Falling For You

Blaze POV

I woke up to an alarm clock. I open my eyes and saw I wasn't in my room. I was sleeping in Gerard's room.

I then remembered why I was sleeping here. I was raped and Gerard was there and saved me.

In a way, he isn't just my best friend or my crush. Gerard is my hero. I am in love with my hero. He doesn't know it yet, but he has saved my life multiple times.

If only he knew how much hope he is to me. If only he knew how much I love him. If only.

I sighed and rubbed my eyes. I got out of bed and went down stairs to wake up Gerard.

"Gerard," I said quietly and shook him.

"Gerard. Wake up." I said again.

"Mmhmm," Gerard said rolling until he fell off the couch.

"OUCH!" Gerard said now fully awake.

"Good. You're awake, clumsy," I said and laughed a little.

Gerard gave me a death glare before I helped him up. I headed to the kitchen, since I already had my uniform on, and Gerard headed to his room.

I waited for Gerard for a couple a minutes. I then realized I didn't have my shoes on or the school blazer. Well, I had to go get them at Gee's room.

I sighed and headed to Gerard's room. I forgot to knock on the door. When I opened it, I saw Gerard without a shirt. Damn him for being beautiful!

"Sorry!" I said. and quickly try to get out.

"No, it's alright. You can see me without a shirt," Gerard said.

"Still. Sorry I didn't knock on the door." I said.

"Well, I guess that's not okay. I guess," he said.

"Alright. I'm just going to get my shoes and blazer and go to the kitchen," I said picking up my blazer and putting it on. It felt really fucking weird. It was surprisingly big on my arms and didn't had the form of a girls' blazer.

I looked at Gerard. He had his shirt on now and was putting on his blazer.

When he put it on, it looked weird on him. The sleeves are a bit short for him. We gave each other a look like 'what the fuck'? Then we realized, I had Gerard's blazer and he had mine.

We gave our blazers back and went to the kitchen. I put on my shoes as Gerard makes coffee and his breakfast, which is Coca Cereal.

"Are you going to eat?" Gerard asks as he takes the seat next to me.

"I don't eat in the mornings," I said looking at the time.

"You ate two days ago here in the morning. What's up with that?" Gerard asked.

"Well," I start, "whenever I eat, I don't feel good, at all. So I assume I can't eat in the morning," I said. It was all a lie. I wanted to be skinny.

"Oh, well, I guess that really means you can't eat heavy stuff in the morning. Why don't you eat a yogurt instead? Mom bough some yesterday." Gerard said as Mikey walked in.

"Like I said, I can't eat if I don't want to have the feeling of vomiting it all up." I said.

"Why would you have a feeling of vomiting up your breakfast?" Mikey asked.

"Because that's what happens when I eat breakfast. So I decided not to eat in the mornings, got it," I said.

"If you say so," Gerard and Mikey said simultaneously.

I look at the ceiling and start to think about my weight. I weight a lot. Last time I check how much I weigh was a physical test two months ago and I weighted 205 pounds.

The doctor said I was over weight. Really, I didn't think I was over weight. I looked pretty skinny. I had curves. I guess most of my weight is from my thighs and according to my Mom, my own bones.

I fit in size 10 jeans, so was I really over weight? Back then I would of said no but now, now it's a yes.

I actually hate everything about myself now. I also hated how much I love Gerard. Like really, I don't think the guy will ever like me. Any guy or girl will never like me. I'm a fucking potato!

Then there's school. I fucking hate school with all my guts even though I had the best grades and was an honor roll student.

I hated the fact that today was only Tuesday. Fuck Tuesdays, I never have art or music on Tuesdays. I sigh.

"What are you thinking about?" Mikey asked.

"Nothing," I lied. I'm really good at lying. Except when I'm sleeping.

As I kept thinking about school, I forgot I left my books home. Fuck!

"Shit," I said quickly standing up.

"What?" Mikey and Gerard said simultaneously.

"My book-bag! It's back home." I said.

"We'll go with you," Gerard said,

"Thanks," I said.

Once they finish eating and grabbed their things, we go to my house to get my book-bag. I knock on the door and Jennifer opens it.

"Blaze! Are you okay?" She said.

"I'm fine. I'm just here to get my book-bag and that's that!" I said marching in and grabbing my book-bag.

"Hey emo!" Carlos said from the kitchen.

"Fuck you Swaggot!" I said and left to the front door.

"He still calls you 'emo'," Mikey said with a disgusting face.

"Sadly yes. That's why I ran away yesterday," I said.

There was a pause.

"You're not telling the complete story, are you." Gerard said as a statement.

I look at him. I open my mouth to say something, but quickly shut it. What the fuck am I going to say? I guess I can lie, but Gerard and Mikey will be suspicious...

"Maybe," is all I said.

"Are you going to tell us?" Mikey ask.

I bit my lip. Am I going to tell them? No, well, yes. Maybe.

"When it's time," I said as I saw hell.

We walked and went to our lockers. As I close my locker, the 'Hot A's' stand around me. Shit, now I'm really fucked.

"Hey emo dyke!" Adriana said.

"What the fuck you you girls want," I said annoyingly.

"We're going to make your damn life miserable, bitch!" Amanda said.

"I don't know, Amanda. You're pretty stupid, considering you don't know what the difference between 'you're' and 'your'." I said.

"Now you pay bitch!" Amanda said and grabbed my hair.

"Ouch!" I said.

Once they got me to the ground they started kicking me with their shoes. Since they're all in dress code, I'm lucky that they're not wearing high heels but flats. It still hurt.

Ashley then kicked me in the stomach. Once they thought I had enough, they left. I quickly got up and ran to the restroom.

I had blood on my face and hands. At least the only bruises will appear on my back and stomach. Maybe my arms? I sighed and cleaned off the blood.

"Do you want me to take you to the nurse?" Said a girl with blond and black hair. She made it look cool.

"Uh, no. But thanks," I said returning to cleaning my bloody face.

"Who did this to you?" She asked again. I don't remember her at all, I never seen her, so I'm guessing she's a new student.

"The Hot A's," I said and she gave me a confuse look. Yep, she was new. "You're new here," I asked.

"Yep," She said.

"Well, let me warn you. If I were you, you better stay out of the Hot A's way. They're three girls in the group. Two are blonde's and ones a brunette. As you can see, I still haven't learn my lesson," I said still cleaning my face.

"Well, thanks for warning me. I'm Miranda Smith," she said and held out her hand.

"Blaze Loya," I said shaking her hand.

"Nice to meet you," Miranda said and left the restroom.

I pray that she lives through this year.

I went to math class with Gerard. I notice Miranda also had the same period as I do.

"Is today block day?" I asked Gerard.

"Yeah, did you forget?" Gerard said.

"Yeah," I said and sighed.

Block day is basically when all of our classes are only thirty minutes long. Plus, we leave early too. Thank God!

"Class, today we'll be learning..." Mrs. Williams said.

I didn't pay much attention in math class. But I'm surprise that I did understood the lesson. Odd. I sighed and looked at the new girl. She seems nice. I just hope she has great music taste. Maybe she can be my first 'girlfriend'. Not dating like but you know, friends.

I never really had a 'girlfriend'. All friends I ever had were boys. And by boys I mean Gerard and Mikey.

The bell rang and I was off to science.

Science really was fucking disgusting. We had to dissect a frog and I'm not going into detail.

I sighed again and the bell rang. Thank fucking God! That meant lunch time! Oh wait, I'm not eating, I almost forgot.

I sighed and went to my locker and down to the cafeteria. I had lunch period with Gerard and Mikey, which it good.

I got my tray and sat where the guys were.

"Hey Blaze," they said simultaneously.

"What's up," I said sitting down. "Hey! Lets invite the new girl to sit with us," I said.

"Miranda?" Mikey said.

"Yep." I said. "Wait, does she have lunch now?"

"I think she does. Not sure," Gerard said.

I looked over at the line and saw that Miranda did have lunch right now. As Miranda got her tray of food, she looked for a place to sit. I waved at her to come sit with us. Miranda smiled as she saw me and headed over to us.

"Hi Blaze!" Miranda said.

"Miranda, this is Gerard Way," I point at Gee, "and his younger brother, Mikey Way," I said then turn to the guys. "Guys, this is Miranda Smith!" I said and they said hi.

Ten minutes into lunch, Gerard asked me something.

"Why aren't you eating?" Gerard asked.

"Uh? Oh, I lost my appetite after science class." I said. It wasn't a full lie, I really did lost my appetite. Plus, poor frogs had to be dissected!

"What are we having in science?" Mikey said. Science was one of the classes I didn't have Gerard or Mikey in.

"We had to fucking dissect a frog." I said and it gave me shivers.

"I guess that's reasonable. But, you haven't eaten since yesterday at your house," Gerard said.

"I'm fine Gee." I said. "Oh! That reminds me, be at my place around five," I said.

"Alright," Gee said.

The bell ringed and Miranda and I headed to our lockers.

"I want you to meet a cousin that I have that goes here." Miranda said.

"Who?"

"You know Hayley Smith?" Miranda said.

"Yep. Oh, she's your cousin. I wouldn't have guessed." I said smiling.

"Yep. And since we get out in thirty minutes, you can come to my place for a visit after school? Before Gerard goes to your place. We can talk about bands. Do you like bands?" Miranda said.

"Are you kidding me! I live for bands!" I said.

"Great! So after school?" Miranda said.

"Yeah," I said.

"Hi Blaze!" Miranda said walking with a girl with black hair and pale skin. "This is my cousin, Hayley. Hayley, this is my new friend, Blaze." Miranda said.

We both said hi. As we were in a conversation, the Hot A's come to us. Fuck...

"Well, well, well. Looks like the emo dyke has a crew. What are you call? The Emo Cluts?" Ashley said and Amanda and Adriana laughed.

I rolled my eyes. "Real mature stupid whores." I said.

"Bitch! We're not whores!" Adriana said.

"The way you girls wear your school uniform skirts screams a big fat 'YES'!" I said.

"At least we're not fat like you! Go die in a ditch, bitch!" Amanda said and they left.

"Those girls are so mean," Miranda said.

"Yeah, well, welcome to hell. This high school is hell on earth." I said and closed my locker. We then headed to Miranda's house.

I've gotten to know Miranda and Hayley more. We all like the same bands! That is fucking great! Miranda moved to our school because her parents wanted a better education. The whole education thing is true. Our school is one of the highest in the state of New Jersey.

But the bullying, makes it like hell.

"I'll be back you guys," Miranda said and left the room.

Hayley and I sat in silence for a moment.

"So, they call you an 'emo dyke', too," Hayley said looking into my eyes.

"Yeah. And I'm guessing by the way you said it, so do you," I said looking back at her eyes. She has blue eyes. I actually like her.

"Well, they're just bitches," Hayley said.

"I think most of the school agrees with that statement," I said smiling.

"I like you," Hayley said.

"I like you, too," I said but she laughed. "What?"

"You don't like me the same way I like you," Hayley said.

"What?" I said again. I was literally confuse by what she said.

"Here, let me show you," Hayley said and she moved close to me and press her lips against mine.

I was literally in shock. I held my breath. I kissed her back. But as I kissed her, I didn't get the spark feeling everyone talks about when they're in love. I guess it's all a metaphor, right?

Hayley pulls back and she is blushing. Why the fuck is she blushing!? I am really fucking pretty!? Holy fuck!

"Like that. S-sorry if you d-didn't want me to kiss you," Hayley said a little bit disappointed.

"No, I like you too like that," I said. Really I did kinda like her.

"Really!?" Hayley said looking at me. I nod and kiss her.

"Well, we have some romance going on," I head Miranda said. As I pull back, I quickly blush and so did Hayley.

"So, are you guys dating?" Miranda said taking a seat on the bed.

I looked at Hayley and Hayley looked back at me.

"Yep. Just now," Hayley said.

"Awww. I'm so happy for you guys!" Miranda said and hugged us both.