even if you stop believing

I woke up at about 11 a.m. to the sound of my phone ringing. My mom didn’t come to wake me up this morning because she doesn’t have work on Sundays.
Anyway, the caller was my mom.
“Hi Gerard! I thought I’d call you to wake you up if you’re not up yet. I also called to tell you that I went to dinner with my friend so you know why I’m not home” she said.
“Okay, and thanks for waking me up” I said back, and soon the call ended.
I can tell from my mom’s voice that it’s not just a friend, she’s dating someone.
I swear. She’s been single for so many years.

Well, it’s Sunday now, I have nothing planned for this day.
I’m probably going to just draw and play some video games the whole day.
I’m drinking coffee in the kitchen now.
I take a look out through the large window, the sun is shining.
It’s getting so warm so fast, there’s hardly even snow outside anymore.
The spring is coming very fast this year, it’s still March and almost all the snow has already melted.
I hope the good weather lasts.

I’m very excited for the upcoming week.
Will my old friends still want to be with me? Will I get any new friends? What if my depression comes back?
Those are questions I can’t answer, at least not yet.
I hope it all goes well tomorrow.

Suddenly I hear some footsteps coming towards the kitchen.
I look at the doorway, it’s Mikey. He walks to the coffee maker, staring and smiling at me when he thinks I don’t notice, but I do.
He makes some coffee for himself and sits across me at the table.
I continue sipping my coffee and reading some comics.
Then his staring starts to disturb me more than even before and I stare back at him raising my right eyebrow questioningly.
“What?” he asks and raises his other eyebrow just as questioningly as I did. Is he stupid or something?
“Really Mikey? You ask me ’what’ when I’m the one who needs answers!” I almost shout.

“What? What have I done?”

“Like you didn’t know, you’ve been staring at me irritatingly for so long and I’m so confused! Why do you do that!?” I say, trying to stay calm.

“Oh that, I don’t know, I just like to look at you now that you seem so well” he says calmly and smiles a bit.

“But you know, it’s kind of really distracting” I say.

“I’m sorry-“ he starts but I interrupt him.
“And why did you have to stare at me and smile stupidly when you could just come to talk to me or something?” I ask. Mikey has got some real skills on confusing me, really.

”I don’t know. Maybe I’m just so used to not talking to you” he says. I can’t really blame him, I didn’t want to talk to anyone, and I hated everyone and everything. I loved the loneliness, which I love very much still.
But it’s obvious that the people around you alienates from you if you keep telling them to go away.

“I don’t know what to say” I mumble. I can just blame myself, though the staring makes me still feel so confused.
“It’s okay, I promise not to do that again” he says.
“Please” I mumble again.
He seems to have drunk his coffee; he gets up and puts the cup to the sink. My cup is empty too.
“Anyway, it’s very nice to see you finally happy bro, keep that smile” he tells me before he goes back to the living room.
It’s nice that Mikey talks to me again, but I still think he’s kind of stupid.
Now I’ve at least got an answer from him. I also got him talk to me again.

For the rest of the day I just played video games as I planned earlier, I also drew another picture of the boy that’s been filling my thoughts the whole day again.
I really want to meet him again.
I need to meet him again.
I can’t just forget him and continue my life without knowing who he was.

Before I went to sleep I was so excited for the next day that I almost screamed.
I had everything packed for the next day already.
I just couldn’t wait.

I also had a short talk with my mom in the evening when she came back home.
I was right; she had been on a date.
She had met some nice man through her job, I can’t remember his first name but the surname was Iero.

Notes

I personally think this is kind of short chapter, so i'm sorry for that :D
But It's a new chapter anyway c:
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I'll be updating probably tomorrow~