Blood and Love

Gerard sat down next to me, making me feel weird. He wasn't weird, though. He was normal. I was weird, I guess. That's why it felt weird. Because I'm a weird person. I looked over at his smiling face, and wondered if he thought I was weird. Then I realized he couldn't hear my thoughts, so I was indeed pretty safe from his judgement.
I went over the events that had taken place in the past few minutes. Of course, Amy and Josh had to be weird. But they always were, so it's not that bad. This was pretty normal for the Lee-Hartzler household. Me being quiet, them being weird. About as normal as your everyday routine. This may as well just be our everyday routine. Because it's so normal. But I hated this guest thing. It's not normal, and I don't want to spend time with people.
"What are we sitting around for? Let's talk! Why don't you guys ask some questions about our darling Nikki over here?" Josh proclaimed. I fake-smiled a big, cheesy smile and waved.
"She ain't darling." Amy said with a fake look of disgust. I laughed and nodded. Josh clearly didn't know what he was talking about. "Just last week, she bit my finger. That is not 'darling'."
"I second that." I said, raising my hand.
"Yeah. Yesterday, she hit me with the broom while sweeping" Josh replied. I smiled fondly at the memory. "It wasn't funny!" he whined. I laughed a little, and nodded my head.
"Hey, but atleast we have someone who will sweep." Amy said. Josh looked at the ground sheepishly. "But, guys, really, Nikki isn't bad. She's really kind and sincere when you get to know her. Despite all of her... perks. And she had a rough time with the-" She paused to look at me. I began to feel sick.
"With the what?" Red asked. She examined my face.
"I don't think she's ready to talk about it yet." Amy replied softly. I nodded, and looked down at the ground, refusing to think about it. What was it? you ask. It was a pregnancy. A teen pregnancy, with that. I was pregnant at one time. The vampire that changed Amy raped me. That's how I got pregnant. Later on, he came back to kill me and the baby, but only succeeded in killing the baby. Thinking about it is the worst. I loved that baby, even if the father tried to turn me into a vampire.
I kind of wish I was stronger. Though vampire are very strong, and Amy was strong enough to defend me.
"It's okay Amy. We understand." Frank replied. Red and Gerard both nodded sympathetically. I pretended not to be bothered, but thinking about my child made me sick.
"I know you guys do. That's why I trust you guys with my sister. If I didn't trust you, I wouldn't let her near you. An please do not let her buy a two liter bottle of Coke. She drinks it all in one night and stays up until six am and sleeps all day. If she's listening to Pierce the Veil, don't disturb her. That's her happy time. If she has nightmares- I shouldn't say if. When she has nightmares, don't wake her up. She'll wake up by herself. Just ignore her screams if you can. Oh, and if she sleep walks, just don't get creeped out. It's normal." Amy instructed. She got everything right.
Yeah, I get nightmares. They're about the vampire guy. I scream alot. I dream that he's attacking me again, and I can't save the baby. I couldn't save the baby. I'm always unable to move or scream. I just have to lay there while he kills my baby.
"Wow. She's a complicated one." Gerard said. Red elbowed him. "Oww."

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