New Beginnings

I finally calm down. We then decide to skip the rest of our classes. Ray Johnnie and Andy stay at school though. So it's just me frank mikey and gerard. They take me to a place where they must go a lot.. It is near an abandoned park through the woods.. It a beautiful open areas in the middle of the woods.. "Isnt this place cool? I found it when we first moved here five years ago. I soon showed Gee and a couple years back when frank and Gee started dating he too him here on a date.. I honestly don't want to know the details of the date.. All I know is that they ended up staying Jere over night" mikey said and after he said it frank and Gerard smiled at each other.. I don't even want to know. We stayed there and talked fir a few hours when we had to get back to the house since school would be over by now and donna would get back soon. We walk home talking all the way jome . when we get there and frank kisses gerard goodbye and mikey makes a gaging noise and we all start laughing... I was pretty tired so I decided to go to my room.. I walk down the stairs to my room. I look around again... Man I really need to get some posters to hang up in here.. I can do that tomorrow.. I lay down on my bed and the thought start coming.. "Your suck a dumb ass... How can you think they actually like you.. Youbsjould knowntheu are just stringing you along just like everyone does" "shut up your wrong" "you and I both know I'm right you worthless piece if shit" I've heard enough.. I go iber to my jewelry box and open the drawer that has four blades in it. One I got from a pencil sharpener two from box cutters and one from a broken knife. I grab one of the NOx cutter blades. I out it up to my skin and feel the cold metal against my wrist which I had tak . All the brackets off of. I slowly down on the blade as blood starts to fall ibslowly slide it across my skin.. Feeling unsatisfied I do it again and again and again until my wrist is completely covered in fresh bleeding cuts. I then grab the blood rag from the main part of the jewelry box and wipe up the blood that is covering my wrist and keep doing so until it completely stops bleeding. By this time donna calls me up for dinner. I quickly find a long sleeve shirt to put on to find the fresh cut and go upstairs to eat.

Notes

Umm idek what to say about... This is what happens when I start writing with out a plan.. I know I know my mind is fucked up majorly