Kill This Venom From My Heart

Gerard remains silent as we go back to collect my guitar and walk to my car, me going first to make sure there's no fans around to see us leave together. Once we're on the way back to my house I glance over and see Gerard slightly slouched in his seat, his gaze focused away from me out the window and I can't take it any longer. "Babe" I say softly and he turns his head slowly to look at me. "What?" "What's wrong?" "Nothing" he tells me and I sigh and roll my eyes as I say "No, I'm not stupid, I know there's something wrong so tell me please?" Gerard looks down into his lap, playing with his fingers as he softly says "I don't like you with other people." "What?" "I don't like when you touch other people." I frown, confused for a few seconds and Gerard sighs and says "That girl, you hugged her and....I hate it, I hate that you do that with other people. I wasn't gonna tell you cause I don't wanna seem stupid or something...." He trails off and I sigh softly as I reach across and slide my hand over his, brushing my thumb over the back of his hand. "Are you jealous?" I ask softly and he shrugs, refusing to look at me and I let out another soft sigh as we pull up to another red light. I put the car in park, turning my full attention on Gerard while we're stopped and I turn in my seat to face him, sliding my hand up to cup his cheek and turn his head to look at me. "Baby, I'm yours, completely one hundred percent yours and you have nothing to worry about. The hugging fans thing, I don't enjoy it and you know that but sometimes it's part of the job. We need fans otherwise we have nothing and sometimes we need to do stuff like that to keep them happy, but if it's really that big of a deal I won't do it anymore." Gerard swallows before saying "So you didn't think she was pretty?" I frown as I say "No, not at all." "Really?" I smile softly as I say "Everyone looks like a pile of shit compared to you babe and..." Gerard giggles, cutting me off and a loud honking startles me and I remember we're in traffic so I quickly turn my attention back to the road, driving on and Gerard reaches out to take my hand, sliding his fingers through mine and when I glance over at him again he's leaning back in his seat, his head turned to face towards me with a smile on his face.

When we finally get back to my house we go inside and I take Gerard's hand, leading him up to my room. I strip down to my boxers, grabbing a tshirt from my closet and making myself comfortable and Gerard does the same before we go back downstairs to get something for dinner. While our food is cooking I turn to face Gerard who is sitting at the table smiling over at me and I can't help myself as I cross the room and take his hand, gently pulling him up before wrapping my arm around his waist, pulling him against my body as my other hand trails up to gently cup his cheek as I lean in and seal my lips to his. Gerard kisses back and the kiss quickly turns heated as I back him against the wall, my hands coming down to grip his hips as we make out and I grind my crotch into his. Gerard lets out a low whine into my mouth and I break the kiss so we can breathe, trailing my lips down his jaw before leaning in and attacking his neck. Gerard groans low in his throat and just as I bite softly into his perfect skin he gasps and pushes against my shoulders. I step back immediately and look up at his face to see him looking startled and when I open my mouth to ask what's wrong he says "I think I saw someone outside the window." I spin around to look out the window over the sink, seeing the blinds are open but I don't see anyone out there. "Hang on" I say as I run towards the back door, letting myself out and I run out into the yard, making my way around to the side where the kitchen window is but no one is there. I do a quick lap of the house to make sure but I don't see anyone and when I go back inside Gerard is standing at the sink looking out the window, biting his thumb nail. "You ok baby?" I ask and he smiles weakly and nods as he turns to look at me. "I couldn't see anyone, are you sure you saw someone?" "Maybe" he says, looking a little embarrassed. "It was just a flash like I opened my eyes and they moved out of view quickly. Maybe I'm just seeing things, sorry." "It's ok" I tell him softly as I cross the room to him, taking his hand as I reach out and close the blinds before turning back tow check on our dinner.

Notes

Sorry about the huge wait between updates....I've just been struggling to focus on writing recently