even if you stop believing

The guy is leaning on the railing with his arms and his face is covered in his hands, I think he’s crying.
But then something catches my attention.
He doesn’t have a jacket or anything on, just shoes, pants and a fucking t-shirt, what the fuck?
It’s still fucking freezing out here even if the spring is coming.

I start jogging towards him.

But what he does next really scares me, he climbs on top of the railing and that, that makes me run like a motherfucker.

“NO! GET DOWN!” I scream at him before I can even think.

He notices me.
He looks at me terrified.
I can see from his eyes that he’s been crying. He looks so fucked up, he kind of reminds me from myself.
He stares at me, and then he looks at the cold water below the bridge, then back at me.

“DON’T DO IT!” I scream as I run and take my jacket off.

He seems to think.
Then he looks like he’s made his choice and the next seconds feel like hours.

I reach him just as he’s going to jump.
I throw my jacket on the ground.

I stick to his hips and drag him to the bridge’s sidewalk just before he would’ve been gone.
We both fall onto the ground. My butt hurts a bit.

We’re both quiet. I still have my arms wrapped around him. I can’t believe I just saved someone’s life.
He’s breathing slowly, but loudly.
He gets up and sits on the ground, leaning to the railing, he starts to sob.
I pick my jacket and put it on his small shoulders. He doesn’t resist.
I also take my scarf off and put it on him, he needs it more now. I’m happy I put a long sleeved shirt on today.

I sit down across from him.
I look at him. He looks very young. He has a black hair that almost reaches his shoulders, and it’s a mess. His eyes are red and swollen, just like mine used to be. His cheeks and the top of his nose are red because of the coldness. He’s sobbing quietly and I can see a few tears running down his red cheeks. His beautiful pink lips are trembling.

“Are you okay?” I ask. Oh my god I’m stupid, of course he’s not okay!
“I’m cold” he whispers between his sobbing.
“I see. Can you walk?” I ask. I’m not going to just leave him here.
“I don’t know” he whispers. I need to get him to somewhere warm.
I’m getting very cold too.

Well, there’s not much I can do so.

“Get up” I command.

He gets up.
He’s so small.

I lift him up bridal style and start walking home.
He’s so light; it’s pretty easy to carry him.
“What the…” he starts.
“No resisting. You’ll thank me later” I say. Oh boy I’m getting so cold, I better hurry.

I walk as fast as I can, for him and for myself. We’re both so cold.
I can feel that he’s staring at me.
As I get to my door, I put him down. He looks confused and tired.

I open the door and tell him to go downstairs to my room.
I close the door and go to the kitchen.
I make us both some hot chocolate, since we’re both been so long in the cold I think it’s a good idea.

As I get them ready I head to my room.

I find him sitting on my bed and looking around.
My jacket, scarf and his shoes are on the floor.
I offer him the hot chocolate and he takes it.
“Thanks” I hear him whisper. His cheeks are still red, just like his eyes.
“No problem” I say and smile at him. We’re going to have so much to talk about in the morning.

We drink our hot chocolates in silence, but it’s not an awkward silence. We’re so exhausted, cold and confused.

After we’ve both drank, I take the cup from him and place the cups on my drawer.
“I didn’t expect any guests for the night so we’re going to sleep on the same bed if you don’t mind?” I tell him. I just want to sleep. I’m so thankful now that I have a large bed.
“Whatever” he says. He goes immediately under the covers and seems to fall asleep right away.

I get under the sheets very soon after him too. It’s so warm.
And so weird, like, I’m lying here next to a random boy whose life I just saved and whose name I don’t even know.
It could be worse; this boy is even cute after all.
Oh god no I didn’t just think like that.

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What the fuck is happening?
I feel something.
I open my eyes and realize something.
Somebody has his head resting on my chest.
It’s the boy, he’s asleep.
I take a look at the clock, it’s 5:25 am.
I better not wake him up, he would probably get embarrassed.
I wrap my right arm around his waist and continue sleeping.
Just before I’m going to fall asleep, I hear a whisper.
“I think I love you” he mumbles. He’s just talking in his sleep.
I smile anyway, and then fall asleep quickly.

Notes

thank you guys for the comments ;--;;
they make me so happy c:
..anyway as you can see, here's another chapter :D
finally they meet each other :3

i'll be updating as soon as I get the next chapter done~