"Oh fuck! Oh jesus Gerard!"I yelped as Gerard hollowed out his cheeks and completely took me in. All I could feel was complete ecstasy as Gerard bobbed up and down. I barely felt myself thrust upwards. All I could feel was the warm tightness of Gerard's mouth. It was so fucking good. I watched the top of Gerard's head move, hair flying everywhere until suddenly I felt myself get close.

"F-fuck Gerard I-"I was too late. I came right in Gerards face. I smiled sheepishly as Gerard looked up at me, face covered in my jizz,"Sorry."I puffed, desperate to get my breath back and take care of Gerard.
"Its okay."Gerard said simply. He winked at me then used his hand to wipe it all off his face. Then he licked it. He fucking licked it all. I felt a shiver go down my spine. It was almost enough to get me fucking hard again.

I grabbed Gerard and urged him to move up and lie with me.
"Thanks."I smiled and kissed him when he was lying next to me properly.
"No problem."He smiled. I sent him a look, trying to warn him of how hard he was going to come, but instead Lily walked into Gerard's bedroom and grabbed me by the shoulders. She started shaking at me and yelling nonsense at me.

"Frank wake up!"She yelled. I opened my eyes and saw that Lily was actually shaking awake. Not stopping me from giving Gerard a blowjob.
"Oh fuck."I grumbled as I realised it was a dream. But of course not all of it was a fucking dream. I groaned again when I felt the stickyness all over my dick. It was like I was fucking 13 again.
"You were fucking moaning Gerard's name. Its just a good thing Claire slept in my bed last night."Lily giggled as I slowly sat up and rubbed at my face.

There was light streaming in through the window. The sky was clear blue and I could just see the sun starting to rise. I looked at Lily and realised she was fully dressed. In snow gear.
"Holy shit merry christmas!"I grinned at her as I realised it was christmas day,"Wheres Claire?"I asked when I noticed she wasnt in the room.
"Merry christmas! She's downstairs getting breakfast. Come on, grab a shower. Clean yourself up. Get dressed. Eat breakfast. And lets make some fucking snowmen."Lily grinned.

I nodded at her as she smiled and left me to sort out my mess. I sighed as I got out of bed and grabbed my warmest clothes, which happened to be a pair of dirty jeans, a t-shirt and Gerard's hoodie. I smiled as I held it close, feeling like he was actually there. But then I realised we would be messing around with snow and if I wore this I would need to wash it.

"Back in the drawer you go."I sighed and dumped it on my bed, not in my drawer. I grabbed my jacket and headed into the bathroom next door. In the shower I leaned against the cold wall, letting the water run over my hair and face. As happy as I was that I could spend christmas day doing exactly what I had last year with two of the greatest people in the world, there was a rude part of me that wanted to pull me back down to a gloomy state. The part of me that was missing Gerard like fucking crazy.

"Hurry up Frank!"Lily banged on the door, making me jump, and pulled me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah I'm coming!"I sighed and started washing my hair. The warmth felt so good.
"Well fucking hurry up!"Lily gave one more bang then stomped into our room. Her boots could be so fucking loud sometimes.

-time lapse-

"Ahh!"Lily squealed as Claire managed to hit her with a snowball yet again. There were a few other kids out in the garden playing with the snow but Lily, Claire and I were the only ones really getting into it. Over an hour ago we had gotten bored with making snowmen and snowangels so now we were having a fight. But it needed more people.
"Hey guys wait wait wait!"I called, holding my hands up to get them to stop throwing shit at me. Claire came running over to me with Lily and they waited for me.

"Lets build two massive walls across the garden and get everyone to join. Have a proper fight."I grinned as Claire clapped twice then ran and started making the wall.
"Do you think everyone would come out?"Lily asked, looking into the kitchen window where Taylor was doing some dishes.
"I reckon we could get a fair few."I smiled and turned around to jog into the house,"Get those guys in it!"I called over my shoulder and pointed to the other kids out in the garden.

"Hey everyone!"I yelled as loud as I could. I waited, hearing my voice echo up the stairwell.
"What?"A few people called. A bunch of people came out of their room and leaned over the banisters to look down at me.
"Anyone up for a snowball fight?"I raised an eyebrow at them.
"Sure. Who's playing?"Someone asked.
"Anyone I can get. We're building up walls and there are snowmen in the no-mans-land as protection and shit. Come if you want and get as many people as possible."I grinned at them all then went into the lounge where Brendon and Ryan were cuddled up on one couch and Jack and his girlfriend were on the other cuddled up.

"Guys get out in the garden now. Massive snowball fight is about to take place."I smiled.
"Shit really?! Brendon can we go?"Ryan pleaded with Brendon who was looking extremely sleepy.
"Hell I'm going."Jack said and got up, pulling his happy girlfriend with him.
"Come on!"I called as I jogged back outside. Steven was out there and already the walls were looking pretty good. They spread out across the garden, not too tall yet, but long. With a break in the middle to run out to the no-mans-land.

"Holy shit you guys work fast."I grinned as I went down to help everyone. There were about ten people building the walls and I could hear people coming out behind me, chatting about the anticipated match. I ignored the numbness that went shooting down my fingers as I started shoving snow on top of the ice wall. There were people joining me left and right, eager to get the game started.

20 minutes later we were split into teams and were standing behind our teams wall holding a snowball. Steven was out in the no-mans-land calling out a few rules.
"Rule number 1! There are no rules!"He grinned as people laughed,"Rule number 2! Do your best not to hit people on the head or anywhere delicate okay? Rule number 3! Dont be a jerk off about it. This is a game. not real life. Rule number 4! Be careful of the youngert ones, they cant aim as well."He glanced at Claire who was looking extremely excited next to Claire on the opposite team. I sniggered as I remembered the amount of times Claire had managed to hit Lily,"Rule number 5! Have some fucking fun, you all deserve it!"Steven jogged over to the opposite team I was on and rolled up a snowball.

There was a moment of silence. Everyone eyeing up their enemy. Then suddenly someone next to me screamed,"GO!" and we were off. Snowballs were flying everywhere. I grinned as I watched one of Claires hit the guy next to me smack in the chest. I darted out into the no-mans-land and hid behind a snowman, waiting for an opportunity to hit someone. I watched as a few other people followed me. I glanced down the end where Lily was handing Claire snowballs and threw, hoping to god it got her.

"Argh!"She yelped as the snowball exploded on her back, melting immediately and soaking her back. I cackled and raced back behind the wall.
"Frank I will get you back for that!"Lily shouted at me. I winked at her and scooped up more snow, throwing it towards her blindly. It barely made it past the snowman I had been hiding behind. I laughed as Brendon and Ryan suddenly joined my side.

"This is a fucking awesome idea!"Ryan yelled in my ear as Brendon bellowed out a war-cry and threw two snowballs from one hand and watched as they thumped into Taylors back as he retreated from behind a snowman. He was really enjoying this.
"Nice!"I high fived him as Ryan clapped him on the back.

I watched as Brendon grabbed Sarah and her friend as they came back behind the wall.
"I say we plan an attack."Brendon said to us as we formed a huddle.
"Ooh attack. I want in."Jack budged into the circle with his girlfriend.
"Perfect. The more the merrier."Brendon grinned.

"Right. When I say, we just all have to go racing out right up to a section of their wall and pelt them with snowballs."Brendon looked at us all, waiting for our verdict.
"Okay. Gentlemen, get your balls ready."I said in a gameshow host. Then cracked up laughing as I realised what I had said.
"Nice one dude."Ryan winked at me. What?

We all grabbed our snowballs and looked out.
"Where should we go?"Sarah's friend asked as we scanned their defences.
"There. We should try and break down their wall as well as their forces."Brendon pointed to where there were less people defending that part. Already the wall was starting to crumble.

"Brendon I think you were like a fucking army captain or something in your past life."Ryan giggled as Brendon shooed us all into a ' v ' formation.
"I probably was."Brendon smiled at him knowingly. Awkward,"Okay. On 3... 1. 2. 3! Chaaarrrge!!"Brendon roared. We all raced out, somehow managing to keep in formation, as we made our way towards the weak part of the wall.
"Go go go!"Brendon screamed as snowballs started flying into our midst. Most of us dodged them but I saw Sarah's friend get hit and fall to the ground. This was like a proper fucking war battle. Sarah stayed back to help her. She had been hit on the head with an iceball. I looked to see who had thrown it as I continued scooping snow and throwing it towards the wall aimlessly but I couldnt see the culprit.

"Frank what are you doing?!"Ryan yelled behind me. I pulled out of trance and realised I was the only one left standing here and I was soaked. In front of me Lily and Claire were giggling their asses off.
"Oh thats it!"I shouted and climbed over their wall, tackling them both to the ground and starting a tickle war.
"N-no! Frank! Stop!"Lily gasped for air as I kept tickling her.

"Frankiiiiie!"Claire laughed as I started in on her. I lost my breath and fell onto my side, laughing and gasping for air. Lily was sprawled next to me, not seeming to care that the snow was melting beneath her and soaking her clothes. Behind us we could hear the fight dying down. I looked to my left and saw that a lot of people had gone inside now.

"Okay fights over!"Steven called. The few people left suddenly turned on their friends, throwing the snowballs in their hands at them,"I'll announce the winners tonight!"
"Come on guys."I smiled as I helpd Claire and Lily up. We started to go inside but I was stopped by someone grabbing me on the shoulders and shaking.
"Frank what the fuck! Do you know what the time is?!"Bob yelled in my face.
"Fuck."
"Fuck is fucking right. You need to get inside and get changed, Mikey, Pete and Ray are waiting in the car."He grabbed my arm and started yanking me inside and up the stairs.

I rushed inside and changed into dry and warm clothes, just remembering to chuck on Gerard's Green Day hoodie and to grab his sketchbooks. I raced back downstairs, shouting a merry christmas to everyone and a goodbye to Claire and Lily. I jumped into the back with Mikey and Pete quickly and Bob sped off. It took about a half hour to get there but when we did all of us were jumping out of the car immeditely, pretty much running into the foyer where the nice receptionist from the last time I was here was sitting.

"I- Uh we. Need. To see. Gerard. Way."I gasped as I bashed into the front desk. Why the fuck had I run?
"Sure. How many are here?"She smiled up at me. She must have remembered the last time I was here. I had come out crying my eyes out and she had given me a glass of water and a few wise words that I couldnt for the life of me remember what they were.
"Uhm. 5."I took in a deep breath of air as the others collided into me, squishing me.

"Alrighty then. Come on through. You know, because its christmas day, I'm sure I could convince the boss to let Gerard out. Usually we do that for the kids who have been in here a lot longer, provided they dont mess around of course. But Gerard hasnt yet. He just sits on his bed whenever he can. Does what he's told. I'm certain they would let him out for an hour or two."The woman chatted on happily as we walked through some doors and down to the visiting room.

"Um... If you dont mind... The last time I was here, he told me not to come back. You dont think you could go down and see him yourself do you? Tell him I've got a special present for him?"I asked hopefully, holding up the sketchbooks in my hand.
"Well of course sweetie. Just wait here, I'll go get him for you."She smiled and sat us all down at a table.

We sat in silence as she left the room through another door. I looked around at who else was in here. No one. Not one person was in here visiting their kid or friend. It was fucking christmas.
"This place is scarily empty for a holiday."Mikey voiced my thoughts.
"I was just thinking that. Maybe everyone got their visiting done in the morning?"I suggested.
"Probably. Otherwise the people in here arent loved that much."Bob sighed and rested his head on the table.

We fell into an awkward silence again until suddenly over a loudspeaker a voice said,"Can I get a doctor in here with some sedatives? We've got a problem in cell 14."
I stared at the speaker in horror. I was certain that Gerard was in cell 14.
"Did Gerard ever mention what cell he was in?"I asked quietly.
"Not to me..."Mikey replied, equally as quiet. I looked at the guys all shaking their heads and turned back to the speaker. I sighed and looked around. For some dumb reason there werent any cameras in here. Guess they usually had security guards or something.

I looked at the guys. They all seemed unpertubed by the problem in cell 14. I groaned and pushed myself to my feet.
"Frank where are you going? Frank you cant go down there!"Bob called behind me as I burst through the doors the receptionist had gone through. I looked to my left and realised that immeidately I was in a corridor filled with doors. With numbers on. I started marching down, reading the numbers on the doors. I was at 89 and they were going down. I started running.

I reached the end of the corridor and looked left and right again. I spotted the first door and saw the number 20 and then another with the number 19 next to that. I rushed towards it and sped past it. I rounded another corner and stopped. There was a door open and a man in a long white coat rush in. I raced up and froze in the doorway. Gerard was backed up into a corner of the room looking scared out of his mind as the doctor and two security guards held down some guy with short blonde hair. He was struggling and shouting and had just dropped a knife. The doctor jabbed him in the leg with a needle and almost instantly the guy started relaxing.

"Frank?"Gerard spotted me and broke out into a smile. I felt myself practically flood with relief as I realised he was okay.
"Frank? You arent permitted down here. Please go back to the visiting room."The receptionist said, appearing in front of me.
"Ah sorry I just thought- that something was wrong with Gerard."I whispered. She nodded and smiled.
"Its alright just go back and he will come."She smiled and started nuding me out as the two security guards moved the guy onto his bed.

"Wait I'll come with him."Gerard called just as the receptionist went to shut the door. She stopped and looked at him.
"But we need you to tell us what happened."She stuttered, unsure of whether to let him go.
"I can tell you later. Right now I want to talk to my boyfriend on christmas day."He smiled at me and shoved past her. I giggled as he shut the door for her and grabbed my hand, pulling me down the corridor.

"Frank you have no idea how happy I am to see you."Gerard whispered into my ear, insanely close, his breath flowing across my skin and making me shiver,"I was scared you wouldnt come again... Like I told you to."
"If you thought I was actually going to do what you said then you really are dumb."I smiled as he pulled me to a stop.
"Before we go out to the others, they are here right?"He asked as he glanced through the mottled windows of the doors into the visiting room.
"Yeah."

"Well before we go see them."He turned back to me and grinned,"Merry christmas. I love you."He breathed and before I could say anything back he had pulled me against him and was kissing me. I let everything fall from my mind as he deepened the kiss, running his hands all over my body. I hooked my fingers around his neck as he pushed me up against the wall, hands resting on my hips as I tangled my fingers in his hair.

"I love you too. Merry christmas."I mumbled as he moved his lips to my neck, sucking in hard. I felt him smile slightly but then I was just completely lost in the feeling of Gerard around me. He pulled down my hoodie and started sucking on my collar bone,"Oh fuck Gerard."I gasped as his fingers slipped underneath my clothes. The coldness of his fingertips tracing circles made me shiver. And not from the cold.

"Get a room."Someone growled as they walked past. Gerard and I jumped apart in time to see some kid walk past us.
"Fuck off Joe."Gerard called.
"No but we should go see the others."I smiled and tried to shake myself out of the -moment- I had just been pulled into.
"True... My sketchbooks!"Gerard shouted as he noticed the dropped sketchbooks. I hadnt even noticed dropping them.
"Oh yeah. I wanted to bring it in for you. Then I went round to see Pete and Mikey to tell him about Cole and found the other one when I was getting this hoodie."I pulled at his hoodie and he smiled.

He flicked through his normal one and smiled.
"The colour is amazing by the way."I smiled.
"Thanks... Did you look through the other one?"He asked slowly.
"Um. When I found it I saw the first two drawings. But then Mikey told me not to. He said that you didnt let anyone see anything."I bit my lip. Should I tell him about Lily?
"Okay... Well thank you. I dont think I will be bored in here ever again."Gerard smiled and hugged me tightly.

"Yeah um Gerard. There is one other thing I need to say before we go in there..."I sighed. I needed to know if he was on the verge of killing himself. He didnt really seem like it today but that could just be a front.
"What?"Gerard looked at me worriedly.
"Well I told Lily about it being an extremely personal one and she kept pushing me to look through it... But I didnt of course."I rushed on at Gerard's inner freakout showing on his face,"What I mean to say is... I went downstairs a little after that and left it in my room. And Lily looked through it. And the found the little comic one. Of you. In here."I couldnt look at him.

"Oh..."Gerard said quietly. He sounded... scared. Completely scared.
"I'm not asking for you to talk about it or anything. You dont have to. All I want to know is... You arent going to try again are you? As soon as I saw that yesterday I couldnt get the worry out of my head. I kept thinking that I would get a call today saying you had k- done it. I had to fight to wait til today so I could make it a proper christmas sort of present thing."I shuffled around on my feet, looking anywhere but his face.

"Frank I- Frank look at me."Gerard said, tilting my face up to look at him,"I'm not about to kill myself. When I- I drew that the night before the trial. I thought that if I ended up being sent here... Then that was what I would end up doing. I didnt have the faith in you to wait for me or- the faith in myself to be able to stand the fucking nutjob douche bags in here I just- I was scared. But now that I've been in here pretty much 3 weeks. I've been getting over all that. You visiting helps me."Gerard whispered the whole little speech.

I couldnt help but break out into a smile. He was fine. I grabbed at him urgently and hugged him tightly, needing to feel his arms around me again. He chuckled slightly and hugged me back.
"Wait. Why did you tell me not to come visit you again?"I asked him suddenly, looking up at him.
"Oh. Because the guy I shared my room with said that he would stab me the next time you came to visit. He's having a nervous breakdown and today he had somehow convinced himself that it was my fault he's in here."Gerard said as he kept his arm around my waist and started walking us through the door.
"Jesus."I sighed as ll the guys stood up at the sight of Gerard.

"Mikey."Gerard breathed and let go of me to rush at Mikey. They collided in a hug. They stayed hugging for a minute until Bob groaned and said,"Come on man, we wanna hug him too."
"Sorry man."Mikey smiled and let go of Gerard.
"Merry christmas guys."Gerard said over Bob's shoulder as they hugged.
"Merry christmas."We all chorused back.

Once all the hugging and hellos were over we all sat down at a table and started talking about nothing.
"Frank what did you say about Cole?"Gerard suddenly asked, reminding me of the horror of two nights ago.
"Oh god. Fucking Cole. I think he needs to be in here."I sighed and proceeded to tell him all about it.

"Are you fucking serious? What a fucking douche bag."Gerard grumbled and wriggled about beneath me slightly. I was sitting on his lap like a little kid.
"I know..."I sighed gloomily. I just wanted to go home to bed with Gerard.
"That is seriously messed up. And so now he thinks you're with Lily?"Gerard laughed.
"Yeah. I dont understand. One of his mates saw us making out against your car for fucks sake."I laughed.
"Exactly! What a fucking idiot."Gerard chuckled as the others laughed along.

"Gerard? Boys? Gerard is allowed outside for 3 hours. He has to be back at 6 o'clock sharp."The receptionist appeared at our side.
"Are you kidding me?! Thats awesome!"Gerard screamed in my ear. I flinched slightly but quickly got over the ringing in my ears as I realised Gerard could leave for a little while.
"Nope. I just talked to the boss and he said that given what you've gone through today, given that its christmas day, and the fact that you always do as you're told, you can go. So long as you are back here on time."She smiled and left us.

"Well what are we waiting for?!"Mikey jumped up and started walking out to the car. We all followed him, chatting happily about what to do.
"Well I want to go to the house. See everyone there. Mikey can you call Di? I wanna see her as well. Then I want an hour alone with Frank as well."Gerard winked at me and squeezed me knowingly on my hips. I grinned as we all piled into the car. Not all of us fit so I was in Gerard's lap in the front seat.
"This is probably illegal."Gerard laughed. I smiled as Bob started the car and we drove back to the house.