Disenchanted

t's 3:00 in the morning, when I suddenly awoke from a horrible nightmare. I woke up crying and in pain, as if someone I care so deeply about is dying right in front of me. Exactly what happened in my dream... But who was this person who I love so deeply in my dream? I try to remember his face but I can't. How can someone I can't remember bring so much sadness to me?
It's around 4:00 am now and I am now sitting in a bathtub full of blood. I couldn't help the urge to cut. I've been dealing with depression since elementary school.. I am now in my junior year of high school. They are five deep deep cuts on my left shoulder and two deep slashes on my wrist. I thought to myself I just feel so alone! Then I said it out loud. I finally screamed it!! I was at the point where I didn't care if anybody heard me. Not that anyone would hear me, cause my parents are never home. They spend their time at their house in France.. Far away from their fucked up kid.
I'm going to try to go back to sleep now
Time lapse
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It was 6:00 am. I awoke to the sound of my butler (Alexander) saying " Mr. Frank I'm afraid if you don't wake up now you are going to be late for school". I then got dressed in my black jeans , red and black stripped sweater, and black converse. I put on a little eyeliner (I think It makes me look pretty badass). I thought to myself, everything will be okay today. Then I grabbed my back pack and walked out the door.
As I was walking I noticed a kid with black hair (kind of long) wearing a black leather jacket ,with a black t shirt ,and grey skinny jeans. I thought to myself he must be one of the new kids that moved in two doors down. Then I heard someone yelling "WAIT UP!!! Please wait.. Gerard please". It was a skinny kid with dirty blonde hair, who wore glasses. He was wearing a beanie, an old Iron Maiden shirt, and black skinny jeans. They both saw me and they came up and introduced themselves. The dirty blonde haired kid said " Hi! I'm Mikey, and this is my older brother Gerard. We are new to this area and new to the high school. Do you think you can show us how to get there?" I said " I'm Frank. Yeah. I can show you.. We can walk there together. So we walked to school, but on the way there Mikey and I were talking. and I noticed Gerard was staring at me .. He hasn't even said one word to me. I looked at him and I noticed he was very handsome :). He has beautiful hazel eyes and he kind of looked like an angel. Mikey was off to his first class. He said " bye guys. Oh frank! Lets all meet up for lunch, okay?". I said " okay, see ya later". I could tell that Mikey and I would become good friends. When he left I realized I was alone with Gerard... Which was kind of awkward. He was still staring at me. I looked around and noticed that many girls were looking at him. As if he were Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides. He Finally spoke " Hey Frankie .. Do you like horror movie?" I thought to myself what kind of question is that? But I responded with " yes I love them". He said " do you want to hang out after school with Mikey and I? Maybe we could watch one?" To be honest I wasn't paying attention to what he said I was still noticing all the girls drooling over him. Not really knowing what he said, i responded with " yeah sure". Gerard smiled and said "cool see you later Frankie". I thought to myself, Did he just call me Frankie? Why?. ......I kinda liked the way he said it. He said it in such a soft tone. WHAT WAS I EVEN THINKING? Am I attracted to him? NO NO NO.. I tried to shake that thought from my mind. I then walked into my first class.

Notes

So this is the first chapter :D.. sorry if its kinda bad. I will try to make it better. The title of this chapter is from the song 'Alone" by Sleeping With Sirens.