But little did I know...

1 pm. Finally!

Gerard and I went to the Starbucks that was three blocks from college.
"Frankie, choose a table, sit down, I'll be back", he said, and then left. He said that really fast and I thought it was weird because he never speaks like that. Anyway, I sat down and my mind wandered.

"Is this a date?... Nah, I don't think so... Mikey said Gerard likes me, but... did he hear that from his lips or is it just a hypothesis? Where did he go?"

Gerard came back, with two big capuccinos. "I don't know if you like capuccino, if not, sorry. Just tell me and I'll get something else, I don't want you to feel forced to drink something you ha--"
"It's okay", I said. "I do love it."
And I do love you... did I think it or did I actually say it aloud?

We talked about nothing and everything. He showed me some of his drawings and I showed him some of the poems I wrote. When he read one of them, called "And Everything Fades" he remained silent. I looked at him, and he was crying.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Nothing, just me and my goddamned mind", he replied, taking a napkin to wipe his tears.
I didn't know what to say. I wanted to say something, but no words came to my mind. I hated to see him crying like that. Was it because of my poem? Did it bring him bad memories? So I just hugged him.

"Shouldn't have done this. I don't know what I'm doing or why I do it", he said, with shaking voice.
"What do you mean?", I asked.
"All this shit. I mean... I've been weaving stories inside my head, as usual, and I'm sure they will fucking kill me, as usual. I don't even know if..."
"If what?", I asked, with a little little tiny voice.
"I shouldn't have come here", he said. "I have to go"

He ran away. I know you all expected me to say that I immediately ran after him but I didn't. I was frozen. I felt unreal. Everything was unreal around me.

Notes

Here you have it, I had a different thing in mind but it came out like this, but this one's better, I think. You may expect a new chapter in a few hours, I supposedly know how it'll start but again it might end up being something completely different. One never knows. Anyway. Enjoy and tell me what you think.