Mixed drinks

I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock going off.
Well at least its finally working right?

Quickly clicking the off button and moving towards my closet for some fresh clothes that dont smell like death.
White dress shirt.
Black waist coat.
Red tie.
Pretty fancy i know but hey, i like looking good.

When i look in the mirror, i dont like what i see. Sure my outfit is on point but my face not so much. Why cant i look beautiful like Gerard? I know for fact putting myself down wont get me anywhere so i fasten the pace by applying eyeliner to my waterline. The stuff Gerard clearly had a problem with before.

The only thing left to do is fix up my hair.
out the door i go. Down the stairs. Opening the front door to meet with a bright red truck, It blinds me at first when the sun reflects off it but then something in my mind turns on.
That looks awfully like Gerard's vehicle. I slowly approach the familiar truck trying to look for any clues to tell me if it is indeed Gerard's or if im just embarassing myself to whoever really is on the other side of the the tinted windows.

Suddenly the truck honks the horn sending me jumping from the loud sound. Tumbling back staring wide eyed at the unknown car. The stranger rolls down the window.
But who i see isnt a stranger its .. him. Gerard

"Earth to Frank," Gerard laughs
I giive him a questioning look
"Itd be very beneficial if we were on time" He says a little louder.
My mind spins. Oh fuck i forgot about work.
I walk to the car door waiting. Waiting for him to say something. Anything to tell me why he's here.
"Come on in here you dork"
I open the door climbing in the front seat, Shutting the door. Staring at Gerard with the still questioning face. "why dont you just say something bud" He clears his throat
"Why are you here?" I ask quietly
"To pick up my best friend, why else?" Gerard says starting the car smiling.
Best friend..?
"Best friend? since when?" I blurt out without thinking. Shit. That actually sounds really offensive. I stare awkwardly at him to see his reaction
Gerard's smile falls but he doesnt look at me.
Oh my god im such an asshole. He hasnt said a response yet and now we're driving silently.
I open my mouth to apologize but Gerard beats me to it.

"Hm i guess we're not there yet. My apology." He says grabbing and lighting a cigarette in the car. Yet? Yet?!
I bite my lip in anger and sadness at his reply.
We get to our destination and he jumps out going to my side and opening my door for me to follow, But i sit there emotionless trying to comprehend on what just happened.
"Frank? Something wrong?" Gerard says concerned.
I nod my head climbing out of the red vehicle.
I know i shouldnt be taking this so seriously but like fuck. I feel so guilty. I never saw him go from happy to sad due to me.

We both walk in the empty elevator.
I go to glance at him, hes already staring. Once he catches my gaze he looks away quickly.
"Sorry for like ruining your happiness" I say quietly
"What do you mean?" He aks turning to me
"Well, like. i-i mean. I would love to be considered your bestfriend but at the time i was just shocked yknow" I hesitate
Gerard lets out some faint laughter.
Now its my turn to be confused.
"Nah dont worry bout it. I didnt want to creep you out. But im glad it worked out the way it did" He smiled
I bit my lip smiling slightly

Soon the elevators doors open on his floor.
"See yah later, bestfriend" He winked.
Whats with all the winking man. It shouldnt turn me on but it totally does. Well i mean him in general is a major turn on but what the fuck is he hinting because im not catching it.

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Unexpectedly i had a great day in my cubicle today.
Got all my paperwork done.
No one shit in my cornflakes.
My boss was happy with me for once.
Pretty good. I felt pretty good,

But then Pete came along and ruined my awesome day.
Not surprised but still disappointed.

"Damn last time i saw you wearing that shit was when you sucked cock for drugs"
Easy Frank.
I walked past him slowly reaching the door out of here but Pete ran in front of me.
"I see the look you give Mr.Way" Pete smiles
"Is he your drug dealer? You sucking dick again Frank?"
I closed my eyes and sighed.
"No Pete. Im not" I said through clenched teeth
"But you wish you were. You wish you were sucking Gerard's cock yeah? like the little slut you are" Pete said
I opened my eyes to look at him.
Pete gasped "You do dont you? What would Gerard think? Knowing that everyday you just want a piece of him"
I tried to push past him but im a little too weak.
"I thought you wanted to make your parents proud Frank?"

I lost it. I swung my fast to his throat. He stumbled back for like ten seconds then he punched me in the jaw. Hard enough to hear a sickening crunch.
I started to scream. Not from the pain but from how emotionally unstable he made me.
"YOU HAVE NO RIGHT!!!" I yelled at him
Pete started laughing at my outburst
"I know im fucked up but seriously??!" I felt tears pricking my eyes. I get pretty emotional when it comes to being mad/hurt.
"Is it because you wont be able to suck Gerard's co-"
"You know what fuck you, Just fuck off." I said bluntly leaving past him and out the door.

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I was sat out the elevator cursing and fumbling with my fingers.
"Fucking prick" I kept saying.
"He cant just bring up my parents god fucking dammit!" I whisper yelled punching the metal doors.
Then the water works.
Tear after tear.
Im so weak.

So like god knows how long ive been out here but im guessing it was the end of the day because i saw a pair of feet walk in front of me.
I looked up to who they belonged to. Gerard holding coffee looking down at me. First he looked confused as to why i was sitting her but then his face grew into a more worried look.
"Oh my god, Frank" Gerard said quietly going on his knees in front of me.
"Are you okay?" He whispered feeling the bruise forming on my jaw coming up to my cheek.
"Kinda" I said back
Gerard looked at the ground then at me. He sighed running a hands through his hair.
"How bad do i look?"
The older man shook his head
"Come on get up" HE whispered pulling on my arm.
I got to my feet and i held onto him for support. Even though i could walk on my own i wanted to be close to Gerard.
"Who did this to you Frank?" He said sternly yet caring as we walked into the empty elevator.
Did i really want to share that? What if Pete says a bunch of nonsense to him. What if it gets worse because i told someone about it? No doubt in that.
Gerard touched my arm.
"Its okay Gerard, really. Thanks for caring though" I said trying to smile but every time i moved my mouth, the pain from my jaw would strike up my face.
Gerard pulled my body close to his. I hugged back feeling tears run down my cheeks.
Oh he's so nice.
"Youre coming to my house okay? Gotta fix you up"
I widened my eyes. I dont why but i feel like thats not a good idea. I might end up having a bunch of breakdowns. In front of him.
"No" I said breaking the embrace.
"Are you sure? How bout i come to your place?" Gerard said
I shook my head
"Okay, i dont know what happened between you and whoever but whatever he said clearly damaged you. I had a friend like this who went home alone and didnt come back the next day. If you want to go home without me thats fine just like call me or something okay?" Gerard said gripping my hand tightly
I nodded. He smiled.

Still gripping my hand he lead me to his truck.
"Im not letting you walk though. The weather is horrible"
"Thank you, For like everything" I whispered squeezing his hand tangled in mine.
"No problem, after all. You are my best friend"
I laughed a little.

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Time lapse
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Gerard pulled up in front of my apartment and i looked at him.
Oh look at those lips. God wouldnt it be amazing if i could just kiss him all day?
Realizing i was lost in space i snapped out of my fantasy and opened the car door.
Before stepping out i turned back to face Gerard.
He smiled at me and i felt my heart ache.
Why not.
"Stay with me" I whispered before jumping out and closing the door behind me.
I walked to the building opening its door.
When i walked in intentionally i felt hands wrap around my waist.
Chills went up my spine. I melted into his touch.
"Do you always do this to your bestfriends?" I asked
"No, only the special ones" I felt him smile on my shoulder

After Gerard and I got into my apartment room. I went to my bedroom and took off my clothes to put on warmer comfier clothes.
A light blue shirt.
Black pyjama pants.
I walked back to where i left Gerard waiting. He was sat on the living room couch staring out the big window.
"View is beautiful up here" He said quietly
"Yeah" I replied sitting next to him.
"You look cozy" Gerard smiled looking at me
I looked down smiling but then cringing at the pain.
"You sure youre okay?" Gerard said in a hushed tone tilting up my head with his finger to face him
"Oh, i think so" i breathed

Gerard put his arm around me. I felt like more than his best friend. Not that i was complaining but this made it harder for me to not jump on him and crash my lips into his perfect ones. I turned to face him and he did the same. I moved closer silently, Closer until Gerard spoke
"You cant resist me can you" He raised his eyebrows pulling out a pack of cigarettes handing one to me and lightning his own. I blushed hard and he just smiled inhaling the poison. I almost whimpered at the sight. I put the cancer stick up to my mouth and the older man lit it. I sucked in then blew smoke into Gerard's neck.
"You tryna throw hints at me kid? He said exhaling
I opened my mouth making the cig fall out and onto the couch.
"Look what you done, Waste of a cigarette" He said inhaling.

Cant beleive he called me kid again. I was really hoping he would just shut up so i can seal my lips onto his. But he's obviously not interested or else he would of done it already. Heck he probably knows that hes irresitble and just teasing the fuck outta me.
"Isnt it past yor bedtime?" He asked.
"No"
"Okay, well i mean not too late" He smiled walking towards my bedroom
"Where you going?"
"To sleep of course" He winked at me turning around to continue walking to the bedroom.
Before he entered the dark room i saw him take off his shirt.

Boner alert

Notes

Fronkeh