love is forever

We arrived at my house and I could fell my heart drop, I could feel the weight in my chest and I felt like crying. I suddenly felt a hand on my leg, I looked up and saw a concered look on the boys face next to me.
“Are you alright?” Gerard ask.
“Yeah sure, why would you ask?”
“your whole body shakes.” he squeezed my upper leg.
I said nothing and got out of the car, I couldn't deal with his shit right now. I walk to our porch, where mom always sat on late summer evenings and read her books, this house was full of memories I didn't wanted to think of in this moment.
I walked up to the front door and stretched my hand out to open the door but I couldn't get my hand to open it, I couldn't do it.
I heard the planks of the front porch creak and saw Gerard standing next to me, he reached out and opened the door. With a small noise the door swung open and reviled a painfully silent house.
I went up the stairs to my room, I wanted to get out as fast as I can. I got out my suitcase from under my bed and throw everything into it. As almost all my clothes were inside of the bag I looked around the room and surched for stuff I wanted to take with me. My eyes fell on an old photo of me and my mom that was on my bedside table. That was the last thing I needed to break down, I thought I was strong enough but I wasn't. I drooped to the floor and buried my face in my hands, I could feel my hot tears slip through my fingers, everything I wanted was my mom to be here and hug me and tell me everything is going to be okay but nothing was going to be okay.
I could feeling that someone stood behind me, I felt strong arms lifting me up, Gerard carried me to my bed and laid me down. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked down on me.
“I know this is hard and I don't know how to help you but I'm here for you if you need me.”
I felt myself getting angry, what does he know and why does he even care.
I was so angry and I couldn't hold myself back.
“COULD YOU PLEAS SHUT THE FUCK UP?! I don't care if want to help me, I don't care about you and all your acts of kindness, you are pissing me off. What do you even know?! NOTHING, YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME AND ABOUT HOW I FEEL.”
I stood up from the bed and Gerard did the same he looked shocked, I was kind of shocked as well but I was so angry, not just because of Gerard, I was angry at myself.
“Hey look I know you are angry but you don't have to let it out on me. I really want to help you, I want to be your friend and not because of pity, I want to be your friend because you seem really nice.”
I looked at him with a shocked expression and he obviously noticed it too. He start to smile and I felt myself blushing.
“Is it so strange to hear that someone likes you?” he ask and ruffled through my hair.
“I-I...umm no, but we don’t even know each other, how can you like me?”
“I think you're cute...oh sorry I mean you are cool”, now it was his turn to blush.
“anyways do you have everything?” he ask and looked around my room.
“Yeah almost, I think I'm gonna take the posters with me, if that's alright with you?!” I asked because I knew almost all the walls in our room were full with his posters.
“Sure I can hang off the posters on your side off the room, so you can hang up yours.” he said smiling.
“Thanks, would you mind hanging off the blink-182 and Sum 41 posters over there?”Gerard turned to the left wall and admired the Sum 41 poster for a second.
“Man this poster is awesome, god I loved that Band when I was 14, well I still like them but I don't really listen to them.” I was kinda shocked because I didn't understand how someone could just stop listening to Sum 41.
“I really love them, so don't say anything wrong.” I said in a serious tone and looked at him over my shoulder.
He looked at me and smiled. I turned around and started to hang up some posters on the other site of the room. I could hear Gerard mumble something and it sounded like god he is so cute and I couldn't stop myself from smiling.

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