Mixed drinks

I jump awake from a horrific dream. I rubbed my eyes trying to adjust to the darkness.
Shirtless Gerard was behind me putting his arms around my waist.
My window was just slightly open and it was raining

I try to fall back to sleep knowing Gerard is holding me like this.
On spur of moment thunder erupted the silence.
I gasped going under the covers.
More thunder
Lightening.
Shaking.

"Oh shit you okay?" Gerard awoke not bothering to whisper
I opened my mouth to say i was fine but all that came out was a whimper cracked voice.
Why the fuck was i crying?
Gerard went underneath the covers with me, tightening his grip on me

"Shh its okay" He whispered

I turned to face him. It seems relevant to kiss him right now. And i almost did.
Loud thunder started again and i flinched.
I heard Gerard mutter an 'oh' probably realizing that i was afraid of thunder..

"Im such a pansy" I mumbled

The older man let go of me and turned on the night light

"No you arent, remember that you have tattoos all over your body therefore you got like a thousand needles" He said sitting up against the headboard

I looked up at him still laying down
Gerard motioned me to come sit up beside him.
I did as asked letting my head fall onto his shoulder.
More thunder.

"Sh Just breath Frankie" He whispered running fingers through my hair

Did you hear what he just called me? Oh my god. I could just feel my cheeks lighting themselves on fire.

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"Wake up sleepy head" Gerard said

I groaned rolling over to my other side.
Then he started fucking tickling me. I screeched jumping away from him.
Gerard started to laugh. Like really loud.
I frowned walking into the living room.

"Arent you going to get dressed? You know, for work?" Gerard asked following me

"M'Not feeling good," I said sitting on the couch, when really i just wanted to sleep more and avoid pete for a day.

"Sure" He laughed
I just rolled his eyes smiling

"Thanks for letting me stay here. Your bed is way comfier than mine" Gerard said before leaving

I got up and ran to him, throwing myself against him. Hugging him tight.

"Oh, i see how it is" He says hugging back

"Your welcome Bestfriend" I let go smiling

"Haha aw, youre so cute" He laughed ruffling his hand through my hair
I felt myself blush.

When Gerard left my heart sank. I missed him already. why couldn't last night last forever.
I know im probably just a 'kid' to him but he makes me feel so safe.

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. I woke up yet again face down on the couch.
When did i fall asleep?
How long was i asleep?

I got up, dragging my feet to the door. Got on shoes, jacket, didnt even worry about my appearance. and left. Well opened the door, walking down the stairs to outside and pulled out my phone. Theres something at the back of my head that keeps telling me to get my 'fix'. I shake off that thought and begin to walk to work.

Waiting, waiting for my single to walk across the street. I step on the road anyway.
But before i get to the other side im stopped. Turning around to face my old drug dealer.
Bert.

"Yo Frankie!" He smiles

"Uhm hi" I say hinting him i have no plan in conversation

"You look good, Hows life man?" He asks grabbing my hand.

I dont answer, instead we walk together in silence until i speak.
"Work sucks but i have a friend who-"
"Is he hot?"
I blush at the question and Bert raises his eyebrows.
"So, Whats he like? Is he tall?"
"He's so nice and smart and cute and really nice" I ramble blushing and smiling even more just thinking about him
"Its about time youre happy though" Bert adds
"Yeah i guess" I nod at him

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Bert and i have been walking around and just talking about our lives to each other.
Think about it, i haven't seen this guy in like 5 years and here he is holding my hand talking nonsense.
Then i think about the though i shook off. My fix.
"Hey bert?" I utter
"Hm"
"Do you have any ..uh"
Bert laughs and pulls out a bag of pot from his pocket.
My eyes go wide and i take it shoving it in mine.
"Thanks oh my god" I perk
He nods.

We stopped talking for a bit to listen to the sounds around us. Traffic, People, Birds, Music.
It was really nice until i spotted Gerard walking in our direction.
A smile spread across my face and Bert asked about it.
"Thats him! Thats the dreamy guy" I said nodding towards him, not wanting to point because thats too obvious.

"Oh shit" Bert whispered looking at Gerard.
I was gonna ask what until He reaches us and we stopped in our spots.
I looked at Gerard and he was staring at Berts hand intertwined with mine.
He looked almost angry?
I went to look up at Bert but out of nowhere Gerard pushed Bert against the brick wall.

"The fuck are you doing?!" He whispers
"Chill, we're just old friends"
Gerard looked at me then back at Bert,
"Bullshit! Dont lie to me McCracken"

I stood there in front of the scene thinking
'what the fuck is even happening'
"He's telling the truth you know" I said quietly
Bert looked at me.
"Go home Frank" He said
I shook my head an touched Gerard's shoulder
He stiffened
"Let go of him dude" I said into his ear
Gerard sighed and dropped him, walking away.

I helped Bert up and tried catching up to Gerard.
"Hey whats the matter with you?" I asked panting
He didnt answer just kept walking.
I gave up and walked back to Bert standing awkwardly in the crowd.
"You okay?" I asked bert
Bert smiled.
"What?"
"Youre in love with my ex"
What.
WHAT.

"H-He's into g-guys?" I stuttered not believing what im hearing
"He's as straight as an S my friend" Bert laughs hugging me

Well fuck.

Notes

"Straight as an S" Got from a lovely person in the comments.