***Timestamp: November 1st***

Frank sat quietly at the breakfast island. He ate a sugary bowl of cereal as he looked into the milk for the meaning of his existence. It had been four months, and he had heard nothing. Their anniversary passed, and he heard nothing. Gerard’s anniversary gift still remained wrapped, sitting on the dining room table. Frank had not removed it since the seventh of last month. He looked at his phone. There were messages from Pete and Spencer, but none from Gerard. He erased them all without listening then picked up the bowl and slurped down the rest of the pink milk, splashing some on his shirt. At least the stain matched today. He dropped the bowl in the sink to join the others like it with crusted dry bits of cereal and small pools of stagnant milk then put on his jacket. Frank noticed it was getting tight around the shoulders again.

“Time to let out the stitches more.”

Frank walked to the front door and opened the closet. Next to his trench coat was still Gerard’s white one. He reached up and caressed the sleeve like he did everyday. He then grabbed his ratty looking bomber jacket, and donned it before heading off to another meaningless day of work.


***Timestamp: November 21st***


Gerard and Destiny are setting the dining table, making small talk about her school excursion to the art museum. Gerard feels bad, but as she's speaking his mind wanders to how he didn't have to set the table a specific way anymore. He didn't even have to arrange the fridge or the cupboards, and it was really weird. Gerard had gotten so used to it, and sometimes he caught himself rearranging everything the way Frank liked it.

"Hey Gege, did you hear me? I asked if your kids are coming to Thanksgiving?"

Gerard spoke quickly as he snapped out of his daydream.

"Oh, uh, yeah. They are."

"Good, I like Kat, and did you notice that Kyle likes it when Kody comes over? Like he takes time to pick out the games they are going to play, and he makes sure that his favorite snacks are in the house, and he even wears nice clothes!"

Gerard chuckled at that, and smiled knowingly.




"Oh really now?... I hadn't noticed."

"Hadn't noticed what?"

Kyle came in the room, and grabbed a peach out of the fruit bowl on the table.

"Kyle, you are going to ruin your appetite for Gege's cooking!"

"Oh cool it Dizzy, I am fucking starving."

"*gasp* Kyle!"

"Whoops, sorry, guess a few bad habits rubbed off on me from Kody."

Gerard chuckled again and faced Kyle.

"I'm really happy you two are getting along. Need I bring up how you guys started off?"

He wiggled his brows up and down playfully.

"Yeah well, everyone make mistakes right?"

At that point the door opened, and the subject at hand walked in. Both Kody and Kat had been there so much in the last five months that they were told not to knock anymore.

"Hey cats, what's shakin?"

Kody sauntered in, wearing a shiny black winter jacket with the sleeves pushed up. He had on a tight fitting shirt with the Thunder Cats emblem on it, and just as tight pants.

"Gee, it smells great in here, what's for chow?"

Gerard smiled at Kody and waved his arms to the stove.

"I made... Drum roll, Destiny."

Destiny giggled and started drumming on the kitchen island.

Gerard sauntered quickly to the stove, pulled it open quickly, and shouted theatrically.

"Lobster thermidor! Billy's absolute favorite. Right Destiny?"

"Yes, and daddy always said that no one could make it quite like Gege could."

Destiny giggled and Kody laughed, but Kyle was strangely quiet. Kody walked up to Kyle, and punched him in the arm lightly.

"Yo K-man, you all right?"

"Uh... Yeah, I just... Like that shirt you’re wearing."

Kody looked down and laughed.

"Oh thanks, but it isn’t mine. I actually swiped it from this guy that I was fu.... Messing around with last year."

Gerard watched Kyle's reaction carefully. He looked hurt. It was all in his eyes. The light shade of blue went dark, and his head lowered slightly.

"Enough of that Kody. Do you wanna get the lobster out for me?"

"Oh sure, put the guest to work. I see how it is with you Gee."

Kody laughed and took off his jacket which he then draped on the chair. He headed into the kitchen. Kyle picked up the jacket and walked it to the coat hanger, but not before inhaling the scent of cologne and Kody in it.

"Kyle, what are you doing?"

"Hanging Kody's jacket up?"

"Yeah, but why are you smelling it?"

"Oh! Well you know how dad hates cigarette smoke, and Kody's dad smokes so I wanted to make sure it was not on the jacket before I hung it up next to ours."

"No chance of that man, that jacket has been at the guy’s house that I stayed at last night for like a month. The only thing it should smell like is potpourri, because man is he gay!"

Gerard slapped Kody's arm and rolled his eyes.

"C'mon, don't stop. You're almost at the table."

Gerard started to exit the kitchen.

"Kyle, While he's doing that let's have a little talk."

"Uh oh K, is it time for 'the talk' already? My how fast you have grown."

Kody laughed as he put the lobster platter on the table. Kyle punched his arm lightly and lost his balance. Kody grabbed him around the waist the steadied him.

"Easy there tiger, you don’t need to lose an arm over it."

Kyle relaxed a little till he realized he was in Kody's arms. He pushed off quickly and laughed it off.

"Yeah, well I spent the night with..."

Suddenly Kyle could not remember his girlfriend’s name, nor could he see her face. Kody nudged him lightly, and winked in the direction of his sister.

"Oh, I get ya buddy. Yeah, I had a night like that myself. Although I am not the one having trouble walking."

Kody laughed, and Kyle used that as his cue to join Gerard in the kitchen.

Once Kyle was by his side Gerard grabbed his arm and led him into the spare room down the hall.

"You're not just a virgin... Are you?"

Gerard quietly shut the door closed.

"W-W-W-What!?"

Kyle backed away from Gerard. He quickly hit the wall, and had no place to go.

"I have no i-i-idea what you are talking about G-G-Gee!"

Gerard sighed and leaned against the wall.

"I've seen the way you look at Kody. It's okay... It really is. It's okay to be gay, but you just can't keep that poor girl hanging around. She'd be missing out on someone who'll like her the way you like Kody."

Kyle tried to argue and then hung his head in defeat.

"Is it really that obvious?"

"Very."

Gerard smiled sheepishly at the young man.

"You should tell him. God knows how oblivious Kody is."

"No! I can't! I... just can't."

Kyle sunk to his knees. It felt good to let the secret out a little, but it still hung heavy in his heart. Kody was a playboy, and that was not what Kyle was looking for. He wanted a real relationship with whoever he chose. He did not want to be another toy for Kody to play with.

"Look Gee, just don’t say anything all right?"

Gerard looked down at Kyle. He frowned a little, but nodded nonetheless.

"Okay sweetie. Your secret's safe with me... You have to tell him eventually though. Maybe he feels the same way."

Kyle sighed, he figured if he could not trust Gerard who could he?

"Look Gee, Kody is looking to have a good time, and well... I'm not. I don’t want to be one of the guys whose name is casually dropped here and there. I want to be more and..."

Kyle wiped a tear away that trailed down his cheek. This hurt more than he thought. He inhaled deeply and began again.

"Kody is not the type of guy to..."

"Hey, everything all right in here?"

Kody opened the door and stuck his head in. He looked right at Kyle, and saw his face.

"Hey, what's going on? K, you all right?"

Kody walked in the room and over to Kyle. He stood in front of him, and caressed his cheek, wiping away one of the tears.

"Hey, what's wrong babe?"

Kyle stiffened a little to be called a pet name. He shuddered a bit, and looked to Gerard for help.

"He, uh, we were talking... Uh, Kyle..."

He trailed off, diverting his eyes to the ground. Then it happened. The tiny light-bulb in his head lit up, and he almost snapped his fingers, but he stopped himself before he could.

"He just broke up with his girlfriend."

Gerard said it quickly, but still very sympathetically. Kyle's eyes went wide as he stared at Gerard, shocked that he came up with that. Kody did not see it because he was turned towards Gerard when he was speaking. Kyle quickly schooled his face as Kody turned around again. He looked in Kody's eyes, and saw sympathy. There was something else... relief perhaps?

"Oh man K, I am so sorry. You must be in such pain right now. We could have hung out another day you know. I would have understood."

"No! I mean no, I uh, I could use the distraction actually."

Kody smirked waved his hands in front of Kyle magically.

"Well then K, I can certainly do that. Come on babe, were getting out of here."

Before Kyle could say anything he was dragged out the door, and in the direction of his room. Kody opened the door and moved to his closet. He rummaged through it, tossing clothing here and there.

"Kody, what are you..."

"Man, you have nothing fashionable here! Come on, we're going shopping!"

Kody dragged Kyle back out, and down the hall, past Gerard as he came out of the door. Kyle looked at him with pleading eyes.

"Gee, put our dinner in the oven, Kyle and I are going club clothing shopping, and then clubbing. Later!"

Gerard smirked as they barged out. He waved goodbye, but they hadn't noticed.

"I guess dinner's gonna be pretty quiet tonight."

"Yeah Gege, just you and dad."

Gerard looked up, but a car horn sounded and Destiny grabbed her coat.

"Oh, I forgot to tell you. Adam and Stephan are sleeping over a friend’s house, and Rachel is hanging out with Kat. I guess that just leaves you and dad. Have fun!"

Destiny ran for the front door just as it opened, and Billy walked in,

"Hey kiddo, is that car for you?"

"Yeah dad, sorry, for the hi and bye. I'll call you."

"All right, bye Des."

The door closed and Billy took off his coat, and placed his briefcase down.

"Hey Gee, mmmm, smells good in here. What's for dinner?"

Gerard was nervous now. The house had emptied out so quickly. Everything he'd just made Kyle go through with Kody minutes ago was hitting back at him. Karma's a bitch.

"Oh, uh... Y'know, just lobster thermidor. It's all finished. I'll plate it up."

"Oh wow, my favorite! Wait...where is everyone else?"

Billy looked around, and realized that they were alone. He also realized that Gerard looked pretty good. Nicely dressed, and he felt dumpy in his work suit.

"Hey Gee, I'm gonna change real quick."

Billy ran to his room. He slipped out of his suit quickly, and into some clean jeans with a simple button down flannel. Once he was more casual, and matched Gerard, he went back downstairs. He stopped at the bar in the living room, and fixed both of them a screwdriver. Billy then made his way back to the table.

"Gee, I made us a drink."

Gerard looked up from the table then looked Billy up and down. He looked... Gerard blinked hard, and looked down quickly.

"Uh, t-thanks..."

He took his seat quickly, and grabbed the drink Billy made him. Billy sat down in his usual spot which was four chairs away from Gerard. It did not feel right at an empty table though. Billy took a quick drink to fortify himself. Then he stood up, and moved till he was next to Gerard.

"Just kind of silly when it is just the two of us."

The tension was strong and Billy could feel it. Suddenly he jumped up again, this time startling Gerard.

"Hey Gee, why don’t we take this into the Game room, and watch a movie while we eat?"

"Yeah. Good idea."

He grabbed the plates, and started out of the kitchen. They made their way to the Game room, and Billy has grabbed two bottles of beer as well. They settle on the sofa, and Gerard places the plates on the coffee table. Billy grabs a movie then pops it in the DVD player, and they settle in to eat and watch.

"So, how was your day?"

"It was, uh, interesting. The kids were well behaved, but you know how loud they can be."

He wasn't used to it yet. All the kids and all the racket, but he did miss it. It just took some getting used to... Which he eventually will.

"How was your day? I hope work was smooth sailing."

Gerard relaxed on the love seat. He even allowed his knee to touch Billy's.

"It was all right, but honestly I could not wait to get home. I kind of missed you, and your amazing cooking. Plus I have been dying to see this movie."

Billy liked that he made Gerard laugh and blush. He turned the volume up then relaxed besides Gerard to eat and melt away the stress of the day.


***Timestamp: November 23rd Thanksgiving***


“Are you sure?”

“Yes Pete, I am sure.”

“Okay Frankie, well, if you change your mind…”

“I promise I will call you.”

“Excuse me Sir, here is your dinner.”

“What was that?”

“All right, bye Frankie, Happy Thanksgiving.”

“You too Pete. Give my regards to Spencer and Ryan.”

Frank hung the phone up, and apologized to the waitress at the diner.

“Sorry, relatives wanting me to come over and do the family thing.”

“Oh sure I get it, you would rather give up that to spend time with our lovely stucco and linoleum atmosphere.”

Frank smiled at the woman. She was one of those tough old birds who had probably been working here since she could barely see over the counter.

“Something like that.”

“Whatever floats your boat honey.”

Frank smiled again as she walked away to help someone else. The diner was really busy, filled with families that could not be bothered with the fuss of a home cooked meal, older couples who just did not do that anymore, and single men and women like him who just had no place to go. Well he did, but that just reminded him of times that were better. As he cut into the turkey and ate it, he was happy it was not dry, and the potatoes did not seem like they came from powdered flakes. He briefly wondered if Gerard would cook turkey like this. Of course they had a different array of vegetable dishes for dinner and for one a tofurkey, which was hideously cooked by a crying Gerard.


”It said to cook it that high on the box!”



”Yes Gee, but you were supposed to take it out of the wrapper first.”



”Well I thought it was one of those thermal bags!”



”Dad. Can we just go get Indian tonight?”


Frank found himself smiling at the memory of the children whining as he soothed Gerard out of the pantry closet. They all piled into the car, and he drove them to Vatan, the kids favorite Indian restaurant. Gerard eventually recovered, and enjoyed the Malai Kofta. They all had watermelon cucumber chillers, virgin of course. He tamped down the memory, and finished his food. The waitress brought him a cup of chilled chocolate mousse that he did not order.

“On the house sweetheart, looked like you could use something to brighten up your day.”

Frank ate the dessert quietly, and when the waitress brought the bill he quietly slipped out of the building, leaving a hundred dollar bill under his plate.

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"Man Gee, that was fucking amazing! I mean I cannot remember the last time I had real fucking turkey for Thanksgiving. I am so fucking stuffed and..."

"Kody watch your fucking mouth!"

Billy and the family stared at the two Iero kids. They would never get used to their foul language. Unfortunately it still reminded Gerard of Frank, and he felt the absence of his rings weigh on his heart.

”Hey Kat, remember the year that mom tried to cook the tofurkey?”

”Oh god, what a mess that was, and Gee could not stop crying.”

”Wait, why was Gege crying?”

”Oh he thought you are supposed to cook the thing in the bag it came in. It melted and fused to the tofu.”

”Yeah and after dad got Gee to come out of the pantry closet we went out for Indian.”

”Yeah.”

The table got quiet for a moment, and Billy realized it was awkward for them to be remembering a happy memory like that in front of Gerard. They must have realized it too because suddenly Kody grabbed an ice cube from his water glass, and dropped it down Kyle’s back.

”Ahhhhhh!”

”Awe K-man, what’s wrong? You seem to be really high strung lately so I thought I would help you chill out!”

The kids at the table cracked up as Kyle jumped up, trying to shake the cube out of his shirt. Kody and Kat were in each other’s arms, shaking with laughter that was bringing them to tears.

"All right you two, cut it out. Hey Gee, let us clear the table for you, you go relax with your wine."

"Don't mind if I do."

Gerard giggled then grabbed his empty glass, and the bottle from the wine rack. He went with white this time.

Gerard started for the living room. When he entered he plopped down on the leather couch, and set his glass on the coffee table. He uncorked the wine bottle and poured himself a full glass. After he set the bottle down on the coffee table, he picked up his glass and took a satisfying pull, sighing contently as he did. Gerard earned his third drink. The sofa cushion sags next to him, and he sees Billy with an empty wine glass. Gerard quirks an eyebrow at him, and Billy laughs.

"What? You aren't the only hard working man in this house. I get to rest too you know. Speaking of, how is the Gallery? I read you are getting ready for a big showing next month. A Holiday Tribute of sorts, but with a dark theme it said?"

Billy grabs the bottle off the table and fills his own glass. He turns to face Gerard, eager for information.

"Yeah, actually. It's going to be hectic... Um, it's funny that you mentioned that. I wanted to ask you something."

Gerard cleared his throat. Billy took a sip of his wine, and settled further into the sofa.

"What my love? Anything within my power is yours."

Gerard sipped his wine then cleared his throat again.

"I, uh... Would you... Um. Would you like to go to the showing with me?"

Billy nearly dropped his glass. He fell so far back into the sofa that he got trapped between the cushions. He flailed about a bit like a turtle on it's back. Gerard took the glass of wine from him then grabbed his arm, and pulled too hard of course. Billy came out and landed, pushing Gerard onto his back in an awkward position. If this was a situational comedy the laugh track would have been going wild.

"Hey Pops I... Whoops sorry to interrupt here."

"Kyle get back here and help me up before I crush your mother!"

Billy could feel Gerard stiffen under him, and he also felt the tension fill the room for all three men. Kyle came over quickly, grabbed his shoulder, and pulled him back up.

"Right, okay, so I'm gonna go back and... yeah."


Billy looked at Gerard who was still awkwardly on his back. The apron that he wore to protect his outfit was pushed up on his hips and the tan leggings looked more like bare legs at the moment. He was breathing heavy too, and Billy had to look away.

"Uh... s-s-sorry about that. Slip of the past."

Gerard shook his head slowly and pushed himself up gently.

"I-it's okay, Billy. Um. Was that your answer to my question?"

Billy laughed to break the tension.

"No no, I mean yes yes. Of course I will be your date... uh companion... I mean... Yeah, I will go with you."

Gerard beamed, and pulled Billy into an awkward sitting hug then kissed his cheek.

"Thanks. I really appreciate it. Going alone would be pretty boring."

Billy picked up Gerard's glass and handed it to him. He grabbed his own and looped an arm around Gerard. He felt Gerard settle into the crook of his side, and he propped his feet up on the coffee table to watch the fire dance in the fireplace.


***Timestamp: December 14th***


“Frank! What the fuck!?”

Frank looked up from the sofa as Pete stormed into the house. He stopped in front of Frank, and looked at the house. It was a mess, and Frank was surrounded by empty fast food containers along with his laptop. The only thing missing was the beer bottles, but even Pete had to know that Frank would not go there. Instead it was cans of energy drinks and empty soda bottles.

“When is the last time you showered?”

“Uh, maybe three days ago?”

“Up, now, let’s go.”

“Pete…”

“Now Iero!”

Frank looked at Pete and saw the tension in his body. He sighed and got up. Pete followed him out of the living room and through the lounge to the downstairs bathroom. He stood there as Pete turned on the triple shower heads and regulated the temperature.

“Well, what are you waiting for? Strip.”

Frank knew there was no arguing with Pete when he was like this. He slowly took his button down shirt off. When he opened it, it revealed a wife-beater with stains and crumbs all over it. Frank grunted as he lifted his arms up to take that off. Then he unbuckled his pants, which were straining where he had them closed and revealed a ratty pair of boxers. Frank could feel Pete frowning at him as he removed them and stood there. Pete ushered him into the shower. He closed the door and Frank was alone. He stood there for a moment, feeling the water cascading down the extra layers of his body that he had added to it in the last four or five months. The weight did not bother him though. He had no reason to look good anymore. Six months now Gerard, his beautiful wife, had been gone. He didn’t want anyone else, so why should it matter?

“It should matter because you never know what can still happen.”

Frank had not realized that he had spoken out loud as the door opened, and Pete stepped in.

“I pretty much knew you would just stand there under the water if I did not help out.”

Frank saw how healthy Pete’s body looked compared to his own. He used to look even better than Pete. He sighed and leaned his head against the wall, letting the water cover his face.

“No no no, you are not allowed to drown yourself in water or misery.”

Pete pulled Frank back and picked up a bottle of shampoo. He began to wash Frank’s greasy hair, and he had to admit it felt good. He remembered when Gerard used to do this for him. Gerard.

“Face it Pete, he is not coming back. He doesn’t have a reason to. I hurt him, I did something I swore I would never do.”

“Gerard is just confused now, that’s all. He is finding his way, and I am sure it will be back to you.”

“And if not?”

“Then we will deal with life like we did before… Together. I just don’t want to see you hurt yourself like this anymore. Please Frankie.”

Frank’s chest tightened up as he heard Pete’s voice crack. He turned around, and looked at his best friend of over thirty years then Frank cracked. He began to sob and wail. He cried for the first time in six months over the loss of his former life. Frank fell against Pete, and pushed his face into his chest, pounding on it with his fists.

“Why, why was I so stupid? Why would I cost myself the best thing I ever had?”

Pete soothed Frank by rubbing his back, and letting him blubber like a child. When Frank was all cried out, he patted him on the shoulder, and turned him around to rinse the soap out of his hair fully. He then helped Frank wash his body, and slough off all the dead skin. They stepped out and Pete wrapped Frank up in a fluffy warm bathrobe. He donned one himself, and put an arm around his friend's shoulders.

“Let’s see what we can do to get your life back to semi normal, huh Frankie?”

“Yeah Pete, yeah.”

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Gerard's exhausted. He's been running around, rearranging, and making sure everything is just right, if not perfect. And to top it all off, it's been six months since he's seen Frank... Heard his voice, felt his skin... He kept himself busy so he didn't have to think about it so much. Gerard needed to keep busy. He had to.

"Ah, there is my star employee! Wow Gerard, you have been amazing these last months. I have not had so many new clients in such a short time, and their work is brilliant. Perfect additions to the Gallery. I do wish that you would let me get you an assistant though, I am betting that Frank misses having you around more often."

Stan looks for an unassuming place on a fruit arrangement, and steals a piece of pineapple before holding it under the fountain of dark chocolate and popping it in his mouth.

"You two kids need to come over for dinner soon. Mikey will whip up something amazing for us."

"Oh... Well, Frank and I aren't on talking terms right now. I actually have someone else joining me here tonight."

"Wait, when did that happen? Are you guys okay? Gerard I..."

"Stan, we have a situation with a delivery to the Gallery."

Kassandra came walking into the room briskly. She had a pad of paper and started to rattle a bunch of numbers off to Stan. Stan groaned and slapped his forehead. He muttered to himself as he left the room, reaching for his cell phone. Kassandra bumped Gerard's hip lightly.

"I think I defused that nicely. So do I get to meet this mystery guy Billy that you have been going on about Gee?"

Gerard smiled weakly at Kassandra and sighed, shrugging his shoulders.

"I really hope so... I mean, there's a possibility he might not show up. He's a busy man."

He didn't want to get anyone's hopes up. Especially not his own.

"Well don’t worry. I am sure that he will be here."

Kassandra smiled as she patted Gerard on the shoulder, and walked away to check on Stan.

"Smile Gee, showtime in one hour."

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Billy was running late. Damn meeting, damn ball players, damn traffic, damn suit. He pulled off the street in front of the gallery, and the valet took his keys. He hurried up the stairs, making sure his jacket was straight. There was a sea of people there dressed for the holidays, but he did not see Gerard. Instead he was greeted by a stunning man in a pantsuit that could rival any woman, especially with that figure.


"Well hello, Welcome to Claymore Gallery. I am Mrs. Claymore, can I help you find anything?"

Billy wondered if he might know where Gerard was.

"Yes, you could help me. I am looking for..."

"Ah, there you are my love."

An older gentleman walked up to them and kissed the much younger man on the back of the neck.

"Who is this you have with you?"

"Yes, where are my manners? I'm William Corgan."

"The William Corgan?"

Billy nodded and blushed a bit. He hated being recognized.

"I hope you were able to pick up Wayne for the upcoming season."

"We are still working on that. But please, I had a long day and even longer meetings. Can you tell me where I can find Mrs. Wa... Iero?"

Billy thought he saw the younger man flinch when he mentioned Gerard's name.

"Oh, are you a friend of Gee's?"

"Ah, yes, I am."

"Well my hardest working employee is of course frittering around in the main room, checking on details instead of having fun and enjoying his party."

"Now Stany, it is everyone's party."

"Yes love, but you know that your brother worked very hard to make sure everything was perfect."

"You're Gerard's brother?"

"Yes, the pleasure is all mine Mr. Corgan."

Gerard looked around subconsciously for Billy even though he had given up ten minutes ago. He didn't know why, but he felt extremely heart broken, and undesirable about the whole thing... It wasn't like Billy was his boyfriend or husband or anything. They weren't even having a physical relationship, so he didn't know why he was feeling like a pissed off spouse. Gerard exited the main room, and started to head to his office. He had a bottle of his favorite wine he wanted to drink by himself in there.

Billy was about to take the younger man's hand when he saw a woman emerge from the main room. Although it looked like a woman from every angle, Billy just knew.

"Gerard?"

Gerard turned around and Billy felt the room melt away like he saw in the movies. He always heard of Gerard dressing like a woman for his other husbands. Gerard had tossed on the occasional skirt while living there, but when they were married Billy never pretended that Gerard was anything but an effeminate man. Now here he was. His hair had grown out since he had been there, he had chosen to dye it black after Thanksgiving. It was long for a man's hair style, but perfect length for a woman. He had put it up in a clip that Destiny had given him, and even though it was not made of real diamond, it sparkled like it was. The dress was Burgundy to match Billy’s suit. It clung to Gerard in all the right places. He was wearing makeup that showed off his natural features flawlessly. On his legs were some form of stockings and high heeled shoes.


"Gee..."

Billy did not mean to, but he left Gerard's brother standing there with his hand out. He moved through the crowd, that seemed to part for him, and walked up to Gerard.

"Hey, sorry, I got held up and... Gee, you look breathtaking."

Gerard blushed and nibbled on his bottom lip.

"Thanks Billy. You too. And it's okay... I kept myself busy."

He almost forgot about where he was and where he was going. Gerard could not figure out why he was feeling so nervous all of a sudden. It's Billy for Christ's sake.

"Let me show you around. I wanna introduce you to a few friends of mine."

Gerard went to take Billy’s arm, but Billy was not even thinking. He moved so that Gerard was on his side, and one arm was wrapped around his small waist. He took Gerard's hand gingerly, and allowed himself to guide and be guided by the enigmatic younger man.

"This place is amazing Gee, and the owner said that you are the best he has. I can see why."

Several people stopped them to talk, all taken in by Gerard's charm and honesty. The more he saw this side of Gerard the more dangerous the whole situation became. As they moved back into the main room Billy saw all the good food spread out, and his mouth watered.

"Come on Gee, let's get something to eat."

"Ah, good idea... I haven't eaten all day. I'm starving."

"Do you want me to make you a plate?"

Before Gerard could answer, Billy went through the line and gathered up a few things he knew that Gerard would like. He saw that Gerard was waiting for him by the window table. He was looking out at the falling snow. Billy carried the plates over and then stopped. He looked at the window that Gerard was standing near and saw it. The small green and white plant dangled from the gold string, and hovered a few feet above Gerard's head. Billy walked over and put the plates down.

"Uh Gee? You uh I have your plate."

Gerard turned his back to the window and smiled up at Billy.

"Oh, hey... Thanks."

Gerard's smile dropped when he saw the older man’s expression. He looked uneasy.

"What's wrong? Is everything okay?"

"Uh Gee... look up"

Gerard did just that. He looked up and saw the decorated plant.

"Oh! Would you look at that."

Gerard covered his mouth and laughed putting his hands on his hips.

"It's a mistletoe."

"Yeah, mistletoe."

Billy did not know where his courage came from. He stepped up to Gerard and pulled him into his arms. He caressed his cheek lightly and ran his fingers through his hair.

"Gee... Love."

Billy placed a hand behind Gerard's neck, and carefully brought them together to touch their lips. Billy was holding his breath. He was not sure how Gerard was going to react. When he felt him kissing back he relaxed a bit, and dropped a hand to Gerard's hip. He pulled him in tighter and deepened the kiss more. Tentatively he brushed his tongue against Gerard's lower lip, and was gifted with a low moan that rumbled through his body. He also parted his lips slightly, and Billy eased his tongue in and touched Gerard’s. Gerard can feel it now. He can feel himself losing control of the situation. His tongue is sliding feverishly against Billy's, and he's pressing his left hand against the back of his head. But almost as soon as his hips touch Billy's he pulls away slowly.

"S-sorry..."

He whispered, stepping back.

"No, I'm sorry, I should not have done that. I pushed, or rather pulled you and... I should go now. I'll stay at the office tonight."

Billy turned to leave, and felt a hand on his sleeve.

"No."

Gerard spoke quickly, fearing he would never get the chance.

"No. Don't... Don't go. I mean, we shouldn't have to apologize. You don't have to be sorry."

Gerard felt stupid for pulling away from him... Now Billy was regretting the kiss.

"Please don't go. I don't want you to go."

"Gerard."

Billy turned back and saw that Gerard had tears sliding down his cheeks. The drops glistened in the lamplight that came from the table. He reached up and brushed the tear away then stuck the finger in his mouth.

"No crying Gee love, you are too beautiful to do anything but smile."

Gerard laughed lightly and then did smile. That beautiful smile that Billy fell in love with. This time when he stepped in Gerard followed him. The kiss was more mutual this time, and nothing to do with the tradition over their heads.

"Gee love, I don’t want to do this to you. Your heart is still fragile and..."

"It's okay... I'm okay. Really. I really am."

Gerard rubbed Billy's arm. He was telling the truth too. He did feel okay... In that moment.

"Gee love, I am willing to try and make this work for us. Whatever you want or need, I will give you."

No other words were needed. They kissed again, and this time they both felt it. Forgetting where they were Billy pushed Gerard into the corner of the room and into the shadows, away from everyone's eyes. He ran a hand down the dress and felt where it touched his stockinged leg. He pushed his hand under and rested it on his partially bare thigh. He felt Gerard shiver at this touch, but did not pull away.

"I want..."

Gerard gasped, releasing a shuddered breath.

"I want that too."

Gerard lifted one of his legs and placed it on Billy's hip. Billy reached out and cupped his hand under it and settled even closer to Gerard. He skimmed his hand under the dress and could feel that Gerard was hard and leaking through his... Lace panties? Fuck.

"Gee love, let's get out of here, and go home."

Gerard nodded frantically, grinding himself against Billy one more time before pulling away from him.

"Another good idea."

Billy led Gerard through the people and out the door. He heard someone call for him, but at this point he did not care. He needed to get Gerard home and... Then what? Billy stood, waiting for his car with Gerard, but he had no idea what they were doing. The car came and the valet let Gerard in. Billy got in and dropped into first as Gerard's hand dropped on to his thigh and squeezed. Billy tore away from the curb and headed straight to the house.


***Mikey***


As soon as they exited the room, Mikey revealed himself from his own shadowed corner. The only difference was he was alone with a camera in his hand. He slyly grinned at what he just witnessed. Not only was Gerard here without Frank, but he was making out with his ex-husband. It took a moment for Mikey to realize who this guy was, but when he saw them together, it clicked. Mikey had no idea why Frank was not here with Gerard. Perhaps they were fighting. Perhaps Frank finally got tired of his sorry ass, although that was most unlikely seeing as how he was so in love with his brother. Still it did not matter. Mikey patted the camera and smiled.

”It will be a very merry Christmas this year for poor Frankie boy when he receives my little present.”

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By the time they got home Billy was a fucking mess and it was thanks to Gerard. He had teased him through his pants the whole way home. When they arrived Billy flew out of the car to the other side, and picked Gerard up then carried him into the house. Gerard nibbled on Billy's ear, and it made Billy grown low in his throat. He carried him up the stairs to his room and kicked the doors open. He dropped Gerard on the bed and straddled his legs while pulling off his jacket and tie. Gerard looked debauched from their kissing and beautifully used. Billy bent down and buried his face in his hair. He spoke in a whispered hush.

"Gee, what are we doing?"

Gerard licked at his dry lips and gulped soundly.

"I don’t know, but I do know that I wanna suck you off."

Billy's brain pretty much short circuited after that. He flipped them over and watched Gerard preen and slip his dress over his head. Billy stared at him. Gerard had on a black camisole with matching lace and silk panties, along with stockings and a garter belt. Billy is not sure that any other woman could look that good. He ran his hands along Gerard's thighs as Gerard dropped his hands to Billy's belt. His hands were quick and skilled as he unbuckled Billy's pants and when he yanked his slacks down he sees the older man’s bulge through his briefs. Gerard looked up at Billy and smiles sheepishly at him.

"Ready?"

"Please Gee Love, stop teasing me. I can't take it anymore."

Billy watched Gerard softly chuckle as he slipped his fingers in the waistband and pull it down. He licked a stripe up his cock as it was slowly exposed.

"Fuck Gee Love, forgot how good your touch and tongue feels."

Gerard smirked at Billy's declaration and took him further into his mouth. His left hand was pressed against the older man’s pelvis while his right gripped onto the base of his cock. He bobbed his head up and down swiftly and skillfully, taking Billy to the back of his throat each time. Billy was in heaven, or as close as he could get to it right now. He ran his fingers through Gerard's hair and playfully pulled on it. He did not know what changed in ten years so he did not want to hurt him.

"Uh uh ah ah ah, not gonna last if you keep licking there Gee Love, you know that."

Billy felt Gerard smirk around his cock. He knew exactly what he was doing to him.

"Gee Love, up here please. Let's cum together."


Gerard obliged. He pulled his lips off of Billy and moved up to him. Billy pulled Gerard up into a crushing kiss. He reached in and grabbed Gerard's cock, which was peeking out of the top of his panties and fisted it. He turned to his side and pulled his own cock into his grip and fisted them together. Gerard started to make breathless mewing noises, and Billy swallowed them all.

"That's it Gee Love, let me hear you, let me hear you when you cum for me."

That's all Gerard needed to hear. He came, gasping and moaning against the crook of Billy's neck. Seeing Gerard lose it like that, his face in a halo of ecstasy, sent Billy over the edge too. He stroked them both till they were empty. Then Gerard surprised him by grabbing his hand and licking it clean. He looked up at Billy with contentment, and sighing, nuzzled into his chest and began to drift off. Listening to Gerard snoring softly, Billy began to stroke through his hair with his fingers.

"I hope you know what you are doing Gerard."


***Timestamp: December 24th***


The last week went by so fast. After that night, there was nothing as intense, but Gerard was now sleeping in Billy's room every night. They also sat closer at meals and could be seen sharing a look or a touch in every room... Except the kitchen. For some reason Gerard kept him from that room, but Billy chalked it up to one of Gerard's quirks.

"Don't you think it is strange that Frank's kids want to spend Christmas morning with us Gee Love? I mean, I certainly do not mind, but aren't they going to see their dad?"

"Kody said that they are having dinner with him later."

Kyle walked by, grabbing a Satsuma from fruit bowl. Gerard had hooked them on the little exotic fruit that only comes out in winter time. He sat down and put his feet up on the coffee table. Billy frowned at this.

"Gee is going to kill you if he catches you."

"He's in the kitchen so how is he going to..."

Gerard stuck his head through the kitchen archway. He was going to respond to Billy, but he glared at Kyle then his feet.

"Feet down!"

Billy laughed at Kyle as he blushed from getting caught. Gerard asked him to repeat the question.

"Nothing Gee Love, Kyle answered for me. Can I give you a hand in there with the prep for tomorrow morning?"

Billy rose and headed for the kitchen door.

"Ah, oh... Um, I'm about done in here. Thanks though. I appreciate the gesture."

Billy walked in and went to the cupboard to get a glass. He noted that Gerard rearranged them a bit, but he never questioned it. He went to the fridge, and that too was rearranged a bit. Billy grabbed the juice mix that Gerard started to make when he moved in and poured himself a glass. Billy had made a comment that a shot of rum would taste amazing in it and Gerard smiled outwardly, but Billy could see pain in his eyes from the comment. He wished he knew what that was about. Billy walked over to Gerard who was wiping down the cabinet doors. He stepped up behind him, intending to give him an hug, and maybe a kiss on the back of his neck, but when he touched Gerard he jumped back like he had burned him.

"Hey, hey Gee Love, what's the matter?"

"N-nothing. It's nothing. Just don't touch me like that in here, okay?"

Gerard didn't mean to sound so bitter, and he also didn't mean to back out of Billy's arms so aggressively. He knew Billy would question him again so he mentally prepped himself for it. He needed to be rational, because he really did have his reasons. Gerard could not help it. The kitchen always reminded him of Frank.

"Okay Love okay, I just wanted to see if you needed any help that's all."

Billy placed the glass in the sink, still partially full then left the room.

"Hey Pops are you all..."

Billy went upstairs and lay down. He was tired from everything they did today to get ready for tomorrow. Still Gerard’s reaction bothered him. Only in the kitchen did he do that. What was it about that one room? Billy knew he was probably over thinking things. He turned away from the door, and shut his eyes to try to get some sleep.

Gerard slumped over the island and sighed into his hands. He felt so tense and so rigid... He can feel the tension washing over him, and he really needed to stop himself from over thinking things... Over thinking Frank. Gerard quickly pushed himself off the counter and wiped his hands down his face.

"Fuck..."

He needed to go and apologize to Billy. The man deserved an explanation. Gerard quickly made his way around the kitchen, and through the main hall that led him to the foyer. He swore to himself again as he started up the steps. He was literally a few feet away from Billy's door as he took a deep breath. Gerard didn't bother to knock as he slowly turned the knob, soundlessly, and quietly stepped inside. He looked over Billy's still form, and he nibbled on his bottom lip nervously as he started to approach him. Billy still had no idea Gerard was there, and when he climbed onto the bed Billy jolted slightly.

"Sorry."

Gerard whispered, pressing his hand down on the older man’s shoulder. Billy turned over and looked at him.

"It's okay Gee Love, I am the one who should be sorry. I need to remember that you are still fragile, and..."

Billy's words were cut off by Gerard's lips. They were soft and moist with tears. Billy licked at them taking in the salty water. He murmured against his skin.

"Don’t cry Gee Love, please. You're too beautiful to cry."

That made Gerard cry more, and Billy wondered if Frank had once said that to him.

"S-stop talking. Please, just..."

Gerard pressed his lips against Billy's again. This time with more passion. He didn't want to think about Frank when he was looking at Billy. It was too much... It was such a familiar feeling... It was overwhelming. He was so torn.

"Shhh, easy baby easy."

It slipped out, he did not mean it to. He pulled Gerard to him and held him tightly. Gerard cried and Billy had a feeling that it was a long time coming. He held Gerard till he stilled and only the slight shiver was coming from him now. Billy looked out the window, and could see the snow falling lightly through the soft gusts of wind. He pulled the covers over them, and kissed Gerard on the head just as the clock chimed.

"Merry Christmas Gee Love."


***The Next Day***


"Merry Christmas Everyone!"

The kids all ran over to the door when the Iero Kids arrived. Kyle took the gifts from them as the younger ones pulled them into the room with the two barely having a moment to give Louise their coats. Hugs and kisses exchanged they all sat down at the table and waited for Gerard to emerge from the kitchen with breakfast. Gerard stepped through the kitchen door, with a pink Christmas hat on his head and holding a tray with a variety of omelets stacked on it.

"Merry Christmas! I hope everyone's hungry because I made so much of these."

Gerard giggled as he set the tray in the center of the table. Everyone already had a plate sitting in front of them, so all they would have to do is serve themselves. Once the main dish was laid down there was a scramble for all the side dishes. bacon sausage, sliced ham, two kinds of potatoes, and fresh made grits because Gerard loved Adam's quirky sense of taste. Gerard's amazing juice mix was there for the kids, and mimosas for those old enough to drink. The conversation was jovial, and Billy could not help but smile as he slipped a hand under the table to let it rest it on Gerard's thigh.

"Everything is perfect Gee Love. You really out did yourself."

Gerard smirked at the older man then rested his hand on top of Billy's, and rubbed him there gently.

"Thanks sweetie, but it was really nothing... You know I love cooking."

After breakfast was over the whole family crowded into the living room. Presents were opened to the delight of all the kids, but Gerard insisted on waiting to open his presents last.

"Oh wow Kody, I don't know what to say?"

"Say thank you. My own personal jacket slut helped me pick it out for you."

Kyle looked down at the ground. Kody never noticed.

"Take a bow Gee for having amazing taste."

Gerard stood up and instead of bowing he curtsied.

"Thank you, thank you."

He giggled, taking his seat. Kat rolled her eyes.

"Should have seen that one coming Kodes."

"Yeah well, I am good with clothing, but nothing beats Gee's taste in outerwear. Remember the trench coat that Dad bought him in Paris, and he... Shit, sorry Mom."

Kat went to slap Kody upside the head, but her arm was grabbed by Destiny.

"It's Christmas."

"Yeah, all right. Hey Mom, open your gift! It's from all of us kids!"

Gerard opened up the small box, and saw that there was a gold heart with his birthstone at the top. Hanging from the heart was nine charms.


"You guys!"

Gerard gushed, pressing the charm to his chest, right over his heart.

"This is so perfect. Thank you so much."

It really was perfect. He loved it so much.

"Wait, there are nine charms on there, not including the one at the top. There are only seven of you, and..."

Billy stopped when the Iero children started blushing.

"Oh."

”It was Destiny's idea."

"Well Gege said that he never stopped thinking of us as his kids so I figured that he would never forget Kat and Kody. It only seemed proper to me."

"You're right, Des. I agree. You're all my children, and that's never going to change."

Gerard spoke, looking at each and every one of them individually.

"I love you all so much."

He was getting a little emotional. He wiped his eyes with his index finger and sniffled quietly.

"All right, my turn."

Billy went under the tree, and brought out a good sized white box with a satin green ribbon around it.

"Merry Christmas Gee Love."

Everyone watched as Gerard opened it and gasped. Inside was a beautiful crystal statue that went straight to Gerard's heart, It was a recreation of one of his favorite paintings in the Gallery by an artist that Gerard discovered.


"Billy!" /

Gerard jumped up after setting his gift down on the coffee table, and pulled Billy into a big hug.

"Oh my god. Where did you find this?"

He was practically in the taller man’s lap now.

"I commissioned it when I saw you admiring the painting."

Billy loved the look in Gerard's eyes. It was so childlike.

"I take it that you like it?"

"Are you kidding me? I love it!"

Gerard squealed, wrapping his arms around Billy's shoulders, and gave him a big, wet kiss on the cheek.

"Awwwww."

A collective sound from all the kids broke them apart.

"Well that was fun, now who is going to help clean up?"

It was as bad as a movie scene as the living room emptied quickly in a flurry of wrapping paper and ribbon as the Iero Kids and Kyle were all that was left. Billy looked over at Kyle and he shrugged.

"I knew everyone else would run so I stayed."

"Wait, what the fuck just happened?"

"Yeah, I'm confused."

"You two and I just volunteered to clean up this mess."

"WHAT!?"

Gerard laughed loudly and started picking up the wrapping paper.

"C'mon guys. Leave him alone. Let's just enjoy this Christmas miracle."

Kyle agreed then went into the kitchen to grab a garbage bag. He returned, and they started to put the paper away. Kat put everyone’s gifts back under the tree for them to get later, and Kody started to clear the table with Billy. In no time the job was done, and the kids were saying goodbye to them.

"Oh Kyle, I forgot I was invited to a New Year’s party at one of my favorite clubs. I had a date, but he flaked on me, want to go?"

"Uh, sure I guess."

"Great it's a date then."

Kody kissed Kyle on the cheek, hugged Gerard, and left with his sister. Kyle looked at the card Kody handed him.

"Oh fuck me! Gee! It's a gay club!"

Gerard looked at Billy and they both busted out with laughter.

"Sounds like fun Kyle, doesn't it Billy?"

"No, come on Geeeeeee."

Kyle was whining, and it made them laugh even more if that were possible.

"Oh fuck you both."

Gerard grabbed Kyle's arm and held onto it tightly.

"Alright, alright... How 'bout we go with you?"

"Really? You would do that for me? Oh thank you thank you Gee!"

Kyle hugged Gerard so tightly that he lifted him off the ground. Gerard laughed obnoxiously then turned to Billy again once Kyle set him down.

"Are you okay with that sweetie?"

He batted his lashes at the older man with a little pout on his face.

"Sure Gee Love, besides this way I can show you off, and put some of my signature dance moves on you."

Billy did a silly slinky dance, and Kyle busted out laughing as well.

"Oh Christ, please no dad. Thanks you two. Well, I need a nap after all that."

Kyle left the room, and Billy turned to Gerard.

"I could use one too, care to join me Mrs. Corgan?"

Billy suddenly stilled. He looked down.

"Sorry, I didn’t mean, I um..."

Gerard blushed and grabbed Billy's arm. He tiptoed up and kissed his cheek for the billionth time since he's been there.

"It's okay. Lead the way."

Billy visibly relaxed, and took Gerard's hand. He led him up the stairs to the bedroom. After he opened the door and let Gerard in, Billy shut the door behind them.

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”Dinner was good dad thanks!”

”I know my cooking skills have been lacking lately, but…”

"Really dad it was great!”

They had opened presents earlier, and were now getting ready to settle in to watch a movie.

”So what movie are we watching?”

”How about Nightmare?”

Frank froze. That was one of Gerard’s favorite ones. Kody realized what he said.

“Oh man dad, I’m sorry, I just…”


*ding dong*


“I got it!”

Kody jumped up and ran for the door. Frank looked at Kat, who had a sad look on her face.

“How is he?”

“Dad…”

“I don’t want to know where he is, just how is he.”

“He’s doing alright.”

“Good. I am glad that you and your brother are still spending time with him.”

“Dad, we never meant to hurt you.”

“No, I deserved it. You two should not have to lose him too.”

“Hey dad, you got a letter.”

“On Christmas?”

“Well UPS still runs.”

Frank took the package from Kody and looked at the address.

“There is no return address.”

“You think?”

Frank tore open the packing and pulled out a manila envelope. On the front was Merry Christmas Frankie written in delicate script. Frank knew it was not Gerard’s writing, but still he had slight hope. He opened up the clasp and slipped his hand inside. He pulled out several glossy photos. He looked at them.

“What is it dad?”

Frank continued to stare at them.

Kody came behind his chair and gasped. Kat rose quickly from hers and rounded the other side.

“Oh dad.”

“Well, I guess he really is alright now.”

Frank put the pictures down and stood up. He made his way into the living room to the DVD collection.

“How about Silent Night?”

Frank turned around, and saw his kids holding the photos of his wife and his wife's ex-husband. He recognized the man from sports articles. Someone had snapped them kissing under mistletoe and then having a private moment in a dark corner. Frank held the DVD out to the kids.

“Guys? It’s alright. All I ever wanted is for him to be happy.”

“Yeah, but we didn’t know…”

“That he had moved on like this? I can tell from his expression that he did not realize it either. In fact, I would bet that it was their first kiss.”

“How can you tell?”

Frank walked over to Kody, and took the pictures from him. He moved through them till he had a close up of their faces. He carefully pointed to Gerard’s.

“You can see it in his eyes.”

“Dad…”

“I’m fine really. Now can we get this gorefest under way?”

“Sure, I’ll go make the popcorn.”

“I got the candy and soda.”

“Make mine diet.”

Kat looked back at her father and smiled.

“Sure dad.”

When they left he looked at the pictures again. Gerard’s skin was flushed and he was excited beyond what was happening in the scene. He reached up and caressed the one of his face.

“Glad you are happy and moved on Gee, now it is my turn.”

Frank slipped the pictures into his desk drawer then turned back to the TV to load the DVD as he heard the popcorn machine whir to life.


***Timestamp: December 31st***


To say that Kyle was nervous would be an understatement. He fixed his vest and smiled in the mirror.

"Not half bad I think."

He placed his matching blue hat on top of his head and winked. He was straightening his tie when a knock came to his door.

"Come in."

Kyle looked in the mirror as Gerard walked in. He looked amazing in all black. Wearing a silk off shoulder blouse with a long black trench, loose comfortable matte silk pants, and an awesome pair of boots to match. Kyle watched his expression in the mirror and turned around.


"So Gee, how do I look?"

He struck a GQ style pose.

Gerard hummed and put his hands on his hips.

"Umm..."

Gerard trailed off.

"Uh, yeah. You look great sweetie, but you do know Kody's going to make you change."




"What are you talking about? Don't I look good?"

Kyle played with his tie, now a bit more nervous about what Gerard had said.

"Hey sport, are you all set?"

Kyle's dad walked in, calling him a name he has not heard in years. He looked good too, also dressed in black. Billy had on a track style pants suit with a sports coat over it. He also had on a cool set of boots. Kyle realized that he did look a little out of place, but he was aright with that.

"Yo! Anyone home in this place?"

The voice of Kody echoed through the house.

"Up here!"

Kody came up the stairs and saw Gerard first.

"Wow Gee, that outfit is hot!"

"Thanks Kody. You look great."

He he kind of wanted to hide Kyle before Kody could see him.

"Hey, Billy looking sharp too!"

"Why thank you, not bad yourself."

"Awww this old thing?"

Everyone was laughing and Kyle waited for Kody to enter the room and give him praise for his outfit.

"So K Man, ready to go-o-o-o-o?"

"Yup, I think so!"

Kody stood there, staring at Kyle.

"We're gonna go."

Gerard laughed nervously, taking Billy's arm. He hurried them out of Kyle's room, and started for Billy's.

"Kody is going to tear him a new one."

"Uh, Kyle, do you still need a moment?"

"Nope, I'm good."

”You sure?"

"Yeah man, why? Kody what's up?"

"Uh, here, look at us in the mirror."

Kyle stood next to Kody, and in the mirror it was a sharp contrast. Kody was dressed in a black shirt that had a shiny material. Kyle reached out and caressed his arm.


"What is the shirt made of?"

”Elastic."

"Really?"

Kody was also wearing a sleek pair of skinny distressed blue jeans, and black combat boots with buckles and chains.

"See Kyle, you stand out from the three of us. You want to blend in a little more."

"Oh, uh, well I really don’t own a lot of black, and..."

Kody smiled wide.

"Hang on, I got a spare outfit in the car you can borrow.

"Uh, all right."

Kody ran out of the room as Gerard was walking by.

"Sorry Gee, fashion emergency."

Gerard chuckled and shook his head.

"Don't be too harsh on him Kody."

Kyle had no idea what to expect when Kody returned, what he did not expect was the young man to usher him across the hallway into the bathroom with a small bag in his arms. As he was pushed in, he looked at Gerard, pleading for him to help.

"Good luck."

He saluted the young man.

"Geeeeeeeee"

After that the bathroom door slammed.

"Gee Love, what is going on?"

Billy came out of the bedroom.

"I can hear my poor son through the walls being tortured."

Gerard laughed and playfully swatted at Billy's arm.

"Tortured? It's just fashion. He'll be okay... I think."

"Oh yeah? You come in here and listen to this."

Billy grabbed Gerard's hand, and dragged him into the room. Before he could even close the door, Gerard heard the echoes of Kyle's frightened voice muffled through the wall connecting the bathroom. The two grown men pressed an ear to the wall and listened.


"Wait a minute, how am I supposed to get into those pants with my underwear on?"



"Honey you're not."



"What!?"


The sound of rustling and fabric as Kyle screeched filled the room. Billy turned back to Gerard.

"Still think he is going to be okay?"

Gerard laughed again, louder this time, and shook his head.

"Check on him if you want, but I think they're fine. Maybe a little makeover will be fun for Kyle."


"Oh My God, what are you doing to me!?"



"Hold still, you need to tuck properly and..."



"Do I look like a fucking Drag Queen to you Kody!?"



"Well maybe with the right makeup and hairstyle you could… I'm kidding K, calm down. Look, I'm tucked too see?"


Gerard looked at Billy and grinned.

"I think that's your cue daddy."

"Uh, I do not need to see that."


"Oh my God, what is that shit?!"



"I use it in my hair all the time. It stays soft so that you can run your fingers through someone’s hair, and it is not greasy."



"Why would I want that?"



"Well, if you use enough you can go from hair gel to lubricant and..."



"GERARD!!!!!!"


Gerard was still smiling at Billy when Kyle screamed his name.

He made an agitated noise and scrunched up his face.

"I guess that's my cue."

Gerard giggled, twiddling his fingers at Billy as he made his way out of the bedroom.

Kyle was backed against the wall when Gerard opened the bathroom door without knocking. Kody was advancing on him with a straightener, snapping it open and closed.

"Come on K, just the front so I can..."

"No! Oh my God, do you not understand the English language?!"

Kody was blocking the outfit that Kyle was in, but when he moved a bit, Gerard got a glimpse of a sheer black shirt and pants so tight, he now understood why Kody made Kyle tuck. The boots though were something that Gerard decided he would convince Kyle to give up after the party. He just hoped they were his size.


"Oh, um... Wow!"

Gerard covered his mouth with his hand.

"Kyle... You look so...Trampy!"

Gerard dropped his hand from his mouth, and laughed at the shocked face Kyle made at him.

"I'm only teasing. You look terrific... You boys almost finished?"

Kody stopped and turned to Gerard.

"Really Gee, trampy?"

Kyle took that moment to duck under Kody's arm and hide behind Gerard.

"Can we just go before I change my mind?"

"*huff* All right, come on."

Kody unplugged the straightener and Kyle bolted out the door into the hallway. Kody walked by Gerard bitching about amateur night.

"Uh... you all ready?"

Billy came out of the room, and tried not to look at his son.

"We're ready."

Gerard smiled angelically, taking Billy's arm.

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When they pulled up in front of Pulse, Gerard knew he was going to like the little club. It brought back sentimental memories of his many adventures with Spencer, and he was so caught up in the moment that he didn't hear Billy calling his name to get out. Gerard snapped out of it when the older man put his hand on his shoulder.

"Oh, right. Sorry."

He quickly climbed out of the car, and met up with Kody and Kyle who were standing by, talking to the valet. As soon as Billy hopped out of the car Gerard immediately took his arm, and they started to make their way to the entrance where they would have to show their ID's to get in. Once they get through that process, they're walking into the lounge room and Gerard's eyes skim over the seats. He wants to sit down and have a drink because he didn't want to dance just yet... Especially reminiscing about Spencer. Billy could tell that Gerard was preoccupied with something from his past. He sat him down at a clear table, and joined Kody at the bar.


"So, did Gee often go out with you guys in the past?"

"Nah, he was always home, spending time with dad and... Sorry, I just."

"It's all right Kody, I am not going to get upset about it. I accept all parts of Gerard's life, past and present and future, whether I have a place in there or not."

"How can you think like that? Don't you want Gerard to be your...."

"It's too early, and it does not matter what I want. In the end it will always be Gerard's decisions."

"You are just too cool for words."

"Thanks Kody."

At that point the bartender came over and Billy was going to order a typical drink when Kody touched his hand.

"Hear, let me. Let me get four auroras."

"You got it cute stuff."

Billy looked at Kody as he blushed and flirted with the bartender as he flourished and created the most amazing neon drink he had ever seen. When he was done, Kody went to pay him, but the bartender shook his head.

"Save me a dance and we can call it even."

Billy marveled how Kody was able to get the bartender to do that without so many words. These were pretty expensive drinks too. Billy grabbed his and Gerard's and made his way over to him, while Kody continued to flirt.

"Hey Gee Love, here Kody picked it out."


Gerard gushed at the drinks and quickly took the one Billy was sticking out for him. He took a dainty sip and beamed.

"It's so good!"

It wasn't so loud in the lounge, but it was still difficult to hear the person standing/sitting next to you. Billy took a sip of the drink and was knocked on his ass. There was so much alcohol in it he thinks that is all he has to drink tonight. The club was decked out for New Years with streamers, balloons, and colorful costumes. Not where he expected to spend this holiday, but he was not going to leave his son on his own tonight. He looked over at Kyle who was fending off several Drag Queens attracted to his outfit. It really was not him. Meanwhile, Kody had taken to the dance floor with the bartender and a few of his friends.

"Looks like fun..."

Gerard whispered in Billy's ear before kissing his cheek and giggling.

"I remember the first, and only time we ever danced. You were really drunk."

Gerard pressed his free hand on Billy's knee.

"Yeah, I dragged you out into the alley, and we made out like a couple of horny teenagers."

Billy laughed a little at the thought of him behaving like that. It was Gerard. He was so full of life back then, still young and fresh. He smiled at Gerard and placed a hand over his hand that was on his knee. This night might be all right after all.

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It was now near midnight, and Gerard had managed to drag Billy on the dance floor twice. All were group participation dances. They did the Electric Slide, and the YMCA. Billy felt like he was at a wedding reception. Suddenly a familiar song came on and Gerard screeched. Billy hid his face in his hands as he felt himself being pulled onto the dance floor to do The Time Warp.

"Please, Billy?! You have to! You know how much I love The Rocky Horror Picture Show!"

Gerard whined, shouting like a bratty sixteen year old as he dragged Billy back onto the dance floor. By the time they got out there, the crowd was in full Participation mode, throwing out lines from the movie. Billy laughed as he and Gerard did the moves, and Gerard called out the parts. He looked over and saw that Kody was now surrounded by five guys and he was in the center of them as they shouted the part of 'group sex' while thrusting toward and away from Kody with their hips. Kody was laughing and having a great time. Billy looked up, and suddenly got a look at his son leaning against the wall. He had the Aurora from three hours ago and he was still nursing it.

"All right you party animals, we have about five minutes before we televise the ball dropping in Time Square. Find that special someone that you want to spend the next year with and let's ring in 2006 the right way!"

Billy was pulled from his view of Kyle as Gerard wrapped his arms around his neck.

"Don't leave me all alone... I want you to kiss me when the ball drops."

Gerard whined and nuzzled his nose against the crook of Billy's neck before placing wet kisses against him there.

"I'm not going anywhere Gee Love, I just want to make sure that Kyle is alright."

At that point the countdown began and Billy heard an oops as balloons and confetti started to fall early. The patrons of the club were laughing, but it caused Billy to lose sight of his son for a moment.

"10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...HAPPY NEW YEAR!"

Billy turned to Gerard, and pulled him into his arms.

"Happy New Year Gee Love. May all that you want this year come true."

Gerard smiled up at Billy and pecked him on the lips softly.

"You too, sweetie."

He felt bad, because in that moment he couldn't help but wonder about Frank.

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”Happy New Year Gee.”

Frank watched the ball drop then closed the tab on his laptop. He turned up the soft jazz again, and got back to work. He had a lot to catch up on that he let slide for the last five months, and he had a lot to make up for. It was funny that now he knew Gerard had moved on, that he was able to go back to facing his life. He knew that he had not moved on, and it would be a long time before he did, but he needed to get back on track. He had been away from his company too long, and the neglect was starting to show. In the last week he got in touch with all his band managers, and the band members themselves. He apologized to them all, and promised that he was going to get back to work, getting them all back on track. Frank made good on that promise too after working hard for the last five days. Now he was facing down a mountain of office work that Vicky had for him. He gave her a week off for putting up with his bullshit, and sent her on an all-expenses paid trip to the Bahamas with her fiancé. Now it was just him and the office. His phone rang and he picked it up.

”Happy New Year Frankie.”

”Happy New Year Spencer.”

”How are you?”

“Alright, just catching up on paper work.”

“Hungry?”

“A little, but I will eat later, I promise.”

“Some Thai?”

“That sounds really good right now.”

“We thought it would.”

Frank’s door opens and Pete, Ryan, and Spencer walk in carrying bags of take out. Spencer hung up the phone and smiled at him. Frank smiled back and got up from his desk. He walked over to the coffee table where Ryan was laying out the food.

“Happy New Year.”

Pete kissed him lightly on the cheek.

“Same to you Pete, what’s all this?”

“We thought you could use a bite to eat and some company.”

“Thanks.”

“No problem Frankie,”

Frank looked at all the food and his mouth watered. There was a lot to choose from. He bet Pete ordered every vegetarian option the place had. He settled in next to Ryan and took a carton of Jasmine rice and began to dig in.

“Thank you guys.”

Ryan leaned in and hugged him. They all knew about the pictures and marveled how well he was taking everything. No one mentioned Gerard at that point anymore. It was not wrong to, but no one wanted to hurt Frank. He appreciated the gesture. Frank watched Spencer feed a piece of chicken to Pete and chuckled.

“Open wide Frankie.”

Frank saw Ryan holding out a piece of broccoli for him, and he opened his mouth and accepted it. As he chewed he sighed, and Ryan leaned into his shoulder. Frank placed his arm around Ryan, and pulled him in. It felt good to hold someone again.

“Happy New Year Frankie.”

Frank kissed the top of Ryan’s head.

“Happy New Year Ry.”

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"Kyleeeee! Shappy You Neer!"

Kody was so drunk and it made Kyle cringe. He fell on him and planted a cocktail filled kiss on his lips. It was anything but romantic and mostly spit. Suddenly Kody was pulled away by one of the boys he was dancing with earlier.

"Ready to go baby?"

"Mmm hmmm"

"Kody, where are you going?"

"Hmmm oh me and... What was your name again? Anyway, we are going to grab something to eat."

"I think that is a bad idea, we should find Billy and Gee then get you home."

"Oh no worries honey, I will be glad to bring him home."

Kyle did not like that way the boy was saying this. He had a feeling that he had more than just food planned for his friend.

"No really it's fine, we need to get going."

Kyle reached for Kody and the boy grabbed his hand.

"Hey, I said I got it kid."

"Let go of me, I am not a kid!"

"You sure act like one. Why don’t you go find your mommy and go home to bed? Go cuddle with your teddy bear, this one is mine to cuddle with."

"No, he's not."

"Oh? Is he yours...I did not think so. You aren’t even comfortable in the clothing you are in, let alone with a real man. Give it up kid, the better man won so scurry home."

Kyle felt like shit as this guy tore him down, but he mustered up his courage, and he was not going to lose to this Go Go Boy.

"I said, he is going to his home with me."

This time the guy turned around, and shoved Kyle hard against the wall.

"I think you have a hearing problem honey. I said I will take care of him. Now if you don’t want me to take care of you too, I suggest you get out of here.... Unless that is your goal all the long. Want to watch? Hmmm? Want to see how a real man does it?"

Kyle was nervous now. The guy was crowding him, and running a hand down his chest. He touched his belt buckle and smirked as Kyle winced. He began to trail his hand lower as he placed his face in the crook of Kyle’s neck, and licked his skin. Kyle shuddered, but not from enjoyment. He was being violated. Suddenly a voice broke through the crowd.

"Get away from him!"

"Excuse me?"

Kyle opened his eyes to see Kody standing and growling at the boy holding him.

"What you don't know how to share?"

"NO, he's mine! Do not touch my property!"

Kody's voice rang out in the place, and everything stopped including the music. All eyes were on them now.

Gerard heard Kody’s voice when the music dropped. He swiftly took Billy’s hand, and pulled him over to where they were.

"What the hell is going on over here?"

Kyle was still partially pinned to the wall by the Go Go Boy, as Kody began to advance on them. He suddenly seemed very sober, and there was a fire in his eyes that Kyle had never seen before. He believed that Kody thought of him as his property, and although it should have bothered him, it made him feel a flutter inside.

"I said, hands off my fucking property!"

"Really? I don’t see your name tattooed on him anywhere?"

"It's on his ass, and I am the only one that gets to see that!"

Kyle blushed at the thought of it being real, but when the boy looked at him he backed up like he believed it.

"Hey, sorry, I didn’t know you two were like that. So he is not part of the deal, it's fine."

Kody moved against Kyle and caressed his face.

"You all right baby?"

"Y-Y-Yeah, I th-think so."

"Sorry, I left you alone. It won’t happen again."

Kyle went to answer him, but his mouth was blocked by lips, tongue, and teeth. Kody's kiss was possessive and so was his grip on Kyle's hips. Kyle would have enjoyed it more, but the clapping in the room reminded him where he was and that Kody was drunk. Kody broke from the kiss and nuzzled Kyle's neck before he passed out.

"Help Gee, please?"

Gerard sighed, defeated, and helped Kyle carry Kody out of the club.

"That didn't really go as planned..."

"W-W-What was that about? Does he think I am his p-p-p-property?"

"Seems that way... That's what his father used to say to men who harassed me..."

Gerard trailed off, and looked at Billy who was now opening the back door of the car.

"Thanks."

Gerard and Kyle slipped Kody inside gently.

"Wow, so that is what it is like huh? I mean when someone cares about you that much?"

Kyle climbed in the back and was pulled in by a now conscious Kody.

"Mmmm come here baby, let's cuddle."

Gerard quickly hopped into the passenger seat and sighed.

"Um... Yeah."

Gerard coughed. He watched Billy climb into the driver’s seat, and before he started the car he demanded everyone to put their seat belts on. Gerard did immediately.

"Boys. Keep it down back there... D'you got your seat belts on?"

Kyle would have answered Gerard but his air supply was being slowly dwindled by Kody and his fucking mouth. He tried to push Kody off, but he had no upper arm strength in that position.

"Kody, put your seat belt on please and then you can go back to ravaging my son."

"Pops!"

Kody quickly complied and Kyle was cut off again from the ability to speak.

Gerard couldn't hold in the fit of giggles that erupted from him.

He placed his hand on Billy's thigh and he squeezed him there, still laughing.

"My boys like each other. It's so exciting!"

Gerard cackled maniacally, tossing his head back against the headrest of the passenger seat. The ride back to the house would have been more awkward if Kody had not passed out again. When they got home Kyle got out from under Kody quickly, and ran into the house. He ran up the stairs and slammed the door of his bedroom. As he leaned against the door panting, he listened as his dad softly curse. His dad was handling his best friend all by himself into the guest room next to his. He sighed and stripped for bed. Kyle crawled in and was out from the emotional exhaustion before he even hit the pillow.

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At some point he awoke to the feeling of warmth, like he was submersed in a warm body of water. He groaned at how good it felt then his ears picked up the sound of lapping. He groggily opened his eyes and looked around the room. The moonlight was soft as it lit the area. Directly in the beam of light was Kody between his legs sucking him off....WHAT!?

"Kody! What are you doing?!"

"Hey baby, you're awake."

Kyle moaned as Kody squeezed his shaft and crawled up to kiss him. He was so tired, and yet that he did nothing to stop him. He was as naked as Kody, and it felt good to have his skin next to another. Kyle remembered doing this with his girlfriend, but she did not feel like this. Kody's body had definition as he moved between Kyle's legs. He let go of his shaft and pressed the two of them together. They groaned in unison as Kody began to thrust his hips, causing them to slide together.

"Kody, I uh, please."

"Want to make you feel good baby. Want to make it up to you for what the jerk did to ruin our night."

Kyle was not sure what Kody was talking about. He was just enjoying the attention as Kody spilled words of encouragement into his ear as he bit and licked it. All too soon, Kyle felt it down to his toes.

"That's it baby, God look at you, fucking beautiful in the moonlight. I want to remember this, remember your face when you cum for me."

Kody's words were all the encouragement Kyle needed because he cried out his affection for Kody as he sent hot spurts between them.

"Oh shit baby!"

Kody rutted a few more thrusts and then he was cumming too. Their cum mixed together as they slid their bodies in an upwards motion, expending all they had.

"I love you."

Kyle did not know who said it, but it was said, and it blanketed them as they both fell asleep.

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In the morning Kyle woke up alone. The evidence of what happened last night was all over. He dragged himself out of the room to the bathroom then into the shower. He watched it all go down the drain, afterward donning his robe. Kyle made his way downstairs, and into the kitchen where Gerard was making breakfast. He thought he was going to puke.

"Morning sweetheart. How're you feeling?"

Gerard chirped, flipping the last pancake onto the tray.

"D'you sleep okay?"

"No not really. Have you seen Kody?"

"Um..."

Gerard turned off the stove then carried the tray of pancakes to the dining table.

"No... He wasn't with you?"

Kyle sighed, he figured as much.

"No, he must have left early in the morning."

Kyle slumped down in his chair, and groaned as he put his head on the table. He felt Gerard card his fingers through his hair, and all he could do was sigh and wish it was still last year.


***Timestamp: April 10th***


”Frank.”

Frank looked up from his sushi to see that last person he ever expected to.

“Greta.”

Greta sat down without invitation. She had a Sapporo in her hands.

“You look good Frank.”

Frank had been steadily losing the weight he had put on, but he was no where near the size he used to be. Still it was better than three months ago.

“So do you.”

It was true, she did. The bleached blond hair was gone, and it had returned to her normal mousy brown. It was styled, but not over processed like he was used to seeing on her. She was dressed relaxed too, like she was not trying to impress anyone anymore. They talked for a bit, just casual conversation about this and that. After a bit a man that looked around Frank’s age came up to her and lightly touched her shoulder.

“Frank, this is my fiancé Carl.”

“Nice to meet you Frank.”

“Nice to meet you too.”

“Where is your wife today?”

“Uh, well, we are kind of not together anymore.”

“Oh, shame.”

"Why do you say that?”

“Because you are a good catch Frank. You always were.”

Frank was surprised that Greta said this and in front of her fiancé.

“Don’t look so surprised Frank. I’ve changed a lot in the last five years. I know you have too. I just hope that this one realizes what I did not back then.”

Greta stood up, leaned over, and kissed Frank on the cheek.

“Tell Kat congrats on her nuptials.”

“I will… Greta, it was nice seeing you.”

Same Frank.”

Frank watched her leave and then returned to his sushi.


***Timestamp: May 16th***


"Ahhh, what the fuck is taking that bitch so long!?"

"Calm down Kat, she's coming!"

"Yeah , but we only have an hour left and..."

"*puff puff* I'm here, I ran into traffic. I got it though."

"Thank God! Give me!"

Kat grabbed for the bag that one of her bridesmaids had. She pulled the little tube out and popped the cap. She took her shoe off and bent the outer sole back. She applied a few drops of the superglue then held the shoe in a tight grip.

"Has anyone seen Gee?"

Gerard was nearing the room Kat was in getting ready. With him was the bottle of water and aspirin she had asked for. It took him twenty minutes to find the medicine, and when he did it was because Billy rushed to the nearest convenience store to fetch it for him. Gerard had thanked him with a peck on the lips, and then immediately started to rush back to the girls.

"I'm back! I have the water and aspirin you asked for, sweetie."

"Oh thank you. I think if this headache continued, I am going to punch someone!"


*knock knock*


"Excuse me ladies, may I come in?"

M. stuck his head in the room.

"Yes, you may."

"Sorry to disturb you ladies, but I wanted to let you know that Brian is all set up, and we are ready when you are my dear."

"Thank you M. And thank you for letting us use you home for our wedding."

"It is a pleasure my dear."

M. kissed Kat on the head then Gerard on the cheek. He left the room.

Gerard smiled from ear to ear and pulled Kat into a hug.

"I'm so proud of you, Kat. By the end of the night you'll be a married woman."

"Yeah, and I want to thank you so much Mom for being here for me and..."

"Knock knock, hey Kat. Sorry to disturb, but I have a last minute gift for you."

Kat and Gerard looked up, and saw Frank walk in. He looked good in his tux that had a tie matching the colors of the wedding. He had a small white box in his hand. Kat rose to meet him.

"Dad hey."

"Hey Kitty Kat, wow, you look beautiful. Sorry, for short notice, but I have something for you that Gabe was supposed to give you last night, but forgot to. According to him, he was slightly distracted."

Kat blushed, remembering what their last night was like together.

"Anyway here."

Kat took the box and opened it up. Inside was a beautiful Blue Diamond bracelet that matched her engagement ring.

"Oh Dad, it's beautiful."

"Not as beautiful as you sweetheart."

Kat slipped the bracelet on and watched as it shines along with her ring. She hugged Frank fiercely, all the while careful of her dress. She let go of him and sat down, admiring the piece of jewelry. Frank turned to Gerard and smiled.

"Hey Gerard. You look really beautiful in that dress."

The dress that Kat picked out for her bridal party was a light blue, and flowed around his waist. The silver heeled sandals gave him just a little bit of height, and the blue diamond tiara, that made Gerard stand out from everyone else, sat upon his head, accenting his ebony locks.


"Thanks... Um, you look good too, Frank."

"Nah, I gained a shit ton of weight, but it's cool. I appreciate the kind gesture."

"Hey Kat I... Hi Mr. Iero."

Frank turned around and saw Destiny, Gerard's youngest. He knew he was presented as an intimidating creature so he smiled and got down on her level, which was not much difference honestly.

"He kiddo, you look good. I like your dress and shoes."


"Thank you, Kat helped me pick them out."

"You look like a little version of Gee."

Destiny smiled at this. Frank stood up and saluted everyone, and left the room.

Gerard watched Frank leave, following him with his eyes intensely. He wanted to talk with him more and ask him how he's been, but he knew he shouldn't... It wouldn't be appropriate.

"He seems... Happy."

"Sure Gee, sure."

Kat stood up and let her gown flow around her.


"I feel like fucking Cinderella in this thing."

"Yeah, but you look better than she did."

"Thanks Dizzy. So Mom, what do you think?"

Kat picked up her flowers as one of her bridesmaids adjusted her veil.


Gerard looked over his daughter’s appearance, and he really tried not to cry. Even with all his willpower, a single tear raced down his cheekbone, and he quickly wiped it away before anyone could notice.

"You look absolutely stunning."

"Thank you Mom, you know I had one wish for my wedding? Even though it will not be possible, I am glad that you are here by my side."

Kat began to walk out of the room.

Gerard followed closely behind Kat, and he reached out then touched her shoulder.

"What's your wish? Maybe it can still happen."

Kat turned back to him. The sunlight of the midday sun hit her face, and made her eyes sparkle with the tears hidden in them.

"For you and dad to have been here together."

Kat smiled and stepped out, followed by all her bridal party. Destiny was the last to leave, and tugged on Gerard's dress.

"Hey Gege, you know I only want you to be happy right? I love you too much to see you cry, and I know that no matter what I will always be your baby."

Destiny handed Gerard his flowers then walked out of the room.


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Frank stood at the back of the wedding party, waiting for Kat. He was still trying to get the picture of Gerard in his Maid of Honor dress out of his head. He looked almost as stunning as he did in his own wedding dress. Five years, five long years. They had been through so much, and had survived it all. Now though, he guesses they just could not survive this. Frank watched as Gerard stopped to talk to his ex, well maybe not his ex for long. Soon that could be Frank's title. Still,they looked happy, and Gerard was smiling. Frank felt a tug on his sleeve, and looked down to see Adam, the second youngest child.

"Hey little man, what can I do for you?"

"Do you still love him?"

"What?"

"Do you still love Mama Gee."

"Well you know Adam, they say that you should never lie to a kid, but grownups do it all the time. Well I don’t so yes, I do, very much."

"My dad loves him too."

Frank looks over at them again.

"Yeah, I can see that."

"Want to know a secret?"

Frank got down on the ground so that Adam could whisper in his ear."

"I think you love him more."

"Who knows kid, who knows."

"Who knows what?"

Frank saw Kat had walked up with Gerard close behind.

"Nothing love, nothing. So ready to become Mrs. Sapporta?"

"Yeah, I think I am."

Frank stepped back so that Gerard could step in front of them. He took Kat's arm, and tried to focus anywhere but his wife's... Ex wife's ass. Kat leaned in and whispered in his ear.

"You know that is why I chose that dress right?"

"Huh?"

"I chose it because it makes his ass look amazing.”

Frank blushed, but had no chance to say anything else because the music started, and the procession began.

Gerard observed everyone as he started ahead with Frank close behind him. He intently watched the kids in front of them, and smiled when his eyes landed on Billy who was seated with all the other guests. The older man smiled back and waved a small, quick wave. Gerard knows Frank immediately noticed because instead of looking down at his ass, Frank was now also staring ahead at Billy.

"Who gives this maiden to this man?"

"I do."

Frank let Kat go to Gabe after a kiss on the cheek then went and sat down in the front row to watch the ceremony. They wrote their own beautiful vows for each other. The whole ceremony had everyone on the verge of tears. Frank could not help but to look at Gerard the whole time. He lost so much when he lost him. This last year, one year in June that is, had been miserable for him. He never realized how lost and alone he was without his wife. With the kids out of the house now too it was quite lonely indeed. Frank patted the tickets in his pocket. Tonight he would be on a flight to Paris that might as well be considered a one way. He did not know when he would return, he just knew that he could not stay right now.

"You may now kiss the bride."

Everyone sighed when they did.

"May I now present Mr. and Mrs. Gabriel Sapporta."

Everyone cheered as the newly married couple walked down the aisle. Next was Gerard with Kody. Gerard glowed, and it made Frank's heart hurt even more. He waited until the wedding party was gone, and he made his way out of the tent to the reception area. Gerard started to Billy quickly, and when he approached the older man smiled weakly at him and took his arm.

"I can't believe my little girl is married now...Time flies."

Everyone was heading to the reception area. Billy escorted Gerard, and helped him find a seat at the main table. After he sat himself at the first table, and waited for others to join him. Frank walked over and took his seat at the same table.

"Hey."

"Hey man."

"It was a nice ceremony."

"Yeah it was,"

"Your daughter looked really beautiful."

"Thanks, she married a great guy."

"Yeah, I met him a couple of times."

"Oh, cool."

The new couple walked in as they were announced, and found their seats at the main table. Everyone else sat down, and the food was served. Frank looked at his plate and frowned. He had the wrong meal.

"Here man, trade with me."

"No, you don’t have to..."

"No it's cool, you're a vegetarian and I have the Ratatouille."

"Thanks man."

"Sure."

Gerard was watching Frank the whole time. He watched how he talked so calmly with Billy, and how cordial they were being with one another. He wanted to ask who they thought they were fooling, but he knew it wouldn't be appropriate. It'd be best to just sit in silence with his head bowed.

"Mom, are you all right?"

"Huh?"

"I-I'm fine, sweetie... Just thinking."

He picked up his glass of wine and took an urgent sip. Kat leaned in and whispered in Gerard's ear.

"He really does look handsome doesn't he?"

Out of everyone in the room there was merriment and laughter all around, save for three people.

*clink clink*

"Attention everyone, I would like to propose a toast to the bride and groom."

Kody stood up and cleared his throat.

"Sis, you have always been my better half. When I did not know what to do with my life or who I was, you helped me discover it. You have always been there for me through all the laughter and heartache that was our life. Now you have brought Gabe into our lives, and I feel like I have an amazing older brother. You give me the courage to be who I am, and it is with that courage that I do this..."

Kody leaped over the main table to the ground, and made his way to the second table. All of the Corgan kids were sitting there. He walked up to Kyle.

"Hi."

"Hi yourself."

"Kyle this last year of knowing you has been amazing. I hate the way that we were brought together, but fate is a strange son of a bitch, and who am I to argue with her?"

Kody got down on one knee, and fished a ring box out of his pocket.

"Kyle Corgan, will you do the honor of making me amazingly happy for the rest of my life?"

Inside the box was a black gold ring with red and white diamonds. Kyle looked at it and gasped. He glanced up at his dad and then at Frank. Both men smiled at him.


"I uh... yes!"

Gerard clapped proudly and smiled in the boys' direction.

"Congratulations guys. I told you he'd say yes, Kody."

"Yeah yeah yeah mom."

Kody scooped Kyle up, after putting the ring on him, and hugged him tightly.

"Can't get rid of me now K."

"Would never dream of it."

They kissed while everyone awed and clapped.

Kyle pulled back, blushing. Kody bowed then turned to Gerard again.

"All right Mom, beat that speech."

In truth Kody felt a little bad doing this before Gerard's speech to the bride and groom, but he insisted on it.

"Well, I'm not sure if I'll be able to."

Gerard stood up slowly and cleared his throat a bit. He was going to try and remember his speech word for word, but if he couldn't he was just going to free ball it.

"Um, Kat... Gabe. I wrote you, um... I wrote you something, and I really can't remember it for the life of me. I didn't bring my flash cards..."

He paused and laughed nervously.

"Basically... As a person who was allowed to enter your life I can say that it truly is a blessing and the years I spent with you... And Kody... And your father... It's been an honor, and I think Gabe can relate to that feeling. You two have a bright future ahead of you... Hopefully all of it good, and I can't wait 'til you guys give me grandbabies."

Gerard rose his glass in Kat and Gabe's direction.

"I'm so proud of you two. I wish you all the happiness in the world. Please allow me to continue being a part of your life. Now and forever... I love you Gabe and Kat Saporta."

Frank was in shock. Did Gerard actually say thank you for him being in his life? He is so happy though with his other family. Frank was confused now. He needed some air badly, which was stupid because they were outside. In the middle of the applause he stood up, but his napkin fell off his lap and when he bent down to pick it up, he banged his head on the table.

"Motherfucker!"

"You all right?"

Billy was looking at him now.

"Yeah yeah, I just need..."

Frank dropped the napkin on the table and nearly ran out of the tent. He smacked right into M.

"Hey Frank, what's going on?"

"I uh... bathroom."

"Sure, you know where it is."

Frank thanked M. and ran off to the house. He crashed through the French doors and into the living room. Frank panted against end table and looked around. Memories came flooding back from their wedding. Frank was losing his ability to stand rapidly, and landed on his knees. Without warning he started crying.

"Where'd Frank go?"

After everyone settled down Gerard looked to where Frank was supposed to be then turned to Billy.

"Uh... He just said he needed, and then he didn't finish his sentence."

"Oh... Do you think he's okay?"

"I'm not really sure. Honestly Gee Love, I don’t think so."

Gerard frowned and looked around. He spotted Kody and was going to signal him over, but he saw that he was busy celebrating with Kyle. Gerard sighed then nibbled on his bottom lip.

"I'll go check on him. I'll be right back, okay?"

Gerard leaned over and kissed Billy on the cheek.

M. was heading into the tent and passed Gerard.

"Hey Gee, I think the main bathroom is occupied, but you can use my private one."

M. kissed him on the cheek and went to join his table.

Gerard assumed it was Frank M. was talking about.

He pulled open the French doors and immediately his eyes landed on the man. He was on the ground, and Gerard couldn't see what he was doing exactly so he stepped closer.

"Frank?"

Gerard asked quietly.

"Shit!"

Frank quickly wiped his eyes and stood up.

"Hey Geeeerard. Sorry, I just hit the table on the way to the bathroom, and you know shins."

Gerard stepped around so that he was facing Frank.

He looked the older man in the eyes, and it looked as if he had been crying.

"Are... Are you okay?"

He didn't buy his story. There was another reason why he had been on the floor.

"Yeah of course! My little girl just got married, I am ecstatic!"

Frank smiled the most genuine smile possible.

"Great speech by the way. Unfortunately, I think Kody kind of stole the limelight a bit."

Gerard searched Frank's face for something else, but right now he was doing a good job hiding it.

"Yeah... That's Kody for you. He's captivating."

"Well, since you're okay... I'm gonna head back to Billy. He's waiting up for me... It was nice talking to you Frank. See you around?"

"Yeah sure, I mean our families are pretty much one now right?"

Gerard headed toward the door, and Frank called after him. Gerard turned around.

"I'm glad you're happy. You deserve it."

"Y-yeah, thanks... Bye Frank."

Gerard smiled weakly and headed back out.

Outside Gerard spotted Billy talking with Kyle, looking and admiring the engagement ring. Gerard's smile widened as he approached the two men.

"Hey Billy."

Gerard giggled as Kyle was dragged away by Kody. Once the two boys were gone, Gerard pulled the older man into a kiss as soon as he got his attention. Billy kissed back instantly, and Gerard couldn't help it... In that moment... Frank was still on his mind.

"So did you find out what was wrong with Frank?"

Gerard furrowed his brow together and he shook his head.

"No. He didn't say. I don't think he really wanted to talk about it... Well, not with me at least."

"Gee..."

Billy looked into Gerard's eyes, and saw the concern.

”Go find Kat Love, I will be right back."

Billy watched Gerard walk off. He went in the House and saw Frank in the kitchen through the buffet window.

"Hey Frank, you got a minute?"

Frank turned around and waved to him. Billy went into the kitchen, and grabbed a few random hors d'oeuvres.

"So man, our boys huh?"

"Yeah, crazy shit."

"Did you know, because I did not."

"No, apparently the only one that knew was Gee... I mean Gerard."

"Frank... you don't have to do that."

"Yeah, I do. He's yours now. I just hope you treat him better than I did."

"You treated him fine, you just made one mistake, and..."

"Yeah? Well my one fucking mistake cost me my fucking marriage!"

"Believe me I understand that."

"At least you got the second chance though, don’t blow it man."

"Hey guys, has anyone seen, oh Hey Frankie!"

Tommy walked in and went to the fridge.

"The wedding was nice, thanks for inviting me."

"No problem Tommy, you're a good friend of Gerard's, and..."

Tommy squatted down in order to keep his skirt down. Too late, Frank saw what he was trying to hide, and he raised his eyebrows.

"Tommy you were returned?"

Tommy blushed and covered his legs quickly.

"Uh, yeah, I... I was just not what he wanted and..."

"Why not, you're a sweet kid?!"

"Yeah, well he was looking for something to rough up, and after what happened to Gee... M. is more careful with us by checking up on us."

Frank had to take a step back. The memory came flooding back of how long it took for Gerard to come back. They made it through all that and...

"Oh God, Tommy, I really fucked it up."

"What Frankie, what? Oh man! I'm sorry, I did not mean to bring up the rape..."

"Wait what!? When was Gerard raped?"

Frank did not want to talk about this, but if Gerard chose Billy, he needed to know. Very quickly he told of what happened, and how he was kidnapped, tortured then rescued.

"Wow, I don’t think I could have handled that."

"It hurt so much to see him like that. The rehab was months. Hell each time we had sex... sorry."

"No it's fine."

"Wait, Frankie, aren’t you... oh, oh!"

"Yeah, Tommy so keep it under your skirt okay?"

Frank tried to make a joke, but his eyes betrayed him.

"Excuse me guys, Frank good convo."

"Sure, I guess."

Billy left and headed back to find Gerard. This was wrong, all wrong and he needed to fix it, but first he had to find something out."

Billy saw Gerard talking to the other bridesmaids.

"Hey Gee, can I talk to you?"

Gerard looked up at Billy and he nodded.

"Yeah, sure... What is it?"

Billy led Gerard away to one of the garden benches. He offered Gerard a seat then sat down with him.

"So I ran into this guy Tommy, and he mentioned something that I was very surprised at."

Gerard blinked dumbfounded.

"H-huh?"

"Um... Well he mentioned that you had a run in with an ex of yours, or rather a family member of theirs."

Gerard blinked again and then wiped his hands down his face.

"Oh... Um, that."

He took a deep breath and looked Billy in his eyes.

"What else did Tommy say?"

"Well it was not Tommy that spoke about it when I asked, it was Frank. He said you went through a lot, and your recovery was not easy. He said that even sex was difficult. Of course he worried that he was going to bother me, but I assured him that it was all right."

Billy took Gerard's hand.

"So tell me Gee, how was your recovery... And don’t hold back please?"

Gerard adverted his eyes to the rosebush across from them as he opened and closed his mouth like a fish out of water.

"I... I don't. I don't know where to start."

That time in his life was so fucking dark. He couldn't even feel when he talked about it. He was so numb. Almost like Scot and Kent ripped his soul right out of him.

"What was it like for Frank to see you like that?"

Gerard froze. He closed his eyes and shook his head slowly.

"He... He..."

Gerard took himself back to when Frank had found him. It was all too blurry for him to remember... But he can see his husband’s eyes. He can see the fear and pain... And guilt. He knew Frank blamed himself for what happened... He knew Frank tore himself apart.

"He was there for me... He's the reason I'm alive today. He loved me even when I was broken."

"That's important isn't it? To be there when someone is not at their best."

Gerard turned to face Billy. He squeezed the older man’s hand and nodded stiffly.

"I didn't ask for that to happen. I didn't want Frank to see me like that. I didn't want him to have to sacrifice his... His well being just to help pick up my pieces."

Gerard can feel his cheek sting. He can feel every mark a man has left on his body burn.

"I would love to be there for him, Billy. I would. But this is what he chose."

"Did he? If I remember correctly Gee, you never tried to talk to him once. In fact I believe today is the first time you have seen him since last year."

Gerard removed his hand from Billy's grip as if he had been scathed by fire.

"You're not allowed to defend him."

He pointed at Billy, meaning it has a threat.

"You're both wrong. You both... You hurt me. You're not allowed to pin anything on me. If Frank really wanted to see me he would have found me somehow... Just like how he found me when I was being raped."

Gerard stood up abruptly and fixed his crumpled dress.

"What did you two even talk about, huh? Did he congratulate you? Did he shake your hand, and say 'he belongs to you now. Take good care of him'? Did he?"

Gerard was pretty sure he was overreacting, but to be perfectly honest... He had every right to.

"Well you know your husband better than I would. Is that something that he would say? Could he let you go so easily? I mean you were his property right?"

Gerard finally managed to get his dress down, and he was now completely focused on Billy.

"He liked to remind everyone. It's not a mystery."

"I heard he was very protective of you. He beat up several guys who messed with you, including M."

Gerard pushed his hands to his hips and gnawed down on his bottom lip.

"Y-yeah... But..."

Gerard trailed off and took a deep breath.

"He hurt me... Way more than all those other men. More than you, more than Bert, and more than Scot... He actually cared."

Gerard was ready to head off. He didn't want to talk about his life anymore. He just wanted to move forward. He didn't want to keep crash landing into the past. It was all so fucking pointless. He was sick of it. Suddenly Frank appeared a little ways away. He was talking to Tommy, and had an arm slung around his waist. They stopped, and Frank reached up and placed a hand on Tommy's face, caressing it lightly. Billy watched Gerard's reaction as Frank took the boy in his arms and hugged him softly. Billy saw the pain in Gerard's body language. He got up, walked over to Gerard, and laid a hand on his shoulder.

"Gee, stop. You still love him. You need to stop being so stubborn, and work this out. Don’t do to him, what I did to you. Don’t throw away the best thing that ever happened to you."

Frank let go of Tommy and ruffled his hair. He then headed to the parking lot.

Gerard looked up at Billy intensely and brought his arms around his shoulders.

"I'm not going anywhere..."

He whispered in the older man’s ear.

"Now... Do you want me or not?"

He lifted his leg until his knee was pressed against Billy's crotch.

"Because... You can... If you want. I know where we could go."

"Really now..."

Billy slid and hand down Gerard's hip to his ass. He pressed his hand to the middle to squeeze one cheek. He heard Gerard gasp as he pulled him in closer.

"So eager aren't we my Love? Well then, if you really can't wait till we get home, lead the way."

Gerard anxiously took Billy's hand, and started to lead him through the backyard towards the french doors that took them inside. The cool air hit him in the face, and he was suddenly lightheaded. The door to his old bedroom was becoming closer and closer. When they were finally standing in front of it, Gerard tiptoed and grabbed the key from the top of the door frame. He quickly and quietly unlocked the door then stepped in.

"Lock it behind you."

Billy did as he was asked then he grabbed Gerard by the waist, and spun him so he was against the door. He pushed his thigh between his legs right after he lifted the dress partly. Gerard moaned into his shoulder. He slid a hand up the back of his dress, and slowly pulled the zipper down.

"Strip for me baby. Let me see everything you have to offer me."

Billy stepped away from Gerard, who looked completely debauched. He sat back on the bed, and gave Gerard his full attention.

Gerard's eyes were intense, and his hands were slightly shaking as he started to slip his dress down.

"Slowly?"

"Oh yeah baby, nice and slow."

"Like this?"

Gerard teased, slipping the dress further and further down his body.

Billy watched as the dress was removed, and his corset and pure white stockings were revelaed with garter belt and light blue panties. He looked amazing.


"Come to the end of the bed, and crawl to me."

Gerard slowly made his way to the end of the bed, and when he pressed his knee down the top of it sank a bit. He started to crawl over to Billy like a feline on the prowl... His head still slightly tipped down, but his eyes on his prize. Gerard can see Billy was excited. He can see it through his pants. His hand was on Billy's thigh now, trailing up to his bulge ever so teasingly.

"It's your turn to strip."

Gerard licked his lips.

"Uh uh, I am staying just like this my little lap kitten. Now come straddle me so I can drive you crazy."

Billy did not wait for Gerard's answer. He pulled him into his lap, and bucked up hard into his erection. He grabbed Gerard by his sides, and fingered his panties, which were apparently held together by a tied string. /p>

"Easy access huh?"

Gerard forced a laugh and shrugged his shoulders playfully.

"It's comfortable this way... But I'm glad you like it."

Billy pulled on the string then pulled away the cloth, revealing Gerard's weeping cock.

"Oh yes, I like it a lot."

Billy pushed Gerard over, and climbed on top of him. He kissed him hard and rough as he undid his belt and shimmied his pants down. His jacket and tie were pulled off next. Billy then shoved two fingers in Gerard's mouth.

"Suck it bitch, get them nice and wet for me."

He sucked cooperatively on the older man’s digits, bobbing his head up and down. His heart rate was picking up now. He was going to go all the way with Billy (again). This was it... He was finally forgetting Frank. Frank... Gerard repeated the man’s name in his head at least three or four times. He knew if he went through with this there was definitely going to be no more Frank in his life. Billy pulled his fingers out then reached down and slowly pushed them into Gerard. Gerard gasped and released a little shriek. He squeezed his eyes shut and took a deep breath.

"I-it's been a while... Please be gentle."

He choked a bit towards the end of his request, but he's not sure Billy heard the distress. Billy eased his fingers in and out of Gerard, making him shake and pant each time he brushed that spot inside. Gerard was moaning, and falling apart as he was stretched and prepared.

"You look so fucking beautiful right now coming apart like that. Now I want you to fucking ride me baby."

The words hit Gerard like a ton of bricks. He heard them before. He could not stop the memory that came with them.


"You look so fucking beautiful right now coming apart like that. Now I want you to fucking ride me baby."



Gerard snapped out of his haze and nodded. He bit down on his bottom lip. Frank could see that he wanted to be in charge right now. He wanted to pin his husband to the mattress, and take all of him, hard, fast, and so fucking rough. Frank watched as Gerard pulled away from his fingers and hovered over his cock. He stroked it a few times, and made Frank buck up into his hands. Gerard laughed at this then positioned himself perfectly over, and in one swift motion, dropped down in one stroke, taking the entire shaft in.



"Fucking hell Gerard!"



Gerard sat up straight and planted his hands on Frank’s chest. He apparently aimed perfectly in the first try.



"Babe, oh, god, you're on my spot."



He mewled, tossing his head back in ecstasy. He clenched his jaw and ground his teeth as he leaned forward and rose up from Frank’s lap then sunk down, smoothly. Frank thrusted up just as Gerard came down, and they both moaned out in unison. Frank knew that this was the perfect position to graze and tease Gerard in. He wiggled around until every stroke was just casually brushing his prostate without hitting it full on. He knew that Gerard would not last long with this kind of teasing, but honestly, he was not going to either. Gerard was tight and warm around his cock and all he wanted to do was fill his wife up right now.



"Ah ah ah, not gonna, fuck, last much *pant* longer Gee."


Billy pulled his fingers out, and scooted back to the headboard again. His cock was erect and waiting, and Gerard blinked hard, looking at what Billy had to offer. He whimpered quietly, and started to sit up. Gerard crawled over to the older man, pressing his hands on his shoulders as he straddles him. The feel of Billy maneuvering his hand on his cock, searching for his hole, makes his head spin. Gerard took a deep breath, still trembling when Billy found his opening. The head of his cock pressed against it, tempting to push in. That's when Gerard released a choked sob just in time. He buried his face against the older man’s shoulder and started to cry.

"I... I can't. I can't."

Gerard choked, his weight crashing down against Billy's body.

Billy cradled Gerard to his chest. He made sure that his cock was not interfering. He had a feeling that this was not going to work out, but he could not have explained it to the younger man.

"See silly boy? You still love him."

Gerard sobbed loudly and nodded against Billy's shoulder.

"I do... S-so fucking much, Billy. You have no idea."

"Yeah I do, that is why I have these."

Billy reached for his jacket and pulled out a small velvet bag from the inside pocket. He held Gerard's hand open, and poured out the contents. The pink and black diamonds sparkled in the room light.

Gerard gasped quietly and looked at the rings.

"... My rings. Billy... Fuck, I feel so fucking stupid."

He closed his hand into a fist around the rings.

"I... I thought I was doing the right thing, but you were right. I was making a big mistake."

Billy took the rings and slipped them on Gerard's left hand.

"Now get dressed, and go get your man."

Billy eased Gerard off him and did up his pants. He grabbed his jacket and tie and hung them on his shoulder. Billy then looked at Gerard who had an expression of concern for him framed his face.

"No worries about me Gee Love, I will be fine."

Billy took one last look at Gerard, and his amazingly barely dressed figure then closed the door.

Gerard sniffled quietly to himself as he dressed. He realized he sort of just broke up with Billy even though they really hadn't even been dating in the first place. Gerard climbed out of bed with that in thought.

No, they weren't together... He was too busy pining for Frank. So it wasn't possible. He and Billy were never possible and yet he gave him hope. Gerard pressed his hand against the door, leaning against it as he used his other hand to pull his dress on. He felt better though... Better that Billy understood, and even knew he wouldn't go through with it. Gerard rushed out of the bedroom quickly, as if he were Cinderella and midnight chimed. He made his way, scurrying to the parking lot where he last saw Frank heading. He was holding onto his dress, bunching it up so he wouldn't trip over it.

"FRANK!"

He screamed when the older man finally came into view. He was waving down Lou, and thank goodness he wasn't gone yet. He must've been talking and gotten pre occupied. Fate... Gerard decided it was. /p>

”Everything alright Sir?”

Frank thought he heard something, but he dismissed it. He climbed into the car after speaking to Louis.

"Home please Louis, I need to get out of this gay boy's monkey suit."

"I think you look fetching Sir."

Frank sighed and looked down at his wedding ring, realizing that it will be coming off today.

"No fetching enough I guess." >

Louis nods and climbs into the driver’s side. He starts up the car and leaves the parking lot. His mind is on stopping and getting his boss a cup of good coffee. He is so preoccupied that he does not see the woman in blue waving to him in his rearview. The gate opens for him and Louis drives off.

"Fuck!"

Gerard hollered, watching Frank's car speed down the road.

"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!"

He couldn't believe he missed him. He was so close. Almost immediately he started to look around frantically, searching for someone who was able to give him a ride. He spotted Billy and Destiny making their way to the family car, and Gerard waved at them, shouting the older man’s name.

"Billy, I missed him... C-Can you drop me off at my old house? I'll give you directions."

"Easy Gee love, easy. Stop and breathe first."

"What does Gege mean daddy?"

"Ah sweetheart, you are going to find that out when you get older, love is not always as easy as we think. Sometimes you have to lose someone to realize how much you really love them."

"Yeah, like you and Gege right?"

"Yes sweetheart, but sometimes that person is already in love with someone else, but they do not realize it."

Destiny looked over at Gerard.

"Does that mean I won't see you anymore again?"

Gerard's heart broke for the billionth time in his life, and he pulled Destiny into a hug.

"We can still see each other, Des. Whenever you want... I'm not even sure Frank's going to want me back. After everything I put him through. But no what matter what happens I'll always have you, and all my other kids. I'm not gonna disappear again. I promise."

Destiny sniffed then looked up at Gerard.

"Well he would be crazy not to want you back, but we will never know unless we try right?"

"Yeah, you're right... I have to try. I'll regret it for the rest of my life if I don't."

Gerard turned to Billy and smiled weakly at him.

"So will you help me?"

"Of course Gee Love, but we are going to have a hell of a time getting across town. I just heard on the radio that traffic is murder."

Adam and Stephan came over and hopped in the back seat with Destiny as Gerard got in the front. They left the estate, and made their way into town. Sure enough there was construction that was not there when they first arrived, and the three lanes were down to one. This was going to take forever.

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"You are a miracle Louis."

"Nah boss, I just got connections when it comes to blue collar workers."

"Yeah well whatever it was, we managed to avoid that cluster fuck without any problems."

"Will you be needing me anymore today?"

"Not for a couple of hours. My flight does not leave until late tonight."

"You gonna be alright Frank?"

"Hey, you called me Frank."

"Yeah I did."

"No, but that is all right. I will manage again."

Louis tipped his hat to Frank as he exited the car and went into the house. Now with his daughter married, his son engaged, and his... Wife happy with another, he was truly alone.


*ring ring*


"Iero Residence."

"How was the wedding?"

"It was nice Greta, really nice."

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Honking and the sound of tires screeching was the soundtrack to Gerard's anxiety. He just wanted all the cars to part like the Red Sea, but no matter how many times he pictures it happening in his head it wasn't going to happen in real life.

"The traffic is making me anxious."

Gerard pounded his head on the headrest three times.

"I can't take this."

Billy reached over and touched his thigh to still him. It was not a suggestive touch, but a calming familiar one.

"Gee Love, relax, we will get you there, no worries."

But he was worried, worried about what Frank was going to do now that he... Gerard did not even want to think about that.

"Look, why don’t you try to call him? Call him at home."

Gerard picked up his cell and began to dial.

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*

”He is wonderful. He treats her well."

"Are we still talking about Kat or Gerard?"

Frank marveled at how much Greta remembered of their conversation last month.

"I don’t know, people change and they grow apart or... They make stupid mistakes and regret them..."

"Do you think it was a mistake marrying him?"

"My mistake was mistreating him with my temper. Now I am paying for it, but he should not have to."

"Frankie, you were always hard on yourself. You have a temper, it is just part of you and you can’t help protecting the ones you love. I am not saying what you did was right, but you should not be this hard on yourself."

"Perhaps Greta, perhaps."

"So when does your flight leave?"

”Eleven, so I figured I would take a nap before I had to pack.”

”Think it is the right thing to do?”

”Yeah, I’m tired, and need to get away.”

”Are you sure giving him the papers is the right thing to do?”

”Greta, it’s over. I have to accept it and move on. He is happy with Billy.”

”Alright Frankie, well I hope you have a safe flight.”

”You too Greta, enjoy your honeymoon.”

”Bye Frankie.”

”Bye Greta.”

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Gerard waited for Frank to answer, but the line sounded busy.

"He's not answering."

"He could be on with a client. I would not worry and look, the traffic is starting to clear up, we can make good time now."

Gerard took a deep breath and dropped his phone in his lap.

"I hope so..."

He didn't know why, but he was so nervous. He was scared. And then it dawned on him. This is how Frank must've been feeling... For the past ten months.

"He probably hates me. This is a huge mistake. Maybe we should just turn around."

It was his nerves kicking now.

"Gege, you need to stop it right now! Stop talking like that. Mr. Iero loves you. He just has not seen you for a long time so he does not know what your heart looks like."

Gerard allowed that to sink in. It was true, but he couldn't believe it. If he were Frank he would have a hard time trusting anyone.

"I... Okay, you're right. Sorry. I'm just so scared."

"Good, now step on it dad, we have a marriage to save!"

"Yes Ma'am!"

Everyone laughed and it lightened the mood. They were now on their way once again.

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Frank climbed the stairs to his room. He walked in and looked at the bed he had avoided for months. The sheets were still the same as they were when he was last there. Slowly Frank undid his tie and slipped off his coat. He put his foot up and undid his laces. He unbuckled his pants and pulled them off. Standing there in socks, boxers, and his button down, he hung the suit up. Frank undid his shirt and tossed it in the hamper then headed to the bathroom for a much needed shower and to think.

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It's one after the other. Red light after red light, and Gerard's losing his patience. He squeezes Billy's hand that's been resting on his knee for most of the ride, and he's thankful for that.The gesture is helping him through his anxiety.

"We're close... Just make a left after this light."

Billy makes the turn, and Gerard mentally yelps when the huge manor comes into view. The whole front of the house is extremely dark, except for the gate lights that were needed for the security cameras.

"This is it..."

Gerard panted, pushing his hand through his hair frantically.

"Oh god, I think I'm gonna be sick."

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Frank is exhausted by the time he stepped out of the hot shower. It relaxed his muscles, but did nothing to relax his mind. He looked at the bed again, and he really needs to strip the sheets. He crawls to the corner and begins to remove the pillowcases. When he does he gets a waft of Gerard's perfume. It was still in the case from that last day. He picked up the pillow and breathed in deeply. He lay his head down on it and snuggled into it. Frank turned on the TV to have some kind of background noise and the DVD player started up. Frank had not watched a DVD in… Well months, back when Gerard was here. When the screen came to life, he saw himself and Gerard. It was a DVD that they had made the year before. Frank settled into the bed to watch a part of his life that no longer existed. He sighed and pulled the covers over himself, forgetting about the towel around his waist. He promised himself only a few moments to reminisce about what he does not have anymore. Just a few moments. Just a few zzzzzzzz.

Gerard was saying goodbye to Billy and the kids now. They had gotten through the gates after Gerard gave Billy the code, and now they were parked in front of the building. He grabbed Billy's hand and gave it one last squeeze.

"Thank you, Billy... For everything."

"You've gone through so much for me, and I'll be forever grateful."

"Gee Love, you deserve to be happy, you really do and remember we have a wedding to plan now."

Billy leaned in to give Gerard one last kiss before reaching across and opening the door.

"Go get your man back."

"Bye Gege, remember I am going to hold you to your promise."

"Of course, sweetie. I'll see you all soon. Bye... I love you."

Gerard said and received a bunch of 'I love you too' back. They left on that note, and Gerard turned around to face the house. He took a deep breath then started for the front door. He knocked on it gently and waited for an answer. Gerard turned the knob after waiting for a few minutes, and noticed the door was unlocked. He pulled open the door and stepped inside.

"Frank..."

He called out, flicking on the foyer light. The chandelier lit up the whole area, and Gerard stared at it, smiling weakly. He missed this beautiful house. Gerard started for the staircase after one last glance around, and went upstairs when he received no response from Frank. He was most likely in the bedroom, and Gerard made sure to be extra quiet because he could be sleeping. Gerard slowly pushed open the door and spotted his husband in bed. Frank was cuddled into his sheets, sleeping soundly. Gerard smiled to himself and stepped into the bedroom, closing the door quietly behind him.

"Frankie..."

Not being able to control himself, Gerard climbed into bed, slowly and quietly. When he completely climbed into bed he gazed over Frank's face, and he had to contain himself from attacking him with kisses. He settled for a peck to his cheek and waited to see if he'd react. Frank snuggled further into the sheets, gripping the pillow softly. Faintly Gerard heard a noise that sounded like his voice. When he looked up he noticed that the television was on. It was from a trip that they took the year before for the kid’s birthday. They went on a cruise to the Bahamas.


"No Frankie, you'll ruin my makeup!"



"I'm gonna do that later on anyway so..."



"Ewww Dad, come on."



"Sorry Kat, I'm just speaking the truth."



"What you do in your cabin is your business."



"Actually Kat, I think it was the business of the next two cabin's down too."



Gerard squawked and hit Frank playfully. Frank laughed and wrapped his arms around him as he pulled him in for a passionate kiss. Kody, who was manning the camera at the time, zoomed in on them as they pulled away and leaned their foreheads together. They sighed and the look in their eyes was pure adoration.


Gerard continued to stare at the television set. His eyes were slightly watery now and he was close to crying like a baby. He felt like such a jerk... Everyone was right. He was so stupid to have left this. Gerard turned his attention back to his husband and sniffled.

"I love you so much..."

He lay down and pressed his head gently on the man’s chest. Frank rolled over and placed an arm around Gerard and pulled him in. The man's eyes were still closed, but his breathing had changed and he sighed a little. The scene on the TV changed.


"Come on baby, just let me see!"



"No! I gained weight again!"



"I promise you Gee, you look as beautiful as when I first laid eyes on you."



"See! I was like twenty pounds more back then!"



"Gee, if you don’t come out, I am coming in after you!"



Oh alright, no need to get bitchy."



An off camera sigh was heard and Gerard walked out. No sound was heard from Frank and Gerard was biting his lip.



"It's that bad huh?"



Gerard turned to go back in the room when the camera hit the floor at a weird angle and all that was heard was scuffling and moaning as the lens caught their feet. Well Frank's feet, since Gerard's left the scene as Frank's pants pooled around his ankles.



"Fuck Frankie, harder please!"


The screen went black after that.

Gerard looked at the TV then looked at Frank. He sighed and pressed his fingers through Frank's fringe. Between the video playing and lying in bed with his husband he felt like they never separated... Like he never left. He felt awful. The screen came to life again, and this time it was Gerard, Frank, and Spencer. Pete's voice was in the background.


"Come on why not? Frankie has one!"



"No Pete, we are not making a sex tape!"



"Besides, Gerard and I did that for the hanky code."



"So, I will go get a pink hanky and."



"Pete, cut it out or I will not let Frank suck you off for a month."



The sound of Pete falling into the chair, and the camera dangling at an awkward angle was added to the giggling of Gerard and Spencer. Before the scene faded out Frank's voice was heard.



"Don’t I get a say in any of this?"


Gerard giggled at the video and snuggled closer against Frank. That day was so much fun, and he wished he could go back... Before the separation. Another scene showed up along with the low battery sign. This time Gerard recognized the hall they had their fourth anniversary in. Frank looked amazing in his suit, and Gerard in the simple matching dress. They danced slowly in each other’s arms. The whispers of the kids behind the camera could not be made out, but they were there. The song ended and Frank and Gerard kissed. Then the battery died on the camera and the video ended. Gerard sighed and closed his eyes as soon as the video ended.

"I love you, Frankie."

He whispered to the sleeping man. He could feel himself drifting off. Sleep was washing over him, and he allowed it to. Hopefully in the morning when he wakes up he and Frank can rekindle their love. It's all he wants.

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Frank woke up with a feeling he had not had in a long time, comfort. He opened his eyes and saw the light from his bedroom window. Frank had not slept there since... Frank sighed then felt a weight on his chest. He looked over and blinked.

Gerard.

Frank blinked again, he had to be dreaming. He looked and saw that Gerard was still in the dress from the wedding. He looked like a sleeping fairy tale creature. Frank reached up and caressed his cheek. He murmured in his sleep and snuggled closer.

"Gee?"

Gerard blinked his eyes open slowly when he heard his name.

"M'uh...?"

Gerard croaked. He looked up and saw Frank staring down at him.

"F-Frankie."

He quickly pushed himself up and fixed his dress that had been riding all bunched up. He knew he probably looked like a train wreck, and Frank was probably wondering why the hell he was in bed with him.

"I-I'm sorry... I had Billy drop me off last night, and the door was unlocked so I came in."

He explained before Frank could ask.

"Gee... am I dreaming? I mean are you really here?"

Frank rubbed his eyes and sat up. Gerard was there standing in their bedroom still in the dress from the wedding. Still beautiful. Still...

"Why are you here? I mean, not that, I mean, aren't you with Billy and..."

Frank was really confused now. He was sure that when he saw Gerard earlier today he had not had his rings on, but now he did.

"Gee, your rings..."

Gerard looked down at his hand and then back up at Frank.

"I thought I was with him too... But I wasn't entirely. He knew that I still loved you and he held onto my rings until I finally realized it."

"Gee... you can't be. I saw the two of you. He made you happy. I am sure that you have been happy these last months, I mean the pictures said it all."

Frank wondered if he should have even mentioned them, but he decided fuck it.

"Pictures?"

"What pictures? We haven't taken any pictures together... Billy's too camera shy even if I wanted to."

What the hell was Frank talking about? He had to know. Frank sighs and motions for Gerard to follow him. He walks next door to his Study. The desk is a wreck because he threw himself into his work after he got the pictures to try and forget everything. He dug to the bottom of the pile of papers, and under the desk blotter. Frank pulled out the manila envelope that still had the evil Santa Clause grinning at him on it. He opened the clasp, and rather than pull the pictures out, he handed the envelope to Gerard.

"These were delivered to me on Christmas day."

Gerard pulled out the photos and the first thing he sees is the bottom of his red velvet dress. He knows what the pictures are of before he even pulls them out.

"Who the hell..."

He trailed off, completely pulling the pictures out of the envelope.

"Who sent these to you?"

He started to look through the small stack. There were about eight and as he looked through them he watched as they became more intense. The last photo was of his leg, up against Billy's crotch and Billy's hand was near his thigh, going into his dress. He looked at the outside if the envelope, there was no return address. Gerard cringed and shook his head in disappointment.

"My brother had to have done this for sure..."

Gerard could practically smell Mikey's sickly sweet perfume over all of the photos as he went through them.

"What a fucking bitch."

Frank ran his hands through his hair. It was much longer than when Gerard was around. He was also aware that he had gained some decent weight from eating poorly and not caring for himself. Frank looked at Gerard who was concentrating on the pictures, and realized how beautiful he really was... And how he did not deserve him anymore.

"Anyway, it is obvious that you are happy with him, and I only want you to be happy so I just accepted that you were his now, and well..."

Frank pulled the papers out from under the mess that he was working on last month.

"All you have to do is sign and you are free to marry him."

Gerard was taken back.

"What? Are you serious!?"

Gerard was appalled as he looked at the papers.

"Frank, I came here because I want to be with you. Even my ex saw that. Billy and I aren't even together... We didn't even..."

He was searching for the right words. He didn't want to put any more images in Frank's head.

"We didn't have anything romantic... He was just there for me. He was nice enough to let me even live in his house for as long as I did. I kissed him because I confused my gratitude for love. You have to understand that."

"Wait... That was more than a kiss you had going on in that picture. Are you telling me you guys did nothing else? Nothing Gerard?"

Frank could not believe it. They were together for over nine months. There was no way Gerard went that long without something. He had a huge sexual appetite. Even Frank could not keep up with him sometimes.

Gerard looked down and sighed.

"We, um... We did a few things, but we never, ya know... Went all the way. Last night we were close to actually doing it, but I couldn't. I kept thinking about you."

"You were thinking of me? Why? You had everything you ever wanted finally. Why did you waste it thinking of me? I'm no good for you Gerard. Just sign the papers. It's the best thing for all of us... I gotta piss."

Frank left the room and headed to the bathroom. He walked in, but didn't bother with the door. He crossed to the toilet and connected with the water. When he was done he flushed and washed his hands. Frank looked in the mirror and was disgusted by what he saw. He was no longer worthy of Gerard and he knew it. He felt grubby after sleeping in the dirty sheets, even though they smelled like Gerard, and needed another shower.

Gerard ripped the papers in half and dropped them on the table. He didn't need them and he wanted Frank to understand that.

"Stop pretending you aren't happy to have me back. I know you don't want to sign those papers, and I know I don't want to sign those papers."

Gerard raised his voice as he headed towards the bathroom. He entered and saw Frank looking at himself in the mirror. Gerard saw that Frank gained weight, but he did not care.

"Please just stop making it so hard for us to mend this. I'm where I wanna be."

"Gerard you don't know what you are talking about."

Frank walked to the shower stall.

"I am no good for you. You have a chance at a clean break and you need to take it. You can have whatever you want. It says so in the papers. I will have Louis bring the car around while you get it all together. Trust me this is better for both of us. Those kids need you, our... Mine are all grown up and almost both married. Time for you to live the life that you des..."

Frank did not get to finish the sentence because Gerard was in his face within seconds, and hand was connecting with his cheek.

"Stop saying that! Just stop it! I'm not signing anything!"

Frank grabbed at Gerard's shoulders and pushed him against the wall of the shower between the shower heads. He growled in his face as he felt the heat from Gerard's hand rise on his skin.

"You don’t understand! I am too fucking dangerous for you to be around! What if I hurt you again?! Fuck, I am hurting you now! Do you really want this kind of life Gerard!?"

Gerard looked into Frank's eyes as he searched for his words.

"Do you think you're going to hurt me again?"

Frank pushed away from Gerard and went to lean against the other shower wall.

"I don’t know Gerard! I didn’t think I was capable of hurting you ever, but I did!"

He threw his hands in the air and ran his fingers through his hair, gripping it tight.

"I know I cannot hurt you if you are not in my life, and if that is the way to keep you safe then I will do so."

"Frank."

Gerard reached out to touch his husbands shoulder.

"I know you won't hurt me again. I think you've learned... Those months I've been gone. I know you beat yourself up for that."

"I, I , I..."

Frank didn’t know what to do. He covered his face and slid down the wall to the shower floor.

"So, I forgive... And I want to be with you. Only you."

Gerard got down to his knees in front of his husband and crawled into his lap.

"I love you, Frankie."

"Gerard..."

Frank carefully circled his arms around Gerard's waist. He took a shaky breath and let it out and ha hugged him.

"Do you love me?"

Gerard nuzzled his nose against the crook of Frank's neck.

"I do, I love you so much Gerard that I can't bear the thought of living without you."

Gerard pressed his hands against the back of Frank's head, and raked his nails through his greasy hair.

"I'm with you... I'm here. And you don't have to live without me, because I'm staying."

Frank began to cry and could not stop. He buried his face in Gerard's shoulder and hid. Gerard remained pressed against Frank like that, on the floor of the shower stall and in his lap. It was quiet, except for the sound of Frank's weak cries and Gerard couldn't contain himself. He began to cry himself, silently.

"W-we should get off the floor."

Gerard sniffled, crawling out of Frank’s lap. Which was really hard for him to do, because he didn't want to. Gerard was standing now, sticking his hand out for Frank to take.

"Can you stand?"

Frank batted Gerard's hand away and reached up to use the stall bar, but he missed and gripped the shower knobs instead. Suddenly cold water came pouring out of all three heads soaking them. Frank heard Gerard scream from the rush of cold water and saw him lose his balance in his stockings. Frank reached out to catch him and they both collapsed on the floor of the shower stall with the water pounding down on them. Frank looked up at Gerard above him and could not help, but laugh.

"Fuck Gee, how the hell? Only us man, only us."

Gerard laughed, shivering slightly and pushed his hands through his wet hair.

"Not very graceful, are we?"

He shot Frank a coy smile as he batted his lashes at him. Frank reached up and pushed Gerard’s hair out of his eyes. He caressed his cheek.

"I missed you so much Gee. So fucking much."

Frank reached up and turned the hot water on so that the temperature evened out. He then circled his arms around Gerard and pulled him down into a kiss.

Gerard smiled against Frank's lips, kissing him with the same amount of passion he was receiving. He wanted Frank to feel it. To feel that they were both equally in love. Frank felt the towel getting soaked as the water continued to pour over them. He had forgotten that it was all he was wearing the whole time. Meanwhile he reached up and pulled the zipper down on Gerard's gown, exposing more of his milk white chest. He latched onto his shoulder, and licked and sucked as the water cascaded off it.

"Fuck Gee, I forgot how good you taste, how good you feel."

Gerard moaned contently, and pressed himself down against Frank's actions and praise. The butterflies he felt last night before he entered the house were coming back, and his head was spinning from the emotional overload. His dress came off, with Franks help, and now he was left in his undergarments. Frank forgot how good Gerard looked. He pushed Gerard off and encouraged him to stand. Frank got up quickly on his knees, and ran his hands all over Gerard's hips and stockinged legs. He reached up and mouthed at his satin sealed cock, sucking on it through the fabric. Frank pushed Gerard against the wall to steady him and hold him in place as he disconnected the suspenders of the garter belt then pulled his underwear down. He took Gerard's cock in his mouth, allowing the swelling of it to fill his throat. He lavished it with his tongue and pulled off enough to suck on the head and play with his slit before going back down to the base. Gerard's jaw dropped and his hands went straight into Frank’s hair.

"F-fuck."

He gasped loudly, trying not to look at his husband blowing him. He would cum too soon if he sneaked a peek down at him. This is what Gerard had missed. He missed being this close to Frank... And he definitely missed Frank's wet, warm mouth on his cock.

"Oh, fuck, I fucking missed this."

He murmured, tossing his head back, causing it to pound against the shower walls. Frank could not stop touching Gerard. He traced all his curves and the lines of his body. He pushed the stockings down and took off the garter belt. He wanted to feel nothing but skin under his hands. Using the spit falling from his mouth he slicked up his fingers and then slowly worked one inside of Gerard. He was really tight. Tighter than he was when they met. He could not believe that Gerard had not even fingered himself in all that time. It made Frank want him to feel good. Better than he had in a long time. Gerard loosens the grip he had on Frank's hair as he grinds down on his finger, taking it further. He heard Frank say something, but just as he did his spot was found, and his hearing went out the window.

"Oh! Fuckfuckfuck."

He cried out and shot a lustful glance down at his husband.

"More."

Gerard begged, grinding down to feel that spark again. Frank looked up at the lust craze in Gerard's eyes, and he pushed another finger in. He apparently still had perfect aim because he found his prostate right away. He teased Gerard by lightly brushing over it and he sucked hard on his cock. He wanted to make Gerard explode in his mouth. Frank moved to three fingers and now he put all the pressure on that spot, and he started to move quickly up and down the shaft. Gerard gasped. One... Two... Three times and that was it. He came without warning, and slumped against the shower wall, breathing in and out harshly as Frank swallowed every last drop of him. Frank stood up and trapped Gerard between two of the shower heads. He kissed, licked, and sucked on his neck moving up to his jaw and then his lips.

"Missed the taste of you so much."

Gerard mewled and whimpered against Frank, and pushed his hand on his shoulder to keep himself upright.

"Y-you too... I missed everything about you. I can't believe it took me so long to come back. I'm such an idiot."

"No Gee, I'm the idiot for not realizing what I had."

Frank lifted Gerard's leg up and placed it around his waist. He could tell that Gerard could not get the grip he used to on his hipbones, and it made him a little sad, but he was determined to show Gerard how he felt. He angled himself, making room for his newly added stomach, and pushed slowly inside of him. Gerard gasped for the hundredth time, and lightly scraped his nails on Frank’s shoulder before he could respond.

"Yesssss."

He breathed out, squeezing his eyes shut tightly. The burn was there. It was unavoidable... He hadn't had sex in so long, but the pleasure was also there, too. It was overcoming the pain because it was Frank who was inside of him, and he could never make it feel bad. Once Frank was all the way inside he did not want to move. It felt so right, so perfect. It felt like coming home. He pushed into Gerard's arms and kissed him slowly, passionately, and with the longing that he had felt all these months. Gerard began to whimper and Frank pulled out a little then pushed back in. He did this again, moving into slow easy strokes. Frank wanted this to last as long as possible. Gerard was tight around his cock and it felt so good. Gerard could feel himself getting hard again as Frank moved in and out of him. He couldn't stop himself from whimpering and moaning, but he also didn't want to stop. He didn't ever want this moment to end. Frank was delirious. All his senses were heightened. He could feel every part of the inside of Gerard as he slid in and out of him. He needed more though. He needed to make Gerard beg and plead for him. He needed to hear those sweet sounds dripping from his mouth and tongue, which he was currently sucking on. He reached down and hoisted Gerard's other leg off the ground and around him. He used his massive center of gravity to hold him against the wall and he started to move faster and fuck him harder. He reached under and played with his balls tugging on them lightly as he traced a nail over his perineum. Gerard's was just as sensitive and just as responsive as he always was. Gerard was panting now. He wrapped his arms around Frank's shoulders and screamed out his name.

"H-harder, Frankie, harder."

He pressed his head against the shower wall, and fisted his hand in his husbands hair roughly. Multiple orgasms washed over him as Frank complied. One after the other... He could feel that he was going to cum again soon. Gerard was tightening up around him as he pounded into him hard and fast. Frank could still not believe that he was inside his wife again. His wife. He moved faster and even harder as he pinned Gerard to the wall with all his body weight.

"Fuuuck Gee, feel so fucking good. Gonna fill you up so much. Gonna have it dripping out of you when you try and walk for the next month."

Gerard trembled at Frank's declaration and nodded frantically.

"Yesssss, please, Frankie. F-fuck... I need it."

He was close. So fucking close.

"I'm cumming. I'm cumming!"

Gerard rasped, squeezing onto Frank's shoulder for dear life. Frank rams into him a few more times, deep and hard and it causes him to tense up and jerk his hips up simultaneously as he cums all over himself. Feeling Gerard tighten up and spill again for the second time pushed Frank over the edge. With a shout of his wife’s name he slams into him and he cums for the first time since last summer. This of course takes everything out of his legs, and he actually loses his balance and falls to the shower floor, taking Gerard with him. The rapidly cooling water begins to wash away the lust and cum down the drain. Frank pants hard and looks up at Gerard. He is a mess, looking debauched and fucked out.

"My God you are fucking beautiful."

Gerard smiled weakly at Frank and pulled him into a soft and gentle kiss.

"I love you, you handsome devil."

Frank found his strength and scooped Gerard up after turning off the water. He carries him out of the stall and the bathroom back to the bedroom. Frank lays Gerard down on the bed as he grabs a few towels and begins to carefully dry him off. He then pulls back the covers, and watches as Gerard snuggles into the sheets. Frank dries himself off then climbs into bed with him.

"Never again baby, Never again do I want to be apart from you."

"Never again."

Gerard repeats back, cuddling against Frank. He wanted to just stay in bed with his husband all day... Stare at him, touch him and bask in his presence. Frank drifted off with Gerard's head on his chest and his heart back where it belonged.

Notes

Two more chapters to go after this one. We can hardly believe it is almost over! ***Digdeepenough and I have mixed feelings about it. One thing we agree on though is how this chapter turned out. So many ups and downs, a real emotional rollercoaster, but it was worth the ride, wasn't it? ^-^