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Cemetery Drive

Chapter 13

******three weeks later*******

"Alright Frank, you're thirteen weeks along; this is the last week of your first trimester. You're morning sickness should start to go away next week as you enter your second trimester."

"Thank god." I said and leaned my head back against the table and let my hands roam over my slightly larger stomach.

"It's not that bad." Gerard said as he wiped the gel off my stomach and pulled my shirt down.

"You throw up after almost every mean and then tell me it's not that bad." I said glaring at him.

"Alright you to," Dr. Mara scolded us laughing, "Do you have any questions?"

"Yes actually, why is the sky blue? Why can't human boys get pregnant? Is it going to rain tomorrow? What's in the-" I started but I was cut off.

"About the pregnancy." Dr. Mara clarified.

"Should have been clearer Doc." I said then laughed.

"I actually have a few questions." Gerard said, I rolled my eyes already knowing what these questions are gonna be. We have a conversation about them at least once a day.

"How easy should he be taking it? I mean should he be putting himself in stressful environments?" He asked.

"Well he doesn't have to take it living on the sofa easy but easier than he did before he was pregnant. And for the stressful environment, you should be avoiding those at all costs." She said.

"I told you." He said to me, I rolled my eyes again at him.

"Why? What's going on?" Dr. Mara asked.

"He's having some problems at school socially." Gerard explained for me, "almost everyone at school knows who the baby's birth father is and how the baby was conceived, and even though I'm trying to adopt it people are still giving him shut for it."

"They're not doing it to my face." I said quietly, I could tell tears were starting to build up in my eyes.

"Frank that makes it even worse. I stop at the whispers and looks when I'm there but we don't have any of the same classes so I can't stop it there. It pains me to see you get hurt by other people's words."

"I do see your concern Gerard but because all of that happens in school there is nothing I can do about it." Dr. Mara explains sadly.

"I know and I'm not asking him to quit school, he still has to finish this year then he still has next year and I won't be there for him. I'm just saying maybe he should start home school, for he can focus on the baby more."

"Gerard does have a point, although I cannot order you to stay home from school, I highly recommend you switch to homeschooling if these problems are to continue." She said.

I didn't look at her I just nodded. She asked us if we had any other questions and I shook my head no and Gerard and I left right after that. I had my arms crossed in front of my chest and I was looking at the ground as we walked back to Gerard's car. I don't understand why Gerard would bring up my personal problems with my doctor; it was none of her business. It made me feel so helpless, so pitiful. When we got in the car I pushed myself away from Gerard and sat in the very edge of the seat.

"Are you okay?" He asked after a few
minutes of silence.

"Why did you have to bring that up with the doctor?" I asked.

"Because you needed to hear that you should be in a stressful environment when you’re pregnant and since you won't listen to me I hoped you'd listen to your doctor." He explained.

"You didn't have to do that! Do you know how embarrassing that was? I felt like a loser as you pretty much explained to her I have no friends and no one likes me!"

"Like babe I'm sorry, I had no intention of making you feel that way. I just want what's best for you and the baby."

"Why?" I asked full of irritation, "It’s not like it's your kid." I said harshly.

As soon as those words left my mouth I regretted it. Gerard has done so much for me and the baby, he tried so hard to turn himself into the father of the baby and I just threw it in his face that he wasn't in a matter of six words. After that the rest of the car ride was silent, he didn't say anything back it even look at me, I didn't look at him either, I was too afraid to. When we pulled into my driveway neither of us moved, we just there frozen by my words. It was after a few minutes that I broke the silence.

"Gerard I didn't mean that. You are-" he put his hand up and silenced me.

"Do you really feel that way?" He asked.

"No! Gerard you know that. I-it was just the hormones acting up! I love you so damn much and I want you in my life and the baby's life." I said really quickly.

"Okay." He said, that's all he said.

"Gerard baby please say something." I said and undid my seatbelt and moved so I was sitting in his lap. There wasn't a lot of room but I still managed to fit. Instantly Gerard put his hands on my waist and held me there. "You know I didn't mean it, I-I don't know why I said it I just was feeling crappy that the doctor knew that no one at school really likes me. But please don't go anywhere, don't leave us." I begged him and placed my hand on his cheek.

"I'm never leaving you, I swear." He said then kissed the hand that was on his face, "but right now I have to go do something and I don't know when I'll be back, I'll see you either tonight or tomorrow morning when I take you to school." He said smiling but I could tell he was hiding something under that smile.

I didn't want to push the subject anymore by saying something so I just wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and buried my head in the crook of his neck and held him tight. He wrapped his arms back around my wait and held me even closer to him. After a few seconds I pulled away and crashed my lips against his, he kissed back but not with the same amount of forced that I have the kiss.

"Frankie I-"

"Please hold me for a little longer." I begged him. He sighed and pulled me closer and held me tight for a few more minutes before pulling away.

"I have to go babe, but I promise I'll be right back." He said then kissed my lips again, "I'll come see you later at night, is it okay if I stay the night here?" He asked.

I nodded my head.

"I'll be back, I promise." He said then pecked my lips again and rubbed the baby bump for a minute.

After that I got off of him and went inside. Gerard and I left school early for the doctor’s appointment so it was only like ten and both my parents were at work so I was home alone. I could go back to school but I wouldn't have a ride there and Gerard wouldn't be with me, I mean I would have Pete and Mikey but they're glued at the freaking hip and I don't want to be a third wheel on them. I guess I'm just going to stay home alone. I tried texting and calling Gee but it was no use, his phone was off so I left him a few voicemails and text messages telling him and I loved him and that I was sorry for what I had said. It was eating me alive knowing that I had said such a horrible thing to someone who loves me and my unborn baby and wants to raise it as its own, even though it's not his and the birthfather is nothing more than an abusive asshole. At around seven at night my parents came home, I guess they could tell something was up and they tried to talk to me but I did what I was best at, I shut them out, a part of me felt bad because they did so much for me when I was in the hospital and they felt really bad for not knowing what was really going on with Josh and I but, old habits die hard. Nearing midnight they told me to get some sleep and they'd be in my room first thing in the morning to talk to me, I appreciate them trying so hard but I just wasn't in the mood. Before I fell asleep at 12:48 I checked my phone one last time finding no new texts or missed calls from Gee, I sighed in defeat as I snuggled my head further into my pillow and let myself drift off into sleep...

"Frankie baby wake up." Someone whispered shaking me lightly.

"Don't wanna..." I mumbled back.

"Frankie wake up, I need to talk to you." They said again, it took a moment for my brain to register it was Gee talking to me.

"Gee!-"

"Shhhh." He whisper hissed at me.

"Sorry." I whispered back, "Where were you? Why didn't you answer any of my calls or texts? Were you-"

"I had good reason for doing so." He interpreted. "I went down to the jail today and saw Josh,"

"You saw Josh!" I practically yelled.

"Frankie!" He whisper hissed again. "I got some paper work from the court before I went up there and after a long conversation, I got him to sign away his legal rights as a parent to the baby."