Cancer || Gerard Way

Winter

I shiver at the cold London air brushing against my exposed skin. I really wish I had brought a jacket. "Hurry up slowpoke we're almost there." Emily says stopping and turning around, waiting for me to catch up. Not that I'm slow, it's just I'm buried in my thoughts. I walk faster and catch up as she places her hands over my eyes. "Em, what are you doing?" I ask, slightly freaked out. "I'm taking you to the surprise." She replies happily. "Could you take me there without covering my eyes at least?" I ask, not moving from my spot on the pavement. "Nope." I sigh, realizing I won't win this, and continue walking.

"Okay Winter, we're almost there." Emily says. "You said that five minutes ago." I say, sighing. "Well this time I mean it." She says. "Okay. You can open your eyes in three...two...one!" She moves her hands off of my eyes to reveal a big building with a long line of people lined up outside of it. "E-Emily? W-why did you take m-me here?" I stutter. "I said I was going to help you and this is going to help you!" She says happily. I stare at the people outside of the building and take in a deep shaky breath. "Em, this isn't going help at all! If anything it'll make it worse!" I say. "Winter I promise this will help you. They helped me." That stopped me. They helped her? I don't know who 'they' are but they must be pretty amazing to have helped her...

-flashback-

Emily

I sit on the floor, a horrible, bloody mess. I can't take this anymore... I grab my bedside table, trying to get up off the floor, and fall back to the ground. I'm too weak to even get up. Blood stains the carpet and my clothes, some wiped on the sheets of my bed. I try to get up but I fall back down to the floor, tears streaming down my face. Then I remembered the gun. I inched my way over to the end of my bed and pushed the mattress up the best I could and grabbed it. It fit nicely in my hands. Like it was meant to be there. I loaded it and held it up to my head. This is it, the end of me. I pull back on the trigger until my phone starts to ring. My Chemical Romance started playing loudly and I completely broke down. I threw the gun across the floor and curled into a ball on the floor...

-flashback over-

Winter

They really did save her. I remember walking into her room, seeing her on the floor covered in blood. It broke my heart. "Winter?" Emily waved a hand in front of my face. I snapped back into reality and gave her a look of confusion. "What?" I ask. She smiles and shakes her head. "Come on." She pulls me towards the building and I start to freak out. 'Everyone is looking at you' keeps running through my head making me want to turn around and run back home. If I knew how to get back home... We end up at the back of the line and I start to calm myself down. Emily turns to me and giggles, pointing at two teenage girls in front of us. One has blue hair and the other has bright red. "Oh my god I can't believe we're seeing My Chemical Romance in concert!" The red haired one gushes. "I know! Frank is so hot!" The blue haired one says, jumping up and down. "What if Frank looks at you?! What do you think that would mean?!" The one with red hair says with wide eyes. "Do you think it means he likes me?!" She jumps up and down as they fan girl together. I laugh and remember how I was when I was younger. The line moves forward and I sigh. This could take a while...

After an hour and a half, we reach the front. I look at the entrance of the building and see in big bold letters 'My Chemical Romance'. I've heard of that before... Wait... Emily is taking me to a concert?! I panic and turn around to Emily. She gives me a look of concern. "What's wrong Winter?" I try to talk normally but it just comes out really quickly. "Why are you taking me to a concert?! This isn't going to make me better! It'll make me worse!" I whisper loudly. "Winter! You'll be fine! Remember, they helped me!" She says, calming down a little. The line moves up and I see a lady in the doorway holding her hand out to me. I look to Emily in panic and she hands her both of our tickets, ripping off the ends and handing them back to us. I thank her and we get inside. There a booth selling merch, and another one selling food and things like that. There's also a big doorway leading into a huge room with a stage at the front. I take a deep breath and Emily pulls me into the room. There's people everywhere and she goes around groups of people and through some, earning rude looks. I give them an apologetic look and Emily stops, making bump into her. We're now at the very front of the arena, getting an extremely close look at the stage. I was mere feet away from the stage, barriers holding us all back. Not that being in the front really mattered to me, I mean I don't even know who these guys are, or a fan, so I would have been fine in the back. I turn to Emily to see her talking to a guy. He has black hair that hangs over his eyes, brown eyes, a nose piercing, and pretty close to the same style as I have. He looks over at me and sends a cute smile. I return it and look back up to the stage. Hopefully he didn't think I was staring... The lights start to dim and the crowd screams wildly. The room goes completely black, until a red spotlight shines down onto the middle of the stage, reveling a guy that's looking to the floor with bright red hair and a microphone in his hand. Four more lights turn on the stage showing the other members. One guy with an Afro on the guitar, a guy with blonde hair that's slicked back on the bass, the drummer, and one last guy with dark hair that hung down in his eyes on the guitar as well. Emily leans over to me. "You see the red haired one?" I nod. "That's Gerard. He's hot isn't he?" She says. I roll my eyes. "Sure." I say looking back up to the stage. Then he starts to sing...

Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on Just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you'll stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goonight
So long and goonight

Came a time
Where every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold

And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goonight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave?
And then we'll meet again
As both our cars collide

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

I stared up at them in shock. Wow. They're amazing. the crowd erupted in cheers and screams. I screamed along. "How are you London?!" Gerard yelled into the microphone. Everyone screamed. Maybe Emily was right... Maybe they can help me...

It's the last song of the show, and I feel sad to see them leave. They are truly amazing, and if they saved Emily, they might save me as well. "Alright guys, this is our last song," The whole crowd awed. "But we have one last song to sing for you!" He said happily. We all screamed. Piano played throughout the whole room and the crowd silenced immediately.

"Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors
My sisters and my brothers still
I will not kiss you
Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you"

He looked down at me and sang it while he looked me in the eyes

"Now turn away
Cause I'm awful just to see
Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body
Oh my agony
Know that I will never marry
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
And counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I hope you know
That if you say goodbye today
I'd ask you to be true
Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you"

I looked back up at him In shock. I was completely frozen. Not because there was people staring at me, not because he just sung to me, I didn't know why. I just stood there, frozen in place. He finished the song and they all left the stage. Everyone evacuated the arena but I still stood there, frozen in my spot. I snapped back into reality as I realized what just happened. That was amazing. And for the first time in a long time, I smiled. a real, genuine smile.

Notes

I probably got some of the lyrics wrong but whatever. I hope this one was better and a lot longer than my last chapter. Thanks for reading!

-Killjoy