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Gothalicious With Cheese
"It- It was like I was you or something. Like I was in your head and- and then once the bomb went off I was back in my own head and listening as the- the bomb went off..."I shivered and snuggled into Frank more. We were downstairs in the lounge with Mikey and Pete, talking quietly.
Apparently I had been shouting and crying in my sleep and had woken everyone up. I had gone on for a few minutes before I had actually woken up. Linda had put everyone back to bed but now Frank and I were downstairs talking to Mikey and Pete in the dying firelight.
"Gerard thats terrible,"Mikey whispered, his face covered in odd shadows.
"Mmm..."I hummed as Frank stroked my hair softly.
"It- it felt so real... Like it was a hallucination... But- in a dream?"
"I know the feeling,"Pete mumbled.
I sighed and felt around for Frank's hand. In a second he was there, lacing his fingers with mine and squeezing them softly. The only noise was of the fire crackling quietly in the background.
"We should go up to bed..."Mikey said quietly.
"I dont want to,"I mumbled.
"No I meant Pete and I. You guys can stay down here,"Mikey said as he got up, the couch creaking beneath him.
I opened my eyes and watched him pull Pete to his feet before taking his hand and starting to walk out of the lounge.
"Mikey?"I called. He stopped walking and turned around, coming straight for me.
"You okay Gee?"He scanned my face.
"Can I have a hug from you?"I whispered. Mikey smiled slowly and nodded.
"Course. But you'll have to get up,"He said. He took my free hand and pulled me to my feet and into his arms.
"I'm sorry Mikey..."I breathed into his hair.
"Sorry for what?"
"For causing you so much stress and drama all the time."
"Gerard you dont have to be sorry. Dont be silly."
"Gerard we should go up to bed,"Frank said behind me. I let go of Mikey and nodded at the floor, staring at my feet.
"Come on,"Frank's hand slipped into mine and tugged me along behind Mikey and Pete. We plodded upstairs silently, mumbling a goodnight to Mikey and Pete as they went into the guest bedroom. I was so tired now. Picking the guys up felt like forever ago.
"Gerard who was the girl?"Frank whispered once we were in his bed, holding each other tightly.
"I- dont know... I know her though... We both know her. I just cant even picture her now. Its weird,"I sighed. Everytime I tried to remember her, everything except the bright red scarf covered in sparkles she was wearing just blurred out,"Except for her red scarf."
I shuddered as the sound of Frank's calling echoed in my head before the loud explosion filled my mind.
"Hey hey hey, Gerard? Its okay. I'm here. I'm okay. You're okay. We're all okay,"Frank whispered as I started shaking. I fell asleep to the sound of his comforting voice and the feeling of his hand running through my hair.
-time lapse-
"Okay thanks,"Frank said before ending the call and throwing his phone down next to me.
"What did they say?"I asked.
Frank ran his fingers through his hair and fell back down onto the bed next to me,"They said that as soon as the guys' plane left Cole launched an all out attack at the school."
"Wait- at the school? Not- uh... Huh?"I sat up and looked down at Frank's weary face.
"Mmm hmm. I dont know what has gotten into him. Why he's just attacked the most random place,"Frank threw his arm over his eyes and let out a frustrated groan.
"So um... Hmm..."I stared at Frank's belly slowly rising and falling with his slow breathing.
"Come on. We've got to go tell the guys,"Frank sighed and rolled out of bed, grabbing his jeans from the floor and pulling them on before walking out. I starede at the door, listening to Frank knock on doors and shout about a meeting.
"For fucks sake..."I muttered before getting up and pulling on my own jeans to follow Frank.
"What the fuck?"Mikey groaned as he stumbled out of his room, rubbing sleep out of his eyes.
"Cole attacked the school,"I said. Mikey blinked at me as Pete tumbled out of the door behind him, grumbling about not getting enough sleep.
"Um... Where's Frank gone?"He blinked at me again before pushing past me and practically falling down the stairs,"Frank?!"
"Mikey- Gerard whats going on?"Pete yawned as he walked over to me.
"Meeting,"I sighed. Frank could explain.
Pete nodded and we both made our way downstairs. Ray and Bob were sitting wrapped in blankets staring glumly at nothing.
"Should someone get Linda?"Ray croaked.
"I'm already here,"She called from the kitchen.
Frank was leaning against the mantel above the fire place, staring hard at the ashes.
"What was it like when you guys left?"He said in a hoarse voice.
"The day before we left it was just the usual. Just a few dicks shoving people around with threats to shoot them. No reports of anything. And the day we left it was- ridiculously quiet. Pete managed to use a phone on the plane to call down and find out if everything was okay and they said it was. That was about... half past 9?"Mikey informed us.
"Because as soon as the bell rang Cole and a group of older men that we have never even seen or heard of attacked our old school. The three guys we have there managed to react pretty quickly and thank god they had protection but anyway we- we lost one of them and about ten other students died..."Frank's voice faded away to nothing.
Fuck,"Well what are the police doing about it? What happened with Cole and that and then our guys?"
"Somehow Cole and that got away in the confusion of it all and our guys gapped it as well,"Frank sighed and turned around to face us all.
Everyone was silent, taking it all in.
"You guys didnt unpack at all did you?"Linda said from the doorway as Frank dragged himself over to me and sat down on my lap.
"Nnoo?"Ray glanced up at her.
"Good. Frank you guys have gotta go back,"Linda announced.
"What- not before my birthday,"Frank protested.
"Yes before your birthday. Its doing no good having you guys over here. I can pay for your flights and you can come back for your birthday. I'm not missing your 18th,"She gave him a small smile to which Frank said,"But- what will you guys do then?"
"We'll go to Washington. To my Mum's. We'll have to have your part-"
"No! Mum. I dont. Want. To go,"Lily burst into the room.
"Lily how long have you been there?"Linda rounded on her, a look of fury in her eyes.
"The whole time..."She sighed and sat down next to Bob. Frank stared hard at her, tensing up in my lap.
"Lily. You have no choice in the matter. You have no idea how dangerous this is. And you're not a part of this meeting,"Frank growled.
"Really? I dont? Because from what I've heard, I can tell how dangerous it is. And I bet! That what I know, you guys dont, and that should make me eligible for this meeting,"She raised an eyebrow at him smugly.
"Lily what the hell are you on about?"Frank shoved himself away from me and practically flew over to her.
"Fuck. Careful Frankie,"I groaned and rubbed at my crotch.
"Sorry sweetie,"Frank glanced at me apologetically before turning back to Lily where Linda was also staring at her.
"Ahh see. Not so angry with me now are you,"Lily smiled. What the fuck?
"Oh dont get me wrong Lily, I'm fucking furious with you for keeping something from me. But right now, you seem to know a very serious fact about something and I swear to fucking god if you dont tell me I'll leave you with Claire and my mother and go over to Jersey myself,"Linda snarled. God she could be scary.
Lily glanced round at us all. We were all glaring at her.
"I'll only tell you if you dont send me to Washington,"She mumbled.
"LILY!"Linda screeched,"FUCKING TELL ME NOW!"
"Mummy please dont yell,"Said a small voice from the door.
Everyone's head snapped to the door to see Claire looking scared yet curious.
"Baby. How long have you been there?"Frank left Lily immediately and grabbed her, holding her close.
"Only a second. Whats going on? Why's everyone shouting and angry at Lily?"Claire said over Franks shoulder.
"Okay come on then. Lets get you some breakfast aye?"Frank sent Lily a dark look before walking out.
"Lily..."Linda sighed and fell down onto the nearest seat.
"Cole's working with someone..."Lily muttered. I slowly stood up. I had a bad feeling about this.
"What? How do you know? Who?"Linda groaned and rubbed her face, peering at her through her fingers. Everyone else was silent, not wanting to butt into the family business.
"Sam- mentioned his Dad's name and I thought it sounded familiar so I- I went through your things and-"
"You went through my things?!"Linda screamed.
"Not- only-"
"Lily you had no fucking right! What the fuck is wrong with you?! What stuff?! Where did you find-"
"MUM!"Lily shouted over the top of her, silencing her,"Its Malcolm Griffiths..."
"Oh fuck no!"
Apparently I had been shouting and crying in my sleep and had woken everyone up. I had gone on for a few minutes before I had actually woken up. Linda had put everyone back to bed but now Frank and I were downstairs talking to Mikey and Pete in the dying firelight.
"Gerard thats terrible,"Mikey whispered, his face covered in odd shadows.
"Mmm..."I hummed as Frank stroked my hair softly.
"It- it felt so real... Like it was a hallucination... But- in a dream?"
"I know the feeling,"Pete mumbled.
I sighed and felt around for Frank's hand. In a second he was there, lacing his fingers with mine and squeezing them softly. The only noise was of the fire crackling quietly in the background.
"We should go up to bed..."Mikey said quietly.
"I dont want to,"I mumbled.
"No I meant Pete and I. You guys can stay down here,"Mikey said as he got up, the couch creaking beneath him.
I opened my eyes and watched him pull Pete to his feet before taking his hand and starting to walk out of the lounge.
"Mikey?"I called. He stopped walking and turned around, coming straight for me.
"You okay Gee?"He scanned my face.
"Can I have a hug from you?"I whispered. Mikey smiled slowly and nodded.
"Course. But you'll have to get up,"He said. He took my free hand and pulled me to my feet and into his arms.
"I'm sorry Mikey..."I breathed into his hair.
"Sorry for what?"
"For causing you so much stress and drama all the time."
"Gerard you dont have to be sorry. Dont be silly."
"Gerard we should go up to bed,"Frank said behind me. I let go of Mikey and nodded at the floor, staring at my feet.
"Come on,"Frank's hand slipped into mine and tugged me along behind Mikey and Pete. We plodded upstairs silently, mumbling a goodnight to Mikey and Pete as they went into the guest bedroom. I was so tired now. Picking the guys up felt like forever ago.
"Gerard who was the girl?"Frank whispered once we were in his bed, holding each other tightly.
"I- dont know... I know her though... We both know her. I just cant even picture her now. Its weird,"I sighed. Everytime I tried to remember her, everything except the bright red scarf covered in sparkles she was wearing just blurred out,"Except for her red scarf."
I shuddered as the sound of Frank's calling echoed in my head before the loud explosion filled my mind.
"Hey hey hey, Gerard? Its okay. I'm here. I'm okay. You're okay. We're all okay,"Frank whispered as I started shaking. I fell asleep to the sound of his comforting voice and the feeling of his hand running through my hair.
-time lapse-
"Okay thanks,"Frank said before ending the call and throwing his phone down next to me.
"What did they say?"I asked.
Frank ran his fingers through his hair and fell back down onto the bed next to me,"They said that as soon as the guys' plane left Cole launched an all out attack at the school."
"Wait- at the school? Not- uh... Huh?"I sat up and looked down at Frank's weary face.
"Mmm hmm. I dont know what has gotten into him. Why he's just attacked the most random place,"Frank threw his arm over his eyes and let out a frustrated groan.
"So um... Hmm..."I stared at Frank's belly slowly rising and falling with his slow breathing.
"Come on. We've got to go tell the guys,"Frank sighed and rolled out of bed, grabbing his jeans from the floor and pulling them on before walking out. I starede at the door, listening to Frank knock on doors and shout about a meeting.
"For fucks sake..."I muttered before getting up and pulling on my own jeans to follow Frank.
"What the fuck?"Mikey groaned as he stumbled out of his room, rubbing sleep out of his eyes.
"Cole attacked the school,"I said. Mikey blinked at me as Pete tumbled out of the door behind him, grumbling about not getting enough sleep.
"Um... Where's Frank gone?"He blinked at me again before pushing past me and practically falling down the stairs,"Frank?!"
"Mikey- Gerard whats going on?"Pete yawned as he walked over to me.
"Meeting,"I sighed. Frank could explain.
Pete nodded and we both made our way downstairs. Ray and Bob were sitting wrapped in blankets staring glumly at nothing.
"Should someone get Linda?"Ray croaked.
"I'm already here,"She called from the kitchen.
Frank was leaning against the mantel above the fire place, staring hard at the ashes.
"What was it like when you guys left?"He said in a hoarse voice.
"The day before we left it was just the usual. Just a few dicks shoving people around with threats to shoot them. No reports of anything. And the day we left it was- ridiculously quiet. Pete managed to use a phone on the plane to call down and find out if everything was okay and they said it was. That was about... half past 9?"Mikey informed us.
"Because as soon as the bell rang Cole and a group of older men that we have never even seen or heard of attacked our old school. The three guys we have there managed to react pretty quickly and thank god they had protection but anyway we- we lost one of them and about ten other students died..."Frank's voice faded away to nothing.
Fuck,"Well what are the police doing about it? What happened with Cole and that and then our guys?"
"Somehow Cole and that got away in the confusion of it all and our guys gapped it as well,"Frank sighed and turned around to face us all.
Everyone was silent, taking it all in.
"You guys didnt unpack at all did you?"Linda said from the doorway as Frank dragged himself over to me and sat down on my lap.
"Nnoo?"Ray glanced up at her.
"Good. Frank you guys have gotta go back,"Linda announced.
"What- not before my birthday,"Frank protested.
"Yes before your birthday. Its doing no good having you guys over here. I can pay for your flights and you can come back for your birthday. I'm not missing your 18th,"She gave him a small smile to which Frank said,"But- what will you guys do then?"
"We'll go to Washington. To my Mum's. We'll have to have your part-"
"No! Mum. I dont. Want. To go,"Lily burst into the room.
"Lily how long have you been there?"Linda rounded on her, a look of fury in her eyes.
"The whole time..."She sighed and sat down next to Bob. Frank stared hard at her, tensing up in my lap.
"Lily. You have no choice in the matter. You have no idea how dangerous this is. And you're not a part of this meeting,"Frank growled.
"Really? I dont? Because from what I've heard, I can tell how dangerous it is. And I bet! That what I know, you guys dont, and that should make me eligible for this meeting,"She raised an eyebrow at him smugly.
"Lily what the hell are you on about?"Frank shoved himself away from me and practically flew over to her.
"Fuck. Careful Frankie,"I groaned and rubbed at my crotch.
"Sorry sweetie,"Frank glanced at me apologetically before turning back to Lily where Linda was also staring at her.
"Ahh see. Not so angry with me now are you,"Lily smiled. What the fuck?
"Oh dont get me wrong Lily, I'm fucking furious with you for keeping something from me. But right now, you seem to know a very serious fact about something and I swear to fucking god if you dont tell me I'll leave you with Claire and my mother and go over to Jersey myself,"Linda snarled. God she could be scary.
Lily glanced round at us all. We were all glaring at her.
"I'll only tell you if you dont send me to Washington,"She mumbled.
"LILY!"Linda screeched,"FUCKING TELL ME NOW!"
"Mummy please dont yell,"Said a small voice from the door.
Everyone's head snapped to the door to see Claire looking scared yet curious.
"Baby. How long have you been there?"Frank left Lily immediately and grabbed her, holding her close.
"Only a second. Whats going on? Why's everyone shouting and angry at Lily?"Claire said over Franks shoulder.
"Okay come on then. Lets get you some breakfast aye?"Frank sent Lily a dark look before walking out.
"Lily..."Linda sighed and fell down onto the nearest seat.
"Cole's working with someone..."Lily muttered. I slowly stood up. I had a bad feeling about this.
"What? How do you know? Who?"Linda groaned and rubbed her face, peering at her through her fingers. Everyone else was silent, not wanting to butt into the family business.
"Sam- mentioned his Dad's name and I thought it sounded familiar so I- I went through your things and-"
"You went through my things?!"Linda screamed.
"Not- only-"
"Lily you had no fucking right! What the fuck is wrong with you?! What stuff?! Where did you find-"
"MUM!"Lily shouted over the top of her, silencing her,"Its Malcolm Griffiths..."
"Oh fuck no!"
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