"Gerard I cant breathe."I choked out. He smelt so good. He felt so good. He was so good.
"Sorry Frankie but I'm never letting you go. Ever."He whispered into my hair. I smiled and held him even tighter, closing my eyes to enjoy the feel of him. The moment I had seen him walk through the doors into the visiting room I knew that Gerard was meant for me. And I was meant for Gerard. Hell the way he had just rushed at me and tackled me into this hug was enough to tell me he wouldnt care about my over reacting.

"You dont have to be sorry Gerard."I said quietly so only he could hear it.
"No I do. I didnt say the right things. Its no surprise you acted the way you did."Gerard finally loosened his grip on me but he didnt let me go fully just enough to let me look at his gorgeous gorgeous face.
"No Gerard. I should have known that you wouldnt think I was stupid. You were the smart one who said I shouldnt put so much faith in a dream."
"Yeah but I was wrong wasnt I?"Gerard smiled as we sat down at the table Lily was waiting at.

"I know. I cant believe you're actually going to get out of here 5 fucking months early."I grinned.
"Mmm."Gerard smiled and looked away.
"Gerard why didnt you say that Dean was the one who pretty much pulled the trigger on himself?"I asked quietly.
"I'm just gonna go to the bathroom."Lily muttered and got up to leave.

Gerard waited til Lily had gone back into the reception area before he looked at me seriously,"I didnt know. No one would have believed me anyway. I couldnt tell if he had done it or if I had freaked out and squeezed when he tried to take the gun. I was scared that I had been the one to do it."Gerard turned away from me. My heart just melted. I had missed him so fucking much.

"Well none of that matters now. Because they're all going to see that tape and apparently they're getting a phsychiatrist in or something to try and judge what it was that was wrong with him or something."I smiled. Gerard looked like he was trying to be happy but it wasnt working,"Hey. Gerard. Look at me."
"Sorry."He whisered.
"Dont be. Its gonna be okay Gerard. You'll see."I smiled at him.

-time lapse-

"I wish I had talked to him sooner."I muttered. The lights were out and it was damn near three in the morning. We had been talking about everything. Like we used to in the mace. It had been so long since we had stayed up like this.
"Dont think about it. You've talked to him now and he is gonna be out in two days and its all going to be fine."Lily said into the darkness. I smiled and turned onto my side, facing the wall. Everything was going to be okay. Except it wasnt. I had still done what I did with Ryan. And no matter what I did. That was never going to go away.