Kill This Venom From My Heart

The next morning I wake up alone in my bed, sunlight streaming through the open blinds and I groan as I roll over and crack my eyes open, seeing Gerard sitting across the room on the window seat, watching me intently, an unreadable expression on his face. "Hey baby" I greet him, my voice still rough with sleep and Gerard frowns as he says "How many other 'baby's' do you have?" "What?" I ask, confused about what he means when he picks up something laying beside him, holding it up for a few seconds before throwing it at me and I see it's the black lace panties Jamia left behind. "Babe" I start but Gerard cuts me off by saying "Who's are they Frank?" I sit up and slide over to the edge of the bed as I say "Jamia's." "Fuck you" Gerard spits as he stands up and I stand too and rush over, wrapping my hand around his wrist before he can leave the room. "Baby it's not what you think, she left them here that night she...I don't remember doing anything with her and we talked about this baby, I thought we were ok?" "We were, until I found out you're keeping her panties. Were you planning on seeing her and giving them back? Or are you missing her that much you need to keep them?" "No baby I never want to see her again, I'm yours completely and I would never do anything to fuck that up." "Then why do you still have them?" Gerard demands, his eyes slightly red and watery and I sigh as I say "I didn't know I did, where did you even find them?" "In the hamper, I thought I would wash the clothes in it and I found them." "She left them on the floor in here and when I was tidying up to leave I picked up all the clothes off the floor and dumped them in the hamper, I didn't realise they were still in here, I swear nothing is happening babe" I say, trying to calm Gerard down and he sighs, nodding slowly as he says "Ok."

Later that afternoon I have tidied up the entire house and Gerard has spent the day curled up on the window seat in my bedroom, hunched over his sketch pad as he gazes outside, ignoring me after this mornings drama. I just finish transferring the last load of washing from the washer to the dryer before I go upstairs again, stopping in the bedroom doorway as I say "Babe I'm going out for groceries, wanna come with me? You can pick out stuff you like too." "Ok" he says softly after a few long seconds as he gets up and crosses the room to his bag, grabbing a jacket before following me downstairs and we get in my car, making the drive to the supermarket in silence. When I pull up Gerard gets out of the car and I follow, quickly walking around to him and pressing him back against the side of my car as I lean in, our faces almost touching as I say "Baby please, I love you and this is fucking killing me, I can't stand us being like this. Nothing is happening with Jamia or anyone else, I'm sorry those were still in my house." Gerard lets out a soft sigh before leaning in and sealing his lips to mine, my lips immediately moving with his and just as the kiss turns heated Gerard pulls back and pants out "Ok let's get the shopping done so we can get home and we can get back to that." I chuckle as I take his hand, pulling him off the car and I lock it as we walk towards the store, a huge smile on my face.

The grocery shopping goes smoothly, Gerard and I laughing and joking as I push the cart around the store, sharing sneaky kisses every time we stop to look at something and we make it to the second last aisle, almost ready to go to the checkout where we run into Jamia's best friend and she glares at us as I say "Hello Lindsey." "Frank, why haven't you been answering your phone? Jamia has something very important she needs to discuss with you." "I've been busy with my fiancé" I tell her, reaching out one hand to grab Gerard's hand and her eyes glance over at him before drifting back to me as I add "And I don't give a fuck what she has to say about anything." "I think you might" I hear come from behind me and I spin around, coming face to face with Jamia. I sigh as I tighten my grip on Gerard's hand before saying "Alright we're talking, you have five seconds." "I think I might need a little more than...." "Three seconds" I interrupt her. "Two seconds." "I'm pregnant and it's yours" she says and I feel my heart stop as Gerard harshly tugs his hand out of mine, running off down the aisle away from me. "Gerard" I scream out, my feet feeling stuck to the floor, making me unable to run after him and someone grabs my shoulder, my eyes snapping open and I see Gerard leaning over me in our room again, gently shaking my shoulder as he says "Shh baby it's ok, I'm right here" and I sit up, launching myself into his chest, my hands clutching in the back of Gerard's shirt as I realise it was all just a dream, my shaky breathing slowly evening out again.

Notes

Psych....I didn't have it in me to make them really fight right now, I need happy. Hope you're all still enjoying the story