"I can't believe I'm doing this,"Cas muttered as he did up his seat belt.
"Neither can I actually."I grinned at him and did mine up as well.
"I swear Samantha is going to know. She's- she's gonna find out,"Cas gripped his arm rests and looked around in a panic.

"Cas, hey, it's gonna be fine. She think's you're on a business trip. With me. Gabby and Claire are helping us with it all. Just forget about everything,"I placed my hand on top of his and gave him a warm smile. He took in a deep breath and slowly returned my smile.

The seatbelt light went on and the air hostess took her place at the front of the plane as she started doing all the safety shit with the air masks and crap. I looked out the small window onto the tarmac. I couldn't see the girls anymore because the plane was slowly turning around. The shock of actually inviting Cas to be my plus one at the wedding was only just hitting me. A married man, who still hadn't told his wife he was gay, was lying to her so he could go to a wedding full of people he didn't know, with me. His wife thought we were on a business trip. Lily had been ridiculously pissed off but hadn't wanted to be the home wrecker so had kept her mouth shut. Claire and Gabby had been really excited about their family being joined somehow.

"I really don't like planes,"Cas stammered out as the plane picked up speed. His hand grabbed at mine and squeezed tightly.
"It's gonna be fine. Just- keep squeezing my hand,"I squeezed back and tried to relax a bit more for Cas' benefit.

A few minutes later we were in the air and Cas was reading his book calmly. As I pulled my book out to read, I couldn't shake the horrible feeling that something bad was going to happen over the next three days.

-time lapse-

"I'm starting to wish I drove here,"I sighed as the taxi pulled away from the curb.
"Why's that?"Cas pulled his eyes away from the window to give me an inquisitive look.
"Because I miss my car already. I don't like taking taxis."
"Fair enough."

It took about half an hour to get from the airport to our hotel. Once we had dumped our stuff, Cas had turned to me with a look of glee in his eyes,"We have got to go to that fun fair that we passed."
I stared at him, struggling to figure out if he was serious or not,"You- are you kidding me?"
"No! I really wanna go!"

"Okay I guess so. I took Claire to it when she was about three. Apparently it was the best day of her life,"I chuckled.
"Well there you go. Come on, lets go now. We've got the whole day to spend there!"He grinned.
"We can walk there. I hate taxis,"I said as I grabbed my jacket and wallet.

-time lapse-

"We have got to go on that,"Cas said as we stared up at the haunted house.
"Come on,"I grinned. I grabbed my roll of tickets as we rushed up the steps to where the vendor looked bored, reading a book.
"Two please,"I said gleefully.

Without a word, he ripped off the tickets and pulled back a curtain behind him. Cas grabbed my hand and dragged me forward into the darkness. The sound of screaming kids and laughter was cut off along with the light. Instead all we could hear was cheesy scary music and evil laughs.

"I fucking love these things,"Cas pulled me forward slowly, linking his fingers with mine.
"Same. They're literally the greatest things out because they're not actually that- holy mother of god!"I screeched suddenly as a skeleton dropped down in front of us.
"You were saying?"Cas giggled.
"Shut up."

We continued on through a vampire themed room where Count Dracula jumped out at us, moaning about drinking our blood in a terrible accent. We went into a room full of mirrors making us look ridiculous. We spent a lot of time laughing at each other in that one. We found stairs so we made our way up them. It opened up into a large ballroom. There was a weird hulking guy, like a cross between The Hulk and Frankenstein, dancing with a dead zombie wife.

At the sight of us they stopped dancing to the record that kept skipping and came over to us,"Dance! You must dance!"She drawled. She grabbed me before I could do anything and dragged me into a messy waltz. I could smell the make-up and sweat and it was making me feel sick in the stuffyness of the room.

"Dance with your partner! Dance!"She shoved me towards where the FrankenHulk was pushing Cas towards me.
"No passing until you dance!"He growled. Cas grabbed me and immediately had his hand on my waist and the other in mine. I placed my free hand on his shoulder and started clumsily stepping about.

"This is ridiculous,"I giggled as they started clapping, running around us with weird grunts.
"I want to get out of this place. It's giving me a headache,"Cas muttered.
"Come on,"We stopped dancing and looked for the exit.
"No. You must dance."
"I feel like I'm gonna pass out. I want to leave the haunted house. Is there an emergency exit?"Cas groaned.

"Oh shit. Yeah, sorry man. It gets really hot in here doesnt it,"The FrankenHulk smiled sympathetically and walked over to a hidden door,"There's a little first aid area just down the ramp. Feel better soon dude,"He held the door open for us.

"Come on, Cas,"I put my arm around his shoulders as we walked down the ramp into a well lit airy tent.
"Can I get some water?"Cas muttered. Before I could say that we'd go and buy some, someone passing by handed Cas a bottle,"Thanks."

After Cas' dizzyness had passed, we laced our fingers together and walked out of the tent. It was on the side of the haunted house. As we walked past the haunted house again, something caught my eye. It was photo's of people that had gone through the house. At the end you could get a picture taken with someone bloodied up and in chains. Usually I ignored these things because they were so over priced, and we hadn't even posed for a photo. But a group of people in particular had made me stop and almost throw up.

"Frank?"Cas moved in front of my face,"You okay? Do you want some of my water?"
"I- they're not- they're supposed to be in England,"I uttered out. Gerard had grown his hair out and dyed it black again but the roots were aqua blue. Mikey had shaved the sides of his head and had bleached the top. Bob had a nose piercing and Ray looked as normal as ever.

"Frank what are you on about?"
"The- them- My- My Chemical Romance, I got Lily to tell you about it?"I tore my eyes way from the photo of them all looking the happiest I had ever seen them.
"Oh right- oh shit. Thats them?"Cas looked to where I had been looking.
"Yeah I-"
"So they're here and not in England then... Do you want to go back to the hotel?"

I shook my head violently,"No. This is the first time you've ever been to Jersey. I'm not gonna let this ruin today,"I put a smile on,"What do you wanna do now?"
"Frank I honestly don't mind."
"No no. Come on, lets go on the boat ride?"I raised an eyebrow at him.
His look of worry broke out into a grin, lighting up his ocean eyes,"Okay."

We walked slowly around the place, trying to find the boat ride. Neither of us were really looking properly, just chattering about random things.
"There!"Cas suddenly cut over my rant about how spoilt Claire was, pointing to the boat ride.
"Nice spotting,"I grinned.

"Two please,"Cas smiled at the vendor, handing her the tickets. She let us through to a wide open floor. There was only one big long boat, the front half full.
"I thought it was gonna be single boats,"I said as we slowly walked across the empty floor.
"Same... Oh well. Maybe it'll be fun?"Cas shrugged his shoulders.
"Hope so,"I muttered as I climbed into the seat first, Cas' hand on my back as he followed.

Ten minutes later, the boat was full and we lurched off into a dark tunnel. We slowly climbed a hill, the only sound the clanking of the rails and the water running down around us. The tunnel opened up into a woodland area, tonnes of fake animals singing an annoying song as we moved through.

"I think this might have been for kids,"I said slowly as I heard a little girl scream with joy.
"I think you're right,"Cas said as we moved into a new room filled with fucking fairies and pixies and all sorts of girly shit.
"Well this is a waste of time,"I groaned and sat back in my seat.

Cas gave a huge groan folded his arms on the bar, resting his head on his arms. I chuckled slightly and tried to block out the annoying music. The boat suddenly stopped, throwing everyone forward. The music cut off, the lights went out and the safety bars flew up. After a few seconds of silence a bunch of kids started screaming.

"Please remain calm and remain seated,"A voice echoed over a speaker,"We're experiencing a blackout. The back up generators are starting up now. The lights will be on- there."
The lights came back on but fortunately, the music didnt.

"Unfortunately, the ride won't start again so please wait til a staff member arrives,"The voice crackled off. I expected there to be a burst of conversation but instead there was just quiet murmuring. Cas and I looked at each other, unsure of what to do, when the voice came back,"We currently have no one available to escort you off the ride. Please remain calm and enjoy the music while you wait."

I let out a groan at the thought of that music coming back on but instead the radio turned on. The voice of a dj echoed throughout the room, going on about some competition. Then he had a caller on the phone with a request.

"Hi can you please play The World Is Ugly by My Chem?"The girl asked hopefully.
"No..."I whispered.
"Sure thing, thanks for calling. Remember people, I'm taking requests all day. You're listening to The Rock, here's My Chemical Romance with The World Is Ugly."

"No I- I need to get off this ride."
"Ay? Why?"Castiel looked at me as I frantically searched the fairy set for an exit door.
"This song I can't listen to it no,"I put my hands over my ears and bent over as far as I could, trying to block it out.

"These are the eyes and the lies of the taken. These are their hearts but their hearts don't beat like ours. They burn 'cause they are all afraid. For every one of us, there's an army of them. But you'll never fight alone 'cause I wanted you to know that the world is ugly, but you're beautiful to me. Well are you thinking of me now?"

"Someone turn it off!"I shouted, looking up to try and find that god damn exit, not being able to stop myself from taking in the words.
"Frank shut the hell up and tell me what's going on!"Cas grabbed my shoulders and made me look at him.

"These are the nights and the lights that we fade in. These are the words but the words aren't coming out. They burn cause they are all the same. For every failing sun, there's a morning after. Though I'm empty when you go, I just wanted you to know."
"No no no..."I groaned, not even caring about the tears that had somehow found a way out.
"...is ugly, but you're beautiful to me. Are you thinking of me? Like I'm thinking of you. I won't say I'm sorry though. Though I really need to go, I just wanted you to know."

"There's an ache in my heart. And there's a burning in my eyes. I'm thinking of you every night, every day. These are the lies and lies of the taken. These are their hearts but their hearts dont beat like ours. They burn cause they are all afraid."
"Someone make it stop please!"I stood up to try and get a look at the place. That was when I saw him. About 5 seats back. Staring at me.

"Cause the world is ugly but you're beautiful to me."
My hands dropped to my side as we stared at each other.
"Are you thinking of me? Like I'm thinking of you. I wont say I'm sorry though. Though I really need to go. I just wanted you to know."

We still hadn't broken eye contact. I couldn't really see him properly through my tears but I knew he was still looking at me.
"That the world is ugly but you're beautiful to me. Are you thinking of me? Stop your crying. Helpless feeling. Dry your eyes and start believing. There's one thing they'll never take from you."

"Admit it. You're a mess. You'll never be the same. Lost forever. Like ghosts in the snow. Like ghosts in the sun."
"Frank,"Cas stood up and made me tear my eyes away from Gerard to look at him,"You need to take a breath okay? The song is over. Just take big breaths okay?"

I closed my eyes and nodded, wiping the tears away as we sat back down. I felt numb. I couldn't even process what the lyrics meant to me and what they meant to Gerard. I knew exactly what he was singing about. But my brain didn't want to process them. Just left them floating around in my brain.

Before I knew it, Cas was pulling me over to him, wrapping his arms around my shoulders and rubbing my back in a circular motion. I clung to his jacket and took in a deep shuddering breath.
"Gerard sit back down! You'll get in trouble!"I heard someone yell. It sounded like Ray.

"What'a going on?"Someone shouted. I looked up to see some sort of security guy standing on the set, looking at the back where Gerard was sitting. Before I could stop myself I jumped to my feet and climbed onto the set.
"I need to get out I need fresh air,"I gasped.

"Dammit Gerard!"Someone shouted behind me.
"Frank!"Gerard shouted desperately.
"Don't let him near me,"I begged, darting forward to find where the man had come from.

"Sir, I'm gonna need you to go sit back down while I get this gentleman out,"I heard the guy say. I sent out a silent thanks as Cas joined me, pointing to a hidden door behind a fairy throne.
"No- you don't understand! Frank wait!"Gerard shouted.

"I need water,"I said quietly once we were out.
"Are you okay? Claire didn't mention anything like that,"Cas said as he guided me over to a seat, unscrewing the lid from his water bottle.
"It- that song is about me. That was the first time I've ever actually listened to it. I- I think just knowing that he was at the fair and then having that song play and then seeing him on the fucking ride was all too much for one day."

Cas nodded like he understood which I suppose he did.
"I just need to call Miranda. I'm really sorry,"I sighed.
"She your therapist?"Cas asked, notifying me that I had invited a guy I hardly knew across the country to go to a wedding with me.
"I-"I let out a laugh,"No. Just a good friend who knows what I'm dealing with."
"Then call away my friend,"He smiled at me.