It's Time

*Gerard's POV*

I sat on Mikey's carpet, which he also sat with me. He went straight to his point. "Gee, they beat you! Your bullies just fucking beat you, to the point where you're almost unconscious! And you jut let them... You just let them, without fighting back.... Yeah you do say 'stop' or something like that, but never a fight. I know you dislike fights and all. But, for real? Why the fuck do you let them?" He paused, searching for more words. "Why don't you care? Why? Why Gee?"

"Mikey, I do care. I really do care..." I do, I really do. "Then why do you let them, just push you around? Why do you let them tKe your lunch money?? Why Gee? Why the hell do you let them do it? And just... Get away from it, not getting in trouble..." I sighed. Maybe he doesn't understand, he has friends. I don't! I only have Frank and Ray. Mikey too, but it's different though. He doesn't get bullied, but I do. I tilt my head down, not wanting to look at my own brother in the eye, and lie to him. "Mikey... I do tell... It's just, I don't want to get involved with drama. It'll just bring up drama. And I for sure don't want to get involved with drama. It's just so fucking stupid. I just want to go to school, finish it, and enjoy my life. Okay, do you understand now??"

I felt a tear wanting to escape my eye, but no. I couldn't let it come out. I have to be strong. But is strong, lying to someone, to your own brother? I don't get teenage hormones sometimes. They're so fucking hard to control and shit. I looked back up to Mikey, staring at me. With his poker face, as usual.

"You lied." Dammit, I can't lie. I can't lie for shit, I'm so predictable when I lie. It's so easy to tell when I lie. "You lied, you lied Gee... You lied and you know it.." He kept mumbling that over and over again. "You lied! I know when you fucking lie, hell! Everyone knows when you lie! Why do you do it!? Like ditching school, leaving Ray and Frank? Hm? You're always making an excuse. Always! There's no need for an excuse anymore. None, whatsoever! There's none Gerard." He stopped talking for a moment, waiting and seeing if I would reply to what he's saying. I didn't. He knew I wouldn't, and plus I don't really want to talk right now. I thought that if I talked, I would say the wrong thing. He would say something else about it, saying it wasn't true. Blah, blah, blah.

"Gee!!"

"Yeah?" I looked at Mikey...... I must of been thinking hard. Into a daydream into deep thoughts. "Did you even hear what I said?!" He snapped. I shook my head. "Um, not. Sorry I was deep into-" Yep, I guess I found his breaking point. Kind if a breaking point, well, at least for him. He doesn't really raise his voice, better yet, he yelled a bit. Which he usually doesn't yell, always quiet.

"Whatever Gerard!! Don't even listen, yeah, what a promise.! You broke it! You probability break all of your promises? Am I right? You told me you'll listen, nope. Checked off of the list.." He took a deep breath in. "Just get out of my room, you better be out before I come back here.... And I fucking mean it this time Gerard!!" He got up from sitting on the ground, to leaving his room and heading towards our house's front door. He looked like he was in a hurry.

"Wait! Mikey, wait!!" I got up and ran after him, to the hallway. I put my hand on his shoulder, to make him turn around and face me. He spat in my face. "What do you fucking want now, Gerard?" Wow, he might be a little more pissed at me than I though he would be. Umm.. I burst out saying, and on the verge of tears.

"I'm sorry Mikes! I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise. I'm sorry for being your older brother!! You deserve so, so much more! I never keep any of my promises, I'm so sorry! I'm just an excuse for a fucked up older brother, I don't even deserve to be your older brother. Not be called one. I'm a failure. Everything Mikey. Everything that you wanted to say is true. It's so fucking true! Everything you didn't want to say, and you kept in your thoughts is true. Call me a loser, a faggot. I don't fucking care anymore! I'll get out of your life, anything to make you happy. I will end my life to make you happy, I don't care. Whatever it takes to make you be happy. I know you would be so much better off without me!" I felt years streaming down my face, with a shocked Mikey. I think I might've just told my brother I was suicidal, in like, hints of how I worded my words.

Mikey opened his mouth, no words coming out. "I'm sorry Gee.. I didn't-" I interrupted him. "No, it's fine! All of those words, every single last one of them is true. I-I'll j-just go n-now. B-Bye Mikey.." I sniffled, my eyes red and starting to get puffy from crying. I don't even deserve to cry, I'm do fucking pathetic. I ran, bolted towards my room. I know one day, my room won't be enough, I would have to run out of the house I've lived in so many years. Once I got downstairs, hearing Mikey calling my name out. "Gerard! Gears please come here, I'm sorry. Gerard!" He called again and again. I opened my door and slammed it shut. I then locked it, leaning against it. I felt Mikey pounding against my door, calling me over and over. Asking me to come out of my room. Hell! Begging me to come out.

But I can't. I couldn't. And I wouldn't.

I lied. I lied to him. I lied to my own brother.

I lied, but doesn't everyone lie? I'm not the only one who lies.

But I still lied. I lied.

Notes

Hey everyone!
Titles is from Electric Century's 'I Lied'. (It's an awesome song!)
I'm sorry I haven't updated in two weeks. Blame writers block....
Yeah not really, just needed to come up with some ideas. But hey, I feel like I'm on a roll again! (Lol...) And I just wanted to let you know, I will and update this in a day. I know what I want to type. I am trying to get Frank back into the story now, maybe just one or two more chapters, then hopefully Frank will be back. And let's hope for some Frerard soon!!
Oh, and I wanted to hear your guys'/girls' opinion; 'Do you think I'm rushing the story.? Like, did I rush them, making Gerard kiss Frank in the park. It was meant for a short, moment. And a short teaser...'

I just really want to hear your opinions! A lot!! Thank you for reading, it means so much to me! I love you my furry friends! <3 Subscribe, comment, and rate!! Thank you for reading my story!! <3 ;)