Cemetery Drive

I stood there in silence for a bit, was he done with me? Did he forgive me? What the hell is happening? After waiting for a couple of silent minutes on his bed I decided enough were enough so I got up and marched into his bathroom. I don't know what I was expecting to see in his bathroom but I was sure as hell didn't expect to see him sitting on the floor with his head in his knees and to see him softly shaking. When he heard the door open he looked up I saw his eyes were red and it was very evident that he had been crying, because of me.

"Gee." I whispered as I sat down next to him and held his hand.

"You drive me so crazy Frankie, really. You're gonna end up sending me to an early grave." He told me.

"Don't say that." I told him and then rubbed his hand. "I am so grateful that you’re being so patient with me. I know you know this but I just need to actually say it but the last man I loved raped me, beat me, got me pregnant, and tried to kill my baby, and then so suddenly he was replaced with a sweet loving man who would do anything for me and the baby. It's just a really hard adjustment. But you have to know from the bottom of my heart that I love and appreciate you."

"I love you too Frankie. And I understand what you’re going through is hard but I also need you to know it’s hard for me to. To see the man I love so broken, trying to piece back his life together, it's heartbreaking. I try too hard to let you know how much I love and value you but the walls you put up are so thick it's hard to get through. I know why you put them up and I totally understand your reasons and in no way am I asking you to break them down, but I'm asking for a soft spot, just for me. I know you're also worried about us not being mates but so am I, am worried that you won't be mine and I have to see you with another man, but even if we aren't I'm always going to love you and I will always be there for our daughter." He firmly told me.

"Gerard I-"

"Just think about it, please." He said then stood up and walked out without so much as looking back at me. What the fuck? No! He can't just do that. He can't shut me out again.

"Gerard!" I yelled as I rushed to get up and go after him. I wasn't very fast though, but when I did get out of his bathroom he was standing in the idle of his room looking at me like nothing had happened.

"What?" He asked.

"No. You don't get to do that now. We both poured our hearts out to one another; you can't just walk away from me."

"I'm not walk away Frank, I'm giving you time to-"

"Screw time. Gerard I know what I want and I want you. You're what's best for not just our daughter but for me also. You make me a better person and I want you, I'll always want you, if you'll still have me." I told him, not once breaking eye contact.

"Frankie I know you're just saying that because you're afraid you’re going to lose me, I'm not going anywhere. I just want you to have the time-"

"Bite me." I cut him off.

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. Bite me." I repeated myself, "right here right now. I'm tired of letting that fear stop me from giving into one hundred percent. I wanna know so god dammit so it now!"

He looked at me for a bit before doing anything, I'm guess he was wondering if he should bite me himself, maybe there was a part of him that was also afraid to know the truth.

"Okay I will. But if nothing happens you need to promise to still be faithful to me and be with me for the remainder of your pregnancy and when Eliza comes out we try again. Okay? No negotiations."

"Okay." I agreed.

Very slowly he walked over to me, I was so nervous I could hear my heartbeat like my headphones were on blast straight on my ears. When he finally did reach me, he ever so gently kissed my lips then move his head to my neck. He tugged on my shirt until my neck was exposed and he leaned down and kissed my neck.

"I'm not gonna do it." He whispered on my skin then pressed a kiss to my exposed neck. "I know how much this means to you."

He pulled his face away from the crook of my neck and kissed my lips once more. I know I had told him to bite me but I am really thankful he didn't. It is really important that to me that we wait until after I have the baby. I nodded at him then wrapped my eyes around his neck and he wrapped his as much as he could around my waist.

"Come on baby, let's take a bath together." He urged.

"Can't, we have school."

"Who cares it's just one day."

"But I'm gonna miss a lot when I have her. I can't afford to miss anymore."

"Okay a quick bath and we'll be back at school before lunch even begins, how does that sound?" He asked and grabbed my hips and rubbed circles with his thumb.

"Okay." I agreed.

He smiled down at me and kissed my nose before going in the bathroom, a few seconds later I heard the water going. While he set up the bath I walked over to his drawling desk and started to look at what he was currently drawling, it was a picture of I think me and Gerard. I couldn't see the faces but there was a taller guy who resembled Gerard with his hands wrapped around a smaller guy who resembled me. But the cool part about this picture was that my belly was larger then what it really was but rather than just being a pregnant belly he drew it see through, you could see the outline of a baby inside my belly, the way that you see in those diagrams of pregnant people.

"Bath is ready." Gerard whispered in his ear as his arms wrapped around my waist and he peered over my shoulder to see what I was looking at.

"This is really cool." I admired.

"Yeah I really like it, can't wait till it’s done though." He told me then kissed my neck, "come on before the water gets cold."

I smiled at him and let him take me into his bathroom, I was about to start undressing myself but he stopped me and began to take my clothing off. When he got to my boxers he stopped and then undid all of his clothes, boxers and all.

"Saving the best for last." He told me this kissed me, I started to kiss him back as he tugged at my boxers until I fell them pool around my feet. I blushed and kissed him even deeper before he pulled away and stepped in the tub and helped me get in. He sat down first against one edge and I sat in-between his legs. We didn't do anything sexual; I just leaned back against him while his hands roamed my stomach.

"I can't wait for you to have the baby." He said and rubbed my belly.

"Me too." I agreed.

"No I mean like yeah I'm excited to be a father and all but I want to be able to wrap my arms completely around you and hold you so tight and not worry about hurting the baby."

"You're a dork, a sweet dork, but still I dork." I told him then turned in my spot to kiss his lips.

Notes

Hola! Thanks for your suggestions guys, I do love hearing from you all. I graduate high school in like a week and I'm so excited but kinda scared at the same time, oh btw I didnt reread this before posting it so sorry if there are mistakes

Till next we meet my killjoys