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I Want You. Badly.
"I'll call you tonight okay?"Frank said from the window.
I nodded and leant down to kiss him,"Bye Frankie."
"Love you,"He smiled before dribing away. I watched him go for a second before pulling out my phone and calling him. He pulled over up ahead and answered.
"You drove away before I got to say it. Love you too Pumpkin,"I grinned. I watched as Frank got out and looked at me.
"You're such a dork. Go to bed its not even seven."
"Kay. Have a good day,"I waved and turned around to go inside. Frank hung up as I went inside and pressed the button for the lift. It dinged open and I stepped in slowly. jabbing the button for floor 8. Jesus I was tired.
Once I was inside I went into my bedroom and took off these horrible track pants.
"Oh for fucks sake,"I sighed. The bloody sheets were still in the corner and the mattress was still bare with a small patch at the edge. I sighed and went into the spare bedroom. The bed was unmade from when Claire was here for like two hours. I yawned and climbed into bed slowly. Of course, it was then that the phone started ringing out int he kitchen.
"Fuck! Just leave me alooooone,"I whined to the ceiling. Another minute passed and the phone stopped ringing. I thanked the god of letting people sleep and rolled over, pulling the pillow over my head.
"Who the fuck?"I groaned as my mobile started ringing. I blindly grabbed for a second pillow to try and block it out but it didnt work,"Shit thats Mikey's ringtone,"I bolted up and out of bed. As soon as I opened up my phone it stopped ringing. I called Mikey back and he answered straight away.
"Hey buddy. Whatsup?"He said happily.
"You just called me?"Why waas everyoone being so weird lately? I sat down on the couch with a feeling of defeat. I wasnt gonna get to sleep again.
"I'm able to talk now. So whats up?"
"I uh. Not much. I was just trying to sleep. What about you?"
"Dick. What about that hallucination? What waas that about?"Mikey sighed.
"I dont fucking know. I think it was just because I hadnt eaten for over 24 hours,"I grumbled. Fuck I was hungry again. I had to stop forgetting to eat, jesus.
"Right... Have you had anymore?"Mikey sounded sceptical. He would be looking at me with worry but also like I was an idiot if he was here right now. I was suddenly overcome with a need to see my brother,"Gerard?"
"Sorry. Uh no I havent,'I said as I went to the pantry. I opened it up and groaned,"Why is there never any food in my place?
"Maybe cause you need to go food shopping? Why dont you do that today?"Mikey started giggling,"Pete stop it- dude oh my god!"
"Um..."I went back and sat down on the couch with a thwump.
"Sorry Pete keeps- fucking- argh! Tickling me!"Mikey grunted. A loud smack sounded out and then I heard Pete start yowling like a cat.
"Right. Tell him I say hi. And his parents,"I sighed,"When are you guys coming over? I wanna see you all."
"Right um well we wanna be there for Frank's birthday ummmm,,"Mikey hummed for a moment,"How about in a week we come for a week and a half?"
"A week and a half? You sure you've got it in you to come for that long?"I said seriously.
"Yes what are you- oh. You dick. Come on, I need to call Jerry and get the time off of work,"Mikey was jiggling about I could tell.
"Who the fuck is Jerry?"
"Oh! I completely forgot to tell you! Greg sold the shop. Now I have a much more awesome and nicer boss called Jerry. He's actually interested in comics."
"Dude thats awesome,"I grinned. Greg was such a fat bastard. He seemed to hate everything,"Okay uh yeah in a week for a week and a half. So you'll leave the day after Frank's birthday?"I grabbed the tv remote and was about to turn it on when there was a knock at the door.
"Uh yeah thats right. Hey what does Frank want for his birthday?"Mikey started humming again.
"I- shit. I have no idea. I havent even asked him,"I groaned as I got up and went to the door.
"Dude you havent gotten his pres-"
"Chloe?"I stared at her in disbelief. She had a bandage around her dark brown hair but the rest was just her usual glammed up self.
"Hey Gerard,"She said and pushed past me.
"Uh Mikey I gotta go. I'll text you about Frank's present,"I said slowly and hung up.
"How have you been then Gee?"Chloe said from the couch.
"Uh- sorry but Chloe I thought you were in the hospital?"I went and sat down next to her.
She shook her head,"Mild concussion and shock. They kept me in over night and that was it. I've been at my Mum's but finally I got away so I could come see you,"She smiled brightly at me.
"Jesus. You got lucky then,"I said jokingly. It was obviously a mistake because her face dropped a mile and she said,"Got lucky? Oh yeah. So lucky that my fiance walked in on me and his best friend talking about the wedding. So lucky that he started hallucinating and thought we were fucking so he knocked me out and killed a good friend. Lucky that I woke up in hospital confused and wondering what the hell was going on only to be told that my fiance killed my friend and then himself. So lucky."
"Chloe I'm sorry. I didnt mean-"
"No its okay. You dont have to apologise. I'm sorry for- that,"She gave me a small smile and relaxed into the couch.
"They told me you tried to help... Thank you..."
"It didnt make a difference though did it... I couldnt save him,"I stared at the black TV screen.
"Gerard thats not your fault. Did you know that he hadnt taken his medicine all day? And he was drunk when he got home? None of it was your fault Gerard,"She said softly.
"Why would he not take his medicine?"I sighed. Jim had been so distant and distraught.
"I dont know..."Chloe said as she got up.
I continued staring at the blank screen as she opened the fridge,"Theres nothing in there. I need to go get shit."
"Damn right theres nothing in here- ugh your milk is off."
"I'm sorry. You wanna come with me? I've gotta buy a new mattress probably,"I sighed.
"Yeah! Anything to delay going back to my Mum's. God all she does is fuss over me and the fucking funerals,"Chloe slammed the fridge shut. It was then that I realised I was only in my hoodie and my boxers so I went into my bedroom to change.
"Hey uh Gerard?"Chloe called after a minute, sounding worried.
"Yeah?"I poked my head through a t-shirt.
"There was a guy out the back of the building, out in the courtyard, looking up at me. And now he's gone,"Chloe came into my room looking more worried than she sounded. I shrugged my shoulders at her and hunted around for where I had thrown my hoodie.
"Ew,"I sighed and picked it up off of the pile of bloody sheets. Chloe stared at them for a moment before walking over to them, grabbing them and looking at me expectantly.
"You ready to go?"She smiled.
"Uh yeah I guess..."I pulled my hoodie on,"What are you doing with those?"
"I'm binning them. You dont want these. I'll buy you some new ones. You also dont want to wear that hoodie. Its boiling outside,"She said and walked out, her heels clicking loudly on the wooden floor. I pulled my hoodie off and followed her out.
"But- Chloe you dont have to do that. Its not your fault. Dont worry I'll get them cleaned-"
"It is my fault though. Jim didnt take his pills because I didnt remind him. You know that crappy phone he has? Had?"She sighed. I nodded,"Well alarms and shit never worked on it. So he always relied on me to call him and remind him to take his pills. But I didnt because Brad and I got a little drnk. And Brad was supposed to go to a suit fitting or something but we lost track of time and- I cant believe I didnt remind him!"Chloe dropped the sheets and fell onto the couch. Oh jesus.
"Chloe, this is not your fault. You know its not,"I sighed and sat down next to her.
"It is though! If I hadnt gotten f-fucking drunk with Brad then I wouldnt have forgotten a-and Jim would still be here!"She wailed. She just swore. She never swears. God she felt really bad. I didnt know what to say so I just put my arm around her and shushed her until she had stopped crying.
"God. I'm sorry Gerard. I never cry in front of people oh my god I cant believe I just sobbed on you,"Chloe sniffed.
"Man, everyone feels so guilty about everything,"I muttered.
"Yeah except for the person reponsible,"Chloe stood up. She regained her composure fucking fast.
"Who's responsible?"I stood up as well as she grabbed the sheets again.
"I'm not sure. How many times have you ever seen or heard of me drinking?"She asked as she walked to the door.
"Uh never?"I grabbed my wallet and followed her out.
"Exactly. Because I never drink. The doctors say that my shock has me blocking out everything but if that was the case, why would I block out the time I was with Brad? The last thing I remember is drikning coffee that Brad had brought over."
"God... I dont know... What if Brad drugged you?"I suggested as we stepped out of the lift.
"No. Thats stupid. Brad would never do that. Whoever gave him the coffees must have,"Chloe said firmly as she pushed the sheets down the garbage shute.
"Okay but why would someone want to drug you? And how would they know which coffee was yours or whether those coffees were even for you?"I said as we walked up the street. The sun was fucking hot and I was already sweating. Why did I choose a black t-shirt and jeans?
"I'm not sure uh I'll figure it out,"Chloe smiled,"Why are we walking?"
"I need to get petrol. My car is literally drained,"I sighed. The gas station was so far up the road.
"You know I've got a container of fuel in the boot of my car right?"Chloe stopped walking, pointing over her shoulder.
"Are you kidding me?"I looked back at our apartment building then back at the gas station.
"Yeah I am,"Chloe grinned and started walking again.
"You're a bitch. It is way too fucking hot for october,"I groaned.
"Look, wait here and I'll go back, grab my car and make everything that little bit shorter. Sound good?"Chloe didnt even wait for my answer she just turned around and started jogging down the sidewalk. In heels. My god she was awesome.
I watched her go for a moment before looking at the store I was outside of.
"Harry's Emporium..."I said aloud without meaning to. I peered through the window and saw that it was full of shit. So naturally I went in. A bell jingled above me as I opened and closed the door and a chinese man smiled at me from the counter. I smiled back and started to walk around the shop.
This store was weird. I had pretty much every sort of nick nack you could think of, material for curtains and shit like carpet and fucking costumes. I fought back a snort at the faces of the models for all the 'sexy' outfits. My eyes fell on a black pair of skeleton gloves and immediately I wanted them. I grabbed them and took them up to the counter.
"Two dollar fifty,"The man smiled. I gave him the cash and bolted outside to find Chloe parked at the curb looking pissed off.
"What the hell do you want with those gloves? Its boiling,"Chloe said as she sped off towards the gas station.
"Its gonna be winter soon and they're awesome. Besides, they're for Frank for his birthday,"I said as I pulled them on. They felt really nice and soft and were slightly too small for me which meant that Frank would fit them perfectly.
"Alrighty then go get your gas,"Chloe sighed as she parked the car.
"I'll be quick,"I said and shut the door.
I stared at the fuel containers and grabbed the one I needed for my car and practically skipped inside. I felt good.
"That'll be 20 bucks thanks,"The guy gave me a death glare as I pulled my wallet out and gave him cash. I went back outside to find Chloe had gone.
"What the fuck?"I stared around. She was no where to be seen. I waited for another few minutes but she was gone and she wasnt coming back. I cursed the world and all disappearing friends and started walking.
The sun was killing me. It felt like I was getting burnt through my t-shirt. A car beeped behind me and slowed to a stop next to me.
"Frank? Shouldnt you be at work?"I smiled and leant on the roof of the car.
"I just finished. I was gonna see if you wanted to grab something to eat before I pick Claire up. Get in,"Frank smiled.
I rushed to get in, dumping the fuel in the back before leaning over and kissing Frank.
"Its 2 already? I cant believe the day went by that fast,"I said as the clock clicked to ten past 2.
"Yeah I know. Crazy right? So, did you get any Hersheys Kisses?"Frank asked playfully as he pulled into the parking lot. We got out and he started walking ahead of me, reaching the lift first.
"Uh no,"I stared at him. The way his hair curled around his face and how much he smelt like coffee was turning me on.
"Why are you looking at me like that?Frank said as we stepped into the lift. There was one other person in there who I had only ever seen around on campus.
"I'll tell you later,"I muttered and moved behind Frank to hide my painful boner. On the second floor the girl got off. As soon as the doors had shut I grabbed Frank's shoulders and spun him around for a kiss.
"Ahh,"Frank moaned as I backed him against the side of the lifted and jutted my hips into his.
"Fuck me Frankie,"I gasped as he reversed the order of things and shoved me into the corner and palmed me.
"Wait- are we moving?"I looked over Frank's shoulder to see we were still on floor two.
"Nope. I dont think we should do it in here anyway,"Frank nodded towards a camera above us as he pressed the number 8 button. Oh shit this building is funded or whatever by my school fuck if they have access to the security footage I could be in a lot of trouble. Crap,"I groaned and thumped my head back against the wall.
"Dont worry they probably dont know its you and anyway, all we did was kiss. If we had actually taken our clothes off, thats another story,"Frank smiled as the doors dinged open,"Now come on. I want you. Badly."
Frank grabbed my hand and dragged me down the narrow corridor and into my apartment. Frank threw his keys and phone onto the couch and turned to me. I hadnt even shut the door properly when Frank slammed me up against the wall and attacked my mouth.
"OhfuckFrank,"I moaned into his mouth. Frank smiled into the kiss as his hands snaked around my waist and started pulling me closer to him. No. I wanted to be in charge.
"I broke off the mindblowing kiss and slowly moved my lips along his jawline and down his neck while pushing him towards what I hoped was the couch. Nope. It was the kitchen island.
"Gerard you said- fuck- you said you wanted me to- mmph- to fuck you,"Frank panted, clutching my back helplessly as I started grinding up against him while leaving a mark on his neck.
"Change of plans,"I said against his skin. My hands crept down to the hem of his work shirt.
"Are we- gonna do it- shit- here?"Frank said and moved his hands to my ass, squeezing and making me thrust forward particularly hard.
"Oh fuck. We cant do it in the bedroom cause there are no sheets and we are not doing it in a room where Claire sleeps so yes. Here,"I grinned at him and pulled his top off.
"Fair enough. You're cleaning the bench though,"Frank smiled.
"Why would I want to do that? I want the imprint of your ass to stay there forever,"I shivered as Frank's cool fingers slipped beneath my t-shirt.
"We have to be quick. I've gotta pick Claire up from school,"Frank yanked my t-shirt over my head and kissed me again. I nodded and wasted no time in tugging down his jeans along with his boxers. His dick sprung into view, hard and leacking. I licked my lips, got down on my knees and started sucking.
"Oh fuck yeah right- shit,"Frank moaned and grabbed my hair,"Gerard no- I wanna- I want you- oh jesus just- fuck me Gee please,"He whined. I grabbed the base of his dick and started jerking him off as well, ignoring his begging.
"Oh fuck- christ Gerard fuck- yeah ahh,"Frank started bucking his hips into my mouth. Thats when I pulled off and stood up. I was so painfully hard I was getting dizzy,"Gee why'd- dont stop fuck,"Frank opened his eyes and blinked at me, sweat shining all over him.
"Because I wanna do this,"I muttered and pulled my own pants down. With the loss of restriction I didnt feel quite as dizzy. I could see clearer and hear better which meant I could hear Frank's phone start ringing.
"Dont- leave it Gerard. Get back here you fucking tease,"Frank called as I went to grab it from the couch.
"Frank we need to talk,"Mikey said urgently the second I answered the phone.
"Hey Mikey,"I walked into my bedroom and pulled openmy drawer to grab a condom,"Hold on I'll pass you over to Frank."
"Gerard you suck. Whos on the phone?"Frank hadnt moved at all. He had one hand gripping the edge of the bench and the other holding the base of his cock.
"Mikey. He needs to talk to you,"I handed the phone to him before turning him around and bending him over the counter top.
"Gerard what are you-"
"Shut up just go with it,"I grinned as I openedd the condom and slipped it on. I sucked on my fingers and spread him apart.
"Uh hey Mikey whats uuhhp?"Frank groaned as I pushed two fingers in at once. I added a third and wriggled them around.
"Oh shit- that- yeah- uhh,"Frank gasped. I couldnt tell if he was saying that because of me or what Mikey was saying. I pulled my fingers out.
"Oh fuck me thats goo- painful,"Frank moaned as I slowly thrust my dick inside of him,"I hit my shin on the coffee table,"Frank sucked in his breath as I pulled back out again. I let out a giggle as I slammed back into him.
"Oh fuck Gerard!"Frank shouted suddenly. I fought back a moan crossed with a laugh as Frank started spluttering to Mikey to call him back.
"I dont know why you found that funny,"Frank grumbled and slid the phone across the bench.
"Deal with it. Did I get you in the right spot?"I said and thrust into him again, my nails digging into his hips. He was so fucking tight.
"Oh god yeah- Gee just- fuck. Please,"He pleaded. I picked up my pace and immediately regretted not doing it earlier.
"Mmph oh god,"I moaned as Frank started pushing back into me with every thrust.
"Gerard I'm gonna- shit,"Frank stutered out. I reached around and started jerking him off, pulling out louder and louder moans as the warm sensation burst forth in the pit of my stomach as well.
"Jesus fucking christ I love you!"Frank shouted out as he came all over my hand and the side of the bench, his muscles clenching around my dick.
"I fucking- love you- too oh my god,"I gasped as I rode out our orgasms.
I stayed slumped over Frank on the bench for a few minutes, both of us trying to catch our breath back.
'What did Mikey want? It sounded urgent,"I finally puffed out.
"Oh nothing. Just that I better get time off work for when they come up here,"Frank muttered.
I unstuck myself and shook my jeans off all together,"Whats the time? Do you need to get Claire yet?"
"Uhh- I've got time for a shower. Wanna join me?"Frank asked, already walking to the bathroom.
"Sure. Then I'm actually going to go for a food shop,"I followed him in.
"Now that you have fuel you can drive over for dinner tonight. Right?"Frank said as he turned the shower on and got in straight away.
"Arent you gonna wait for the water to heat up?"I watched as he soaked himself in half warm water,"And sure. I'll call you."
"Nah its too hot. Get in,"Frank grabbed me and dragged me in. I let hooked my arms over Frank's shoulders and he wrapped his hands around my waist, humming a sotf tune as we slowly turned around and around, dancing to this sweet melody that Frank was humming.
"We should get out,"Frank mumbled after a while. The whole bathroom was filled with steam, I could barely see as we stumbled out of the shower. I grabbed the one towel and wrapped it around Frank before going out and grabbing another one, Frank following close behind.
"Are any of my clothes here? I dont wanna put my work uniform back on,"Frank followed me into the bedroom.
"Uhh look around I'm not sure,"I said as I dried myself and my hair.
"Bingo,"Frank grinned and held up my Green Day hoodie.
"Dude I only just got that back. I was gonna wash it before I made it smell like me again,"I snatched it away from him.
He pouted at me before kicking through the rest of the clothes on the floor,"Aha. My jeans. I can wear one of your t-shirts right?"
"If you wanna boil alive in the sun. All of them are black,"I said as I pulled my own jeans on.
"Fine by me,"Frank grinned. I smiled back and walked over to him. I took his face in my hands and kissed him lightly on the lips,"Love you Pumpkin."
"You are such a sook... But I love you too,"Frank giggled.
A few minutes later we were both dressed and heading downstairs in the lift. Frank was on the phone to Mikey again and it was a very interesting sounding conversation.
"... And then you have to-"Frank glanced at me for the fifty millionth time,"Get Captain Smith to give you the ammo... No I- dont like the ammo he gives you. Mikey I cant talk right now. You're gonna have to figure out how to play Cheif yourself. I'm too busy to school you,"Frank said before hanging up.
"Is he playing Halo?"
"Yeah. Halo 4. He's never played it before and he sucks. He keeps calling me and asking for help,"Frank mumbled.
"Wait Halo 4 is out?"I looked at him as the doors dinged open and we stepped outside.
"Dude it was out a week ago. Where have you been?"Frank scoffed at me.
"I dont know... Okay well,"I grabbed my fuel from the back seat and was suddenly pinned against the side of Frank's car, Frank was smiling up at me, his hands on my waist.
"You know I love you right?"He looked down.
"Frankie we just came together moaning that we love each other... Of course I fucking do,'I smiled but he was still looking down.
"And you know that I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you right?"He looked up at me with one of the most intense looks in his eye. He was freaking out about something inside and I had absolutely no clue what that was.
"Frank I do know that whats going on? Has something happened?"I grabbed his shoulders and brought him closer to me, trying to figure out waht was wrong from a closer look in in his eyes. Frank shoved me back playfully and grinned,"Nothing I was just fooling around."
"You're a dick,"I glared at him. That was a relief,"Anyone ever said you should be an actor?"
"Its been said once or twice. Now come on, I'm gonna be late for Claire and if that happens then Mum is going to skin me alive,"Frank kissed me before getting in the front seat.
"I'll call you tonight about dinner okay? Love you,"He smiled before backing the car out of its spot and driving away. I watched him go before turning around and going down the ramo into the underground car park. I fucking hated food shopping.
I nodded and leant down to kiss him,"Bye Frankie."
"Love you,"He smiled before dribing away. I watched him go for a second before pulling out my phone and calling him. He pulled over up ahead and answered.
"You drove away before I got to say it. Love you too Pumpkin,"I grinned. I watched as Frank got out and looked at me.
"You're such a dork. Go to bed its not even seven."
"Kay. Have a good day,"I waved and turned around to go inside. Frank hung up as I went inside and pressed the button for the lift. It dinged open and I stepped in slowly. jabbing the button for floor 8. Jesus I was tired.
Once I was inside I went into my bedroom and took off these horrible track pants.
"Oh for fucks sake,"I sighed. The bloody sheets were still in the corner and the mattress was still bare with a small patch at the edge. I sighed and went into the spare bedroom. The bed was unmade from when Claire was here for like two hours. I yawned and climbed into bed slowly. Of course, it was then that the phone started ringing out int he kitchen.
"Fuck! Just leave me alooooone,"I whined to the ceiling. Another minute passed and the phone stopped ringing. I thanked the god of letting people sleep and rolled over, pulling the pillow over my head.
"Who the fuck?"I groaned as my mobile started ringing. I blindly grabbed for a second pillow to try and block it out but it didnt work,"Shit thats Mikey's ringtone,"I bolted up and out of bed. As soon as I opened up my phone it stopped ringing. I called Mikey back and he answered straight away.
"Hey buddy. Whatsup?"He said happily.
"You just called me?"Why waas everyoone being so weird lately? I sat down on the couch with a feeling of defeat. I wasnt gonna get to sleep again.
"I'm able to talk now. So whats up?"
"I uh. Not much. I was just trying to sleep. What about you?"
"Dick. What about that hallucination? What waas that about?"Mikey sighed.
"I dont fucking know. I think it was just because I hadnt eaten for over 24 hours,"I grumbled. Fuck I was hungry again. I had to stop forgetting to eat, jesus.
"Right... Have you had anymore?"Mikey sounded sceptical. He would be looking at me with worry but also like I was an idiot if he was here right now. I was suddenly overcome with a need to see my brother,"Gerard?"
"Sorry. Uh no I havent,'I said as I went to the pantry. I opened it up and groaned,"Why is there never any food in my place?
"Maybe cause you need to go food shopping? Why dont you do that today?"Mikey started giggling,"Pete stop it- dude oh my god!"
"Um..."I went back and sat down on the couch with a thwump.
"Sorry Pete keeps- fucking- argh! Tickling me!"Mikey grunted. A loud smack sounded out and then I heard Pete start yowling like a cat.
"Right. Tell him I say hi. And his parents,"I sighed,"When are you guys coming over? I wanna see you all."
"Right um well we wanna be there for Frank's birthday ummmm,,"Mikey hummed for a moment,"How about in a week we come for a week and a half?"
"A week and a half? You sure you've got it in you to come for that long?"I said seriously.
"Yes what are you- oh. You dick. Come on, I need to call Jerry and get the time off of work,"Mikey was jiggling about I could tell.
"Who the fuck is Jerry?"
"Oh! I completely forgot to tell you! Greg sold the shop. Now I have a much more awesome and nicer boss called Jerry. He's actually interested in comics."
"Dude thats awesome,"I grinned. Greg was such a fat bastard. He seemed to hate everything,"Okay uh yeah in a week for a week and a half. So you'll leave the day after Frank's birthday?"I grabbed the tv remote and was about to turn it on when there was a knock at the door.
"Uh yeah thats right. Hey what does Frank want for his birthday?"Mikey started humming again.
"I- shit. I have no idea. I havent even asked him,"I groaned as I got up and went to the door.
"Dude you havent gotten his pres-"
"Chloe?"I stared at her in disbelief. She had a bandage around her dark brown hair but the rest was just her usual glammed up self.
"Hey Gerard,"She said and pushed past me.
"Uh Mikey I gotta go. I'll text you about Frank's present,"I said slowly and hung up.
"How have you been then Gee?"Chloe said from the couch.
"Uh- sorry but Chloe I thought you were in the hospital?"I went and sat down next to her.
She shook her head,"Mild concussion and shock. They kept me in over night and that was it. I've been at my Mum's but finally I got away so I could come see you,"She smiled brightly at me.
"Jesus. You got lucky then,"I said jokingly. It was obviously a mistake because her face dropped a mile and she said,"Got lucky? Oh yeah. So lucky that my fiance walked in on me and his best friend talking about the wedding. So lucky that he started hallucinating and thought we were fucking so he knocked me out and killed a good friend. Lucky that I woke up in hospital confused and wondering what the hell was going on only to be told that my fiance killed my friend and then himself. So lucky."
"Chloe I'm sorry. I didnt mean-"
"No its okay. You dont have to apologise. I'm sorry for- that,"She gave me a small smile and relaxed into the couch.
"They told me you tried to help... Thank you..."
"It didnt make a difference though did it... I couldnt save him,"I stared at the black TV screen.
"Gerard thats not your fault. Did you know that he hadnt taken his medicine all day? And he was drunk when he got home? None of it was your fault Gerard,"She said softly.
"Why would he not take his medicine?"I sighed. Jim had been so distant and distraught.
"I dont know..."Chloe said as she got up.
I continued staring at the blank screen as she opened the fridge,"Theres nothing in there. I need to go get shit."
"Damn right theres nothing in here- ugh your milk is off."
"I'm sorry. You wanna come with me? I've gotta buy a new mattress probably,"I sighed.
"Yeah! Anything to delay going back to my Mum's. God all she does is fuss over me and the fucking funerals,"Chloe slammed the fridge shut. It was then that I realised I was only in my hoodie and my boxers so I went into my bedroom to change.
"Hey uh Gerard?"Chloe called after a minute, sounding worried.
"Yeah?"I poked my head through a t-shirt.
"There was a guy out the back of the building, out in the courtyard, looking up at me. And now he's gone,"Chloe came into my room looking more worried than she sounded. I shrugged my shoulders at her and hunted around for where I had thrown my hoodie.
"Ew,"I sighed and picked it up off of the pile of bloody sheets. Chloe stared at them for a moment before walking over to them, grabbing them and looking at me expectantly.
"You ready to go?"She smiled.
"Uh yeah I guess..."I pulled my hoodie on,"What are you doing with those?"
"I'm binning them. You dont want these. I'll buy you some new ones. You also dont want to wear that hoodie. Its boiling outside,"She said and walked out, her heels clicking loudly on the wooden floor. I pulled my hoodie off and followed her out.
"But- Chloe you dont have to do that. Its not your fault. Dont worry I'll get them cleaned-"
"It is my fault though. Jim didnt take his pills because I didnt remind him. You know that crappy phone he has? Had?"She sighed. I nodded,"Well alarms and shit never worked on it. So he always relied on me to call him and remind him to take his pills. But I didnt because Brad and I got a little drnk. And Brad was supposed to go to a suit fitting or something but we lost track of time and- I cant believe I didnt remind him!"Chloe dropped the sheets and fell onto the couch. Oh jesus.
"Chloe, this is not your fault. You know its not,"I sighed and sat down next to her.
"It is though! If I hadnt gotten f-fucking drunk with Brad then I wouldnt have forgotten a-and Jim would still be here!"She wailed. She just swore. She never swears. God she felt really bad. I didnt know what to say so I just put my arm around her and shushed her until she had stopped crying.
"God. I'm sorry Gerard. I never cry in front of people oh my god I cant believe I just sobbed on you,"Chloe sniffed.
"Man, everyone feels so guilty about everything,"I muttered.
"Yeah except for the person reponsible,"Chloe stood up. She regained her composure fucking fast.
"Who's responsible?"I stood up as well as she grabbed the sheets again.
"I'm not sure. How many times have you ever seen or heard of me drinking?"She asked as she walked to the door.
"Uh never?"I grabbed my wallet and followed her out.
"Exactly. Because I never drink. The doctors say that my shock has me blocking out everything but if that was the case, why would I block out the time I was with Brad? The last thing I remember is drikning coffee that Brad had brought over."
"God... I dont know... What if Brad drugged you?"I suggested as we stepped out of the lift.
"No. Thats stupid. Brad would never do that. Whoever gave him the coffees must have,"Chloe said firmly as she pushed the sheets down the garbage shute.
"Okay but why would someone want to drug you? And how would they know which coffee was yours or whether those coffees were even for you?"I said as we walked up the street. The sun was fucking hot and I was already sweating. Why did I choose a black t-shirt and jeans?
"I'm not sure uh I'll figure it out,"Chloe smiled,"Why are we walking?"
"I need to get petrol. My car is literally drained,"I sighed. The gas station was so far up the road.
"You know I've got a container of fuel in the boot of my car right?"Chloe stopped walking, pointing over her shoulder.
"Are you kidding me?"I looked back at our apartment building then back at the gas station.
"Yeah I am,"Chloe grinned and started walking again.
"You're a bitch. It is way too fucking hot for october,"I groaned.
"Look, wait here and I'll go back, grab my car and make everything that little bit shorter. Sound good?"Chloe didnt even wait for my answer she just turned around and started jogging down the sidewalk. In heels. My god she was awesome.
I watched her go for a moment before looking at the store I was outside of.
"Harry's Emporium..."I said aloud without meaning to. I peered through the window and saw that it was full of shit. So naturally I went in. A bell jingled above me as I opened and closed the door and a chinese man smiled at me from the counter. I smiled back and started to walk around the shop.
This store was weird. I had pretty much every sort of nick nack you could think of, material for curtains and shit like carpet and fucking costumes. I fought back a snort at the faces of the models for all the 'sexy' outfits. My eyes fell on a black pair of skeleton gloves and immediately I wanted them. I grabbed them and took them up to the counter.
"Two dollar fifty,"The man smiled. I gave him the cash and bolted outside to find Chloe parked at the curb looking pissed off.
"What the hell do you want with those gloves? Its boiling,"Chloe said as she sped off towards the gas station.
"Its gonna be winter soon and they're awesome. Besides, they're for Frank for his birthday,"I said as I pulled them on. They felt really nice and soft and were slightly too small for me which meant that Frank would fit them perfectly.
"Alrighty then go get your gas,"Chloe sighed as she parked the car.
"I'll be quick,"I said and shut the door.
I stared at the fuel containers and grabbed the one I needed for my car and practically skipped inside. I felt good.
"That'll be 20 bucks thanks,"The guy gave me a death glare as I pulled my wallet out and gave him cash. I went back outside to find Chloe had gone.
"What the fuck?"I stared around. She was no where to be seen. I waited for another few minutes but she was gone and she wasnt coming back. I cursed the world and all disappearing friends and started walking.
The sun was killing me. It felt like I was getting burnt through my t-shirt. A car beeped behind me and slowed to a stop next to me.
"Frank? Shouldnt you be at work?"I smiled and leant on the roof of the car.
"I just finished. I was gonna see if you wanted to grab something to eat before I pick Claire up. Get in,"Frank smiled.
I rushed to get in, dumping the fuel in the back before leaning over and kissing Frank.
"Its 2 already? I cant believe the day went by that fast,"I said as the clock clicked to ten past 2.
"Yeah I know. Crazy right? So, did you get any Hersheys Kisses?"Frank asked playfully as he pulled into the parking lot. We got out and he started walking ahead of me, reaching the lift first.
"Uh no,"I stared at him. The way his hair curled around his face and how much he smelt like coffee was turning me on.
"Why are you looking at me like that?Frank said as we stepped into the lift. There was one other person in there who I had only ever seen around on campus.
"I'll tell you later,"I muttered and moved behind Frank to hide my painful boner. On the second floor the girl got off. As soon as the doors had shut I grabbed Frank's shoulders and spun him around for a kiss.
"Ahh,"Frank moaned as I backed him against the side of the lifted and jutted my hips into his.
"Fuck me Frankie,"I gasped as he reversed the order of things and shoved me into the corner and palmed me.
"Wait- are we moving?"I looked over Frank's shoulder to see we were still on floor two.
"Nope. I dont think we should do it in here anyway,"Frank nodded towards a camera above us as he pressed the number 8 button. Oh shit this building is funded or whatever by my school fuck if they have access to the security footage I could be in a lot of trouble. Crap,"I groaned and thumped my head back against the wall.
"Dont worry they probably dont know its you and anyway, all we did was kiss. If we had actually taken our clothes off, thats another story,"Frank smiled as the doors dinged open,"Now come on. I want you. Badly."
Frank grabbed my hand and dragged me down the narrow corridor and into my apartment. Frank threw his keys and phone onto the couch and turned to me. I hadnt even shut the door properly when Frank slammed me up against the wall and attacked my mouth.
"OhfuckFrank,"I moaned into his mouth. Frank smiled into the kiss as his hands snaked around my waist and started pulling me closer to him. No. I wanted to be in charge.
"I broke off the mindblowing kiss and slowly moved my lips along his jawline and down his neck while pushing him towards what I hoped was the couch. Nope. It was the kitchen island.
"Gerard you said- fuck- you said you wanted me to- mmph- to fuck you,"Frank panted, clutching my back helplessly as I started grinding up against him while leaving a mark on his neck.
"Change of plans,"I said against his skin. My hands crept down to the hem of his work shirt.
"Are we- gonna do it- shit- here?"Frank said and moved his hands to my ass, squeezing and making me thrust forward particularly hard.
"Oh fuck. We cant do it in the bedroom cause there are no sheets and we are not doing it in a room where Claire sleeps so yes. Here,"I grinned at him and pulled his top off.
"Fair enough. You're cleaning the bench though,"Frank smiled.
"Why would I want to do that? I want the imprint of your ass to stay there forever,"I shivered as Frank's cool fingers slipped beneath my t-shirt.
"We have to be quick. I've gotta pick Claire up from school,"Frank yanked my t-shirt over my head and kissed me again. I nodded and wasted no time in tugging down his jeans along with his boxers. His dick sprung into view, hard and leacking. I licked my lips, got down on my knees and started sucking.
"Oh fuck yeah right- shit,"Frank moaned and grabbed my hair,"Gerard no- I wanna- I want you- oh jesus just- fuck me Gee please,"He whined. I grabbed the base of his dick and started jerking him off as well, ignoring his begging.
"Oh fuck- christ Gerard fuck- yeah ahh,"Frank started bucking his hips into my mouth. Thats when I pulled off and stood up. I was so painfully hard I was getting dizzy,"Gee why'd- dont stop fuck,"Frank opened his eyes and blinked at me, sweat shining all over him.
"Because I wanna do this,"I muttered and pulled my own pants down. With the loss of restriction I didnt feel quite as dizzy. I could see clearer and hear better which meant I could hear Frank's phone start ringing.
"Dont- leave it Gerard. Get back here you fucking tease,"Frank called as I went to grab it from the couch.
"Frank we need to talk,"Mikey said urgently the second I answered the phone.
"Hey Mikey,"I walked into my bedroom and pulled openmy drawer to grab a condom,"Hold on I'll pass you over to Frank."
"Gerard you suck. Whos on the phone?"Frank hadnt moved at all. He had one hand gripping the edge of the bench and the other holding the base of his cock.
"Mikey. He needs to talk to you,"I handed the phone to him before turning him around and bending him over the counter top.
"Gerard what are you-"
"Shut up just go with it,"I grinned as I openedd the condom and slipped it on. I sucked on my fingers and spread him apart.
"Uh hey Mikey whats uuhhp?"Frank groaned as I pushed two fingers in at once. I added a third and wriggled them around.
"Oh shit- that- yeah- uhh,"Frank gasped. I couldnt tell if he was saying that because of me or what Mikey was saying. I pulled my fingers out.
"Oh fuck me thats goo- painful,"Frank moaned as I slowly thrust my dick inside of him,"I hit my shin on the coffee table,"Frank sucked in his breath as I pulled back out again. I let out a giggle as I slammed back into him.
"Oh fuck Gerard!"Frank shouted suddenly. I fought back a moan crossed with a laugh as Frank started spluttering to Mikey to call him back.
"I dont know why you found that funny,"Frank grumbled and slid the phone across the bench.
"Deal with it. Did I get you in the right spot?"I said and thrust into him again, my nails digging into his hips. He was so fucking tight.
"Oh god yeah- Gee just- fuck. Please,"He pleaded. I picked up my pace and immediately regretted not doing it earlier.
"Mmph oh god,"I moaned as Frank started pushing back into me with every thrust.
"Gerard I'm gonna- shit,"Frank stutered out. I reached around and started jerking him off, pulling out louder and louder moans as the warm sensation burst forth in the pit of my stomach as well.
"Jesus fucking christ I love you!"Frank shouted out as he came all over my hand and the side of the bench, his muscles clenching around my dick.
"I fucking- love you- too oh my god,"I gasped as I rode out our orgasms.
I stayed slumped over Frank on the bench for a few minutes, both of us trying to catch our breath back.
'What did Mikey want? It sounded urgent,"I finally puffed out.
"Oh nothing. Just that I better get time off work for when they come up here,"Frank muttered.
I unstuck myself and shook my jeans off all together,"Whats the time? Do you need to get Claire yet?"
"Uhh- I've got time for a shower. Wanna join me?"Frank asked, already walking to the bathroom.
"Sure. Then I'm actually going to go for a food shop,"I followed him in.
"Now that you have fuel you can drive over for dinner tonight. Right?"Frank said as he turned the shower on and got in straight away.
"Arent you gonna wait for the water to heat up?"I watched as he soaked himself in half warm water,"And sure. I'll call you."
"Nah its too hot. Get in,"Frank grabbed me and dragged me in. I let hooked my arms over Frank's shoulders and he wrapped his hands around my waist, humming a sotf tune as we slowly turned around and around, dancing to this sweet melody that Frank was humming.
"We should get out,"Frank mumbled after a while. The whole bathroom was filled with steam, I could barely see as we stumbled out of the shower. I grabbed the one towel and wrapped it around Frank before going out and grabbing another one, Frank following close behind.
"Are any of my clothes here? I dont wanna put my work uniform back on,"Frank followed me into the bedroom.
"Uhh look around I'm not sure,"I said as I dried myself and my hair.
"Bingo,"Frank grinned and held up my Green Day hoodie.
"Dude I only just got that back. I was gonna wash it before I made it smell like me again,"I snatched it away from him.
He pouted at me before kicking through the rest of the clothes on the floor,"Aha. My jeans. I can wear one of your t-shirts right?"
"If you wanna boil alive in the sun. All of them are black,"I said as I pulled my own jeans on.
"Fine by me,"Frank grinned. I smiled back and walked over to him. I took his face in my hands and kissed him lightly on the lips,"Love you Pumpkin."
"You are such a sook... But I love you too,"Frank giggled.
A few minutes later we were both dressed and heading downstairs in the lift. Frank was on the phone to Mikey again and it was a very interesting sounding conversation.
"... And then you have to-"Frank glanced at me for the fifty millionth time,"Get Captain Smith to give you the ammo... No I- dont like the ammo he gives you. Mikey I cant talk right now. You're gonna have to figure out how to play Cheif yourself. I'm too busy to school you,"Frank said before hanging up.
"Is he playing Halo?"
"Yeah. Halo 4. He's never played it before and he sucks. He keeps calling me and asking for help,"Frank mumbled.
"Wait Halo 4 is out?"I looked at him as the doors dinged open and we stepped outside.
"Dude it was out a week ago. Where have you been?"Frank scoffed at me.
"I dont know... Okay well,"I grabbed my fuel from the back seat and was suddenly pinned against the side of Frank's car, Frank was smiling up at me, his hands on my waist.
"You know I love you right?"He looked down.
"Frankie we just came together moaning that we love each other... Of course I fucking do,'I smiled but he was still looking down.
"And you know that I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you right?"He looked up at me with one of the most intense looks in his eye. He was freaking out about something inside and I had absolutely no clue what that was.
"Frank I do know that whats going on? Has something happened?"I grabbed his shoulders and brought him closer to me, trying to figure out waht was wrong from a closer look in in his eyes. Frank shoved me back playfully and grinned,"Nothing I was just fooling around."
"You're a dick,"I glared at him. That was a relief,"Anyone ever said you should be an actor?"
"Its been said once or twice. Now come on, I'm gonna be late for Claire and if that happens then Mum is going to skin me alive,"Frank kissed me before getting in the front seat.
"I'll call you tonight about dinner okay? Love you,"He smiled before backing the car out of its spot and driving away. I watched him go before turning around and going down the ramo into the underground car park. I fucking hated food shopping.
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