If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky! (Frerard)

I awoke to the smell of coffee entering my nostrils. I open my eyes to see a half naked Gerard. It’s still dark outside and the only light is coming from the hallway. I can’t see his face. Though after he told me I hit him I don’t want to.

“Hey Frankie. So I wanted to repay you for earlier. So here’s your coffee.” He beams at me and hands me the cup. I accept. He’s thanking me for hitting him? What the actual fuck? He heads towards the light switch. “No Gerard don’t turn on the light!” I shout. He gives me a funny look. I don’t want to see his face a mess from hitting him. “I need to Frankie. I have to finish my art project for tomorrow.” He says and turns the light on. He gives me a small smile before walking to the desk in my room. “Erm Gee? What happened to your face?” I say quietly. He turns around as I walk towards him. “What do you mean? Do I have something on my face? Paint or pen maybe?” He says. I shake my head. He had no marks on him. As I studied his face his eyes fell on my body down towards my crotch. I look down to realise I’m completely naked. Oh shit.

“Fuck.” I shout and run to the bed before covering myself up with my cover. “What the hell happened last night?” Gerard bites his lip and gives me a smile. “Well after I turned up you were drunk. You continued to drink more. You got a little too drunk. You shouted at me. Told me I was worthless and stuff like that.” He looked down to his feet with a sad look on his face. He then lifted it to smile once again and carried on. “Then you backed me up into the corner. At first I thought you were going to hit me. You gave me the same smile Andy does before he hits me. Then you got closer and you kissed me.” He squeals.”Then you picked me up and brought me in here. I didn’t want to have sex with you when you’re drunk but you told me you loved me. So I went for it.” He looked distant for a minute. Like he was thinking of something. His smile grew wider. I’m guessing he was remembering last night.

“Gee?” He snaps back into reality and gives me a little nod indicating that he’s listening. “Please don’t think that what I’m about to do is because of what you said we did or what we did okay?” He nods and looks at me confused. I tie the cover around me and run into the bathroom. Just making it to the toilet in time to throw up.
What was I thinking? Getting drunk and sleeping with Gerard just hours after Meygan left me? I needed to straighten myself out. Yes she told me to be happy with him and shit, but like this? No I don’t think so. I didn’t want to sleep with him. Well I did but not drunk off my small ass.

“You know you were pretty hot last night.” Gerard says as he kneels down next to me. That makes me sick again. At least I didn’t hit him. It must of been a nightmare. “I’m so sorry Gee.” I say to him. I turn to him and our eyes lock. “For what?” He questions. I sigh. “Everything. I shouldn’t of got drunk last night. I shouldn’t of said those horrible things either.” I say and he replies with “It’s okay Frankie.” I shake my head. “No Gee it’s not. You don’t say things like that to the person you love. To the person you should of realised is your soul mate. The one who truly makes you happy. Gee....” He smiling at me and our eyes lock again. “I love you Gerard and I should of stopped lying to myself about that kiss meaning nothing. I wasn’t drunk when we kissed. I didn’t want to be drunk. I wanted to have the courage to kiss you and not be drunk. If it was a shit kiss though I would of blamed drink.” He laughs and I stand up. I help Gerard up off the floor and continue. “I guess Meygan made me feel good and my ego needed that. I was too blind to see that the one I am meant to be and planning on from this moment was right there next to me. You’ve always been there for me,. Through everything.I’m so sorry for being stupid.” I finally finish and Gerard just stares at me. “Say something.” I finally say after 5 minutes of pure silence.

“You need to make it up to me then.” He says a smile playing on his lips. “I will do anything Gee.”I reply and his smile grows wider. What am I doing? He’s going to suggest something crazy. You watch.
“Frankie be my boyfriend?” He asks. “What?” I say. I wasn’t expecting him to say that. “You want to make things up to me. You can by being my boyfriend.” He says. “Gerard we slept together for fuck sake. That in my books classes us as dating. Plus I’d never say no to you again.” His smile grow brighter but I bite my lip and say before continuing. “ It’s just a little bit too soon after splitting with Meygan” His smile fades And he walks out the room. I sigh and grab a shower.
I should have gone after him instead. My god Frank Antony Iero you’re so stupid.
I spent a whole hour in the shower shrivelling up like a prune just to think about what I should do. I really like Gerard but it hasn’t even been 24 hours since me and Meygan split. I mean I had sex with him last night which shouldn’t of happened. I wanted it, don’t get me wrong. Just not drunk and not under 24 hours of finishing a relationship. I finally decided that I’d date Gerard. Fuck how long I’ve been single. Life’s too short to care.Plus she told me to go for it. I dry myself off and tie a towel around my waist and head into my bedroom. No Gerard. I wonder where he is. Probably downstairs.
I get dressed and head downstairs to the kitchen. It smells like fresh coffee so I’m guessing he’s in there. I enter and he’s nowhere to be seen. I check the whole house and he’s nowhere. Not again. I grab my phone and phone Gerard. He doesn’t answer so I try again a few times. On my last try I’m about to hang up but he answers.

“Hello?” He slurs.
“Gerard? Are you drinking?” I ask.
“Yeah so what? You’re not my dad.” He snaps.
“Where are you? We need to talk.” I say and I hear a woman’s voice in the background. I can’t make out what she’s saying. Gerard laughs and then answers me.
“I’m at Barry’s bar. I have to go. I have erm something or shall I say someone to take care of.” He says and I hear a sharp slapping noise. You know the kind you get from slapping someone’s arse who’s either in a tight dress or skinny jeans. Someone? This can’t be good.
“Okay Gerard. Stay there.” I say and he replies with “Oh I will be now I have something to do.” Then the line goes dead. What the hell was that? What did he mean he now has something to do? I shake it off, grab my car keys from the table and head out the door.

Half an hour later I arrive at Barry’s bar and scan the place for Gerard. I finally spot him. My jaw drops. He’s shirtless and is making out pretty heatedly with a girl. She looks like a complete slut. Not saying it just because I’m jealous. She really did. I walk up to them and pull them apart. “Gerard we need to leave now!” I say through clenched teeth. “Gerarddddd baby who’s this?” The slut says. “Just some idiot I’m staying with. He’s pissed because he’s girlfriend left him.” He laughs. “Isn’t that right Frank? She finished with you because you’re a waste of space and you fell in love with someone else. You lead them both on until the point they both didn’t want anything to do with you. Both got sick of the sight of you.” He laughs harder and I grab him by the arm. I pick up his shirt from the floor and drag him out of the bar. I ignore his protests and him trying to break free from my hold. I push him into the passenger side and shut the door after. I climb into the driver’s seat and start the car. Gerard’s already snoring.
25 minutes later I arrive at mine. Gerard’s still sleeping so I pick him up and close the car door with my foot before locking it up. I head to the door and fumble in my pocket with my free hand for my key. I open the door and lock it behind me. Putting my alarm on.
I head upstairs and put Gerard down on my bed. He was an arse tonight. This will change things.

I close the door to my bedroom and head downstairs to the living room. I put the TV on and some horror movie comes on. I sigh and think back to what Gerard said at the bar. Meygan had left me. I stand up and grab a bottle of whiskey and for the second night in a row drink until I pass out or black out. I down the first bottle which makes me feel sick. I don’t care though. The uncomfortableness I feel in my stomach takes my mind of Meygan. I stand up and grab another bottle. I throw up on the living room floor staggering back to the couch. I don’t bother to clean it. I hate germs but right now I don’t even care. I needed to drink and forget things. Problem is alcohol can work in so many different ways. One being it actually does drown out everything for you. One being yelling the truth out to the world. Then the worst one for me being it makes you realise your problems and makes them 100 times worse. The third option was surely going to be my fate tonight. I could feel it.

I was right. Everything just blew up in my face. The reality of Meygan leaving me. The look on Gerard’s face when I said that it was too soon. The whole me and Gerard sleeping together. Andy beating him to a pulp. How he looked so small and fragile in the corner of Andy’s flat. The bar. All I could picture was Gerard and that slut making out.It got worse. What if Gerard decided he didn’t want me now he finally could have me? He wouldn’t do that right? Maybe? Of course he would. He’s Gerard.Why wouldn’t he? He said he loved me yet he made out with a random slut at the bar. I bet he was planning on power driving her through the mattress.
I shook that thought out of my head. I finally decided I was a waste of space like he said. I drove everyone I loved or cared for away. I was the one who was worthless. Me. Not Gerard. Something had to be done.
3 and half bottles of whiskey and loads of cans later I finally pass out on my couch.

Notes

Hello guys,
Bet you wasn't expecting that!
Now Gerard's being harsh.
Both Frank and Gee both drinking.
Naughty boys.
Hope you enjoyed it.
Tatz. x