If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky! (Frerard)

Gerard’s P.O.V:

I awoke to someone or something shuffling in my arms. I opened my eyes to see Frank laying right next to me. When did that happen? He told me to leave him alone last night. He said we will talk later but I’m pretty sure we’re through now. Man why did I have to be so stupid? Why couldn’t I have visited Frank when he was all alone in the hospital? Why was I so scared to even think about it? I honestly thought I was going to lose him. The state he was in made me truly believe he was going to die, and for what? Me? Me who’s supposed to love him yet willingly kissed Chester and by force to. Frank deserves better than me. Yet here he is snuggled into me. I guess he craved the contact seems he hadn’t had much in three weeks. Maybe this was his way getting as much contact from me as he could until he woke up and ended it.

Frank started to stir. Shit. Here it comes. He sat up and looked at me. I swung my legs over Frank’s head and sat up, slouching in my seat. “Gerard?” I looked straight at Frank.”We need to talk.” I sighed and stood up. “Please Frank not yet. Just wait an hour? So things can stay like this a little longer.” I meant of course how much contact me and Frank had. Even when I sat up he was pressed against my side. I really don’t want to lose him. I headed towards the kitchen. I was stopped short when Frank grabbed my arm and pulled me back onto the sofa. I fell on my back and he climbed on top of me. I tried to move but he was too strong. He gave me a serious look and said “No now!” I wasn’t getting out of this. “Fine.” I replied and he climbed off me. I sat up straight and faced him. This was not going to be pleasant.

“Why didn’t you visit me Gee?” I knew he was going to ask me this. I’d been thinking before I fell to sleep last night what I was going to say but my mind always came back blank. There was only one reason. I was scared. I didn’t want to see someone who is stronger than me look so weak and fragile. Especially not the one I love. I’d done that to him. It was my fault he got shot. When I didn’t answer he growled and stood up. “Well? You going to answer me or not?” Maybe I should stay silent. Get him pissed off at me. Then he can leave me and he won’t ever get hurt again. All I will ever do is hurt him in some way. He really does deserve someone better than a low life like me. I heard him scoff at my lack of answers.

“Fine, don’t answer me.” Did he really think that was going to work? I don’t think so. “Why did you do it Frank?” That stopped him from continuing his little journey towards his room. “What?” I sighed before adding “Why did you take the bullet Frank? It was supposed to hit me not you. I caused you all that pain. That’s why I couldn’t visit you. The guilt wrapped around me and suffocated me every time someone mentioned you in hospital. I was supposed to be in there suffering not you.” Tears began to spill from my eyes. I felt warm arms wrap around me.

“Gee, I love you okay? I love you so much I’d die for you! That’s why I took the bullet. I wasn’t going to let you die. I’d rather it was me dead than you. You are too precious to die. I guess I understand why you didn’t visit me. I should of listened last night. I’m sorry.” I shook my head. “Don’t be sorry. I hurt you. More than once.” I pulled away and fought back the tears that were threatening to spill over the already shed ones, just thinking about what I was going to do and how my little Frankie was going to react. I looked him straight in the eyes, took a deep breath and said “Frankie there are plenty of people out there who could treat you better. Go find one of them and be happy. You’re not going to happy with me.” The tears spilled from my eyes. I heard a sound like glass smashing. My eyes were too blurry to see what happened. I heard Frank’s bedroom door slam shut though.

You’ve really done it this time Gerard. No wonder everyone leaves you. You’re pathetic. You should of took that bullet and died. You deserve to be dead for all the pain you put everyone through. Even Mikey’s sick of you.

I couldn’t help but think the voice in my head was right. I stood up and realised Frank had smashed the framed photo of us. I sighed and went straight to my room, the tears still falling. I curled in on myself as I laid on my bed. Maybe if I sleep I woke wake up again. I could only wish.

Frank’s P.O.V:

I mean how the fuck could he even say that? I don’t want any other person. I WANTED HIM AND ONLY HIM! I was in my room for about three hours before I went searching for Gerard. I going to make sure he knows I’m NOT going anywhere. After what we have been through together, I think we deserve happiness and that’s with each other. I enter the living room to find it empty, same with the Kitchen. I headed towards his bedroom and heard faint crying. I made my way downstairs to find Gerard laid on his bed asleep whimpering slightly and calling out my name. I carefully shake him awake after approaching his bed and he launches himself into my chest.”Frankie, I’m sorry. Please don’t leave me.” Wasn’t planning on mate. “Gee baby I’m not going anywhere ever. No matter what you say. I want you and only you.”

It took him a little while to calm down but he managed to after I’d put a movie on and he snuggled into my chest. When the movie finished he sat up and pulled me into a kiss. Things got heated pretty fast and I could feel the tent in his pants. Gerard reached down and started to palm me through my pants. I guess we were finally going to have sex without me being drunk. This is how I wanted it.

Gerard stopped suddenly after I let out a moan. “Something wrong Baby?” I asked. “Will you be okay to do this?” He said and had worry plastered on his face. “Don’t worry baby, they gave me painkillers. I’m fine to do this. Unless you don’t want to.” He gave me a smirk and leant down so our crotches were touching making us both moan while he whispered in my ear.”I’ve been wanting a reason to buy a new bed.”He stopped talking to grind down again. I knew exactly what he was talking about. My thoughts were confirmed when he finished it off with “We’re going to fuck so hard the bed is going to break.” Fuck I was horny now and this night was going to be fucking fun.

Notes

So here's another chapter.
Smut in the next one maybe?
My fiance said he'd write it though because it's super awkward.
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