“What are we doing it on?” He asked quietly, not wanting the teacher to discover he was, yet again, doing his own thing and completely ignoring what he had to say.”
Frank rolled his eye and just smiled. “All we have to do is make a portrait of how you portray yourself.” Frank started to get a bit worried when he saw Gee’s eyes glaze over. Gerard quickly snapped out of it.
“Excuse me, I need to talk to the teacher.” He gave Frank a tight lipped smile before he ran off.
Frank had a feeling he knew why Gerard went to talk to the teacher, and he had a feeling he didn’t like it. He would figure out the enigma that is Gerard and slowly work his way to opening him up. He made this his new mission.
Notes
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