Making It Up

Frank's POV.

The week was slow but busy, the kid's were settling in well, but I just couldn't get him out of my mind. Every time I thought of him a pang of guilt would stab me in the stomach and I would be left feeling breathless. I treated him like shit for so many years, I apparently sent him to therapy, all because I was insecure about my self worth. I was going to have to meet him, I should face this, I needed to. If I've seen his name then the chances are he's seen mine, and has probably but two and two together with Lily, fuck, this was bad.

It was thursday, after dropping the kids off at school I went back home and ran some errands until it was time to go meet Ray for lunch. I checked my phone, it was 12:15, we had decided to meet at 12:45 but it took good 25 minutes to get in to town. I left the house shortly after and got in the car, on my way I thought about my situation more. Why had I targeted him so greatly, I had no other interest in making anyone else's life hell but his. In a way I did it as a fucked up sign of affection, but being the angry teenager that I was, It came out all wrong and it turned in to violence.

Then there was that question, that had always lingered in my mind. Was I gay? This confused me so much, it had probably been the biggest problem in my marriage. I had always just put it away in my mind, thought nothing more of it, because what was the point. I linked these feeling's with Gerard, I always had. But the strange thing is, is that I had never really had feeling for a man other than Gerard. I don't know if that's real thing, but it had only ever been him.

In my minds's absence I had arrived in town, I parked up and walked to where I was meeting Ray. As I neared the place, I saw a mass of brown curly hair, and underneath that, I smiling face. He spotted me and started waving frantically and beckoning me over. I walked over and we beamed at each other, it had been too long. We hugged.

"Oh my god man, its been too long!" Ray said as we released from our hug.
"Dude I know, its been so long, I'm glad you're seeing me now though, i"m in a much better way than I was a few months ago" I said as I awkwardly stared at my shoe's.
"well, it would have still been great to see you anyway" he said "anyway" he continued "I was wondering if you wanted to come to a gig tonight, meet some old friends of mine" he asked
"yeah, I mean, that sounds really cool man, I'll just have to see if I can get a sitter for the kinds and if I can I'd love to" I smiled
"great!" he said "also, I wanted to ask, how are you on the dating front, are going to get back on the horse?" he asked
"oh, um, I'm not sure really, I hadn't really thought about it, I mean do you have anyone in mind?"
"yes, actually, I think you'd really like him" he said, him? Had Ray really picked up on my sexuality when we were younger, I had never told anyone about it, maybe it was good he knew. Never the less, I still questioned it.
"uh, him?"
"Yeah, I just thought....well you are aren't you?"
"But I never told you, I didn't think you'd be cool with it"
"Yeah, I knew, but you were young, so I never said anything really. Its all cool with me" wow, that's cool of Ray, I mean i'm not actually really sure about my sexuality, so going on a date with guy could verify it, so why not.
"so what's he like?" I asked
"Well according to the other half of this plan, my old friends, I'm not allowed to tell you much apart from, he's in to tattoos" Ray said as he grinned
"cool" I smiled back

Later that night.

I managed to get a sitter that night, a teenage girl. I Kissed the kids goodbye a set off to my destination. I got there in good time and waited for Ray out side.

"Frank! Hey Frank!" I heard as my head jolted to the side to see Ray.
"Hey man" I said.
"come on in, my friends and "the guy" is inside" I followed him in to the venue, I watched him search for his friends until his eyes locked and he started walking over, he called their names and two short men turned around and met him with kind eye's. They had someone else with them, slightly taller, and had ruby red hair. They notice me looking.

"oh you must be Frank, I'm Patrick and this is Pete" he said kindly "but I know who you really want to meet, so Frank" the red head began to turn "this is Gerard".

Shock hit me, it was him.

Notes

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