Can You Hear Me Cry Out To You?

Dee's P.O.V

I open my eye's, slowly. Thing's look...white? Where am I? I'm laid down. I know that much. Closing my eyes again, I try to remember what happened. I was on stage. Singing..? I don't remember what I was singing. I remember the crowd. They all looked strange. Like fuzzy. I don't know how to explain it. They just didn't look human. Then my head started spinning. Then I..fuck...I collapsed on stage. In front of everyone. Oh god. What must they think of me? What made that happen? The kid's. I sit up fast and immediately regret it as my head spins. I put my head in my hands and groan.
"Whoa there, baby." Gerard?
I look towards the voice to see a blond Gerard sat by the bed, watching me. I put my head back in my hands. How am I supposed to get over him if he's here? "Why are you here?" I asked.
"I was watching back stage with the kid's." He sounded...hurt?
I took in a big breath then turned to look at him again. "Why?"
He looked so miserable. "I wanted to talk to you." He said, sadly.
I sighed. "What about?" It's not exactly been easy for me. I was accused of cheating. After everything we went through together. He thought I'd do that to him. That hurt so bad.
"I'm sorry, Dee." He said. "I should never have listened to Jason. He told me how you were cheating on me. I didn't believe him to begin with. For weeks he's been saying thing's about you. Thing's like how you were getting really close to your manager. How you'd be locked in a room alone with him a lot. That morning when you left, he'd said you were at a hotel with Darren. Sharing a room. Then he showed me the pictures. I lost it. I believed him. I don't know why. I just did." He run his fingers through his hair, tears on his face. "How could I have believed him? And now I've lost the love of my life. I've lost you because I'm a fucking idiot."
I looked at his face. I could see he was being genuine. But I didn't know what to do. I was so confused. I love him still. I think I always will. But I can't let him hurt me again. I sigh as I look down at my hands.
"I'm sorry, Dee." He said as he stood up. "I'll go." He headed for the door.
"Wait." I said, looking at him.
He stopped and turned to look at me. Hope in his eye's.
"I still love you..."
"I love you, too." He said as he headed towards me with a smile.
"But..." He stopped walking and the smile dropped."But you believed I could do that to you."
"I know." He muttered. "I'm sorry."
I sigh. "But it really hurt me." I stated. "More than you know. I couldn't believe how easily you fell for it. Believing someone you've known for a few month's over your own wife. I've not slept or eaten properly because of all this. I throw all my time into work. Even modeling on occasions. I won't be hurt again. I can't take it anymore."
"I'm so so sorry, baby." He sniffles. "I'm sorry."
I sigh again. "So I'm giving you one more chance."
He looked at me with surprise."What?"
"I'm not coming home." I state. "Not yet. I'm giving you a chance to win me back. But take it slow. I'm not going to make it easy for you. I can't. You hurt me too much."
He smiled, slightly. "I understand, baby." He said as he got closer to me. "Thank you."
He reaches out to take my hand, but stops, looking at me for approval. I nod so he closes the gap and takes my right hand in both of his. "Can I....kiss you?" He asks, biting his bottom lip.
"Yes." I said.
He leaned in and sealed his lips to mine. He didn't try to deepen it. It was gentle and sweet. Lasting only a couple of minutes. When we broke apart, he leaned his forehead on mine. Looking into my eye's.
"I promise I will NEVER hurt you again."

Notes

Did she do right? Will Gerard stuff it up? Comments always great. Love as always.xxx