You're not quite Satan but I really think I hate you!

I wake up to small quiet sobs. I jump out of bed and look around trying to locate where the sound was coming from. I finally realised it was coming from my bathroom. I quickly made my way over to the noise and nearly tripped over Frank’s shoes. Wait what is he doing here? My brain finally kicked in and everything processed in my brain sending me wide awake. I burst into my bathroom to find Frank sitting on the floor with his head in his hands, hands resting on his knees which have been pulled up to his chest. I can tell he’s trying his hardest to be quiet. “Frankie, baby. Come here.” His head shot up and he eyed my open arms but stayed where he was. He returned his head to his hands and cried harder. As I approached him though he shouted at me. “Don’t you dare come closer. Don’t touch me.” I sighed and settled for sitting on the floor where I stood. Apparently I wasn’t allowed to do that either because he said and I quote “Leave me the fuck alone. Get out and leave me be.” Even though this was MY house and MY bathroom I left him too it. I laid back on my bed after slamming the door and fell back to sleep.

“Gerard?” I heard Frankie voice as he shook me awake. “What?” I snapped without opening my eyes. I heard him sniffle and it was followed by “Never mind.” The bed rose and I opened my eyes to see Frank heading upstairs. “Frank wait. I’m sorry. I’m just stressed and tired.” He didn’t say anything and carried on walking up my steps. You’ve really done it this time Gerard. I pulled the cover over my head and groaned. Why did I haveto fuck it up? I mean he needs me and what do I do? Be a twat. I really don’t want to lose him more than ever now. Not after what he did. Hang on is that coffee I smell? The covers are immediately chucked off the bed as I jump up and turn to Frank who’s starts to laugh. “Dude it’s only coffee.” My mouth dropped wide open and I scoffed. “It’s not only coffee Frank, it’s my life line.” He shook his head and handed me a cup. I smiled brightly at him and downed the coffee in one without even feeling the burn. I sighed in pleasure at the taste. “Thank you Frankie.” I say as I put the cup on the side.

“I’m sorry Gerard. I know you don’t want me now, but I want you to know I love you.” What the fuck? “Frankie why wouldn’t I want you?” He looked down towards his arms. “Frankie now you listen to me alright? I don’t care that you now have scars, I don’t care what you look like. I fucking love you and as I said yesterday I’m NOT going anywhere. Never again. I love you too much for that, You got that?” He looked up at me and smiled. He managed to launch himself into me without hurting his arms and crashed his lips to mine. “Oh I almost forgot. We need to be careful. I mean we can still go public but I saw my father yesterday. He’s in town. I don’t want you to get hurt so we have to be careful. Do you understand?” I really wanted to tell him it was all in his head but would that kill him. “I understand sweetie.” He frowned at me. “Don’t call me that.” “Why?” I asked. “You called Pete it all the time. Wait are you into Pete?” He stood up pacing the room. “God no Frank. I was helping a friend.”He scoffed at me. “Liar. That’s why I caught you in the hospital all cosy and cuddling up to him. So how long has been going on? I mean were you even going to tell me? What about Ryan? Does he know? Bet you were planning on going to the prom with him to before I got in the way. Am I right?” Just keep it cool Gerard, keep it cool. “Well? I guess you were living the life I titled you as.”

“You know what Frank? Yeah I was going to go with Pete to the prom. Then I realised he would be better going with Ryan seems he actually loves him and doesn’t call him a slut all the time. I never dated Pete. I just made him feel wanted without using him as my own personal whore like you did. I mean how could you if your so called Dad is hunting you? It’s all in your fucking head Frank! Grow up and realise you need help!” I clamped my hand hard over my mouth once I realised what’d I just said. “Excuse me? I Saw my dad the yesterday! It’s not in my head how dare you try and make me sound crazy. You’re crazy! I hate you! I never want to see you again, I hope my Dad finds you!” With those last words stinging my heart he left the house in a rush. I brought that on myself. If Pete was right, which he was last time, I had to find Frank soon before he did something really stupid. Worse than shredding his arms. I took off in a run after him. I can’t lose him, not like this. I just hope I find him before it’s too late.

Notes

Tatyana here again.
So I made them fight again.
I shall go hide under my rock again.
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