Frank's POV

I couldnt feel anything. No matter how hard I tried, I couldnt break through the numbness to face what I'd done.
"Frank? You with us?"Gerard's face suddenly appeared in front of mine.
My eyes came to focus on him and I nodded then went back to staring at Cole's dead body. A shout pulled my eyes away from it again.
"Di!"Someone wailed.

"What? Di- no NO DI!"That was Gerard. Oh god. I couldnt stand with my leg so I started dragging myself over to where everyone was crowded around Di. Dewees had thrown himself across her body and was sobbing heavily. Everyone else was crying as well. My arms gave out and I fell down, panting heavily.

I dont know how long it took for us all to get out. Maybe an hour? No one knew what to say to the police when they arrived at the hospital. I think in the end Gerard told them everything. Right from the beginning.

Gerard was the only one that didnt need any medical care. All he had was a black eye, a bloody nose and So it was him that made all our decisions. As far as I could tell, Mikey Ray and I were in the IE. Gerard was talking to a nurse and I just managed to overhear their conversation before I passed out from the drugs.

"Rooms wise I can do three, two two's and a one. Take your pick."
"Put Pete and Mikey together. Ray and Bob together. Dewees, Brendon and Ryan together and put Frank by himself,"Gerard sighed. And then I passed out.

-time lapse-

When I came to I was in a small hospital room with a weird tightness around my head and leg. There was a needle in my arm begging me to itch it. I blinked the sleep out of my eyes and looked around the bright white room. The only dark thing in it was Gerard asleep on a chair next to the door. His eyes had dark shadows ringing them and he was still wearing the clothes covered in blood.

It was then that everything came back to me. The way I hadn't hesitated when I had gotten into the basement. I had just shot them. Without even giving them a chance to surrender. I clenched my eyes shut, begging the images to go away. But instead they ran around and around my eyes, taunting me.
"Okay. Yes."
"Promise me."
"I promise I'll wait til tomorrow."

"Oh god,"I croaked and put my head in my hands, feeling the thick bandage wrapped around my forehead.
"Frank?"Gerard whispered. I looked up to see him sitting up straight and staring at me.
"Gerard... Gerard I'm-"
"Dont say it. Dont you dare say you're sorry Frank,"Gerard cut over me. I cleared my throat and nodded. Gerard stood up and silently walked over to me,"Explain."
"E-explain what?"I looked up at him, forcing to look and see the grief and worry and hurt that I had caused.

"Explain to me why you went behind my back after you promised me, promised me, that you you would wait til tomorrow. Frank you lied to me. You went behind my back and lied. You said you would wait and you didnt. Instead you wrote a pathetic note and left. To try and take on Cole. By yourself."
"Gerard I didnt mean to hurt-"

"To hurt me?"Gerard started pacing around my bed,"Frank you have no idea how much you've hurt me! Because of you, we lost Di! Because of you, we might lose Mikey! Because of you, eight fucking people are dead Frank. Because you couldnt wait a few hours."
"When you put it like that it sounds terrible but-"

"There isnt another way to put it Frank! I had no idea what to do! I told the cops everything and I'm probably going to be arrested tomorrow. As soon as you're stable enough they're taking you as well. We are all going to prison because of you,"Gerard spat at me. Before I could say anything he was walking out.

What the fuck have I done?