Boys will be boys

I lay in the dark, staring blankly at the ceiling, I could hear Gerard sobbing quietly in the bed next to me, but i didn't ask if he was okay, i didn't move, i was too scared of my care being rejected. I tossed and turned trying desperately to fall asleep, so i could forget about what had happened for a little while, maybe i would have a nice dream, one where i didn't try to take advantage if Gerard, the poor thing, he was shaken up...I had scared him, I had fucking scared him because of my selfishness. I do love him and deep down he knows that, but i understand if he hates me right now, because of the way i was, I need to make it up to him somehow but its not like i can just treat him to a meal, no. We were stuck in this fucking hell hole. I turned to face out of the window, the moon was now shining brightly and the night seemed deceased and sorrowful, just like my emotions, I was dead inside. I suddenly got up and took a cigarette out of my bag, I opened the window a crack and lit it up, taking huge drags and blowing it into the dark eerie air, where it dissipated into a void of nothingness, joining the twilight of the sky, where it would be forgotten. Once i had finished the cigarette, i shut the window and sat on my bed for a while, my mind full of regret and wrongdoing, I cant loose Gerard, not now, not ever. I sighed and placed my head in my hands when suddenly i felt a warm hand on my back, I turned to see a shadowed figure behind me, it was Gerard, he sat down on my bed. 'What's up?' I whispered, Gerard glanced at me, 'Nice night huh' He said, his tone sounding welcoming, 'Yeah, It's beautiful' I whispered softly, taking in the countryside that was engulfed in darkness. I felt Gerard shuffle closer to me, 'Sometimes i wish i was a bird so i could fly away from everything' Gerard whispered, his voice sounded so beautiful, 'I second that' I said softly, and i heard Gerard giggle, i guess that's a start. We sat in silence for a while but it wasn't an awkward silence, it was the nice kind of silence that is welcoming. 'Look, Gerard, about earlier I...' and before i could finish Gerard placed his finger over my mouth 'Shh, I understand, i know you didn't mean it, I mean, it was morally wrong, but i know that you didn't mean one bit of it, okay? It was a misapprehension, So can we please forget about it and start a fresh, that's if you want me?' Gerard whispered, 'I want you more than anything' I whispered back, wrapping my arm around Gerard and pulling him close to me until i could feel his breath on my face. I pressed my lips against his gently and kissed him for a little while, his mouth moving in sync with mine, until i pulled away. 'Sleep with me?' I whispered, Gerard nodded and spoke, 'Yes...', 'I want you to touch me' He suddenly added, which slightly shocked me.

I pulled my covers back and gently lay Gerard down, kissing him delicately, I moved down to his neck and nibbled at it softly, being careful not to hurt him. I then moved down to his collarbones before stopping, 'Are you sure, baby?' I whispered as i caressed his face, 'Yes' he moaned softly. I grabbed his top and pulled it over his head gently, revealing his beautiful pale skin that hid underneath, 'Your so beautiful' I whispered to him, whilst planting kisses down the length of his body. I got to the top of his pants and gently pulled them down, revealing his boner underneath, I heard Gerard let out a little moan as i brushed against his painfully hard dick. 'I want you Frankie' He whispered, caressing my face as i looked up at him, 'Your perfect' I smiled, before beginning to lick up and down his length, I heard him let out a moan. I put him in my mouth and began moving slowly, letting Gerard feel what he has never felt before, 'Oh Frankie' He moaned, grabbing my head and pushing me further down onto him. I carried on sucking and sucking, until i felt Gerard pulse and release into my mouth, 'Fuck Frankie' Gerard moaned loudly, I swallowed and moved back up to Gerard, kissing him softly, 'That was better than i thought' Gerard breathed, as i pulled the covers over us and hugged him tightly, 'But Frankie, I'm really not ready to...you know...loose my virginity yet, please understand' Gerard whispered, 'I understand baby' I smiled, kissing him on the cheek and snuggleing up to him.

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