Kill This Venom From My Heart

When I get down to the basement Gerard is standing there in black dress pants with a white button up shirt on, looking nervous like he's going to throw up. "Breathe babe" I say softly as I walk over and stand in front of him, resting my hands on his hips. Gerard tilts his head to look up at me as he says "I can't get up in front of all those people Frankie, I can't have them all looking at me." "Oh baby" I croon as I pull him into my arms, knowing exactly what he's going through. "How do you do it?" He asks softly as he melts into my chest and I chuckle as I say "I medicate most of the time." "Do you....can I...." He stutters out and I smile softly as I say "Let me see what I've got." I let Gerard go as I cross the room to my bag, finding my small toiletry bag full of pills, digging through until I find the small bottle of Valium. I shake one pill out into my hand and break it in half, putting half back in the bottle and dropping the bottle back in the bag before going back over to Gerard and I sit him on the end of the bed, kneeling in front of him before offering him the pill and he looks down at it in my palm before saying "Half?" "It's strong baby and you've never taken it before, I only want you to have half." Gerard nods, taking the pill and swallowing it down and I press a soft kiss to his forehead before I go back over to my bag and get out the nice clothes I brought to wear today, changing quickly and by the time I'm pulling my shoes on Donna is calling down the stairs to tell us we need to be leaving soon.

Halfway to the school in the car Gerard leans over and rests his head on my shoulder and says "Frankie what will this pill do to me?" "It will slow everything down for you so everything will seem a lot calmer." He nods and says "I think I know what you mean" and I tilt my head to kiss his temple as I gently squeeze his hand in mine resting on my thigh. When we get to the school we climb out of the car and I look around quickly before pressing a quick kiss to Gerard's lips before we walk away from the car where we can't be a couple anymore. We walk around to the courtyard where the ceremony will be held and Donna finds our seats, all of us sitting as the rest of the seats slowly fill up and Gerard and I talk softly amongst ourselves until a young girl comes over and tells Gerard he needs to go into the office with everyone else and as he stands he says "Will you walk me there?" "Of course" I tell him, smiling reassuringly at him and we follow behind the girl until we near a building I'm assuming is where we're going and someone lets out a squeal, every single head turning in our direction and suddenly I'm flocked with teenage girls wanting pictures and autographs and wanting to know why I'm here. "I'm actually here to watch my best friend graduate" I tell them and they all look over at Gerard and one of them says "He's your best friend?" "Yeah he is" I tell them, a hint of defiance in my voice and they all smile, looking slightly confused before continue to ask for pictures and autographs until a teacher comes out and calls them all inside. "You'll be just fine baby" I whisper to Gerard as I step closer to him, desperately wishing I could hug and kiss him before he walks inside and I turn to go back to my seat.

The ceremony goes by quickly, Gerard looking adorable in his cap and gown and I snap a quick picture on my phone as he's on stage and I can tell he wants to flip me off but knows he can't and I poke my tongue out at him, making him giggle as he walks off stage. When the ceremony finishes I rush through the crowd and wrap my arms around Gerard's waist, crushing him to my chest as I tell him how proud I am of him and when we pull apart a group of girls and guys he just graduated with are staring at us. "Can I help you?" I ask and I feel Gerard go tense beside me. "Uh...nothing" one girl says softly and I shake my head as I say "Can I not congratulate my best friend on finishing high school without it being a show for everyone?" They all start to avert their gazes, sneaking away and Gerard starts laughing as he says "I can't wait to never see these people again" and I laugh too but as I go to speak an annoyingly familiar voice says "Frank." "What Mikey?" I ask as I turn around, seeing Mikey standing there with three guys and a girl who look shocked and Mikey smirks at them and says "See, told you I knew Frank." I scoff before saying "Mikey don't you think it's kinda sad that you have to claim to know me to be cool?" And he goes bright red and walks away, the others following after staring at me for a few more seconds. I turn back to Gerard and he starts laughing again as he says "You just made my day" and I smile wide as I say "I hope to do that every day. Ready to get out of here forever?" "Hell yeah" he tells me and as we turn to leave we are stopped by two girls who look nervous, both of them staring at me before one turns to Gerard and says "Hey so we're all heading to Altitude tonight, they're closing it for the senior class and we got a few bands lined up to play and a really cool DJ so we were wondering if you guys were coming?" I turn my head to look at Gerard and he glances over at me before looking back to the girls and saying "You guys have never spoken to me in four years of going to school together, you only speak my name to make fun of me and judge me when you don't even know me, why are you inviting me? Is it because of Frank?" Both girls eyes go wide and one stutters out "Nno just the whole senior class is...." "If you're inviting me just because you want to try and get with Frank we're not interested and if that's not the reason we're still not interested. Every single one of you made the last four years of my life a living hell and I hope to never see any of you ever again" he spits at them before wrapping his hand around my wrist and leading me away as we push past them, leaving them standing there looking shocked. "Babe" I say softly when we're a good distance away from everyone. "Yeah?" "That was so hot, I love it when you get all aggressive and stand up for yourself." Gerard chuckles softly before we start walking again, finding Donna talking to some other mothers and he hands her all his certificates before telling her we're going to walk home and we leave the school, waiting until we're a block away before Gerard's hand slips down into mine and we walk the rest of the way hand in hand, massive smiles on both our faces.

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