Kill This Venom From My Heart

The next morning I wake up early, unable to sleep any longer to find Gerard tossing and turning beside me, his face screwed up like he's in pain and I feel my heart thud painfully as I think about how it's my fault he's so troubled now. I gently pull him over into my arms, his head resting on my chest as I wrap one arm around his back, my other hand coming up to gently stroke his hair back, running my fingers through it as I softly say "Gee my love, wake up. You're ok, it's just us" and he slowly opens his eyes, blinking hard a few times before he sits up and I let him go, watching as he runs his hands through his hair, regaining his breath before he slumps back into the pillows, rolling over and curling into my side again. "Sorry" he says softly and I shake my head as I say "What for?" "For waking you, I'm sorry." "Don't worry about it, are you ok?" "I....I don't know" he says softly and I sigh as I tighten my arms around him, offering silent support. "How about you try and get some more sleep? You look tired" I say softly after a few minutes and Gerard lets out a small yawn and says "I don't know if I can." I start gently stroking my fingers through his hair again as I start to sing softly, singing what I have learned are Gerard's favourite songs and after the second one Gerard's breathing is deep and even and I smile as I hold him close, happy I could help. I let Gerard sleep for a few more minutes on my chest before I gently ease him off onto his pillow and climb out of bed, leaving the room and quietly closing the door behind me before going downstairs and grabbing my phone, calling Ryan and telling him I won't be able to make it to the studio today, explaining briefly what happened last night and he says "It's ok, take a few days if you want. I'll call Bob and Joe and they can start laying their tracks or something. I hope Gerard feels better soon." "Thanks" I tell him before hanging up and I smile at how good it feels to be a proper band and family again after so long spent fighting.

An hour later I go back upstairs to check on Gerard and I find him still sleeping, sprawled out on his back in the middle of the bed and the sheet slung low on his waist is tented out, making me smirk to myself as I cross the room and gently climb onto the bed beside his legs, easing the sheet down to reveal his boxers covered erection, a small damp patch at the head and I lean in and skim my nose along the cloth covered flesh, breathing in his scent and I feel my own dick twitch in interest. I glance up at Gerard's face and he looks peaceful and it would be a shame to disturb him but I can't help myself, my hormones taking over as I lean in and start placing sucking open mouthed kisses to his lower stomach and hips, working my way across from one hip to the other as my fingers hook in the waistband of his boxers and I tug them down as much as I can, watching the trail of hair grow darker and thicker the further they go down until I see the base of his dick, thick and flushed and I follow his boxers with my lips, kissing and licking my way down as more and more flesh is revealed until I bury my face in the patch of flesh above his dick, kissing and sucking and inhaling his musky scent, my head spinning with want and Gerard makes a small noise, a mix between a sleepy groan and a needy whine and when I tilt my head to look up at him he's watching me curiously with heavy lidded eyes. "What are you...." He starts but I cut him off by demanding "Lift your hips." Gerard obeys, bracing his feet against the mattress as he lifts his hips off the bed for a second and I tug his boxers down, his flushed dick springing free, hitting against his lower stomach and he groans softly at the feeling. "Baby" he pants out as I move down, trailing my tongue from the base of his dick all the way to the head and I lap at his slit, collecting all the precum there and teasing him a little, feeling his body shake beneath me as I work his most sensitive spot. "Frankie" Gerard pants out when I slide my mouth down over his length, taking him in almost the whole way and when I slide back up I release him from my mouth and say "Wanna ride you." "Fuck, yeah, please" he pants out and I climb off the bed, removing my own now too tight boxers and grabbing the lube from the drawer. As I climb back onto the bed Gerard shifts around so he's half sitting against the headboard, his eyes glazed over with lust as he watches my every move and he reaches out and takes the lube from my hand, slicking up two of his fingers before reaching out and guiding me over to straddle his lap, pulling me in for a kiss as he slides his hand around and presses two fingers at my entrance. "Don't tease" I pant out, feeling desperate as I squirm around and try to press down onto them and Gerard smirks as he pulls them back, keeping them pressed against me but not pressing to slip them inside yet. "Baby" I whine, trying to press down against them again and Gerard chuckles and refuses to give me what I want, a sly smirk on his face and as he leans in to kiss me again he thrusts them into me with no warning, sinking them in deep and I scream into his mouth, my body tingling in pleasure as he grinds his fingertips into my prostate. "Oh god, fuck Gee" I pant out as he starts a rhythm, fucking me open with his fingers and just as he opens his mouth and pants out "You ready for my cock now baby?" I groan softly, feeling so turned on hearing him talk like that and the doorbell sounds and I remember the guys to fix the window were due this morning. "Fuck" I gasp out, Gerard's fingers slipping from me, a disappointed look on his face as I climb off the bed and pull on pyjama pants and a loose tshirt, trying to will my erection down enough that it's not fully noticeable. "I'll be right back" I tell Gerard as I leave the room, pulling the door closed behind me and I rush downstairs, opening the front door and showing the two guys to the broken living room window. "How long do you think it will take?" I ask and one of them looks at me and says "Well we'll have to measure but I think we have one to fit in the truck so probably about forty five minutes." The two guys turn to the window, removing the tarp and getting out a tape measure and I run back upstairs, going into the bedroom where I find Gerard sitting on the bed stroking himself lazily, his mouth slack and his eyes half closed and he looks blissed out, the room smelling slightly like sex already. "Starting without me?" I ask as I take my shirt off again and Gerard opens his eyes fully as he says "I wasn't sure if you were coming back." I tug my pants off, throwing them across the room as I climb back onto the bed, straddling Gerards lap and leaning down to kiss him before saying "I'm ready for your cock now baby."

Notes