love is forever

Two weeks after the doctor appointment, moms condition was really bad. She is in the hospital now and I'm currently at her bed. I was so afraid and I couldn't imagine my life without her.
I looked up as I heard her groan.
“Mom are you okay? Can I get you something?”
A weak smile formed on her lips. “I'm alright baby, but if you could get me a drink of water cause my lips are chapped, that would be great.”
I gave her a glass with some water and then sat down in the chair next to her bed.
I was just thinking about what I would do if mom wasn't here anymore as her voice stoped my train of thoughts.
“Frankie can you sing for me?”
“Umm sure mom...” at first I didn't know what to sing and I was a little embarrassed to sing without music in a quiet room. But then I had an idea and I started to sing.
Hold me now,
'Cause I couldn't even if I tried.
It's over now,
I guess it really is my time.
I don't wanna go,
But it's time I gotta say goodbye.
So hold me now,
'Cause this will be our last time
I'm slowing down,
And I don't think that I can fight.

I toke moms hand and tried to hold back my tears.

I know somehow,
You'll find a way to live your life.
Remember just to live
Every day like it's your last.
And hold me now,
'Cause I think it's time for me to pass.

Tears started to stream down my cheeks and I kissed her hand. I wanted to go on with singing but at the time I opened my mouth, I heard a loud constant beep instead of a beep every second and I knew exactly what had happened.
Nurses came storming into the room and told me to wait outside but I couldn't move. I stared at my mom in shock. A doctor came inside and said something to the nurses and they tried to get my mums heartbeat back but it didn't worked.
A nurse came to me and leaded me outside, I started to cry and fell on my knees and punched the ground and screamed until my throat was sore.
After a while I couldn't cry anymore I just sat on the ground next to my moms room and stared at the ceiling.
5 minutes later the doctor came out of the room and sat down in front of me and told me that my mom was dead. It was hard to actually hear it but I felt nothing, I couldn't accept it. My mom couldn't be dead.The doctor called a nurse who told me that she would drive me home so that I could get my stuff that I needed for the night and then she would bring me to a children's home. I would stay there for the night and tomorrow a person from the youth welfare service would talk to me and discuss everything.
Everything happened so fast, right now I was in the car of the nurse, we had stopped at my house to get my stuff. I got some clothes for tomorrow and my pj, then I went to my moms room and toke her pillow, it still smelled like her. I started to cry again, everything was so unreal, I just want to be with mom and no one else.

After a 30 minutes drive we stopped in front of a big yellow house. The woman took my bag and hold my hand. I really appreciated her kindness, we went inside and she smiled at me.
“Everything’s going to be okay” these words willed my eyes with tears again and I remembered how mom said it to me and silent tears fell down my cheeks.

Notes

song - Crash sum 41
listen to it, it's really good