Mixed drinks

I woke up earlier today to look very much decent for my new friend in the elevator.
Taking out the thing i never wore for at least 4 years back when i was a teenager, Eyeliner.
Spreading the pencil on my waterline, messing with my hair.
I never stared at my self in the mirror this long before.
I'd fuck me tbh.

Walking casually to work. Luckily i wasnt in a rush like yesterday, i still had 20 minutes to go.
When i enter the building i freeze when i see him sitting in the lobby drinking some off the sample coffee left out.
Shit what am i going to say to him?
What if im too awkward and ill come across as weird?
Oh fuck hes looking at me now. I just made eye contact now i have to talk to him.
"Hey," I said finally walking a little closer to the chair Gerard was sitting in.
"Whats up Iero?" Gerard took a sip of his coffee
"Just yknow chilling"
Really Frank? Chilling? Youre at work.
"I used to wear make-up" He said
"same, wait what"
"Yeah eyeliner was a big thing for me, now not so much. its so overrated" Gerard took another sip
"Y-yeah i totally agree" I stammered looking at the ground
"Of course you do" He smiled getting up and walking towards the elevator

How do i respond that? He basically just ruined my self esteem. I knew i shouldnt of wore this shit today.
I entered the small box with him.
I faced the opposite direction from Gerard so i can quickly rub off the black makeup he hates.
"Watcha doing there" He asked
"What" I turned around and he raised his eyebrows
I furrowed mine.
He continued to stay silent
"What?!" I pouted
"I know why you put eyeliner on today im not dumb"
My eyes widened. No he couldn't of, i didnt even tell anyone im gay.
"Hey dont get so freaked out. Its a great way to hide how tired you are. I used to do that all the time. But you could just get more rest" Gerard explained
"Yeah i just sometimes cant get to sleep. My brain wont shut up" I smiled nervously
Well thats a relief.
"Good luck on getting to sleep tonight, Frank" I didnt even notice it was Gerards floor.
"Thanks you too"
Gerard smiled shaking his head as the elevator doors closed.
Did i really just- i need to learn to speak better.

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"Frank got any ideas for the company?" My boss asked
I didnt answer, i was too busy thinking about Gerard. The way he talks with his soothing voice, how when its the perfect lightening you can see how truly beautiful his eyes really are, The way he drinks his coffee.. slowly-
"Anything? Anything at all?" My boss spoke
"Get more coffee" I snapped out of my day dream blurting out whatever came to mind at that moment
The whole staff looked at me. My boss didnt seem to impressed.
"What?" He said with confusion all over his face
"I-I mean we only have one coffee maker and theres lots of people in here so shouldnt we get another one?" I said unsure
"Frank, are you serious? Thats all you could come up with?"
"Well, Caffeine wakes you up and-"
"I know what caffeine does, anyone else want to join Frank in suggesting nonsense?" My boss looked at everyone while i sat there biting my nails.
"Hey i have an idea" One of the prick staff members shouted
"Why not Frank dress up as a leprechaun and be the buildings entertainment"
"Yeah his parents would finally be proud"
"Or hold up a sign that says 'i suck dick for half off' because he's half height. Get it?"
"Can i be excused i have a phone call" I spit out
"Oh? Who is it" My boss says
"A friend?"
"Oh right 'a friend' "

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I stand outside smoking almost a full pack of cigs when Gerard walks out of the doors.
I admire the pale beauty from afar, but i didn’t have the confidence to strike up a conversation. I watched from the corner of his eye as the blonde guy brought the burning stick to his mouth and inhaled. I noticed that when he would take a rather long drag, his eyes would flutter closed in appreciation. I refused to think about how I wanted to make Gerards eyes close like that and hear a sigh fall from his lips, as I teased his neck. No. Not thinking about it at all.

Yeah not until Gerard noticed my staring
"You like what you see?" He questioned smiling around his cigarette.
"I was just- uh" I choked on my words
"Im just joking kid"
Kid? KID? He thinks im a kid. Im not a kid. Even though i look like im 17.
"Kid..?" I say before thinking
Gerard doesnt say anything as he takes another long drag, Watching as his eyes go closed.
Oh god he's so perfect, i wonder how old he is. Like i mean, he doesn't look that old from his blonde hair. I wonder if its soft. No Thats weird.
"So why you out here anyway?" Gerard takes me back to reality
"People were giving me a hard time" I sigh
"How so?" Gerard tossed his cigarette on the ground
"Saying .. mean things but its no different from any other day around this shit hole" I huffed throwing my half down cigarette on the ground
Gerard opened hid mouth to say something but quickly shut it. He stepped closer and looked generally concerned.
"You know kid, Not everythings easy. you just gotta learn to get used to it. Like me"
"I am used to it"
"Okay but are you dealing with it?" Gerard gave me a questioning look
"Ye-"
"No youre sitting out here smoking all of your cigarettes" He snapped. Yet he didnt look angry.
"Sorry?"
Gerard sighed and ran a hand through his hair.
"No dont apologize, I want you to stop being such a pussy and get back into your cubicle and deal with those assholes" He opened the door and i stared at him
"Staring at me wont solve anything" He said
I nodded slowly then walking through the door
"Thanks"
"Nah i like holding doors for people" He beamed
"I didnt mean the- ugh" I waved my hand shooing him away as i went to the stairs.

Gerard laughed and took the elevator

Notes

short chapters suck