Mixed drinks

Okay let me just say on the way to the cafe, Gerard was singing along to songs on the radio and it was so cute. Like he would glance at me and smile every now and then. It just made my heart flip.

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"So Frank, Why dont you tell me about yourself?" Gerard asked after we sat down
'im gay' Nope. Nope definitely not.
"Im not very interesting.." I sighed refusing to speak
"Who cares, Come on" He said
"Okay uhm, i like playing guitar?"
"Go on" Gerard smiled showing off his stained teeth
I dont really do much. Like all i do is sleep and watch tv. Or think about Gerard. Because yeah im totally gonna tell him that.
I shook my head, Gerard rolled his eyes
"Im not asking you what you do, im asking you about yourself. Like, Whats your interests" He was using unnecessary hand gestures
"Okay well, I like decorating my body. I already have a bunch of tattoos but im hoping to get one right heeere" I explain pointing to my wrist
"God i hate needles" HE cringed
I laughed a bit accidentally kicking his leg slightly underneath the table.
He raised his eyebrows and i blushed feeling embarassed
"Your turn!" I perked
"Oh. Okay. Well, I have a little brother named Mikey but i never see him since he lives somewhere else. Uhm i live alone, i wish i could get a cat-"
"Why cant you?" I blurt out. Wow rude.
"Im allergic" He says bluntly
I laugh a little 'oh' and he continues.
"Im a comic book artist. Big money"

The waitress brings us our coffee and Gerard takes a sip out of mine
"Haha hey!" I laugh
"Just testing it" He smiles setting it on a coaster in front of me
"More about you Frank! Im such a boring person. You seem so interesting. You pulled me right in the moment i saw you" Gerard bites his lip
My mouth falls open. Jesus he's fucking hot.
"Close your mouth, you'll catch bugs" He says
I close it, taking a deep breath.
"Im lonely"
Gerard laughs a little.
I turn my gaze to the ground.
Gerard notice's and stops laughing instantly
"Youre serious.."
"Why wouldnt i be?" I asked staring at him now
"Well you just jumped moods so fast it was hard to tell"
"hmph"
"Sorry Frank, would you like to tell me why?" Gerard reaches over and grabs my hand
I freeze looking at him with wide eyes.
He's touching me.
"Should i not touch you?" He lets go
"No its okay!"
Gerard grabs my hand again rubbing my thumb.

I calm down a little.
"Now Frank, speak to me" He says softly
"My parents kicked me out at 17, told me to come back when i can do something right" whispering the last part
I looked up at Gerard and he looked like he was actually listening. Didnt look as if he was distracted. Looked like he cared.
"I already had a job so it was okay until i thought it was a good idea to spend the majority of my savings to buy a house for alcohol. I got so drunk that my boss had to fire me for lack of responsibilities, I didnt think it was a big deal back then because i still had lots of money. I ended up on the streets, in alleyways. Trying to find someone to lend me drugs. Something to make me feel less lonely" I stopped to contain the information i was sharing.
I felt water going down my cheeks. I quickly swatted them away.
"I remember not eating for weeks and looking in the dumpsters for scrap food" I sniffed
"By the time i was 18 ive spent all my money on a lot of drugs. Meth, cocaine, ectasy. I was so fucked up" I took my hand away from Gerard's and covered my face
Gerard quickly came to my side rubbing circles on my back.
"Shh" He whispered
"I even remember sucking dick for drugs." I laughed slightly still crying though.
"Then some cops found me passed out on the sidewalk and brought me to rehab, it took me a year to sober up. It sucked. It really did but i mean whatever"

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"Im really sorry for crying, I didnt even realize it at first" I said as Gerard was driving
"Hey its no problem, its better to let it out anyway."
"And uhm, where are we going?" I asked not recognizing the part of town we were in
"I gotta pick up a few things at my house" He said pulling in some driveway
"Oh okay" I didnt know if he wanted me to come in with him or not so i kinda just sat awkwardly in the car.
"You can come in if you want," Gerard laughed
I jumped out of his truck and followed the tall blonde into his house.
It looked bigger on the outside but i guess it makes sense since he's living alone.
"Can i get you some water?" He asked in what im assuming, the kitchen.
"Sure?"
"Okay you stay here while i get some shit and ill drop you off at your place?" He said while walking downstairs.
So are we friends now or. Well i guess we are considering he pretty much went on a date with me. Didnt go as well as i planned but hey. Im at his house. That sounds vaguely dirty.

Gerard came back with a.. purse?
"Hey nice purse"
"Its a bag!" Gerard gasped
I smiled and got up.
"You dont need to drive me home, i can walk. You already drove me places, watched me embarrass myself so its okay"
"Dude you dont even know where you are, its the least i can do and hey! Watch you embarrass yourself? Are you talking about you crying because i dont think that was bad at all. I want to be there for you Frank i really do" He half smiled
I nodded walking outside and into his truck.

Before i got out in front of my apartment, Gerard crawled over to my seat and hugged me.
"It was nice seeing you today" He whispered into my ear and i hugged back.
"You too. Thanks again" I opened up the car door shutting it.
As i walked to the front door i turned back. Gerard winked at me and started leaving.
Shivers went up my spine.

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