Making It Up

I ran after him, why was he running? I mean I know why, but we aren't kid's anymore. I guess I really fucked him up.

"Gerard! Please! Stop! I don't want to hurt you!" I shouted after him.

He just kept running, I heard the others running after us, heard their puzzled shouts. He took a sharp turn in to a door way and slammed the it, locking himself in. I caught up and banged on the door.

"Gerard please! Don't do what I think you're about to do, please, let me in. I'm so glad you're here, I wanted to see you" I said hoping for a reply, one of Gerard's friends had caught up with me and was looking confused.

"Hey, I'm Pete by the way, what the fuck is going on with you two, where's Gerard?" he asked, now looking slightly more annoyed.

"Me and Gerard have some history, and if we don't this door open right now, Gerard is going to hurt himself and its all my fault" tears sprang to my eyes, fuck, don't do this Gerard.

"GERARD PLEASE! FUCKING PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR!" I shouted at the door whilst slamming on it repeatedly.

"Fuck off and let me die!" I heard from inside, oh no, oh fuck no. Me and Pete looked at each other with panic in our eyes. Pete started kicking at the handle and lock, a couple more kicks and the lock fell off. He shoved the door open and there was Gerard, lying there, bleach in his hand, choking on it, there was blood. He had found himself a bathroom, fuck. I ran over to him and cradled him in my arms, he looked at me with panicked eyes. I panicked, I had no idea what to do. Gerard then threw up on himself. Pete got out his phone and dialled 911 looking at me with panicked eyes.

"SOMEONE HELP, PLEASE?" I screamed, moments later Ray and his friend arrived at the door.

"Oh no, Gerard no" said his friend, he kneeled down beside us and looked at him, Gerard's almost conscious eyes flitting to him.

"Oh fuck" exhaled Ray.

"Ambulance is on its way" Pete said quietly.

"Stay with me Gerard, okay? Don't leave me" I said, as the tears sprung to my eyes once again. Other people starting arriving slowly, peering in with shocked faces, attracted by my load sobbing. The ambulance arrived within 10 minutes, I managed to keep him with me. I had done this, with just my presence. Fuck.

Notes

Oh god sorry guys, I fucked up, I know. Sorry. its back though
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