even if you stop believing

I can see the shock on his face.
I know I look the same.

I can’t believe it.
It’s not possible.
Just as I thought the weird coincidences would end.
I feel like fainting.

Her mom said that he has been sad today, and didn’t go to school because of that.
I can’t think of anything that would’ve made him sad but myself.
I feel more horrible than ever.
I don’t even know him. I’m so selfish.

Suddenly he doesn’t seem so shocked anymore.

“Hi, I’m Gerard” He says, smiles and comes closer.
“I’m Frank…” I mumble as I try to avoid his gaze. I’m blushing, I can feel it.
“I know” he whispers to me, and I see him smiling widely as I quickly take a look at him.

I just want to hug that pretty boy so bad it hurts.
I wish I could live the night over again, though it was the night I was the most fucked up.
I slept in his bed, my head on his chest, and his warm arm around my waist.
It’s so strange to think that the person is in the same room with me again and that I’m in his house again. It feels weird to think that I’ve slept in his bed.
After all, we’re still almost like strangers to each other.

Life can be so weird.
It can be full of the strangest coincidences.

Gerard goes to talk with my dad; they seem to get along well.
So, the fact that our parents are dating, means that I’ll have to spend a lot of time with Gerard and Mikey in the future.
It’ll be awkward for some time, but I can’t complain. It’s at least Gerard; it’s so weird to know his name. Like, the guy who saved my life has a identity and everything now.

I also like Donna very much, especially her sushi.
She seems to be a good mother and my dad likes her very much, they really fit together.
My life seems to be getting better, by these little things once at a time.

Donna is already collecting our plates, chopsticks and all.
“What now?” dad asks.
“I thought you came here to eat dinner with us, now you can go home if you want to” Donna tells my dad as she fills the dishwasher.
“But it’s just six o’clock, I’d like to spend more time with you” my dad says. I’d like it too, I could be with Mikey or something.
“Of course you can stay longer if you want to” Donna says and smiles at my dad.
“Okay” My dad says and goes to kiss Donna on her cheek.
Then he turns to us.
“You boys go and do something together” he tells us.
Mikey looks at me and I look back at him, we both raise our eyebrows and start laughing immediately.

We walk to the living room with Mikey, and sit on the bright red sofa.
Their house is so colourful, I love it. I feel a bit sorry for Gerard, we left him all alone.
I just don’t know how to communicate with him, what to say to him.

“So, what now?” Mikey asks.
“I don’t know” I answer. I’m so boring.

“What kind of music do you like?” he asks.
“I listen to almost all kinds of music; it’s just about the moment. Sometimes I like to listen to something like Marilyn Manson and sometimes I listen to jazz and sometimes I like to listen to Iron Maiden and stuff…”
“You listen to Iron Maiden?” he almost shouts.
“…Yeah?”
“I love them!” he screams.
“They’re really amazing” I say.

“Let’s go to my room!” He says and grabs my arm.

He leads me to his room.
On the way he suddenly says something.
“Gerard listens to Manson too”
“Really?” I ask. That’s weird.
“Yeah, he’s a big fan of him”
“He doesn’t really look like that…”
“Not anymore” he says.

Then he opens the door to his room.

It’s amazing.
It’s very big, and his walls are covered in posters and it kind of looks like my room, except it’s much bigger. He’s got a large collection of different action figures too and all kinds of stuff.
There’s also a whole shelf full of band stuff, all Iron Maiden albums, more albums, books and so much more stuff.
I adore his room so much.

Suddenly someone else enters his room too, it’s Gerard.
I already missed his face.

“Mikey, you don’t mind if I borrow your friend for a moment?”
“Find your own friends” says Mikey, that’s so mean.
Gerard looks at him with the face of ‘what the fuck bro’ and Mikey looks at him with the face of ‘whatever you idiot’.
Gerard grabs my hand and whispers something like “We need to talk” into my ear. Oh my god I love to have him that close.

Notes

here it is, a new chapter! :D
I'm sooo excited for tuesday, we're having the gig then ;-;

anyway, i've already written the next chapter so i'll probably post it tomorrow :D
bye~