"Frankie..."Someone whispered in my ear. I opened my eyes and became aware of a heavy warmth along my back.
"Ugh what?"I croaked and closed my eyes again.
"Frank Linda said dinner is ready... Claire really wants you to come down,"Gerard said quietly.

"Gerard..."I sighed and turned around so I could hug him awkwardly.
"Hey Pumpkin... You doing okay?"He stroked my hair and held me tightly.

"No... I-"I considered telling him but remembered what Mikey had said. Gerard deserved to finish his course before he got pulled back to Jersey,"I tried talking to Lily today but I couldnt and its just- sort of- yeah,"I muttered and let the tears fall. Gerard shushed me and held me even closer to him.

There was a soft knock on the door. Claire.
"Come in sweetie,"I choked out.
"Frank are you coming down to- are you okay Frankie?"Claire walked in and climbed on the bed, resting her head on the back of shoulder.
"I'm okay kiddo. You wanna go get dinner?"I sniffed and wiped away the tears.

"You dont have to if you're upset Frankie. Its okay. I understand,"Claire said softly. Go she was such a good little girl.
"No. I promised you I would have dinner with you guys tonight so lets go,"I smiled and dragged myself off the bed, Claire and Gerard following close behind me like we were playing follow the leader. I stopped walking at that thought. I was a leader. People were risking their lives for this.

"Frank?"Gerard stepped in front of me, waving his hands in front of my face.
"Uh sorry. Just had a thought about- something, Dont worry,"I smiled and pushed past him and down the stairs before he could ask anything else.

"Whats for dinner Mum?"I said as I walked into the dining room, purposely ignoring Lily's look of guilt. She deserved to feel guilty.
"Quiche. There's a spinach and feta one for you but we've got a bacon and egg one,"Mum smiled and put a plate down in front of me.
"Thanks Mum,"I muttered and started eating before Gerard had even sat down.

Lily cleared her throat and said,"Mum. Are you seriously going to let him sit there with us and act as if everything is normal?"
My head snapped up to her face. What the fuck was she about to say?
"Lily... Its his choice okay?"Linda gave her a serious warning look.
"He's treating me like shit though! Okay yeah, I said a few bad things but that doesnt mean he should ignore me,"Lily looked at me.

I stared at her for a moment before putting my fork down and placing my hands on the table,"Lily. You called me a fag and told me to get fucked. Then you blamed me for you being raped. You're my best friend. Neither of those things are something I would expect you to say to me. Ever. The fact that you did really hurt me. I need time to deal with things okay? You dont know anything,"I sighed and sat back in my seat.

"There you go again. You wont even let me apologise,"Lily grumbled.
"Leave it now. I dont want anymore conflict at the dinner table alright?"Mum said as I opened my mouth to bitch at Lily.
"Fine... Sorry Mum,"I mumbled and started eating again. I glanced at Gerard and found him glouring at his quiche. I kicked him gently under the table and got him to look at me.

I smiled and mouthed 'I love you' and made him smile widely and mouth it back. It was ten minutes before I could leave the heavy silence of the dinner table, dragging Gerard upstairs with me.

"You know you should just let Lily apologise. That way she'll at leasrt stop trying to while you mull it over,"Gerard said slowly as he started scanning my DVDs.
"I know but I just dont want to hear it right now. I'm a lot more pissed off than I thought,"I sighed,"Pick one appropriate for Claire. She's sleeping in here tonight."

"Aww what?"Gerard whined and sat next to me on the bed,"I wanted to spend time with you. I was hoping you would come to mine and have dessert with me,"He waggled his eyebrows and slowly trailed his fingers down my back.
I closed my eyes and fought it,"I promised Claire we would watch a movie and eat chocolate I cant break another promise to her."

"I guess,"Gerard moved closer and kissed the back of my neck,"I'll have to have you now before she comes up."
"Gerard..."I breathed not sure if it was an attempt to get him to stop or a moan.
"Frank I just wanna make out,"Gerard whispered as he moved round to kiss my lips, his words slithering along my skin and giving me goosebumps.

"Ten minutes,"I said firmly before grabbing his shoulders and pulling him down with me, kissing him and gaining dominance over the kiss. Gerard's hands started roaming everywhere, leaving goosebumps where ever he touched. I hooked one hand around his neck and placed the other in the small of his back.

I broke off the kiss and smiled up at him,"I love you, Gerard."
Gerard just stared at me really intensely and said,"I love you too pumpkin."
"I-"I couldnt take this anymore. I had to tell him everything,"I've been-"
"Fraaaankiiiiiiiie!"Claire interrupted me suddenly. My face jerked to the door where she was peeking through a crack.

"What is it Claire?"Gerard said not so kindly. I gave him a look and rolled us over so I was on top then climbed off of him and opened the door for Claire.
"When are we gonna watch the movie?"She twirled her hair and pulled the cutest face ever.
"Well what do you want to watch?"I forced a smile. The consequences of what I almost did were just hitting me and now I was freaking out. I needed to talk to Mikey. He was the only one I could really vent to about this.

"Can we watch Despicable Me? Pleeeeeeeeeease!"She took a step closer and pulled on my t-shirt.
"Fiiiiiiine,"I grinned,"Gerard will you put it in the DVD player?"
"Yeah yeah fine,"He grumbled,"I'm not staying to watch it though. I need to get home. Got some stuff to sort out."

"Oh okay,"I said quietly as Claire ran to get her pjs and Gerard turned the TV and DVD player on.
"Sorry. But you're gonna have your hands full anyway. You dont want me getting in the way,"He muttered as he stood up, his knees clicking as he did so.
"You wouldnt be getting in the way,"I moved over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"I know I wouldnt but this is your night with Claire I dont wanna intrude,"Gerard smiled and kissed my nose.

"If you're sure,"I stood on my tiptoes and kissed him hard.
Gerard put his forehead to mine and said,"Well if there is gonna be more of that then I might consider staying."
"Ha ha. You almost ready Claire? Cause the movie is!"I called. She still hadnt come back in.

"I'm gonna get going. What are you working tomorrow?"Gerard sighed and started pushing me towards the door.
"I'm working... 9 til 5. Fuck,"I sighed. I needed to make more fucking muffins. The sooner this week was over the better.
"Okay well after work, come to mine. I wanna cook dinner for you,"He smiled and kissed me quickly as Claire rushed past us before turning around and going downstairs.

"Love you Gerard,"I waved at him.
"Love you too Pumpkin,"He smiled at me over the banister and then he was out of sight.
"Right kiddo. You got the chocolate?"I turned and saw Claire already in my bed, a piece of chocolate in her mouth and the movie playing.

"God Claire. Thanks for waiting for me,"I smiled as I pulled my jeans off and climbed into bed with her.
"You were taking too long. You had your funny eyes on so I knew you would be a while,"Claire said as the trailers finished and the actual movie started. Fuck I loved Dispicable Me.

"Wait, what are my funny eyes?"I asked and snuggled down into the bed.
"Your funny eyes. You only ever have them when you look at Gerard. You always look really happy and all lovey dovey,"Claire giggled.
I smiled,"Right well thank you for telling me. Now gimme that chocolate,"I snatched it from her. Tonight was going to be fun.