Disenchanted

its 3:00 am.
I woke up to the same re-occuring dream. "FUCK" I screamed. realizing what had happened earlier. I broke out into tears again. I looked at my phone and I had one message..... I hoped it would be from Gerard but that would be unrealistic considering I never gave him my number. The message was from my mom saying " Your father and I, wont be able to make it home for your birthday. Sorry xoxo". I threw my phone across the room and went downstairs to grab some water. I could hear that Alexander was still awake watching tv in his room. I never really spoke to him unless I was hungry or needed a ride somewhere. I am always alone and never have anyone to talk to. I opened the fridge and grabbed a water bottle and headed back upstairs. hmm I wasn't upset that my parents weren't coming home for my birthday.. The last time they were here on my birthday was when I turned 10 soo Ive gotten used to it. Aslo, I cant stop thinking about Gerard. I hope he doesn't hate me. I started crying again and before I knew It, It was morning.

It was 7:00 am.
It was saturday so I jumped out of bed and threw on some sweatpants and a Black Flag t-shirt and went outside for a smoke. I looked over at Gerard and Mikey's house. I kept thinking about going over there and telling Gerard how I really felt but I couldn't get the courage to go over there. I start to daydream until I hear the door open from Gerard's house. I turned to see who opened the door and it was Mikey. Mikey saw me and walked over to me saying " Oh hey Frank whats up." I replied with " Oh just chillen out here .. its quite cold." " Yeah." he said as the somewhat conversation faded into an extremely awkward silence. " Where's Gerard?" I asked. " Oh, he's not feeling very well today soo I don't think he will be leaving the house. My grandparents are taking care of him " he said. then Mikey said .... " wanna hang out today.. haha i have nothing to do." " yeah sure "I said.

Notes

hmmm Guys its almost Ieroween lol Im excited. But my day has kinda been ruined cause for the first time today I read The Panic at The Disco Milk Fic ..... lol It was soo weird. Title is from the song Heaven Knows Im Miserable Now by The Smiths