Gerard POV
Today I'm going to do it.
I can't live any longer like this with all these lies and feelings that I can't tell anyone about.
I need to tell Frank how I really feel about him.
Nobody can stop me, if I won't tell him soon I would go crazy. It is hard, you know, loving someone with such passion, seeing them everyday, telling them everything, exept that one thing that can change everything.
I'm scared.
Very scared.
So scared that he will reject me.
He never had a boyfriend and if you look at him you wouldn't see him as a gay person, not even bi.
Fuck why, out of all the people in the world, do I need to fall in love with my best friend??
It's not fair. It can destroy our whole friendship. But fuck I need to let him know how I feel.
And tonight, I am gonna tell him.


Frank POV
Tonight the whole band is going to the bar to celebrate the end of our world tour.
We do that after every tour, we always go to the same bar, talk about things and make new friends. It kinda became a tradition after we played our first tiny show and we went to this bar. It's always good to keep up traditions.
Anyways, I noticed that Gerard has been feeling kind of down and nervous lately, so tonight I'm gonna talk to him, something is clearly bothering him.

at the bar

Everybody is talking to each other and having a good time, Ray is talking to some guys at the pool bar and Mikey is watching football,
but when I look behind me, I see a nervous Gerard looking at me from his table, I guess I have to confront him with what is wrong, so I walk to his table and go sit next to him.


Frank: Okay, Gerard. We all know something is bothering you and we all see you're struggeling with it, so would you please tell me what the hell is going on?

gerard looked kind of shocked

Gerard: Uhmmm, Frank, I would love to tell you, but can't we discuss this in a more private place?

Frank: Oh okay if you want to, where do you wanna go?

Gerard: I think outside is a good idea..

-outside-

Frank: Okay now I really want to know, your life isn't in danger or something, is it??

Gerard: No no, not at all.

Frank: Well tell me what's wrong then!

Gerard: Well, okay, uhm, I'm sorry this is kind of hard for me.. See, I haven't told this to anyone.

Frank: You can tell me anything!! Okay understand that.

Gerard: *after a long break* I- I- I'm... gay.

Frank: But Gerard that's totally okay!!

*hugs Gerard*

Gerard: But, I'm in love with you...


Wait what!!?? A thousand questions go through my mind.
For how long has he been gay? For how long has he been in love with me? Was that why he gave me the bear? Did he thought I liked him back because I hugged him? Is this why he always looks at me this way?
Oh god so many questions.. But I can't say one out loud. I never thought Gerard would like me, we have been best friends for like, forever!


after a long break

Gerard POV

Frank: Gerard, I'm sorry, but I've never had any "gay" feelings for anyone. And not for you. I've been straight for my whole life, and I don't think that ever is going to change. But don't worry okay, I will not look at you differently or treat you different. We still be best friends till the day I die okay?

Gerard: Oh..... okay, I'm sorry but I think I left my uh, key in the lock, I gotta go, see you Tuesday at the band practice..


And before Frank could say anything, I walk away. I don't want Frank to see the tears in my eyes. I just fucked up the most beautiful friendship I ever had.
Nothing will ever be the same between us...

Notes

HELLO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED but i was kinda busy [i wasnt i was just lazy sorryyy] but anyways what do you guys think of this chapter please rate and comment ♡