One year

This is going to be a serious post.

I don't want anyone to ever think they have to put out for someone or that if they don't say no it's automatically their fault.

Not saying no when the other persons aware that your uncomfortable is still assault if they don't stop.

You trying to move away is signal enough for them to know. And just because someone is a really close friend of yours does not mean you have to say yes.


I learned this the hard way and exactly one year ago today marks the date of my assault.


Those who read my stories see a lot about rape and self harm in them and there is a reason for it. A lot of my stories are actually variations of events that have happened to me.

I have one older brother who's is married to a girl whose one of eleven. We live with them now so I became one of thirteen. It's easy to be ignored(never on purpose) when there's so many kids and no one had any idea about the assault when it first occurred.

The person who actually went to kimberly (my mother in law) was Julie. Julie's the 8th oldest and she saw me changing one day and saw all the bruises. She thought I was hurt (being 10) and told her mom having no idea about what actually happened to me, which caused me to have to tell everyone what happened.

One of my best friends assaulted me and I regret not sticking up for myself and saying 'no' directly. I tried to move away and I told him I was uncomfortable but never said no. They can't charge him because of that.
I'm blessed to be in the family I'm in because they've gotten me to therapy and one of my older sister in laws was also abused and helped me a lot.

Speak up.

I promise you telling people helps a lot even if you're scared.

I still feel the hands on my body but I'm stronger now.

I lost my best friend because of this but after a lot of thinking I realized he actually wasn't a friend.

Please stand up for yourselves. It's been a year and im still here, you can make it too.

xoxox
mcrlove

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