Kill This Venom From My Heart

The following night when I get home from the practice space it's late and I'm ready to just fall into bed and be dead to the world for a while. I get up to my room and kick off my shoes, tugging off my jeans as I make my way to the bed and just as I collapse down onto it my phone buzzes and I groan as I drag myself back up to retrieve it from my pocket. I see it's a message from Gerard saying 'I'm having a really bad night and I need to see you : ( will you be home soon?' 'Im home now baby, get on Skype and I will be there in a second' I send back before sitting my phone aside, grabbing my laptop as I climb onto my bed and I make myself comfortable as it starts up before I log into Skype and start a video call with Gerard. I can't help but smile as his face appears on the screen and he attempts to smile back but he stops halfway and grimaces instead. "Hey baby are you ok?" "I guess" he says softly and he tilts his head slightly and the change in light on his cheek makes the red mark on it more visible. "What happened to your face?" Gerard's face drops and he looks so sad as he says "Mikey's friend and I got into a fight." "He hit you?" I ask, feeling anger bubbling in my stomach. Gerard just nods, his bottom lip quivering slightly and I feel an overwhelming urge to protect him. "Did you hit him back?" I ask and Gerard shakes his head before saying "No, I don't think I could ever hit anyone." "Oh baby I'm sorry he did that, I wish I was there." "Me too, I could really use a cuddle right now." "So how was your day besides that?" I ask, trying to lighten his mood and Gerard smiles as he says "It was alright, I finished my art piece finally." "That's great babe, can I see it?" Gerard's cheeks go slightly red as he says "If you want....I mean I don't think it's the best I've ever done and...." "Your work is amazing, you don't have to show me if you don't want though." "No you can see" he tells me before the camera shifts around his room, settling on a canvas with a painting of me on it. "Wow, that's incredible." "You don't mind?" His voice asks as the camera remains pointed at the canvas. "No baby it's alright" I tell him and the camera swings back around to focus on him and I finally notice he's wearing my shirt. "Would you mind if I used it for my portfolio?" "Of course not, it's really good babe." Gerard smiles and lets out a soft yawn as he shifts around in his bed, making himself more comfortable and shifting his laptop to accommodate the new position. "Thanks for the call, I really needed to see you" he tells me and I smile as I say "Any time babe, if you need me you can call any time." He nods and lets out a soft yawn before rubbing at his eyes and he looks so cute and hot I feel my stomach tingle and my heart beat a little faster. "You're really beautiful you know that?" I blurt out and Gerard's hand drops from his face as he giggles softly and shakes his head which makes him look even more cute. "Do you want me to go so you can sleep?" I ask and he shakes his head and says "Not yet, I miss you so much I wanna see you for a little bit longer." "Ok" I say softly and we lay in silence for a little while, just watching each other and I reach out and run my fingers down the screen as I say "I miss how warm you are." Gerard smiles wide as he says "I miss that about you too, this shirt still smells a lot like you so it helps." "Good" I tell him and we fall back into silence again. "Will you sing to me Frankie?" He asks softly after a while and I nod before saying "Anything in particular?" "I don't mind, I just like your voice. I listened to one of your albums before but it's not the same." I think for a few seconds before I open my mouth and start singing softly and Gerard smiles and his eyes slip closed and I watch him slowly drift off to sleep and when it looks like he's fully out I whisper "I love you Gee" before watching him for another few seconds and then ending the call.

The next two weeks go by quickly and Jamia finally leaves two days before Gerard is due to arrive. The morning his flight gets in I rush around cleaning up the house before I head to the airport, sitting around until the announcement is made for his flight and I stand and walk towards where he will be coming out. While I'm waiting a few girls come over and ask me for pictures and autographs and when Gerard finally comes out looking happy and excited my own excitement dies a little as I can't run to him and kiss him like I want to. I step towards him and he reaches out to take my hand and I subtly shake my head and he looks over to see the fan girls watching us and drops his hand, his smile dropping a little. We make our way back out to where my car is, a bunch of girls following us and I'm sure they think they're being subtle but we are both aware of them. We climb into my car and I start the drive towards home and when we are stopped at a red light I turn my head to look at Gerard and his face is right there so I lean in and close the distance, our lips moving together and I get lost in the movement of his lips on mine until a loud honking breaks us apart and I notice the light is green again and I start driving, my lips tingling slightly from the kiss.

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