Born To Lose

I'm so sorry for anyone who thought that this was an update, since I haven't updated in over 2 weeks. I'm really sorry for anyone who think's I'm complaining about my life, and/or just trying to get attention, because I'm not, but here are what I think are reasons (I said think because people could view them as excuses) for why I haven't updated.

- I am afraid to gain weight, so I've stopped eating breakfast and lunch, and I was a little happier, but one of my friends who has an eating disorder now is making me eat lunch at school.
- I can feel my anxiety getting worse whenever I talk to people who aren't in my little friend group.
- I have found out that I am a lesbian due to the HUGE crush I have on a (just my luck) straight girl.
- My friends (except for that one friend I mentioned earlier) haven't even noticed how emotionally unstable I've gotten with anxiety and everything, and the only one to talk to me was my reading teacher today, who only did so because my work quality was going down.
- I'm starting to wonder who my real friends are.
- I spend most of my time feeling numb.

These are my reasons/excuses/whatevers that I have for not updating. In defense of my case, wrestling has also just started, and I haven't gotten in the swing of that yet, so I haven't had much time, and I've tried to write a chapter 3 times, but the site keeps deleting it for no apparent reason.

The next thing that I would like to address here is the fact that I am actually starting to get upset with myself for writing this story. It is just like all the other high school frerards out there and it has no origionality whatsoever, so frankly, I'm bored. However, I have said I will not drop this story, so I will finish it, it just might take a while, and there might not be much left. To help with this, I have been struck with an idea, and will be starting that very soon, so if any of you are really really bored, or would actually like to check it out, it will be called Can't Find My Way Home.

Notes

So yeah that's basically it. I feel bad for anyone that I have upset with his author's note, but I felt that all of it needed to be said.

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