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I woke up warm.

There was an arm wrapped around me, holding me tight, as if the person was worried I’d go away.
I turned slightly to check who the person was.

And found myself about five centimetres from Gerard's face.
His minty breath washed over my face and I felt the heat rush up to my cheeks.

Oh.

“Having fun there?”

Bert.

I sat up quickly and Gerard stirred slightly, his arms wrapping around my hips and his head falling to rest in my lap.
I blushed even harder and Bert smiled sadly.

"Sorry i..err didnt mean to interrupt but wanted to see how you were doing" Bert was biting his already chewed up nails

"Still a little sore but im good" I shrugged my shoulders and Bert made his way over to me then stopped suddenly staring at Gerard's now opened eyes.

"Morning" I whispered looking down at him

"Who's here, i know that voice" Gerard asked

"I-uhm"

"Who the fuck is here" He sounded pissed as he sat up and deathly stared at Bert.

Bert gave a tiny wave towards gerard but the response didnt go as planned.

Gerard got up and jump from the hospital and onto Bert, tackling him.
"You did this to Frank didnt you!" He yelled gripping Bert's shirt

"Him getting hurt wasnt my attention.." He whispered

"I'll kill you if you hurt him again" Gerard hissed

"Yeah and i suppose youre totally not hurting Frank by yelling at him for his choices"
Gerard softened his face but then it hardened again. He punched Bert in the stomach.

"Thats different i was worried!!" He screamed storming out of the room

I stared at Bert and he widened his eyes at me and mouthed 'what the fuck' and i half smiled at him

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So the morning was weird.

Bert was sat next to me on the bed reading a book he bought in the cafe down the street before coming here. It was about vampires, yes i admit. Im a child sometimes but i was so interested in it that i was almost sad when the nurse had to break us up to check my injuries.

Bert and I hugged for atleast 2 minutes before he left the room

Soon after the nurse sat beside me with a hand behind her holding something
"W-whats that?" I asked

"Hey Frank, I need to give you a needle but its very important for you to be relaxed or else it could cause damage to your nerves" She said touching my shoulder

"Oh great, saying that i need to relax is like telling me not to climb a fence, if you said it was just a normal needle i wouldn't think about becoming stressed." I cross my arms

"Okay, I see what youre saying but. This could make you really sick if it goes wrong."

"Why the fuck are you gibing me this then?" I huff

"If done correctly, you'll be out of here no longer than two weeks"

I think about that for a moment. I'll get out and go to work and be with gerard but, if it fucks up im here for a long time.

I look back at her and i unclench my hands, theyre sweaty. Im sweating. Yes im totally relaxed.

"I-I-I .. no i need Gerard." I stammer
"Is that the person who was reading to you hun?"

Why the fuck is she being so condescending? Im not fucking three
"You do realize im like 24 right?"

"Yes, i am aware of that. Who's Gerard?"

"He left this morning because he stayed the night, If you could uhm.. call hi-"
I felt the pinch of the needle and my heart started pounding

"Fuck, your heart is fast, you gotta calm okay?"
Tears start forming and i jerk my arm away. Causing the needle that was already in my arm connected to a machine, fall on me.

I start to legit cry now, More of being scared.

Im under the machine as the nurse puts it back in place yanking out the machines needle and leaving the room.

I cover my face staring at the wall in front of me.

Bert came in five minutes after saying he's going to call Gerard
I nod as i shake from terror.

Bert called him right in my room and i start hearing yelling form the device

I only heard parts of the conversation but i couldn't piece it together for it to make sense.
Bert looked as if he was trying to convince Gerard.

Suddenly it was put on speaker.

"Thought you said you were with Frank? gerard said on the line
"Gee" i said in a raspy voice

I heard a gasp come from the other end.
"Baby are you okay?" He said worried
"Y-Yeah im just s-scared.. uhm can ou come h-here.. please?" I say sadly

"Im at work honey but-"

"Get your ass over here and actually do something for Frank you ungrateful bastard" Bert spat hanging up.

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I was at on the hospital bed looking out the window thinking about birds again, I wanted gerard here but i also didnt want to interrupt his work of how stressed he sounded on the phone. Probably messing up his schedule. What i do best.

"You aight Frank?" Bert asked sitting next to me looking out the window too.
I rest my head in his shoulder

"I want to feel okay again. Every since my fix man.."

Bert tensed up

"I am so fucking sorry" he said linkinghis hands with mine

"I'm messing up Gerard's life.. Could you maybe drop me off at home when im out?" Tears were blocking my vision.

"Only if you dont do anything stupid. Gerard might want you to call him" he whispered

I nodded.


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Gerard walked in with a nurse,

My eyes lit up when i saw him,
He smiled at me then walked over to where i was still looking out the window.

"You seem to be liking the view"
He said smiling

"Yeah it's pretty: I glanced at gerard and he pulled me into a hug

"Do you understand why i left you hun?" Gerard asked into my shoulder

I shook my head

"You see, we met not too long ago. From what i've seen, you tend to give up not realizing it. Just like that time where i found you outside smoking your whole pack of cigarettes because of a sticky situation you had with Pete, I told you to get off your ass and deal with it right? What'd you do? You talked back/beat him up. I told you to find a different solution to stay strong towards his words. You were okay with dealing with it for quite a long time.. though youre doing it again. Beating yourself up after your fix. It was a mistake i know, we all make them. But i believe you can do this yourself Frank, Dont always rely on me cause im going to tell you the same thing. Only you can do this" Gerard said in one breath

I almost started crying when he finished talking. I squeezed him burying my face in his chest

"Frank? You okay?" Gerard asked trailing his lips over my neck

"Youre so good to me" I said all shaky

"Hah well you deserve it sweetie" He smiled into my neck

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