Return To Me, My Love

A few days after I join the tour Frank goes to do a radio interview and while he's out doing that the other guys leave to go out and go shopping and I am left alone with one of the techs on the bus, neither of us wanting to go and after everyone is gone I grab the book of paperwork for the merch, having decided to take over as the guy in charge now doesn't enjoy it very much and as I flip through the pages I see how much he's fucked them all up and I sigh to myself before getting up to look for a pen and as I'm rummaging through a bag in Franks bunk, figuring he'll have atleast a few pens I hear the bus door open and when I find a pen and turn to go back into the front lounge I see Ian standing in the doorway staring at me. "Hi" I say hesitantly, not having had to talk to him yet in the last few days and he smirks and says "So, you're back and I haven't forgotten about our little conversation last time. So what will it be Gee? You and me? Or me becoming your worst nightmare?" "Why are you doing this to me? We were best friends, don't you miss that?" I ask, trying to avoid the question he asked and his face goes serious as he says "Yeah I do miss things, I miss your lips against mine, I miss your tongue in my mouth. I miss your hard dick rocking against mine in that hotel bed before it all got fucked up. I had you, I fucking had you after so long and....." I shake my head at his words, biting down on my bottom lip and he stops speaking for a second as his frown increases and he says "No, don't you fucking try to deny it. I had you Gee, in that hotel room and in the hospital after, don't even try to tell me you didn't want me in that hospital room before Frank came along and fucked everything up yet again." "Ok but so what if I did, I'm married to Frank, I love Frank and I'm committed to making it work with him. I'm sorry Ian but I don't want you, not in that way. I just want my best friend back" I tell him and Ians face changes from a frown to a glare to a look I've never seen before and the next thing I know he marches across the small space between us and backs me against the side of the bunks, leaning in and smashing his lips to mine as his hand slides down and cups my crotch and I squirm against him as I brace my hands against his chest and try to push him off me but he just pushes back twice as hard as his hand squeezes my dick and it causes me to go a little limp, a pained whine escaping my mouth and he uses my slightly weakened state against me as he leans down and bites into my collarbone, causing me to scream out as I try to pull away but the damage is done and I know I will have a mark there, Ian just confirming it for me as he pulls away and smirks, saying "Good luck explaining that to Frank" before he turns and walks back into the front lounge and I run into the bathroom, locking the door behind myself before sinking down on the closed toilet as I start to cry, my hand coming up to rub over my throbbing flesh and I quickly stand, turning to look in the mirror as I pull the collar of my shirt out of the way and I see the red patch on my skin where Ian just bit me and I start to cry even harder, sinking to the floor and pulling my knees up to my chest as I sob into them until I can't breathe anymore.

Later that night while the guys are backstage getting ready for the show I sit in the corner of the dressing room by myself, remaining silent and when Frank comes over and kneels infront of me, asking if I'm alright I just shrug and nod vaguely as I say "Yeah, just got alot on my mind." Frank frowns, clearly about to press it further but I throw him a fake smile before standing and telling him I need to get going to get out to the merch table and he nods, pulling me into his arms and I tense up a little before melting against his chest and wrapping my arms around him, hugging back and praying he didn't notice my tensing."Love you" he tells me, pressing a soft kiss to my lips when we pull apart and I keep the fake smile plastered to my face as I say "Love you too" before letting go of Frank and heading for the door, catching eyes with Ian on the way and he just smirks at me, clearly having no conscience about what he did early and as I reach for the doorknob I raise my other hand and tug the collar of my shirt a little higher, trying to make sure the bite mark is still covered so no one can see it. The show that night passes in what seems like no time at all, all the merch I brought in from the van selling out and I consider going outside for more but the show is almost over and I have rationed the remaining merch for the shows left until we can get the next order and I decide not to mess with that. I start to pack up as the last song is on and as I'm making my way out of the back of the venue a few girls flock me, all of them crowding me and talking a million miles an hour, screaming to be heard over the noise and I find myself freaking out, feeling like I can't breathe and I turn and flee, taking off through the doors without a word and once I make it outside I run down towards the parking lot, security letting me through and I run straight for the bus, putting in the code and letting myself in and I dump all the stuff I had in my hands on the table in the front lounge as I make my way to the bathroom, locking myself in and sinking to my knees, curling up as tight as I can as what happened earlier runs through my mind, flashbacks of the alley way in Jersey hitting me too and I sit and cry until I hear a banging on the door and Franks voice calls out for me and I realise I have been sitting in the bus bathroom for well over an hour.

After I come out of the bathroom I collapse into Franks arms, my tears starting up again and Frank looks terrified as he drops to his knees under my sudden weight, his arms wrapping around me tight and I shuffle closer to him, feeling him shift around to sit and he pulls me to sit in his lap, my face buried in his neck as I shake and I don't seem to have any control over myself anymore, letting everything out and I vaguely register voices and footsteps, Frank saying something I don't catch before the footsteps fade again and we are alone. Frank tries talking to me at first, asking whats wrong and when he realises he's not going to get an answer he falls silent, just holding me and rubbing my back until I calm down again and he pulls back from me a little to bring a hand up to wipe at my cheeks, drying them a little before running his fingers through my hair. "Baby can you tell me what happened?" He asks again and I bite down on my bottom lip as it trembles again and I feel my body start to shake and Frank sighs before pulling me back against his chest again and I bury my face in his neck and remain silent, not wanting to talk about it. A little while later Frank guides me to stand, standing with me before taking my hand and leading me back to the bunks, pulling back the curtain on his and grabbing the bag and jacket that are in there, throwing them into my bunk instead before guiding me into his and I shuffle back against the wall, Frank leaning in and stroking my hair as he tells me he will be right back and when he leaves I curl up, closing my eyes and squeezing them shut until I hear footsteps coming and my eyes snap open again, seeing Frank come back into view with a bottle of water and he offers it to me, letting me take a drink before he takes one too and he puts the bottle in the end of the bunk for us before stripping down to his boxers, throwing his clothes in my bunk and when he asks if I want to take mine off I shake my head, my heart starting to race and Frank frowns and says "Atleast take your jeans off baby," his hands reaching in for my belt and we work together to get them off, my body feeling more comfortable without them and after Frank climbs in and pulls the curtain closed he turns to face me and I shake my head before he can speak, a frown crossing his face but he doesn't say anything, just pulls me closer as he pulls the blankets over us, letting me curl up against his chest before we go still and I fall asleep to the soothing sound of his steady heartbeat.

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