He’s going to end his life and you know what the funny part if is? You can’t stop it.

“All that blood around your Frankie’s body because YOU failed him. You let him die. You’re broken and tainted Gerard. What makes YOU think YOU have what it takes to save him? You can’t even save yourself. You’re worthless. Pathetic. Ugly and exactly what Frank said a SLUT!” A unknown voice says. “Gerard?” I hear Frankie cry out. “Frankie?” I looked around me. I was in some sort of forest. “Why didn’t you help me? You promised me you’d help. You just made it worse. Why do you hate me? I loved you and you treated me like shit. Before I leave just tell me why.” He can’t leave me I won’t let him. “Frankie I love you. I always have. I am trying to help. I don’t know how too! I’m scared of losing you. I’ve never hated you. Please don’t leave me!” I hear an inhuman laugh and Frankie comes into sight. “You NEVER loved me. That’s why you were screwing Pete and Oli behind my back! You’re pathetic and ugly. You were a waste of my time. I shouldn’t have met you. If I didn’t meet you my life would be so different. I wouldn’t want to die!” Tears stream down my face as I can only sit and watch Frank holding a knife and putting it to his throat. “I hope you’re happy Gerard. You’ve broken someone so much they want to die.” Then I let out a scream as he drew the knife hard across his neck and the blood squirted everywhere until he finally fell to the ground.

“Gerard! Wake up!” I bolt upright when I hear Frank’s voice. I glance at him and he looks scared. “What’s wrong? You’re sweating like crazy.”I am indeed sweating and the bed is soaked. I climb out of bed and head to the bathroom not answering him. I climb into the shower and hear Frank moving around in my bedroom. I begin to think about my dream. Did he mean what he said in the dream? Am I breaking him even more? Did he want to die because I’m a shit boyfriend and friend? Of fucking course the dream Frank was right. He did slash his arms up because of me. I couldn’t hold it in any longer and I fell to the shower floor crying. Arms Immediately wrapped around me. When I looked at the arms they were still clothed. “Shhhhh Baby it’s okay.”I hear Oli’s voice over my crying. “Baby listen to me I’m right here, okay?” Frank said as he grabbed the towel Oli was holding and put it round my waist as best he could from where I was sitting. “Gee, I’m going to turn the shower off okay?” Pete’s voice this time. Oh man they’ve all seen me naked now. Least Mikey, Ray and Ryan are not here right? I look up and scan the room. Oh shit they are. Everyone has worry plastered to their faces. At least the arms belonged to Frank.

After Pete had turned the shower off, I grab the towel and turn to face Frank and burry my head in his chest hiding my face from everyone views. I hear Ryan talking to Pete about getting my parents back. Oli talking to Ray about how worried they’re about me. I hated all this talk about me. “STOP TALKING ABOUT GEE LIKE HE’S NOT HERE!” Mikey’s voice boomed and made everyone jump, but me, including Frank. He apologised to me straight after. “Look I get you’re all worried about him. So am I. I know him best and this is not how to help him. No parents or they’ll keep questioning him and bringing whatever is botheringhim up all the time. No talking about how worried you are either, Okay?” I hear everyone mumble a yeah including Frank.”This is how it’s going okay? Ryan and Pete go to the shop and buy shit loads of pop and sweets, chocolate and all that jazz. Oli and Ray go and make a meal. As for me I’m going to do the washing. Frank you’re the one he needs right now. Everyone go do as I asked.” Everyone filled out and went of to do ask Mikey said. Mikey stayed behind to gather my clothes from the floor and the bedroom, then he left.

It was silent for a while. The only noises coming from Ray and Oli upstairs talking about what to cook. I hear Mikey putting the washing in and then his voice joined in with theirs. “Gerard? Shall we move now? I will go grab you some clothes, alright?” I nodded and he moved. He stayed stood in front of me with his hand open for me to take. I just stared at it and hugged myself tightly, staying put. He sighed and left. A few minutes later he returned. “Here you go.” He said and left the room again after placing the on the countertop. I stood up and quickly got dressed. I slid down the counter and stayed there. Five minutes later I heard Frank shout from the bedroom. “You dressed yet Gee?” I ignored him. Why is he helping me if he’s so unhappy with me? I heard his heavy footsteps approach the bathroom. “Gee?”His voice was cracked and when I looked up to meet his gaze he had tears sliding down his cheek. He still managed to look beautiful. He fell to his knees right in front of me.

He went to open his mouth but I cut him off. “If you hadn’t of met me your life would of been different.” He looked confused, then sad and finally he broke out into a smile. “Yeah it would of been. Want to know why?” Why is he fucking smiling? Is he happy I’ve realised this and was about to end it? “Because I’m a fucking screw up, I’m fucked in the head, I’m a shitting boyfriend and you deserve better?” He lost his smile but it soon appeared again. “No Gee I’d be dead. You’re the only thing keeping me going. I don’t that you’re a screw up or that you’re fucked in the head. These things make you YOU. You’re far from a shitty boyfriend. You treat me like I’m the only thing that matters. After everything I’ve put you through, you were still there for me. I fucking love you for it.” I scan his face for some sort of hint he was lying. He has to be right? I mean everything Dream Frankie said was true. It had to be. I come back empty handed. He really did mean it. I launched myself into his arms and started to cry again. “Shit Gee please don’t cry.” I pull away and look at him as I smile widely. “They’re tears of Joy Frankie, I love you too.” I kissed him like there’s no tomorrow.

Once me and Frank are ready we make our way upstairs and join the others in the living room.

Mikey: “What movie do you want to watch then Gee?”

Ryan: Why does he get to pick the movie?

Mikey: It’s our house and he has better movie taste so.

Ryan: That’s not fair.

Oli: Actually it is. Plus we all know Gerard is the fittest in here. Plus we kind of did see him naked. So if he picks a shit movie it’s payback.

I ended up blushing and hiding my face in the crook of Frank’s neck.

Frank: You know Oli I’m going to let what you just said slide. No more talking about Gerard like that, okay?

Anger was in his voice while he said that. I’m assuming Oli nodded because Frank said good.

Ray: This jealously thing needs to stop Frank. Gerard’s not going to leave you. Now let him pick a movie already.

Mikey: Seriously Ray? Stop talking about him like he’s not here!

Ray: I wasn’t.

Mikey: Oh no? ‘Gerard’s not going to leave you’ Is talking about him like he’s not here
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They ended up in an argument and I couldn’t take it anymore. “FUCKING STOP IT!” I screamed As I climbed of the couch and everyone jumped. All eyes were on me. “I want you all to leave now! Ray and Mikey you better have sorted this out by school tomorrow. You’re supposed to love each other and all you’re doing is arguing. Mikey I get you’re trying to help but you’re only making it worse. Just get out everyone!” Everyone gets up to leave. Mikey and Frank say behind. “I said EVERYONE get out. Including you two.” Mikey goes to protest and Frank looks pissed. Frank leaves and I but in before Mikey can say a word. “I need time alone and you NEED to sort your relationship out with Ray. So out.” He goes to protest yet again and I shove him out the door slamming and locking it behind him.

I’ve been in the house for about four hours by myself. I needed that time alone. I called everyone round again and told them to forget everything that happened today. So we are all currently watching IT. Mikey and Ray sorted it out thankfully and are closer than before. Frank’s softly snoring next to me. Pete and Ryan are cuddle up together because they’re both scared of clowns. Oli is all by himself texting and smiling at his phone. He looks up at me and smiles. I return the smile and he shoves some popcorn in his mouth as he looks back to the TV. Overall this was a good night once we restarted it all. Though I knew Mikey and Frank would want to know about my dream.

Notes

So Tayana here.
Briar is returning so she will be cleaning up all my mess.
Oh she said expect some SSS and lots of it. ;)
Love you all.
BriarlovesFrank and Frankieboyx <3 xxxxxxxxxxx